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Monday, March 25, 2013

Sabotage comes in many forms. Friends and family... strangers... and from yourself. Lately I feel like I've been giving in trying to please everyone and not taking a stand for myself.

I did this with food before... and I got fat.

I'm doing this now with my dissertation... so am I f***ing up my graduation?

Basically, the house is off my worries list. It ate up a chunk of time getting it cleaned and staged. AND dealing with my family coming down to help. That was stress. We heard back on Thursday that it appraised for what we needed it to appraise for (higher than I thought possible) -- so now we're just waiting for the contract and figuring out a closing date. I wouldn't mind getting rid of it sooner (hello less bills!) but I also kind of need it to work on my thesis and focus in a place of calm. So... yea. I have no idea what the plan is there. I should find out soon though.

Last weekend (two ago) I went home to go to a hockey game with TJ for his birthday. It was fun, but I didn't get a lot done and my parents were super crabby with me. (I really don't want to move home, ugh) I also spent time with my dad, TJ, and his stepdad because I knew it would be something they would all enjoy = instead of working on my thesis.

This past Thursday I went home after work to watch the 5 dogs at my parents house (my 2 and their 3) while they went to a wedding in Chicago... I got some stuff done, but not nearly enough. I ended up driving back Saturday though to beat the snow *good thing I did. I managed to get some work stuff done on Sunday, but again = I feel like I'm slacking. Where is my motivation? I'm thinking about making a board to motivate myself. Job, money, new house, wedding = all things that require me to graduate and get off to StL. Pretty good motivation to spend time with TJ on a regular basis... but do to that I have to finish my thesis!

Ugh. So next weekend my parents wanted me to come back again. They're going to Kentucky to get their new boat from the showroom and look at the cabin they are getting built. They're retiring there, so they made some crazy decisions to buy land in Kentucky near the Lake and get a pontoon boat... So they want to go look at their new toys now that they can put it in the water -- but there are 5 dogs at their house. My sister is watching them from Tuesday on, but she wanted me to come home. My friends want me to come home and hang out. TJ wants me to drive in and spend time together.

Finally I was just like NO. No to my parents -- I can't spend 3 weekends in a row in StL. No to my sister = you're going to be there 3 days, what's 4.5? No to TJ = if you want to spend time, drive to my house. No to the bad voices in my head telling me I'm not going to graduate. Hell I want to graduate just to prove my boss wrong.

So with that I'm stopping the sabotage. Food choices lately haven't been horrible. I say that, but they also haven't been great. I'm still not calorie restricting (still waiting on the dumb arm to heal) so I don't feel guilty about my diet. I tried to eat doritos because I was craving them.... gross. Doritos breath and stomach pains = grains are evil!

So I'm on the high-protein train. Its been fun. I'm slowly easing myself into low carb, high protein dieting via a modified Paelo diet. I'm not going keto, that's for sure, at least for now, since I'm healing up -- but I'm thinking about doing it short term to drop some fat off my frame.

Workouts have felt amazing lately. I figure I'm eating at a caloric excess, by a little, so its the perfect time to weight lift and do strength training.

Anyway, that's it. I feel like I've been super busy but not super productive... so I am annoyed with myself. Here's to making it a good week and finishing March out strong!

(Also, not for the faint of heart = here's what my arm wound progress looks like = )

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MEGYSU 3/27/2013 4:50PM

    I looked at your picture link. You poor thing! I can't even imagine how awful this was for you. I was curious when you would mention this in your other blogs, but had no idea it was that bad. I can't believe the surgeon didn't do something sooner! If there was ever a time to sue, this is it! Take care of yourself. ... and good for you for saying no. It always amazes me what people will ask of you when they know you are swamped. Hang in there.

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LOLATURTLE 3/26/2013 2:53PM

    Beechnut nailed it!

When I was writing my master's thesis (SO PAINFUL. not a PhD I know, but the same awful awful process...) I made myself write SOMETHING in the sections, even if it was just describing what would eventually be there. Somehow not having a blank page was a huge help to get me started. I'd start by writing BS:

"And in this paragraph I'll describe where we got our hydrography data, trying to carefully gloss over the fact that we never got to measure any of our water samples because the only techs who know how to use the apparatus aren't here anymore..." and eventually real writing would start to come out. Then once I was in the groove I'd go back and edit out the BS. Hahaha. It worked for me!

