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Thursday, May 30, 2013

I'm in week three or four of my post-house sold life. I'm still staying with my friend Ania and her family (husband/two kids) so its a little strange. I'm trying to not be in the way, help out, not make a mess... and apparently not buy food. Their fridge is packed. The first week I was here I brought a ton of food... and there wasn't really room and it stressed Ania out a bit I think.

SO this week, I was just here Tues night-Friday morning, so I didn't bring any food at all. I figured I'll eat as best I can, and not worry about it. So... that's going horribly ;-)

I was so much better with my calories when I made my own sandwiches and fruit and salads... Its okay though. The egg white delight McMuffin at McDonalds is actually really good! I was a little skeptical because the Jimmy Dean D-lite sandwiches can be kinda meh -- but this one is good.

In other news, I'm applying for jobs like crazy. I heard back that I might have a post-doc opportunity at WashU, but that was over a week ago, and I haven't heard back from the PI yet. I got contacted by a head hunter, sent him my resume... and haven't heard back... Basically haven't heard back on a lot of things...

So I'm not stressing. I'm just like Dory, "just keep swimming..." Not trying to get anxious or upset, just enjoying my last few weeks in Columbia. My current PI is paying me until August 31st, so I'll either *a) convince him to keep paying me or *b) get a job~! I'm aiming for *b.

Health wise... I'm annoyed with my clothes. Want to get angry at yourself? Go and try on all the shorts you bought last summer when you were at your skinniest. None... and I mean none of them fit. I about lost it. I'm back to wearing my Spanx if I need to wear something and not have a belly roll. Its like all the weight I gained went right to my spare tire. :-/

My reaction = I need to work out. +stress of suitcase living... helping with kids... not really having my work out equipment = excuses. I'm wearing my armband again to help track, so hopefully I'll see some improvement.

TJ loves me either way. I just need to refocus and love myself more... belly rolls and all. Hopefully this girl will get a job ASAP and get those love handles gone for good!

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TINKSMOM1 5/31/2013 7:55AM

    emoticon emoticon I have been in your shoes! Limbo at someone elses place...we lived with my husbands aunt and uncle when we moved and all she could cook was southern cooking, with a lot of lard or oil...(and no flavor! Thank God I found a bottle of italian salad dressing in the fridge...although that did not make anything healthier....but I digress...) Anyway, keep reminding yourself it is just temporary! Doing the best you can in less than ideal circumstances is all you can do! Taking walks might help you feel like your keeping your body moving and give you some space if you need it...It will change soon! Hope you hear something soon! Good luck! Keep moving forward!

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NEEDBU66 5/30/2013 7:40PM

    That's got to be hard. Good food takes up so much room, and take-out can be expensive. Also hoping the phone starts ringing soon.

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STLOUISWOMAN 5/30/2013 7:10PM

    I've been in your situation from the other side - quite a few sisters & brothers-in-law stayed with us at some time or another. It works but it's not like being in your own place. Hope everything comes together for you soon.

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 5/30/2013 7:03PM

    I hope you find a job soon and everything works out!!

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CHODGES83 5/30/2013 4:44PM

    I can imagine the living arrangement, but from the other side. I've had family members and friends crashing for several months at a time. It's a weird situation.
Hopefully the phone starts ringing!

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Quick update

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Life is still going strong. The streak of positive health got derailed though...

Basically I've blogged about her in the past, but if you look back a few months there was a girl working in my lab who is delusional and horrible at science. She also happens to think the world revolves around her and she is a genius and we should all bow down to her superior knowledge. Now as I just said, she is horrible at science, so her skills and attitude do not complement each other. She failed. Miserably. And she also went out of her way to make our lives and work in the lab stressful and annoying. She was kicked out a few months ago and since not one of the eight labs she had worked in were willing to take her, she had to get a masters degree and was kicked out of the PhD program.

So she's suing us now for discrimination. Seriously. I can't get into the details--its not technically a lawsuit yet, but lawyers are involved--but she as a Native American female is being discriminated against by 3 females (one of them part Native American -- me) and one male and the curators of the university. SO needless to say that was a ball of stress and nerves and f*ck it I need beer and pizza. Her complaint is delusional and has no basis, so I'm sure its not going to get to a point of a real lawsuit -- but as I mentioned she's delusional... so she might try something. We thought this was over months ago, so this was out of the blue.

