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Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Blog Challenge day 3~ What are your nicknames?

I had a few nicknames growing up. My brothers called me sissy because they couldn't say Tiffany. My dad's family called me Tiffy. (Which I absolutely hated!!!) When I got older my brothers could actually say my name but chose to call me Tiff instead. I don't really go by that and I don't like it but they still call me that. So does my best friend and some people at work even though I have repeatedly told them I prefer Tiffany. The best part about these nicknames I don't like is that my daycare kids all call me Tiffy. I hate it but they can't say Tiffany and so I call myself Tiffy to them. Ugh! Oh well! They are worth it. They can all say my husband Tony's name and I wanted them to call me something other than mommy lol! When I used to work at a center one of the little boys used to call me momma Tiff. Now I am called Tiffy about 900 times a day from my 4 speaking daycare kids!
It's amazing how excited you can get when a kid calls you by your unwanted nickname for the first time... I get so excited they can say "my name" that I dont care that I hate the name they call me!
My husband calls me stupid nicknames like smoochie poo loveykins. And sweetie pea. They bug me and I think that is why he does it. One day I told him I was going to start calling him by a nickname he hates and without thinking the first thing that came to my mind was dick chicken. So I started calling him dick chicken (not around the daycare kids of course) and he laughed and said he loved it. He told our friends and now it is a running joke that we add things too. Weird. He really does call me baby and I dont care.... I love it but most of all, even 7 months after being married when he says "I love you Tiffany" not "I love you baby" it still makes my heart literally skip a beat! Yep! I guess I love him too!!!!

Have a good one sparkfriends.....!!!!!

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KATIBUG49 5/10/2011 8:22PM

    Sounds like you have a great husband. Most of my daycare children start out calling me Ma because they hear my grandchildren call me Ma. Then as they get older they call me by my name.

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Favorite song

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Blog Challenge day 2-What is your favorite song?

My favorite song is God Bless the Broken Road by Rascal Flatts. It is the song I sang to my husband for our first dance at our wedding.
We both had very differently rough lives before we made it to each other. My husband, Tony, had never heard the song before and quoted it almost word for word when we were talking one night. It is a very special song to me.

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true


Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.


67 day blog challenge. That will help me blog!

Monday, April 11, 2011

What is your ALL TIME favorite picture of yourself? Why?

This is probably one of my favorite pictures of me. It was my kindergarten picture. I'm not sure why I love it so much but I know at that point in my life all was good. I had one little brother, my parents were married and not fighting... not that I remember anyway....

I haven't been blogging lately. When I was on a blogging challenge before I made it a point to blog and I got all my available sparkpoints for the day, which includes tracking my food. I have done horrible with that lately. Hopefully this helps me jump back on track a little better. I tracked my food today and went to zumba! I noticed too that the place I go for zumba offers different classes that are also covered by the $1/class donation! Kick boxing looks AWESOME!!!
Well, off to bed for the night! I am exhausted!!!

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OLLYBIRD 4/12/2011 2:17PM

    That's a great deal for a class price! I hope you will find many more activities to try! Best of luck on the new blog challenge

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I can't use other people's crazy as an excuse to give up on myself!

Friday, April 08, 2011

I need to recommit. There... I said it! You knew I needed to and I did too.
I have had a terrible month and a half or so. Both in my personal and professional lives. I've went right back to dealing with things they way I always did... by making bad choices and emotionally eating! I set goals for myself and think about how I am failing AS I am shoveling food into my mouth! The negativity that I feel from people in my life that I thought were my close friends continually crushes me like a steamroller. I had a friend and her husband try to destroy me (for lack of a better phrase) over the company that she and I built together. Day after day I felt attacked by them and I can't see anything that I had done to be treated with such disregard. I think what hurts the most about the whole thing is that it hit me like a freight train. I had no idea it was going to happen and it happened fast! From Sunday to yesterday (Thursday) we went from friends to feeling like I never even met them. They never gave me a reason to why they are acting this way. I don't think they ever will. It's sad to think that someone that I have been close with for 9 years would just leave me feeling so used and unloved. It makes me question myself and my judgement. I thought we were friends but as it turns out I was a means to an end... a way to put money in their pocket. Now that they don't need me they are done with me. Ugh!
I feel so overwhelmed by the whole thing that I can't clear it from my mind at any point during the day! It has put stress on my daycare life as well. I haven't been sleeping and the kids have been cranky. It has put us into quite a power struggle lately. That is pretty normal for 2 year olds but lately it has just been rough! I have 4 2ish age kids! They are all in the same stage. I am hoping to find a way to help them through this tough stage... for them but also for me!
Today I was in tears. The 4 older kids were all finally asleep and I was feeding the baby and she fell asleep. The baby sometimes sleeps in my arms. Not very often, but on occasion she will fall asleep while I feed her. Today she has fallen asleep twice in my arms. It's almost as if she knew I needed the extra love today after the week I've had!