Stay strong with the family and friends boundaries! the people who truly love you will forgive you when it's all done and they have Happy New Job Sara to spend tons of time with. emoticon Turn off your phone if you have to!

And lastly, wow. I'm glad you took photos, because it's cringeworthy, yes, but so great to see the progress. I'm so glad it's healing, but I don't think I realllllly appreciated that without seeing how bad it got! Also, I can't help but notice the edges around the still healing part? That used to be part of the wound? Looks like pretty normal skin. It doesn't look like weird funny looking wrinkly scar, so when it's all healed it should look pretty good! Yay!

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BEECHNUT13 3/25/2013 10:16PM

    When I was in that phase of graduate school, and trying to eat well, and taking care of my house, etc... I made a to-do list every day. I had to do these things:

__ Work on dissertation (I HAD to do SOMETHING daily, no matter how big or how small - it typically was a little while every day)

__ __ __ __ __ Freggies

___ Within calorie limit

___ 10 minutes exercise (I was not picky about what)

and then when I started running it became...

___ Run 1.5 miles (or whatever I was scheduled to do)

And then I had a list of other things to do (grade homework, blah blah blah).

It helped me feel control. I also set goals for myself. If I told myself "By May, I'm going to have a draft of my intro completed" then I would do it. It was on the Goal list, and it made it happen.

I didn't "go away" to grad school, and although it was nice to have all my friends and family around, sometimes it was tough. They expected me to still hang out with them all the time, or to help them out with this and that. And they didn't seem to understand all the work involved.

What REALLY helped me to finish up was having my baby. I started grad school in August 2004... but then it took forever to do my thesis. I had my baby in July 2009. After that, I defended my MA in August 2009, passed quals in May 2010, proposed my dissertation in January 2011, accepted a job offer in April 2011, defended my dissertation in June 2011, and moved in July 2011. It all happened so fast, partly because my time was completely FOCUSED when I had to work. I didn't have time to screw around anymore. I had no choice but to get it done.

But you'll get there. You have to work on dissertations like you eat elephants. One bite at a time.

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 3/25/2013 7:24PM

    Ow.... the pictures. I was trying to picture it in my head whenever I read your blogs, but I never thought it would be SO big!! What a horrible spot for that to happen.

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    ow ow ow! Those pictures made me wince. Good thing you are healing up!

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BIZZ27 3/25/2013 12:12PM

    Good for you for not letting them get to you!!!

As for your pictures, I've been through 3 c-sections, I cleaned my boyfriend's hand amputation when he lost 2 fingers and half his thumb; and to be honest, your pictures turned my stomach upside down!! lol I am so glad your sister is a doctor and took care of you because that could have gotten infected SOO easily!! Love the last few pictures with all the nice pink colors though!

Good luck on the thesis, I bet you'll be done before you know it :)

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STLADEE 3/25/2013 12:10PM

    Good for you, for saying NO!

OMGoodness, I looked through your pictures! Now I see the pain you were enduring! My underarm was hurting for you! emoticon

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CHODGES83 3/25/2013 11:31AM

    emoticon the Sabotage!
You've got this! emoticon

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ATTACKFATCAT 3/25/2013 11:11AM

    Way to set some boundaries with your family! I know it's tough, especially when you are so unmotivated to get stuff done as it is, but you can't be everything for everyone all the time. Your family helped you with the house, and it sounds like you've repaid the favor over quite a few weekends, so now is the time to focus on you. This is coming from a reformed people pleaser emoticon

Oh, and I have to say I'm not a squeamish type, but those pics made me CRINGE. It just looks so painful...I admire you even more for going through that! Though I have to say it is not making me want to sign up for skin removal surgery anytime soon. I know not all results are like that, but I don't think a lot of us fully understand the risks of it either.

