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So about that job...

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

I had two interviews on the 14th. I had a solid job offer to start on the 1st, but I have basically decided that it is just not for me. It would be a two year commitment to reproductive endocrinology... which is just a bit too far away from the biochemistry/cancer biology that I was looking at doing.

So I've put my eggs in the stem cell basket. Don't worry -- no embryos here -- just plain old adult stem cells harvested from the colon of adults. I finally caved and emailed the PI I interviewed with -- and it turns out the only reason I hadn't heard back from him was that he could not get my current boss on the phone to discuss my skills in the lab! TEN DAYS later... and my boss couldn't be bothered to answer a phone call or e-mail. I was sooooooo frustrated! I had been nervous and worried and its all the fault of my PI being too busy for a ten minute phone call.

But that happened yesterday morning thankfully. Apparently my boss told this PI that I walk on water (thankfully) and I was instantly asked to come back and give a talk to the lab on my PhD research. So *yay* -- 2nd interview is Monday July 1st. That's good. It also means I have to turn down the other job as of now.... SO.... I feel so weird doing that.

BUT other than that -- yet another wedding this weekend (well Friday) -- which meant a road trip with a very grumpy boyfriend Thursday (we had to be there for the rehearsal since TJ was in it). He booked the crappiest hotel. He has officially lost all hotel booking privileges. Of course it was a wedding so I got super emotional and his grumpy a$$ attitude made sure we got in a fight. We fixed it though. Aaaaand possibly planned our wedding on the road trip home on Saturday (oh yea... still no ring though = minor detail ;-) )

Sunday I relaxed at his place, which made Monday super hard to leave. 5 days with that boy has spoiled me... The distance sucks a lot more now. It will be just for another month though *hopefully* so I could hopefully just get this new job and feel good and start working and living in StL and get a gym and start working out again on a more regular basis and get my butt in gear!

I'm still fighting my summer belly. My reality check is that my arms are starting to get big -- and i just paid a butt ton of money to fix them. I need to get back down to 180 ASAP or at least 185 and muscular. I'm lifting again slightly. My muscle tone is gone to flab = more space. So I haven't gained that much weight, but I've gained volume... :-/

Oh well... stress is killing me now. I'm trying to work on ways to calm that down and meeting with a lawyer for an hour today certainly doesn't help. Still dealing with the discrimination nuisance lawsuit... its a mess. Being sued by someone is never fun, but when they clearly have mental issues and a lack of a grasp on reality it just makes things difficult. Rational thinking and facts don't matter in that world...

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JUJUFISH 6/27/2013 1:10PM

    Good luck with the second interview! You guys have a TON of weddings this summer. I commend you and wish you luck with those also.

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TRAVELISMYGAME 6/26/2013 11:27AM

    Sounds like you are still living the busy life! Good luck with the job stuff!

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MEGYSU 6/26/2013 10:11AM

    Good luck on your interview. Sounds like things are looking up.

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SDLEE514 6/26/2013 8:49AM

    it doesn't stop for you does it?! Best of luck on that interview, sounds like you have nothing to worry about though, I"m sure you'll nail it!

I too am planning my wedding with out a ring, ha. I'm sure he'll come around in no time :)

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NIMIRRA137 6/26/2013 8:20AM

    Good luck with the job!

Love that you planned your wedding but with no ring. That's the situation I'm in with my boyfriend. He hasn't asked, there is no ring but we've gone over details (beach or courthouse) so many times. He even told his dad to be prepared to travel to Florida for it. What's with men taking their sweet a$$ time actually manning up and asking!?

Do you have small weights you can use at home to start lifting to work on your arms? Days when I feel lazy and don't go to the gym I try to at least do some pushups and some 10 lb weights for my arms.

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AHTRAP 6/26/2013 1:16AM

    kick that interview's butt!

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BRADMILL2922 6/26/2013 12:23AM

    Good luck with the next interview! You will do great!

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 6/26/2013 12:19AM

    Good luck with your interview. My fingers are crossed for you!!

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MINEA999 6/25/2013 6:45PM

    Crossing my fingers for you on that job! I have an interview for a promotion on Thursday - so I'll trade you finger crossing!

Good luck!

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    Good luck with your interview!!

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NEEDBU66 6/25/2013 5:44PM

    Congratulations on the Job!!! emoticon

and the "engagement"!!! emoticon


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KCLARK89 6/25/2013 5:21PM

    Good luck with the interview!! Glad everything got sorted out for that too!

