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Sabotage, thy name is family...

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

And so it begins... the Holidays.

I had an earlier start than I had planned. My sister didn't have anything to do on her birthday today--so my mom decided to drive down, pick her up, and stay last night and today at my house to go shopping (and to eat).

My sister's favorite restaurant is Red Lobster. The same Red Lobster who just got a "F' when rated for being healthy... So I planned ahead, had very good calorie counts for breakfast and lunch, only ate 1.5 biscuits (which is amazing, since I used to eat like 4!), limited my splurge to the caesar salad and ate grilled shrimp and broccoli -- and not even all of the shrimp or any of the rice pilaf. So I felt pretty good. Meanwhile my sister put away an entire fried appetizer, a salad with like 4 tbs of blue cheese dressing, four biscuits, and a dozen coconut shrimp in pina colada sauce... My mom hates seafood, so she didn't really eat much more than biscuits and salad.

And then we got back to the house. I was stuffed to the gills, so I was done for the night. Not my family. They kept asking for stuff to eat. It was kind of shocking, since I've been isolated in my own little diet world for the last few months. My mom ate half a bag of chips, a few cups of milk, and a king size candy bar that my sister had in her purse, and some ice cream. My sister had two bowls of ice cream, like 4 glasses of milk, and six of the left over coconut shrimp from my mom's dinner that she didn't eat... and this is all like 2 hours after we ate dinner. I don't get that at all!

So to put this in perspective -- they both want to lose weight. They both want to be healthy. They both complain about being overweight. And when I say -- well duh, don't order fried food or try to pre-portion the chips when you buy them -- or plan meals... they just say, yeah, yeah, yeah.

So one of my goals when I joined was that I was "Done being the fat sister." Well through a mixture of me losing 60 pounds, and my sister gaining 30 -- mission accomplished -- but in a much more negative way than I had originally planned... so although I feel bad for her, I know it is her own choices that made her have to go buy a size 16 dress for my cousin's wedding next weekend. While I am so excited to wear a form fitting size 14 from Coldwater Creek.

So that was Monday... now Tuesday. We had planned to go to breakfast at a really nice place in town. I was up at 7:30, usual for a Tuesday. Beth didn't get up until 9:45 and we basically had to both take showers and try and stir her awake. I don't know many 37 year olds who sleep 11 hours. And sleep until noon. But that's another story.

So I ate breakfast at 10:45. That's not breakfast -- that's friggin' lunch! Ugh. Anyway, I ordered a healthy, 1 pancake, scrambled egg whites, and a side of fruit. My mom got pancakes, eggs, and bacon. Beth got eggs benedict. Both not super healthy. Then my mom the food pusher tries to get me to eat some of her food since she had too much. So I had about 1/3 of a piece of bacon, but no more. I shut up, put some of her food on my plate and moved it around. Sometimes I just don't get why my mom tries to get me to eat food that I know isn't good for my calorie count, she knows isn't good for my calorie count, and tries to constantly make me eat it?

I was planning on leaving them in the early afternoon to get to work, but my sister was being a crab ass -- which pissed my mom off, since she made this special trip to be with Beth on her birthday, so I was stuck playing peacemaker and trying to get them back home without killing each other... so I didn't really go to work today. I'm not sure my boss did either, so I think I got a pass. The campus is a ghost town right now, which I love. So tomorrow I need to play catch up since my 1.5 week long vacation starts on Thanksgiving. And then the trial continues to keep from slipping.

One of my friends in Chicago offered to take me to her gym if I wanted to go, but I only have about 16 hours with her before I leave to visit another friend -- but I really like that she offered.

I am going to hit the grocery store tomorrow (with the rest of the crazies) and try to stock up on some healthy options for Thanksgiving and the days I spending at my parents. And hopefully the sabotage from the family won't be too bad. Seeing them stuff their face one minute, then tell me I look really good in my dress is just messing with my head a bit. I am only six pounds from ONEderland, and I don't want anyone to stop me!

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IILAAD65 11/26/2011 8:40AM

    My Grandmother was good at feeding me somewhat like that.. she just always offered ice cream! lol ... and she was a great cook.

BUT doesn't it amaze you how bad you USED to eat when you see others still doing it! Wow...

You did GREAT!!!

Post a pic of you in the dress.. I would love to see you in it!!


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BAZINGABROOKE 11/23/2011 10:46AM

    Maybe your mom tries to shove food at you because she knew it made you happy before. My mom does the same thing. When I was little, she would give me the extra fries from where ever we went, and I would gobble them down. Now she tries to do the same thing and I have to say no.

I think it takes a really strong person to want to lose weight, or something catastrophic has to happen to jump start a person. It's a hard task to change what you know you like and what you're used to, to changing to healthier options like you have done. I personally am still struggling with making good choices at restaurants (among other choices).

You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink. (I think that's the saying.) :)

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Ok, I think I snapped out of it.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

I think I snapped out of my funk. I spent a pissy day at work, mainly on Facebook... went home early. Watched Hall Pass, gave myself a nice manicure, and still felt pissy.