Comment edited on: 3/25/2013 11:12:34 AM

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KIKKI-G 3/25/2013 11:05AM

    Those pictures are INSANE!
wow girl, going through that healing process on top of everything else, you are one tough cookie. Sounds like you have it under control now, sometimes saying NO is the best thing we can do for ourselves.
Keep up the good work. emoticon

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NEEDBU66 3/25/2013 10:46AM

    Good. For. You.,

At some point you need to stand up and say Enough is Enough.

You did so. Now don't let them guilt you ....

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GLUECIPHER 3/25/2013 10:36AM

    Wow, you are busy! Keep up the good work. emoticon

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WHOVIANGIRL23 3/25/2013 10:36AM

    Haha I looked at those pictures with my daughter sitting next to me. She saw the blood and goes "mmmm look mom it's jelly!". Needless to say, I gagged a little bit when she said that.

Anyway, keep pushing forwards, you can do it!

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CHOCOHIPPO 3/25/2013 10:36AM

    You have a lot on your plate! Good for you for saying no. You can't please everyone and most especially if you don't please yourself. This comes from a reformed people pleaser. I've learned to set realistic expectations with everyone to take the pressure off. Good luck getting everything done you want to do. I know you can do it!

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Quick Blog -- BL Results and thoughts...

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

I love the Biggest Loser. Yes I know its unrealistic. Yes I know it isn't the healthiest way to lose weight. But did season 11 get my butt off the couch. Yes. Did I apply to be in seasons 10 and 11. Yes. Was I fat enough to be on the Biggest Loser. Yes. Have I lost more on my own than half of the people on the Biggest Loser. Yes.

There comes a point in the show where I see all the women start dropping into the 170s. I get jealous. I feel mean spirited that they have gotten somewhere I haven't gotten yet, the elusive 170s. The I realize these women started in the 230s and 240s. Yes they are shorter than me, but if you look at it overall, I have lost more weight % than they have at that point.

The Biggest Loser updated their Pinterest board with before and after photos of how much weight contestants lost on the show. That gave me a reality check a bit today. I lost a little over 90# on my own. I lost a third of my body weight. That's crazy. I still want to lose more, cause I'm crazy.

So for everyone hating on The Biggest Loser. Shhh... Spark is teaching us to do it the right way. Why hate on something that is clearly a television show? It gives people hope and motivation, that if they work hard -- you can accomplish something. I still use BL as my motivation to get off the couch and workout. I literally can't watch the show without working out or it drives me nuts! Plus if I'm eating bad food, or thinking about bad food, that show helps me to put it aside and go for something healthy.

Now the winners. I LOVE DANNI! I'm so glad she won! Gina... *grumble* I wish Lisa or someone else had won. Gina's attitude just irked me. But did anyone else notice how TWO WOMEN won this season! I was hella proud of the ladies for representing! So anyone lamenting that they didn't lose weight, and its so much easier for men... this just shows again, if you put in the time and effort you can get results.

Now its going to take us a lot longer -- without a dietician, 6 hours a day of workouts, and no job to stress over... sure -- you can do it quick. But Spark is showing us how it can be done FOR LIFE. So perk up. I'm telling myself to STFU. I've done well, and I'm going to do more. Stop comparing myself to women on TV.

Now -- back to work! And for some added motivation... I worked 10 hours yesterday on my thesis/lab work... went home... at a healthy dinner. AND worked out. AND slept six hours. So if I'm fitting it in, so can you ;-)

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SKINNYYENNY 3/21/2013 2:43PM

    When I was 17 and 120, I never thought I'd be jealous of girls in their 170s, LOL - but I totally feel you there! BL is good motivation, because it shows that no matter how big, or sick, or out of shape, you can do it. Sure, it's unrealistic for the real world, but if they did a show where people lost 2 lbs a week, no one would watch it, right?!

You, my dear, have done awesome, though. I love seeing and hearing from my tall sisters out there and you are quite the inspiration!!!!

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KCLARK89 3/21/2013 10:57AM

    Awesome! I've watched bits and pieces of BL seasons up until this one. This one HOOKED me in with the kids, and I just absolutely LOVED Danni! She was a rockstar through the entire season, and she was good proof that you can do it on your own! She was by herself while red and blue had 3-5 members and, she still did it.