SO that happened. I'm still bouncing around. Last weekend was graduation. I went home Friday and unpacked and organized. Saturday was stressful driving back to Columbia for a late night graduation, then back to St. Louis the same night.

It was stressfull. Its over. Yay--I'm graduated. Now job stuff. I've been applying, but I got an email yesterday saying they might have found money to pay my post-doc until I get a grant (YAY!) so I need to get off the internet and back to work.

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NEEDBU66 5/23/2013 6:41PM

    Congratulations, Graduate!!! emoticon

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SKAHONEY4U 5/23/2013 5:16PM

    Congrats again on graduating. I'm so jealous! Job searching seems like a pain in the butt, I am not looking forward to it. All I have done is submitted my CV to CSU biology department in hopes of getting some sort of teaching gig. I'm having trouble focusing on writing. Colorado is fun and infinitely better than DC. I am gardening, swimming, biking, walking, board gaming, and Dr. Whoing. Reuniting with my bf and 2 other cats is wonderful too. All in all my quality of life has increased by 23782732.

Anyway, good luck with the job hunt!

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CHODGES83 5/23/2013 4:09PM

    People are ridiculous. It never ceases to surprise me the depths of their stupidity.

Yay for post doc $!!!

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HFAYE81 5/23/2013 2:53PM

    So sorry!!! She may not have a case, but likely the suit would be settled if it is filed, just to avoid the headache emoticon

Just take care of you, girl. And congrats on the graduation and prospects of getting paid! emoticon

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ARUNNINGKAT 5/23/2013 2:37PM

    emoticon on graduation! So sorry that you have the drama hanging over your head from the lab. emoticon

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 5/23/2013 1:59PM

    Yay and boo!!

I can't stand when people are essentially stupid, and then try to blame their failures on everyone else!!

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Random Photo Blog

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Random photo blog day... Not much has changed. I swear my doctor's scale is off by 5# compared to the one at my house. It says higher, so I'm inclined to believe its my breakfast/drinks/clothes/error making me weigh more at their office. I was there this morning for an eyelid rash :-/ I'm not supposed to wear makeup for a week... since that's not happening, I'm putting on my required oinment and putting makeup on AROUND where the ointment is. I'm compromising with no eyeliner, but god help me without foundation and mascara!

SO now for a bunch of photos where I'm wearing tons of makeup!

I went to a few weddings with TJ in the past two months... and there's two more coming up! Seriously people... calm down with gettin hitched! In other news -- I'm ready to get hitched, lol. We both decided there's going to be a photo booth at our wedding. They're so much fun!

The day after that wedding the bride/groom/bunch of guests went for the Cards/Brewers game up in Milwaukee... and I of course, represented our Cardinals!

Random DOUBLE RAINBOW I saw last week!

And finally in good news after 5.5 months (no joke) my arm has officially closed!

So I officially have no excuse to not strength train anymore. My lazy butt needs to get moving ASAP!

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RR1_RR1 5/20/2013 6:43PM

    Awe, you guys look really cute together!

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EELS4PEELS 5/20/2013 6:21PM

    I'm glad that your arm is finally healed! I don't know if I would be able to get my arms done. It kind of scares me! Hope you're doing awesome!

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NIKKICOLE83 5/20/2013 9:13AM

    Oh gosh! You sound like me! It would take an act of congress to get me to give up makeup. If my eyeball was hanging out, I would find a nice violet eyeshadow to compliment my dangling iris.

I don't know if I ever told you, but I just love your curls. Never, ever, ever straighten your hair. Or color it a lighter color. It is perfection on you.

Wedding fever has officially hit. Don't let all that wedded bliss rush you into the process. When you are marrying the right person (which TJ very well may be), the bliss you feel will be much less about the wedding. The first time I got married after college, I was more excited about the details of the wedding and the big day than the man I was marrying. Needless to say, that marriage didn't last long. This time around, the wedding is like a necessary evil. It will be fun I am sure, but the thing that has me buzzing is becoming his wife. That has me ready to jump over the moon!

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 5/15/2013 7:35PM

    Thank goodness that your arm is finally closed!! You have been through so much with it, but I don't need to tell you that!!
Yay for double rainbows!!