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SKAHONEY4U 6/25/2013 4:41PM

    Congrats on getting that second interview. I'm sure you'll be fine!

I hope you find a gym soon- with a pool- to get rid of that extra volume!

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CHODGES83 6/25/2013 4:30PM

    Good luck with the 2nd interview! Fingers and toes crossed!

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CAALAN23 6/25/2013 4:15PM

    Congrats on the decision between the two jobs! I'm glad you got a good ref and that was all that was holding it back.

We had a co-worker that sued for discrimination all the time. Everyone always walking on eggshells. So much better since she's gone.

Take care!

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BEECHNUT13 6/25/2013 4:14PM

    If you're lifting heavy, you only have to be at the gym for a half hour three days per week... :)

Good luck with your second interview! Fingers crossed!

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Good news!

Monday, June 17, 2013

Okay Ė so I just checked my last blog update. I was going to work out more. Possibly join a gym. ...and then I got a few phone calls.

Last Saturday I ended up at Shakespeare in the Park in St. Louis (its really great this year Ė go see it if you can!) with some friends. My friend Erin brought one of her friends Nikki to the show. Nikki casually mentioned that they were looking for post-docs in the lab she works in at WashU. I look the guy up, he looks interesting, stem cells, colon diseases.... so I send him my CV. Then I start looking on Pubmed at his publication record and about sh*t a brick. In the last two years he has published multiple times in Science, Nature, and Cell. *jaw on floor* -- and he wants to meet with me!!!!!!

So that was ridiculously exciting. As I am eating lunch and reading his Science paper, I got another phone call on Wednesday. The first lab I talked with ALSO at WashU finally has a position open and they want me to take it and start on July 1st! So no matter what I probably have a job. *wipes sweat off brow* AND it would be as WashU which is an amazing institution and in St. Louis and near my family and boyfriend and exactly where I wanted to be.

BUT I already had an interview with the stem cell guy set up for Friday, and so I set up another meeting with the lab that offered me the job in reproduction endocrinology (working on non-hormonal birth control). As a cancer person, stem cells would be better than trying to prevent pregnancies, but a job is a job and the researcher in charge of that lab is amazing.

Fast forward to Friday. Iím freaking out. I meet with the stem cell guy, and he seems really smart and really interesting. I think I put on a good face. It was a quick meeting, but he is going to call my PI (aka, my boss) and talk to him. Then I would be asked (if heís interested) to come back and give a talk to his lab so they can hear more about my research and then kind of hear how I talk and how well I can explain myself. He also mentioned... ďyea if you came here youíd probably be on the project that was just published in Science working with the Broad Institute at Harvard.Ē I tried not to freak the f*ck out to badly and seem too ridiculously excited or drool!

I was a little late for my second meeting with the reproduction lab. I originally was talking to them about doing a prostate cancer project working with high-fat diet fed mothers... but there wasnít money right now. So to get into the lab I would be doing the reproduction endocrinology project on an NIH T32 training grant (for the scientists out there) and then applying for more traditional post-doc funding as it came available. I had to tell her that I couldnít accept right away, because I was talking to the other lab. As soon as I said that it went from me talking with her, to her trying to convince ME to work for her! I met with all the lab members, talked about projects, and was there for two hours! It was a crazy day for sure.

That was last Friday. I was so freaking excited I didnít know what to do with myself. I never in a million years (especially after the last six months of job hunting) even think it would be a possibility to work on a Science/Nature-level project doing a post-doc at a top institution. I know we all feel like shams and that we arenít very good at our jobs as women especially Ė I even read an article on this today: side note for my ladies in science :
But to possibly have the opportunity to work in the stem cell lab could help make my future career! Its just so exciting, so Iím taking a risk and not accepting the endocrinology position right now Ė just to see if I could get in the stem cell lab.

Then to top off the good weekend I spent Friday night over at Erin/Keithís house playing cards with a bunch of their friends. Then spent Saturday running errands with TJ and had a game night at my house with my sisters from another mister and their partners. And Sunday slept in and made some awesome minecraft magnets for a gift. It was a good weekend.