In all of the things that have gone on lately I realize how lucky I am. I have an amazing husband, I have an awesome core group of friends that have my back regardless of what kind of things other people throw at me. I do have daycare great kids.. our days aren't all sunshine and rainbows but they average out to pretty great! It makes me take a look at what I do have when people treat me as if I don't matter, It is a reminder that I do!

So what do I do now as far as myself and my weight loss journey is concerned?
Good question! I pick myself back up and dust myself off! My mom told me this week that I can't use other people's crazy as an excuse to give up on myself. I am going to take that to heart. I don't have any goals to write out like I did on the last two blogs. What I do have is this.
I am going to eat better than I am and exercise more than I am. That's it. Plain and simple. I am jumping back on the sparkwagon!
See you tomorrow. I will be back more consistently this time!
Thanks for the support!!

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POPPYPENN 4/9/2011 8:27AM

    I can relate! Don't let their craziness make you crazy. Take care of yourself, because success is your best revenge. BTW, if you need to phsycially unload some of the anger, kickboxing or Taebo works wonders for me.

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MARAHAB 4/8/2011 9:06PM

    Way to get your perspective back!

Your daycare does sound fun! Yes, the two-year-olds can be extra trying some days, and on other days so cute and loving!

The baby sure knows where she's safe, and you have a safe-haven with your family!

As for the "friends", I pray they will regret their actions and recognize your contribution!


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DISCOVERLLH 4/8/2011 6:51PM

    I love your mom's saying. As someone who has always let other people's "crazy" destroy me, I know just what she means. I'm sorry that you experienced such a bad time with your "friend". Is it possible to write her a letter telling her how much you valued her friendship and asking what happened? Just a thought.... I hope things get better for you! Hang in there.

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OLLYBIRD 4/8/2011 3:22PM

    Negativity and negative people have no place in your life. Although the demise of your friendship and business seems like a great loss it will eventually lead to better relationships and opportunities.
I love that you are back in the Spark with modest goals. You must retrain and begin again in some ways. It's okay that time stood still for a while on your weight loss progress as long as you are ready to dust yourself off and get back to it.
You can do anything you put your mind to! Believe it and achieve it, my friend!

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SINGERGIRL1981 4/8/2011 3:10PM

    She is pretty AWESOME! She is great when it is time to put things in perspective!

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JJENZSLIM 4/8/2011 3:09PM

    You've got a smart mom there! Glad you're not giving up on yourself.

You *can* do it!