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SDLEE514 5/14/2013 3:54PM

    oh no, I'm sorry about your eyelid rash...I totally feel you! I had a bad case of recurring pink eye once and I had to throw out my mascara/eyeliner and not wear it til I was completely in the clear, but you bet I found ways around wear *some* eye makeup (clean q-tip each time to add a shadow/liner...)

Anyways, really cute pics! So glad your arm has finally closed too, I know that's been such a huge ordeal for you.

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BLUEROSE73 5/14/2013 3:54PM

    Wow. 5.5 months. That's crazy, but I'm glad it finally healed. Keep in mind it's newly healed, so be careful so it doesn't open up again. But I'm sure if you take it easy and ease into your strength training again, it'll be fine. I can't imagine having the patience for that. Wow

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CHODGES83 5/14/2013 3:06PM

    Get some weights in your hands and get to work! :)

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ADARKARA 5/14/2013 1:13PM

    what great photos! (well, the arm ones made me squeamish but I'm bad about stuff like that!) You two are so adorable together!

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LOLATURTLE 5/14/2013 12:52PM

    You're the cutest!


Mr. Turtle's cousin had a photo booth at their wedding last August. it was really fun - they printed out 2 of each picture strip, one we got to keep and one we pasted in a book & wrote messages to them. Awesome keepsake for them!

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HFAYE81 5/14/2013 12:51PM

    HOORAY! I'm so glad it's finally healed for reals. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SKAHONEY4U 5/14/2013 12:50PM

    Yay!!! Great news that it finally closed up!!

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NEEDBU66 5/14/2013 12:49PM

    Here's hoping the next wedding is yours!!!


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Birthday Weekend Stress

Monday, May 13, 2013

Thank Jesus that the scale is moving down. It honestly made me feel better to see 189.7 this morning. Even though its just 0.3# from 190, that made all the difference to my silly head.

So, back on the plan for one week + shark week bloat gone = down three pounds.


This weekend was a roller coaster of emotions. Friday I ate well-ish. I ate my veggies. Got my lunch comped because they overcooked my tuna steak (mmm... tuna steak!) and made it home. My mom was sick so she didnít want to see me really to ďnot get me sick.Ē She actually told me to get away from her... she was in a mood. TJ met us at the restaurant, but we were late since my older sister was not ready at all. She then flipped out that she was not perfectly done up since she used to work at this place, so she popped a Valium. *shakes head*

My poor dad had worked third shift so he was exhausted. We had to wait like 25 minutes for a table, so we had a bit to drink. It was okay. I ate a big salad before dinner, and only have a few slices of pizza that were small. TJ put away some pizza ;-) Beth ate a salad, and practically an entire pizza herself and talked constantly because of the pills she was on. It was annoying to say the least.

After that we had cake and ice milk at the house. I ate it. It was awesome. But it was a small cake and my mom ate half of it, so I didnít do too badly on that.

Saturday I made breakfast and basically headed to the ballgame since it was so nice out and I slept in. TJ got us tickets close to the third baseline for the game. It was nice, but hot and sunny out. I forgot sunscreen of course, so Iím a little red now. Luckily my foundation had sunscreen in it or Iíd be annoyed at having to buy new foundation (I tan easily). So once my burned cleavage heals up (yep... that happened) I should be good to go.

While we were at the game the sh*t hit the fan. My mom was in a mood. My oldest sister left the house bitching and screaming... and then my mom started... also the reason to leave for the game early... Basically my mom is still really annoyed that my stuff is still in the garage and her house is a mess. Her house is always a mess. My stuff isnít that badóshe has crap EVERYWHERE she needs to organize, but instead she vents everything on me and my dad. Its just emotionally abusive right now since she gets really depressed with SAD in the spring and not winter like most people. Iím trying to avoid it, but its definitely a huge trigger for emotional eating that Iím dealing with right now.

By the time we got home though she had passed out from drinking so I packed an overnight bag and stayed at TJs place. Ended up cooking his mom a motherís day breakfast instead of my own. Iíve had a few texts from my mom since then, but Iím honestly just trying to stay away from her at this point. I donít need her drama dragging me down right now. And I will work on my stuff... she seriously throws a hissy fit anytime I choose to spend time with TJ, even if it is on my birthday or going to a game (which was a birthday present). *sigh*

Iím used to it. It sucks. BUT I stayed healthy this week and lost weight.