Now today Iím still in StL, my parents are in CA for a funeral so Iím holding down the fort and watching five dogs. Iím trying to clean up the house before my parents get back. Play with the puppies, catch up on work, catch up on Spark, probably give all the dogs a bath, do a bunch of laundry, unpack some more of my stuff, and try to reorganize stuff in the garage and the attic.... oh yea, and the lawyer apparently wants to meet this week to go over the discrimination lawsuit Iím a part of (as one of the discriminators.... against someone who is a) obviously not being discriminated against and b) has a mental problem where I think she is delusional and actually believes that this stuff all happened to her and c) is suing as a 1/16 native American female for discrimination against 3 females... one of whom is also 1/16 native American (me!) So thereís that drama that is just so ridiculous I canít even begin to waste energy on it.

Tuesday night Iím heading to the Cubs/Cards game at Busch with TJ. Then Thursday we drive up to Wisconsin for ANOTHER WEDDING! Seriously. Itís a Friday wedding and TJ is in it, so we have to leave Thursday and Friday. Weíre gonna be cheap and come home on Saturday to avoid another hotel bill. Its just a lot of traveling and money that TJ didnít want to spend. Plus its taking money out of my shiny budget (aka a ring I might wear on my left hand ;-) )

So thatís that. Iím trying to eat better. Thank god for summer! Grilling healthy meats outside (yum chicken and pork chops on the grill!), lots of fresh fruit and vegetables, and sunshine. I feel like I do so much better in the summertime. I literally spent $20 on fruit and Iím going to stuff my face with watermelon later. I managed to get 2 of the 3 or maybe 4 small kidney stones out, but this last one needs to get out ASAP. Its starting to annoy the crap outta me because Iím drinking so much and have been for two weeks now. Oh well. Cíest la vie. Iíve been to busy to care too much.

The one thing I donít miss about StL summers though Ė the humidity today is ridiculous. 90% humidity and its not raining and its in the upper 80s. *die*

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NIKKICOLE83 6/22/2013 1:26AM

    It is so funny to hear you getting so excited over stem cells and science. Thank God for making people like you! I secretly envy you because for some reason, I am only capable of using the right side of my brain!

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KIKKI-G 6/19/2013 9:59PM

    Congrats on your meetings! I hope everything turns out beautifully, you're a smartie pants so you will rock it out!

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OPALRAIN 6/18/2013 11:43AM

    This is so great!!!! I'm so glad things are shaping up for you!

Thanks for sharing the good news! Congratulations!

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SUSIEGKORN 6/18/2013 9:53AM

    So happy for you! Sounds like you're on your way to a very happy future! Congrats!

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ADARKARA 6/17/2013 11:11PM

    Nothing like having two jobs almost fighting over you! What great news!

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NEEDBU66 6/17/2013 5:05PM

    Good news upon good news upon good news!! Congratulations!

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RR1_RR1 6/17/2013 3:38PM

    Man, I LOVE good news! Congrats on the jobs!

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IAMZBEE 6/17/2013 3:05PM

    OH.MY.GOSH. That is AMAZING news!!! Congrats! And those magnets are ADORABLE!!

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SDLEE514 6/17/2013 2:19PM

    Congrats!! what a relief, so happy for you! as a fellow female scientist, I appreciate that article. Thanks for sharing!

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WHOVIANGIRL23 6/17/2013 2:17PM

    Awesomeeeee you're such a rock star.

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CAALAN23 6/17/2013 1:54PM

    That isn't just good news, that's AMAZING news!! Congrats!

LOL @ the minecraft magnets! My son would love those; he adores Minecraft. Those are really cool. :D


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CHODGES83 6/17/2013 1:52PM

    Man, I wish we woulda made it over for Twelfth Night. I was really wanting to see it. Our schedule was wouldn't allow it this year.

Sounds like you've hit the jackpot with job opportunities! Congratulations!

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Fighting my inner fat kid

Thursday, June 06, 2013

I've been eating bad lately... and as a result my belly is back. I'm talking super jiggly, tire around the middle belly. AND I HATE IT. Seriously. What the heck have I been doing? Answer: eating like crap and not working out.

Solution: start eating healthy and working out.

SO I'm going to get back on the old wagon and get moving. And I'll shut up and wear my Spanx until then. The hardest part right now is telling myself 'no.' I somehow have justified bad eating habits. I know I am excuse-o-rama right now with graduating, moving, living out of a suitcase, blah blah blah. I'm calling bullish*t on myself.