I do agree about Gina too... I wish Lisa would have been the #2. I was blown away by how fantastic she looked! I hope the next season is just as good :)

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LAURENXX19 3/20/2013 9:19PM

    I'm so glad Danni won as well. I thought she had a great attitude throughout the whole show.

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 3/20/2013 7:20PM

    Way to work it!!

I hear you with the BL!! I was SO mad that Gina even made it as far as she did. She got lucky with her weigh-ins... that is all. All she did was cry and phone-it-in the whole season. Bunk. I'm super happy that Danni won though, she tried so hard and she looks amazing. She deserved it!!

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ATTACKFATCAT 3/20/2013 4:42PM

    I have had issues with weight-loss reality shows, BL being one of them. However, I must admit I did like this season more than most because of the inclusion of the kids and families. I think what's more important is that people need to realize that these types of shows are great motivational tools but that they aren't typical results. Some people get so down on themselves thinking they're not losing weight fast enough like the people on BL and that just frustrates me.

I also have to say I love Danni! She started close to my starting weight and she was very athletic in school like I was, so she definitely serves as inspiration for me!

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SDLEE514 3/20/2013 4:36PM

    I'm so with you!! You have accomplished so much and should be so proud, and you're right not to compare yourself to the women on the show. I agree most of the show is unrealistic but I'm a proponent of anything that gets people off the couch. I love danni! and I really wish lisa had won the home challenge. completely agree with you! thanks for sharing

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AMBERT27 3/20/2013 4:11PM

    I felt the same way. So glad Danni won, hated that Gina won because her attitude was so horrible. Really wanted Lisa to win the at-home prize because she looked AMAZING and had a great attitude.

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LOLATURTLE 3/20/2013 3:07PM

    So true. Especially that last paragraph! Like I said in my last comment... heh heh heh.

I actually have never watched the show regularly. I have watched scattered episodes here and there. I have this insane thing where I'm madly in love with Bob, though. I never applied to be on the show, because what if I got on the show and BOB WAS NOT MY TRAINER??? I would probably die.

There's just something about him. He's so corny, but, it's like 1000% sincere. *~*BOB*~*

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TXTOAD9970 3/20/2013 3:03PM

    Good for you! You go girl!
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CWHEATLEY12 3/20/2013 3:01PM

    Great blog! Danni was such a huge inspiration to me this season...I loved her! I am with you - I know its not all realistic but if they get my butt off the couch and moving and are getting themselves healthy I will keep watching! It sounds like you had an awesome day yesterday and just keeps me thinking that there's no reason I can't fit that all into my schedule too!

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Life is NOT slowing down!

Sunday, March 17, 2013

I feel like I'm in warp speed right now.

I have 35 days to finish my thesis. I have about... 70-90 days of work (SKAHONEY4U knows what I'm talking about!)... So there's that.

The house inspection was Friday. It went okay. They are asking me to fix the jetted tub jet that works, but not as well as the others... so instead I'm like -- noooope. How's about I just give you the washer/dryer instead. I don't want any more work done. I don't really want to spend any more money on the house. I just want it SOLD! The appraisal is the only thing left. AND its the major decision point, because I'm not confident it will appraise for what we want. But there's no point in worrying about it now.

I just went home for the weekend. I ran to the outlet stores on my way home since I didn't have the dogs in my car with me for once. Apparently I'm a size 12 again at Banana Republic, but still a size 8 at the GAP -- and they're owned by the SAME company. Oh vanity sizing... I just go with what fit. And to throw this for a loop, I fit in a size 8 and a size 10 dress at Banana. So I guess I really AM pear shaped. Silly small boobs. My butts getting a lift from all of the squats though. Speaking of which, I need to do some while I watch the Walking Dead tonight.

Friday I spent at home with the pups and my parents. The dogs were RIDICULOUS when they saw me. You'd think I'd been gone for 2 months and not less than two weeks. I put on a zip up hoodie and they let me put both of them in there to snuggle. (they're 6# and 7#, so yes, I can fit 2 dogs in my hoodie with me ;-) I also went to bed super early and didn't accomplish anything.