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Where have I been this month? There is a lot on my heart!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Where have I been? I was on sparkpeople everyday for almost 3 months and then this month I disappeared! There are a number of factors to this but I am trying not to use them as an excuse. That is not what I want to do by blogging but I do want to vent!
First, my dj/karaoke company came to an end on Saturday. It was planned. I have known it was going to happen for about a month. When the day came I had mixed emotions. I was sad, because I had been singing with my partner since I was 21. That is 9 years of my life. She was a good friend. However, the bar that we were at ( twice a week for the last year and a few months) was horrible. The owner's boyfriend was a drunk jerk every time, treated us like crap, and was so rude that our groupies stopped coming and he blamed us. Ugh! He had stepped all over me for that time, once yelling at me that I was stupid because I couldn't understand his drunken rambling. Saturday night (after working there Wed through Sat for the national horse sale crowd that was in town) he got up on stage and talked into our mic for the first time. I had just told all of our groupies that showed up for our last show (more than 40 people were able to make it) how much their support and friendship has meant to us. I thought he was going to be nice and say Thank you to us for our time there. OH NO, That is so not what happened. He was drunk of course, like always! He got up and made it look like he had fired us! "These guys behind me don't work here anymore. They are not coming back. We are trying to get (some other company) for karaoke." and then got down. We were pissed! After all of that time I finally stood up for myself. After we were all packed up (about 15 minutes later), my husband Tony went up to the bar and told him unprofessional it was to plug another company on our equipment. The guy, Steve, freaked out, swearing and threw him out of the bar. I went to the bar to wait for the check and he yelled at me too. I told him I hadn't said anything and he said "yap yap yap... that is all you are doing" I looked at him like he was nuts and said "Steve, you are the only person talking! Do you hear yourself." I got thrown out too. I told him that was fine because I really hadn't planned on coming back because of how we were treated there. He swore some more and I left. That was really irritating. We never had ill will towards the bar owner Julie because of what he had said but my husband went up and said something very calmly and he took it out on me. Awesome! I didn't sleep for quite a few hours after that. I am non confrontational and it makes me shake to yell. I was glad I did it though. I was so tired of being pushed around!

On to the next thing weighing on me... (no pun intended)
My partner had told me that she wanted to dissolve the company so that she could spend more time with her family. However, in the last week her and her husband have been advertising like crazy for a new company (possibly the same company mentioned when Steve talked on Saturday. I haven't figured that out yet) To me... it looks like they just wanted me out! I don't know what I did but I do feel very strongly that I did nothing that would warrant lying to me about the reason for wanting out. It hurt my feelings that she wanted to end the company. We discussed splitting equipment so that I could still do karaoke and dj as I wanted to and so she could dj family stuff and occasional weddings but no karaoke. Then on monday her husband had already started advertising online and has business cards already. Seems like it has been something they were going to do for awhile. I feel betrayed. I have always been honest about how I felt about things and I have always been professional in how I deal with everyone.... except for Saturday night... which was a long time coming! It hurt more to be lied to about their reasons for doing things than if they would have just come out and said we would like to go out on our own! I thought we were friends. I told one of my friends yesterday, I dont care if I never do another show again, I just cared about my friendship with her. Apparently, I was the only one. It hurts to loose a business and a friend all in one day. Ugh! We still have to go through the equipment and split it up. As soon as it is over I will be glad. I dont want the drama anymore.... I wanted my friend back. Or so I thought!

Have you read enough yet?
Well, through the last few weeks I was very stressed out as you can imagine. Somehow I managed to loose weight though. I am now 26.5 pounds down from my starting weight. I am not exactly where I wanted to be but a loss is a loss! I Can't hate on myself for that! If these things would have happened a few years ago I would have gained a ton of weight on it! Blah. Thank goodness I am at least making some good choices.
Today I am a little stressed out. I had daycare kids at 6:30 this morning and the last one will leave at 9:30 tonight. I would really like a break but tonight is the night I work at the thrift store. I will be there from 3:30-7:30. My husband will have our little friend James. It is my friend's birthday though so we will be going out to eat after with him and James. (James' parents are our friends and both have to work tonight. We wouldn't take just any kid with us.... just to clarify) I hope I sleep tonight! I haven't been sleeping well for the last 2 weeks.

On a plus side, Tony and I are working on our karaoke company that we had already discussed with my partner when she decided to leave. We decided to call it T-n-T DJ&Karaoke Services. It will be fun to be my own boss. Even though I co-owned JT Entertainment, I was still her employee as she saw it. She did the bookings, told me where to go and even wrote me a paycheck. She always just assumed she was better than me and I wasn't fit to co-anything. Her husband was the co-........ I wonder why I was even needed at all in the beginning?
Oh well.....
I have a daycare baby about to wake up so I had better sweep. I hope no one died of boredom while reading about my drama. I can't wait for the sunshine and rainbows that will come out someday in this life!
God Bless,

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JESSICA_STULTZ 4/2/2011 12:54AM

    Kinda nice to be able to vent online sometimes. It's almost like a relief huh? Sorry to hear you lost a friend and business. I really hope yours and your husbands business takes off well tho. It sounds like you've had a whole lot going on this last month. Hope you have been making some time for yourself at least! :)

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