Tuesday, June 03, 2014
How did I get to the point where getting "down to 200 lbs." was a good first goal here? Somewhere in the last several years, I went way off and gained WAY too much weight. Over a year ago, I started this and was showing and feeling like I was succeeding.
But, then....I lost my mom to stroke related complications (I think she must have been my best friend, and certainly the one who really pushed me to lose weight) after months of watching her suffer and faced a housing crisis. Over the past several months, I've worked my way through major anxiety issues (mainly from these losses/changes) and quite frankly, I know I have a lot to be proud of....and am blessed by a remote few people in my life who stuck with me through this. Of course, there were also people who were uncaring, blunt, and heartless....but I don't focus on them. I focus on the good.
All that through me off. I am an emotional eater....so you can only imagine how I did weight wise with all this. I'm glad to be back here, but know it's mainly because I feel I have to make changes to be healthier...... and feel better about myself.