But then a show came on, and I started to remember all of the good reasons I started to lose weight. I literally put a bowl of ice cream in the sink, filled it with hot water, and got back on the treadmill.

So hopefully that snapped me outta my funk. And tomorrow I think I'll take advantage of the buy one get one free before 9am deal at Subway, so I'm not in a rush to get to work and don't have to worry about lunch.

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IILAAD65 11/17/2011 2:49AM


I would like to think my slap did it lol.. but it was ALL YOU!!!

Sheer will power.. I like how you thought and then put it in the sink anyway.


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SWEETSOUNDS11 11/16/2011 9:51PM

    Bravo on the ice cream in the sink...I'm not sure I would ever find the willpower to do so. You are doing great on keeping in tune with your emotions.

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Its just one of those days...

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

I am in a funk. I know it. I'm trying to not act on it and binge, and I am really annoyed right now. With work, with my food, with my exercise. I'm just pissy and I need to snap out of it.

Now that ONEderland is close, I feel like I'm obsessing over what I eat, how much I work out, what food is in the house, what clothes to keep and what clothes to donate, and everything else.

And now Thanksgiving is coming up. Luckily, my family isn't really big on celebrating turkey day. We have a turkey... buuuut we don't have a huge family gathering. BUT this year, I'm taking a week off from Thanksgiving until December 4th.

My cousin John is getting married on the 3rd, so I really didn't feel like traveling to and from my house to my parent's house twice in one week. And then we heard that another cousin of mine Eric is getting married/might be married already, and he was going to come into town a few days before John's wedding to introduce his bride to the family... so this means at least 3 giant family dinners in one week, Eric's, John's rehearsal, and John's wedding dinners.

And to top it all off, I decided to fly up to Chicago to hang out with my friends for three days. I'm hoping my friends will be supportive, but traveling and eating out go hand in hand. I'm going to try and do my best while up there, but I don't think I'll be getting much fitness in. The last time my Chicago friends saw me I was 260... so 206 should look a lot different! Its hopefully going to be enough of an ego boost that I'll be able to keep on track.

So I'm grumpy, and now I need to snap out of it... Quickly, before the holidays/weddings/travel screws up my ticket to ONEderland.

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RAYVEN01 11/16/2011 10:07PM

    Keep track! If you don't have internet, write everything down.

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IILAAD65 11/16/2011 1:35PM

    SLAP.. just like in Moonstruck.

Stay focused. Take healthy snacks WITH you. Eat at the dinners but watch portion control and stay away from the cake.

ONEderland has eluded me this year so far. I am determined to get closer to it. I have been there and didn't stay there... so I am watching you!!! I'll check in on you in December!


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Why yes, I would like to walk to lunch.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

When my friend asked me today, do you want to walk to Chipotle? I initially thought, no. No, its going to take longer. No, its cold outside. No, its just easier if we drive... and then I thought, that's the exact kind of thinking that got me to 276 pounds...

So instead, I said yes. So now I've got 40 minutes of walking on my fitness counter for the day, a slightly chapped face from the wind, and the perk of knowing I'm changing for the better. Plus since its almost winter here in Missouri, I won't have that many more opportunities to take a 40 minute walk outside.

I also had a guilt free/absolutely free lunch because I won a gift card and a buy-one-get-one free card that I shared with a friend. I just found out my team came in 4th. We were soooo close to getting a prize at Trivia last night. Now we might start to do more trivia games around town--just to prove that we can win!

My stupid cold is hanging on, but now its just a runny nose obnoxiousness so I started a couch to 5K challenge on Spark yesterday... and managed to get the first day in before Trivia. Hopefully I can get some real progress done there... since ONDerland is getting so close I can feel it~!

My goal for tomorrow is to catch at least one ping pong ball... Tomorrow the MU student center is 11,111 ping pong balls off of the roof at 11:11:11 AM on 11-11-11. How awesome is that going to be?! Its like reliving Captain Kangaroo!


Seven Pounds to ONEderland!

Monday, November 07, 2011

I had a pretty good weigh-in today. The cold is definitely easing off, hopefully over soon, and I maintained a -3lb weight loss. So with those 3 lbs, SparkPeople told me I had left the obese BMI range and entered into the overweight range. (I'm 5'10" so even though I haven't made it to ONEderland yet I'm just barely in the overweight group)

So now I have 54 days to meet my goal of being in the 100s by the end of the year... Its definitely do-able, so I'm just trying to re-focus and stay on track.

I'm 6 lbs away from losing 75 pounds, so I have 2 milestones coming up **hopefully soon**

This stupid head cold moved to my chest so I haven't been able to get any cardio in for 5 days now -- I know I'm probably going to have to take it easy when I get back on the treadmill tonight.

I'm going to have to come up with some new goals soon... and some rewards that don't involve spending money -- I've gone broke with buying a treadmill and new clothes (which are soooo worth it), but now that I can shop in multiple stores -- the shopping addiction has only gotten worse.

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APHRODITE2GO 11/7/2011 5:47PM

    That's emoticon!

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RAYVEN01 11/7/2011 2:58PM

Buying a quality treadmill for home was the best purchase I ever made. Seven pounds is definitely doable in two months!

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