Tuesday, January 17, 2012
I have been a little distracted lately (quite a few date nights out with Brandon) and I was worried that it would affect my weight loss... Its been slow going the last few weeks; I think like everyone else, at first the weight seems to fall off and then it sloooooooows down. I just needed a little perspective.
Today I added in my -1lb weight loss for the week, and then realized that it made it officially -30lbs since joining Spark in August. That is great. What the heck was I yelling at myself (and the scale) for? 30 lbs in 6 months is wonderful. I know I won't keep that rate up, but I just needed to stand back and be grateful for what I have accomplished. So here's to not beating myself up in 2012.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Here's a great article from the DailyMail in the UK:
A magazine dedicated to plus-size fashion and models has sparked controversy with a feature claiming that most runway models meet the Body Mass Index criteria for anorexia.
Accompanied by a bold shoot that sees a nude plus-size model posing alongside a skinny 'straight-size' model, PLUS Model Magazine says it aims to encourage plus-size consumers to pressure retailers to better cater to them, and stop promoting a skinny ideal.
Size 12 (U.S.) model Katya Zharkova, 28, stars in the shoot, which has a powerful statistic accompanying each image.
Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
At our weekly lab meeting, I made a comment of "oh I don't bake anymore" since another girl brought in cookies... which led to my admission of my 70lb weight loss in 8 months. Seriously, a lot of people are just too PC to say anything.
So that got two of my female coworkers to ask about what I did, and I showed them SparkPeople... so I might have to amend my comments on work colleagues if they all start to join :-P. Part of me didn't want to tell them for that reason, but the overwhelming message of the site being positive and good for everyone took over. (aka--from now on I'll reserve comments on people who might be on the site)
But in other news, I started some new strength training exercises yesterday to strengthen my back muscles. Yikes, my lower back was sore today, so I guess those muscles were pretty weak (I barely did any reps yesterday, I thought I was taking it easy).
AND then of course there was a very positive phone call with Brandon last night where I sort of admitted that I had 'got in shape recently' and I was still adjusting to a new lifestyle. Isn't that a super way to gloss over my weight loss. And since he was on his way to the YMCA when I called, it gave us another topic to talk about. I may have a keeper; our third date is coming up on Saturday...
So good mood all around. I'm stuck at work running samples on a machine in another building, so I can't go home early again today... which is why I'm all over Spark this afternoon. I quit all of the pointless Facebook games I used to play, so my free time is spent wandering around websites and Spark.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
I tend to overanalyze things, but yesterday's blog post became relevant a lot sooner that I had expected it to. Brandon and I have only been talking since right after Christmas -- we had our first two dates last week. So honestly, I don't in theory have a problem telling him about my weight loss, but I was just kind of surprised that he wanted to talk so seriously so soon. Its probably because although we've talked about dealbreakers, and joked about what taboo topics we've talked about on our dates/phonecalls, we haven't really had any emotional conversations yet.
So last night I kinda freaked out a bit. I was overanalyzing myself and wasn't comfortable talking about some stuff, since I come from a family that avoids talking about emotions and issues. (We tend to bury bad topics once they come up = probably the reason I got into emotional eating) So I'm working on myself. I think when he calls tonight (since he probably will) I'll be more ready to talk about this, but I didn't have anything prepared yet, so I was more quiet than I normally am. The whole confident, strong woman thing went out the window...
He keeps saying he wants to take things slow, which is fine, but I guess that's only physically because he's jumping miles ahead on the emotional stuff. I really like him, so I know I need to get over my issues -- I am still just processing my emotions.
But on the Spark side of things: I knew he would probably call, so as soon as I got home, I wanted to get in my 45 minutes on the treadmill. My right knee started to twinge at bit at 40 minutes, so I'll probably cool it tonight and just focus on strength training and my exercise ball workout.
Sunday I almost worked out too much. I did 60 minutes on the treadmill, 1500+ crunches/situps in various positions, and leg lifts, and core exercise stuff. I was watching TV off my DVR so sometimes I get distracted and keep going. I almost puked I was so tired at the end. That's when you know you've done too much. I'm trying to work out how to fit in working out and 2 hour phone calls with Brandon at night. I do not work out in the morning. That's not an option, ever. I need sleep, and working out after work in front of the TV is killing two birds. So now I'm just trying to get in a workout before he calls, since I have no clue how long we're going to talk.
I'm refocusing on my diet in January. I went through a phase where I didn't really like the nutrition tracker, and thought I could do better without tracking. Nope. I wasn't eating enough, and although I didn't gain weight, I didn't lose any weight either.
So I made a conscious decision to eat more protein and focus on getting a minimum 1600 calories on days I work out (even though Spark says 1800), and never going below 1300 on days I don't work out. I went out and got some triscuits and wheat thins to add some crunch to my lunch, as well as some carbs. So far my tracker says I've only had 665 calories after breakfast and lunch, so I need to eat over 1000 calories tonight some time. That's seriously throwing me off. I went ahead and splurged at the supermarket on some Hagen Daas and mini-chocolate bars to reward myself at the end of the day -- but in moderation. But right now with 1000 calories left... I'm going to overanalyze again what to eat for dinner. I'm a huge breakfast fan, so I'll probably just do sausage and egg whites, well now, probably whole eggs with that many calories left. *sigh* Why can't dieting be easier?
Monday, January 09, 2012
So here's my predicament. I'm online dating now, which has taken an upswing for the positive. I've been talking to and gone on two dates with this one guy, and we're really hitting it off. Except, I make him nervous. To him I'm perfect and beautiful (which is nice), but he's just not completely comfortable around me yet because he thinks I've got all of this dating experience and I'm just way above him. Which is SO FAR from the truth, its funny. Apparently now I've got all of this outward confidence, and its making him intimidated. He's a nerd, I'm a super nerd, so I wouldn't think that this would be an issue since we've had full on Doctor Who conversations, but it is.
Luckily he's not on Facebook, or he might have gone through some of my old pictures... but that brings me back to the point. How long should I wait to tell him that I didn't go on a lot of dates because I used to weigh 80lbs more than I do now?
Which brings me to another issue. This year on How I Met Your Mother, Ted refuses to go on a second date with a girl because she used to be fat. He ends up googling her after their first date, finds out her "ugly secret" and then doesn't go on a date with her again. That really kind of annoyed me. It was meant to be funny, but it hit a little too close to home.
On my coffee date this week with a different guy, I asked him what sort of women on OkCupid send him messages? His response was, "only the really weird ones, you know with kids or they're like 250 pounds." I knew from that point on, we were not going to work. Seriously, do guys not think before they say stuff like that out loud?
I think after only two dates, I'm not ready to spill the beans on my old life. I'm going to enjoy getting to know him and see if it goes anywhere. He does work with one person that I know from my undergrad days -- but she's a chick, so I doubt that she would ever judge me or tell the guy anything about the way I used to look. So for now I'm enjoying the dating scene with this one guy, and hoping it leads to somewhere great.
Get An Email Alert Each Time SHRINKING_SARA Posts