Saturday I got up early to go shooting with my dad, TJ, and TJ's step dad. So my dad finally met TJ's mom and step-dad.... so the families have almost met. My mom was going to go, but then opted out because of the cold and didn't really want to meet TJs family yet... Basically as soon as my dad met TJ's stepdad, they did NOT shut up for the next 3 hours. It was pretty funny to watch. TJ also didn't like the fact that my first time ever shooting his gun I had a better grouping than he did. There was some grumbling afoot, and he wasn't as excited when I was better than he was ;-) After that I had lunch at TJs house with his mom also. So my dad also met his mom.

Then we drove back to my house for what seemed like 30 minutes. Cuddled the dogs some more and then I had to rush out for the hockey game. Since we had lunch late we just went to get boozy milkshakes at Bailey's Range and split one hamburger between us. We also decided to hoof it around, so I got a bit of a walk in parking the car, walking to dinner, walking to the Scott Trade Center for the Blues game and then walking back to the parking deck afterwards.

I got TJ Blues/Ducks tickets for his birthday, so we sat in Row K/section 121 -- down by the glass. I spoil that boy! I even wore a Ducks jersey circa 1992 aka the Disney years! No one said anything to me since my 6'7" BF was right next to me. Apparently he's kind of intimidating ;-)

Sunday was also busy. Got up, did some messing around on the computer, cuddled pups, and packed up. I met TJ's best friend in town and his fiancee who was visiting. Then ran to Nordstrom Rack with my mom. She needed to get a dress for a wedding next weekend. She bought one... but it doesn't fit... so she was in a bad mood once she figured that out. I got to the store before her so I picked out a ton of stuff for her to try on like her personal shopper. She ended up finding a silver dress.

I also tried to find a dress to wear since I have 4 weddings to go to this year. A size 14 Jessica Simpson dress fit, but my boobs weren't big enough so it was too big up top. A size 12 Kate Spade dress was too small up top to fit. Then a size 14 dress from another brand was too big, and a 10 was too small, and they didn't have a 12. So... clothing designers suck... but my wallet is happy.

Now I'm back in my house in Columbia -- although I don't know for how much longer it will be mine... I really need to work on my thesis... and this week is super, crazy, busy. I'm also going back to StL next weekend to watch the dogs since my parents are going to a wedding, but I also need to force myself to get some work done!

And work out in the meantime. I did cardio on my treadmill last week. I thought I'd go easy on myself. 30 minutes (with several phone call breaks, 'cause like 4 people called me!) -- at a 5% incline at a speed of 3. Hard because I haven't done it in 3 months, but not impossible. The next day -- charlie horse and a tiiiiiiiiiiiight calf. I didn't stretch it out afterward. Its like I've forgotten everything!

Then the next day I did my 2600 crunches. I use the term "crunch" here liberally. Its more like 6-10 different crunch positions that I do ~500 reps of in bursts of 100. I don't target just one muscle group. I do all the abs including the obliques and some glutes. I haven't done a weighted side crunch in awhile. I was doing 500 on each side with a 20# kettlebell. I only got 300 on each side with a 10# bell, and I swear to god those hurt ALL WEEKEND. I had done some crunches in the weeks previous, but nothing that involved holding weights. Holy crap people, 3 days for those muscles to recover. I am planning on doing more tonight, but not as many. I apparently can't jump in headfirst to my old routine (smacks self upside the head for being Captain Obvious).

But I am coming back. It may be the post-TOM bloat is gone, but my core feels stronger and my waist is more defined. Exercise feels GOOD. Good good. The sore muscles felt GOOD. The stupid arm is ALMOST closed. I almost have an armpit again. So suck it armpit, I'm working out!

Right now I'm going to focus on muscle tone and getting that back, and my cardio endurance. My arms are flabby again. Mainly since I haven't lifted anything since November. My right arm still has some fluid in it, but my left one has no excuse. Its going to get shapely again soon. I mean I didn't go through the arm surgeries to remove excess skin to just let them get flabby! I'm going to get a license for my guns this summer. ;-)

In other news (yea, there's still MORE news). TJ's trying to figure out his budget to see how much he wants to spend on my engagement ring. *cue silly girl happy dance of epic proportions* Apparently since EVERY single person that meets me and him together tells him to "wife me up" immediately, he's gotten more serious. His mom and step dad and two best friends are basically yelling at him for taking his time with me ;-) I like them.