Now I just need to keep doing that AND find a job!

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LOLATURTLE 5/14/2013 12:25PM

    emoticon Sorry about all the drama llamas. Happy Birthday!

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CHODGES83 5/14/2013 10:22AM

    I do not like the title of this blog. Your birthday weekend should not have stress. Boo. Hiss. Props to you for making healthy choices for mind and body. Keep it up!

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STLADEE 5/14/2013 10:21AM

    Breathe and then breathe again! Darn your family sounds a bit toxic at the moment so yeah stay away. You need to focus on YOU! I know you can do it Sara! emoticon

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 5/13/2013 7:16PM

    You can do it!! Sorry things are so stressful.... it over-complicates everything else.

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Day 1 Done

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

Yesterday was my Day 1 of rebooting. Done. Just barely under my calorie goal. But under. I also redid my tracker/goals. Spark called me a crazy woman and I readjusted my expectations.

I'm still feeling a bit lazy, so I'm focusing on food. I need to get used to counting and tracking everything. If it goes in my mouth, its going in my tracker. I am doing this ASAP after I eat. I think I need the accountability of doing this. Its weird looking at the food I was eating both portion and calorie wise and just cringing. Thank god its almost summer. This means good fruit is finally available again. Hello honeydew! Hello good cheap strawberries! Ooh and watermelon/cantaloupe/grapes/hungry for fruit yet? I'm also upping my veggies. I spent an hour Monday chopping up fruit and veggies so that they were a) portable, b) ready to eat, c) going to go bad if I didn't eat them, and d) perfect for salads. I feel dumb even saying it, but when you put them in your tracker and see that a cup of broccoli is like 40 calories... I just realized I need to eat a sh*t ton more veggies. I'm a fruit-a-holic but veggies are kind of a necessary evil for me. That's my goal now. Each some dang veggies... every day.

Friday's my bday. Everyone wants to make plans to eat out and I'm a little worried. Tomorrow I'm going to a mongolian grill for lunch. That way I can control my portions and honestly, I only use garlic broth and soy sauce for my meals. A scoop of garlic water is like 2 calories max. A scoop of oil is over 100 calories! I get worried when I see put 4-5 ladles of oil in their bowl. I do like 4-5 of garlic broth... so I don't worry + a sh*t ton of vegetables = good to go! Oh and that's where I eat most of my cabbage. Note to self: take beano tomorrow!

Friday night I'm going to get pizza at Peel in Edwardsville, IL. Its so good. Its artisan brick oven pizza. yum! My mom's insisting on a cake or something. I'm not a huge cake person, so I asked for a lemon meringue pie... that will go a lot quicker than a cake, so hopefully I won't eat as much.

Saturday is a Cardinals game with TJ. We may or may not go to the Brazillian restaurant in Chesterfield after the game (I got a groupon a few weeks ago). So this weekend might be a little difficult. I'm still going to try to track stuff. AND I will get in exercise moving my stuff around and trying to organize my rooms around. So that's pretty much it.

I'm already feeling better. Today I'm in 2-day jeans so they actually went on without a fight today. I secretly loathe freshly washed jeans... My hormones have calmed down a ton... I'm almost done editing my thesis... I just finished a big salad with veggies and grilled chicken... I'm feeling good. I'm not worried this week about the scale magically dropping 2-3# of my 10+# gain. It took me 2 months to gain the 10#, its not going to come off in 2 weeks. Baby steps. This week' goal = food + more veggies. Next week's goal = get moving!

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 5/10/2013 8:05PM

    You've got a pretty good handle on this.

Have a great birthday!!

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LEB0401 5/8/2013 5:07PM

    Great attitude! Life happened, you got crazy busy, and now you're hopping right back on. What a healthy outlook :)

Happy early birthday!!

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    Setting goals and tracking- crazy how they are such a positive thing when we are losing weight, but somehow we let them slide and gain. Way to go on getting back on track!

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HFAYE81 5/8/2013 3:42PM

    You can do it girl!!! It's all baby steps, but when you look behind you, you'll remember how far you've come. emoticon

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CHODGES83 5/8/2013 2:27PM

    Sounds like you've got a great plan. Fun times ahead! Have a wonderful birthday!

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