Tuesday, December 04, 2012
This morning at 4:30 am, as I laid there not able to sleep with all the noisy conversation in my head about not taking care of myself by eating healthy, being active, doing what I can to address and reduce life's stresses, I felt desperate to make any small positive change in my life.
My efforts to get back to a routine of eating healthy and logging my food, being active during my day by taking short walks and getting to the gym regularly have fallen apart due to my lack of attention and commitment.
There are times I just want to curl up in a ball and turn everything off that's coming at me. I've missed my first 12-week goal and am disappointed in myself. At the same time I know being mired in that feeling will not lead me to move forward. So its time to hug myself, give myself an encouraging smile and look for baby steps to take to show myself I can do it.
One thing I've noticed is how often I place myself at the bottom or way down on the priority list for my time, energy, etc. Its almost as if I don't deserve to have the time and energy invested in my well-being physically, mentally and emotionally. This so has to change and it changes now. I can focus an appropriate amount of time, energy etc on myself and still have enough or more to offer others.
Important people in my life are battling depression, anxiety, etc and I have been there and battle it myself daily. I want to share life with them, support them, and encourage them withou getting depressed or anxious myself about it. Being active and taking care of myself is the best weapon in that fight.
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Good Morning Everyone!! It may seem to others on the outside that I haven't been working on my fitness and weight program as diligently as before. On the inside thought, things have been churning, adjusting and getting ready for outward changes.
I've been working on a 15-month plan to reach my fitness and weight goals. Using 12-week mini programs (3 to start) with mini goals and rewards, I've mapped out the next 15 months.
Now I have a weekly program for the next 12-weeks that includes cardio sessions6 days out of 7, 3-4 weight lifting days, social time in the gym via group exercise classes (cardio) and a weight lifting program from a well-known, respected trainer.
Plus it includes working with a personal trainer one day a week for the next 12 weeks (one of the weight lifting sessions each week); getting blood work done every three months, meeting with a Registered Dietician to go over weight check, successes, challenges, food logs and goals every two months.
Adding using the Spark Coach logging will help keep me on track.
I've also built in reality checks and encouraging motivation for those times when I will need it.
Now, rather than just showing up for personal training sessions, I'm owing my fitness activity - challenges, successes and achievements.
I love Spark People!!
Thursday, July 05, 2012
I am going to do the 5 mile walk/jog event on Saturday Sept 9 here in Santa Rosa. This means I need to kick myself in the butt and get busy to get ready to do it.
Got the colored stars out to track my daily goals on the calendar in the kitchen for all the world to see.
Looking for others to do the event with and posted on the Santa Rosa/Sonoma County Spark Team page, on Facebook, and on the 24-Hour Fitness FB page as well.
I'm going to order a Spark People t-shirt to wear
I tried to get a team together at work for the event - no go, no one was interested
Maybe I'll send out a challenge to people in my family and friends - change that to I will send out a challenge to my family and friends to participate
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Today I went to an Active Living with Diabetes class at Kaiser, met with a registered dietician and was weighed and had my blood pressure checked.
One of my goals for the end of May was to make it to 250 lbs. Today's weight - 247.8!!!!
My blood pressure was 131/79 at 4:00 pm today.
So I'm adjusting my weight goal for the end of May to 243 or below.
The dietician said to keep doing what I've been doing (Eat Clean by Tosca Reno) and keep being active - no problem there!!
Wednesday, May 02, 2012
For the first time in a long while, my workplace stress is getting to me a bit. Today was a cardio day for me, working by myself (which was probably a good thing).
My old way would have been to eat something sweet and carb loaded to deal with the stress.
By the way the stress started yesterday morning, I made an innocent error at work and its getting blown out of proportion. I offered to make amends directly to the person impacted by my actions this morning and was turned down. Now a meeting with supervisor, union rep etc. Oy!!
But last night instead of eating mindlessly, I weighed my portions. Went grocery shopping and bought all good healthy greens, etc. Also did some cleaning and decluttering. Today weighed and measured my breakfast, lunch, snacks and drank lots of water.
Spent my time walking during cardio letting go, just being in the moment with my energy in and out, my breath in and out. Almost wish it was a weight training day to use my muscles to help get rid of energy. Kept envisioning my long term goal and how each day matters in achieving it.
It was a good experience to practice keeping on track with my life and not letting the winds or storm push me off course.
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