Haha, I'm going to have my mom call the Zoo this week to see how much it costs to get married there. I'm kinda set on it, so hopefully its not too expensive. Okay -- blame Pinterest for me being crazy. You literally CANNOT go on Pinterest and ignore weddings. I have a whole dang board now! I'm a very silly girl. A very silly girl who is deciding to work out and watch TV instead of write. So I'm being productive with one thing right ;-)

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NIMIRRA137 3/20/2013 7:48AM

    Clothing sizes/designers suck! It's so frustrating to shop. Reading about your shopping experiences sound a lot like mine.

Good luck with the appraisal on the house!

Despite wearing a Ducks jersey, you're a Blues fan right? Go Tarasenko! He's the only player on the team that I know of and it's because his last name is the same as my bf's.

Squee! That's great that TJ is looking into rings! Pinterest and all the wedding stuff really can make you insane but it gives a lot of great ideas. I have my own "secret One Day" board that is all wedding stuff. My bf has a Pinterest and I don't want him seeing all the stuff I pin even though he knows about it.

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SKAHONEY4U 3/19/2013 6:08PM

    I have no idea how you do all of that and have time for your thesis! You are crazy! Also, I'm not going to make it in time to graduate in May, sadly. I should still be defending before the summer, though. Reality bites. Good luck!!!

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EMMYLOU010409 3/19/2013 10:40AM

    Busy gal! Great! And I'm impressed by your ability to work around your "injury" (surgery? busted arm? uh... incision?). YAY!

Oh, man, I started up Say Yes To the Dress. I Pin like crazy, and then get another dose from TLC. Wedding crazy, and we've only browsed rings! ;)

Yay for the healing arm! Don't forget to sleep! AND DO YOUR PAPER!

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LOLATURTLE 3/18/2013 4:39PM

    I'm tired just reading this!

You know those motivational posters that say, like, "someone busier than you is exercising right now."? I always read them "Sara is probably exercising right now." to make me get off my couch. emoticon

Way to go getting back to exercise! I know it feels slow, but you'll be back to your old routine before you know it!

I need to do more core work. A LOT more. And arms. Finally done with PT, so I can set my own workout schedule a little better. WOOOO!

My thesis advice is when you feel like you can't do anything, do the easy stuff first. Methods, format your references, go through any rough draft stuff you have or previous papers & make sure all the refs are there, etc. Block out a section. Whenever you get stuck, go add something to a different section. Anything to keep from "sitting still!" Good luck!!

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CHODGES83 3/18/2013 2:21PM

    I think I've commented on this before, after 15yrs of retail I still can't walk into a store and now what size I am.

Sounds like you're going to be busy for awhile! Keep at it girl!

I love the idea of having your wedding at the Zoo! Complete Awesomeness!

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AHTRAP 3/17/2013 11:45PM

    Whole lotta shakin' going on, eh? It's ridiculously cliche to say so, but take 'em one at a time. Don't worry about the appraisal, because it's going to come in at what it comes in. Get cracking on the writing, because I've seen too many friends in the throes of last minute thesis writing (or not seen them, as they turned into hermits or hermit crabs or some other such mollusk). And so on and so forth.

Glad that arm is back in commission.

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KIKKI-G 3/17/2013 10:33PM

    Agreed with Pintrest= ADDICTION and i'm not even planning on getting married anytime soon and I have a wedding board hahaha.

As for the sizing, I did windows/was a visual for H&M and even within the store the sizes varied. I could be a size 30 in one type of pant and a 34 in another.... strange!

but good luck on the Thesis, I find that I bang stuff out better under pressure anyways haha

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JUJUFISH 3/17/2013 9:38PM

    Wowsers! So much exciting news going on. Good luck on the appraisal and ring shopping.

As someone who spent very very little time sleeping last week finishing her thesis, try to resist the TV and Pinterest. Sleep deprivation really really sucks!