Yes it is easier to diet and exercise in your own place, but its not impossible to do it without one. I can still try and walk to lunch and get some movement. I can still do crunches, lift weights, squats, planks, etc at the house I'm staying at... I can still stop buying chocolate (and ignore shark week cravings). I can still tell people that, 'no, I do not want that delicious free pizza you're offering me' (well, this one has been hard!!!)

Basically I hate my belly. My belly is a direct result of my eating and exercising... or lack thereof. Mission ban the belly has begun. I use to do 5000 crunches (in like 10 different positions) when I was on my game. My core was strong, I felt great, I had abs under flab... Now I'm back to square one. For anyone who goes "oh god, I could never do 1000 crunches" = I'm right there with ya! Two night ago I did just 100 on a balance ball. Last night I did modified oblique crunches... just 200. I'm slowly getting back into my groove.

I also e-mailed a gym. I use the excuse of not having my own stuff and place as an excuse to not workout... so I'm going to find a place to workout. The gym I e-mailed has a pool attached to it that has women only hours from 5:30-7AM. And its close to the house I'm staying at... so if I join my goal will be to get up at 5:30, drive there, swim from 6-7AM, and go home and shower and get ready for work.

Let's see A) how much it costs and B) can I make it happen. I have not been in a pool in years. Like a looooong a$$ time. I was on the swim team growing up. I was a fish. I lived in the water. I would get up at 8am, ride my bike 3 miles to the pool, swim for over an hour, ride my bike 3 miles back home, make lunch, ride my bike 3 miles to the pool, swim for three hours, and ride my bike back home 3 miles... and I was still a chubby flubby little girl. I'm fighting some genetics here people. My sister who did the same routine and ate the same food I did was always a stick. AND I was always a fluffy bunny.

I'm excited to start swimming. I am scared sh*tless of wearing a suit in public. SO that's why the women only swim sounds like a great solution. Plus I splurged and bought some new swim bottoms.

Since I'm so dang tall... no bathing suits are long enough. Plus these are high-waisted and will help hold in the belly roll. I have a tankini top (not ideal for swimming I know) but hey, its better than nothing. If I sign up I'll go ahead and get some goggles and go get my flip turns on.

Its my goal anyway. I am just hoping to stay motivated. My inner fat kid is screaming for ice cream and pizza and chips and soda. Working on my control is going to be key right now. So I'm focusing on that. Working on trying to make better food choices... And keeping my fingers crossed that the scale will be my friend this month.

Spark on everyone. I'm trying to keep in touch with people on here, but i've also been really busy.

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KIKKI-G 6/11/2013 11:34AM

    Modcloth has some amazing suits eh?!?! you can do it...getting up early to gym has posed a struggle for me but just having it available close to you will definitely help.

You can do it, as you have in the past. The inner fat kid makes an appearance in all of us....I just finished a visit myself...haha.

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LISA_SUMNER08 6/7/2013 11:57AM

    I call mine my inner fat girl. I was really skinny as a kid. But my inner fat girl has been rearing her head a lot lately! Enjoy the swimming! I love the pool! I wouldn't get in one though if it wasn't for my boys wanting to swim ALL THE TIME!

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KABMPH 6/7/2013 6:54AM

    Maybe with swimming to you'll drown your inner fat kid. ;) good luck!

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    Those bottoms are the cutest!!

I think your inner fat kid and my inner fat kid should get together, and disappear into the abyss!!

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HFAYE81 6/6/2013 3:03PM

    Those bottoms are TOO CUTE. Good luck!! Swimming is so fun, and wears you out!! I know once you start with the pizza and ice cream, you can't stop. Pizza is my personal weakness emoticon

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SDLEE514 6/6/2013 2:01PM

    even before I saw the link I knew those swim bottoms were from Modcloth, and I hadn't actually seen them on the site! Those are SO CUTE and so perfect! I love Modcloth. I know you'll get to wear you want and rock them ;)

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STODD251 6/6/2013 12:32PM

    So much about this blog resonates with me. I have been making excuses for the better part of the last six months and that is why I have not been losing any weight. It is so hard to make that inner fat kid quit wanting all the yummy, bad stuff.

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WHOVIANGIRL23 6/6/2013 12:26PM

    That's a killer swim bottom!
I'm with you, just last night my inner fat kid won.. She got way too much ice cream, Cheetos and peanut butter.. Sigh. It's hard to shut her up though, she's always rears her head in the evening time after I've been good for a whole day. And I keep justifying it. I smell a saboteur...

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JMANDA86 6/6/2013 12:01PM

    I am fighting my inner fat kid lately too (well, I'm not going to lie, I wasn't a fat kid, just never skinny and I turned into a fat adult). We had our little festival where I live last weekend and I didn't do as bad as I could've but went out to eat too much and visited the candy store and indulged myself like an 8 year old! (It's the cutest, tiniest store ever that's been there since the 20's, in an alley that they put a roof on. Look at the pictures, it's adorable!
I swam as a kid too. The summer two a days, I got to a point where I hated them. I wish I had a pool to swim in. Once you get back into it, look into Master's! I swam at the Masters National meet in April 2012 in Greensboro and it was so fun even if I hadn't swam in like 12 years! It was a fun atmosphere and there were lots of former Olympians (and Cullen Jones!).
I can't remember where you live, but most cities have teams. I wish I could afford to join here but ours is insanely pricey (that's what happens when you live in the rich Chicago burbs!).

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KCLARK89 6/6/2013 12:00PM

    You can do it!! Just don't try to push yourself way too hard getting your groove back. It will come back naturally; you don't want to burn out!

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SKAHONEY4U 6/6/2013 11:27AM

    I recommend the 0 to 1650 program to get back into swimming. You can always shorten the first couple of weeks if they are too easy. I'm on week 3 (=

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CHODGES83 6/6/2013 10:45AM

    Those may be the coolest swim bottoms I've ever seen. You are going to rock it!

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A History of Plus Size Models

Friday, May 31, 2013

Here's a link to an interesting article:

H&M recently featured plus-size model Jennie Runk wearing the new swimsuit collection on its homepage, seamlessly integrating her with other, rail-thin models.
While plus-size models have appeared in fashion shoots and spreads for years, it is often done in a very loud, "we're sending a message," way.
On the June 2011 issue of Vogue Italia, for instance, the models only made the cover when posed seductively (and symbolically) next to big bowls of pasta. American Apparel's "Next Big Thing" plus-size model contest was a testament to the flippant puns often associated with, as the retailer put it, "booty-ful" models with "full-size fannies."
But that appears to be changing, led by brands like H&M, which is currently featuring the also-voluptuous Beyoncť on its homepage.
The normalization of more substantial bodies would represent a big shift in the fashion world. Although the industry has always claimed to value healthy body types, it has discriminated against plus-size models for a very long time.

Read more:

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KABMPH 6/7/2013 7:08AM

    That business/industry is seriously messed up! Thanks for sharing. I enjoyed the slide show.

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NEEDBU66 6/1/2013 2:55PM

    The part not mentioned, and needs to be, is that by only using too skinny of models, and idealizing them, we have many models and teenagers who have eating disorders, some of whom have died. We need to quit that. emoticon

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KCLARK89 6/1/2013 10:26AM

    Awesome blog and loved the slides! I remember a few years ago when I was a 10-12 and found out that THAT was considered plus size. I'm like... are we kidding?! Granted, now I am a 4-6, but not because of pressure to not be "plus size" but more so for my own personal health and fitness goals. Size is a number. Weight is a number.

I work at Victoria's Secret and I see all KINDS of body shapes and sizes. Do I hear a size and think "oh, that woman must be plus size with that size bra." NO! Why should modeling be any different? If a woman is a 12, she's a 12. Props to H&M for starting to lead the way in changing thinking!

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 5/31/2013 7:18PM

    Very interesting. I agree that I would love to see an end to "regular" and "plus size"... it's so angering. Especially when a sz.12 is considered plus-size - that's just ridiculous!!

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SPARK-PPL-GIRL 5/31/2013 12:18PM

    Eh the term plus size in this context is just a perversion of the word... should we be happy that they label plus size a size 12? I don't think so... that sounds just as unfair as having models who are overly skinny represent America.

If we are actually talking about people who are plus sized though say size 20,22,24 since I'm a size 18 jean and they still carry that in the regular section of Walmart (not the plus section).... I still have beef with celebrating those "real sized" women as who they are. You may have beautiful curves but a size 20-24 is OBEASE pretty much on any height on women and being obease is not healthy is a condition which causes morbidity and a serious medical condition should never be held up as the way to be.

So I guess I'm saying either way, calling a model who is a size 12plus size or doing the same for a model who is a size 20... is not good either way. They both have their downsides. I guess I'd be more okay with the way it is now.. with size 12 being plus size because at 5 ft. 3 inches.. when I lost 40 pounds and got down to a size 12 I was still in the overweight category for BMI.

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ENDERLI 5/31/2013 11:21AM

    THe H&M model looks beautiful. Just gorgeous.
Normal even. I think most women would agree.
Thanks for the BLOG! Great read.

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SHRINKING_SARA 5/31/2013 11:18AM

    I know right? If an add today used the word chubbies, women would burn down the store!

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HFAYE81 5/31/2013 10:55AM

    OMG, I just saw the slide of the old Lane Bryant ad that says "Calling all Chubbies!" My head just exploded. Surely they mean the dirty slang for a man's you-know, surely they wouldn't be calling their customers "chubbies"?!?!

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HFAYE81 5/31/2013 10:53AM

    YES! They shouldn't act like they are doing the world a favor or make it a gimmick, treat the plus size models like they are normal women. They should drop the "plus size" moniker and just call them MODELS. Thanks for a great blog! emoticon

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SHRINKING_SARA 5/31/2013 10:49AM

    Another great article about the woman with the belly roll:

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Nomad Life

Thursday, May 30, 2013

I'm in week three or four of my post-house sold life. I'm still staying with my friend Ania and her family (husband/two kids) so its a little strange. I'm trying to not be in the way, help out, not make a mess... and apparently not buy food. Their fridge is packed. The first week I was here I brought a ton of food... and there wasn't really room and it stressed Ania out a bit I think.

SO this week, I was just here Tues night-Friday morning, so I didn't bring any food at all. I figured I'll eat as best I can, and not worry about it. So... that's going horribly ;-)

I was so much better with my calories when I made my own sandwiches and fruit and salads... Its okay though. The egg white delight McMuffin at McDonalds is actually really good! I was a little skeptical because the Jimmy Dean D-lite sandwiches can be kinda meh -- but this one is good.

In other news, I'm applying for jobs like crazy. I heard back that I might have a post-doc opportunity at WashU, but that was over a week ago, and I haven't heard back from the PI yet. I got contacted by a head hunter, sent him my resume... and haven't heard back... Basically haven't heard back on a lot of things...

So I'm not stressing. I'm just like Dory, "just keep swimming..." Not trying to get anxious or upset, just enjoying my last few weeks in Columbia. My current PI is paying me until August 31st, so I'll either *a) convince him to keep paying me or *b) get a job~! I'm aiming for *b.

Health wise... I'm annoyed with my clothes. Want to get angry at yourself? Go and try on all the shorts you bought last summer when you were at your skinniest. None... and I mean none of them fit. I about lost it. I'm back to wearing my Spanx if I need to wear something and not have a belly roll. Its like all the weight I gained went right to my spare tire. :-/

My reaction = I need to work out. +stress of suitcase living... helping with kids... not really having my work out equipment = excuses. I'm wearing my armband again to help track, so hopefully I'll see some improvement.

TJ loves me either way. I just need to refocus and love myself more... belly rolls and all. Hopefully this girl will get a job ASAP and get those love handles gone for good!

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TINKSMOM1 5/31/2013 7:55AM

    emoticon emoticon I have been in your shoes! Limbo at someone elses place...we lived with my husbands aunt and uncle when we moved and all she could cook was southern cooking, with a lot of lard or oil...(and no flavor! Thank God I found a bottle of italian salad dressing in the fridge...although that did not make anything healthier....but I digress...) Anyway, keep reminding yourself it is just temporary! Doing the best you can in less than ideal circumstances is all you can do! Taking walks might help you feel like your keeping your body moving and give you some space if you need it...It will change soon! Hope you hear something soon! Good luck! Keep moving forward!

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NEEDBU66 5/30/2013 7:40PM

    That's got to be hard. Good food takes up so much room, and take-out can be expensive. Also hoping the phone starts ringing soon.

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STLOUISWOMAN 5/30/2013 7:10PM

    I've been in your situation from the other side - quite a few sisters & brothers-in-law stayed with us at some time or another. It works but it's not like being in your own place. Hope everything comes together for you soon.

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 5/30/2013 7:03PM

    I hope you find a job soon and everything works out!!

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CHODGES83 5/30/2013 4:44PM

    I can imagine the living arrangement, but from the other side. I've had family members and friends crashing for several months at a time. It's a weird situation.
Hopefully the phone starts ringing!

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