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48 hours of progress!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Well a few burdens have been lifted off my shoulders.

First. My house went on the market yesterday morning. By 11 there was someone looking at it. At five another group looked at it. I had an offer before 4PM. Now it wasn't a great offer, and the buyers want $4k in closing costs, so we couldn't accept it. They raised their offer enough to make us reconsider -- now we're just hoping the house appraises for what they are willing to pay for it.

SO my house is under contract after only being on the market A DAY! And before we went under contract, two more people signed up to view it today. They cancelled later, but still, crazy! So far inspections are Friday, and then the appraisal will be sometime later in March. But until then... we're in the waiting game. I kind of like the fact that a bunch of strangers aren't going to come tearing through... (hello paranoid parrot -- I cleaned my bathrooms again with clorox wipes before I used them)

There was a bit of a back and forth today with some showing scheduled, then unscheduled once the buyers singed our counteroffer -- but no point in thinking about it now... heck its made me LESS worried for god's sake! If this doesn't work out, we know that people WILL want to come look at the house.

In other news -- Monday morning was spent presenting to my lab. Which basically entails my boss interrupting me every 30 seconds for 80 minutes. Yep. It used to annoy me, now I just started talking over him if need be. I had a lot of changes to make before my committee meeting -- but the comments WERE helpful. I DID listen. I then scheduled meetings with like 3 other people I need to meet with to understand the data they gave us or to pick their brain about a possible mechanism to help explain our data... its kind of a mess!

Plus I had to get stuff done in the hood... Plus I had to work on the powerpoint... Plus there were people in my house looking after work so I couldn't go home... So with the offer, deciding to reject the offer, and then the late night offer/counteroffer that went on -- yesterday was soooo busy!

And now today: committee meeting was at 1. Left 2:30-2:45. It went okay. Also helpful. But they didn't really like some of my data. I have holes. I have gaps. I don't have a clear story for my thesis. I do have the ability to prove my own hypotheses are wrong though! That should count for something right? Haha, in science people only want data that makes sense. Ideas and hypothesis that have clear answers. When you get results that make you go, "wait.... what!?" People tend to make you want to do more work to figure it out... except I really do want to graduate.

So my plan is to get the heck out of dodge by May! The committee gave me the go ahead to submit my thesis to them April 19th and defend on April 26th. Sometime in here I am also going to a meeting and two weddings. SO I need to get hustling. Just hearing the YES we will read it made me feel better. So now even though its seven o'clock I feel like I really should just sit at my counter all night and keep working.

WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT I SHOULD DO. I am going to try to avoid turning on the TV at all costs. TV = evil distraction box. Productive/motivated Sara should stay exactly where she is and crank out this thesis.

I was thinking about doing 30 minutes on the treadmill though. I just ate though, and drank a diet soda (dumb) so treadmill RIGHT now would be a bad idea. SO productive it is for now!

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IMAUNIONGIRL 3/15/2013 10:07AM

  Congrats on your house and having your thesis considered!

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SKAHONEY4U 3/13/2013 4:16PM

    I am in the EXACT same boat as you. Last week the cancer center had Research Days where we all are forced to do posters. My last judge was a real hardass and basically told me that I A. don't have a story, B. have no mechanism, and C. proved nothing (kind of all the same thing, but I seriously almost cried. PhD's aren't just about getting clean beautiful data. It's not magic, it's science! I also ended up disproving my aim 2 hypothesis and have no idea what to say it is. I don't get official approval to defend until I submit this damn paper, and I'm still waiting on things out of my control to finish it. That and I am SERIOUSLY struggling with the discussion section...probably because I don't have any! UGH!!!

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    WOW ! What a week you have had so far! Hope the deal on the house goes thru!

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EMMYLOU010409 3/13/2013 9:45AM

    THESIS! NOW! :)

Congrats on getting through your presentation! And on the house! Please send some of that good luck my way when I put my house up this summer!

And I would totally wipe down the bathroom after the intruders left, too! IT'S NOT YOUR HOUSE YET, DON'T TOUCH ANYTHING!

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ADARKARA 3/12/2013 8:06PM

    GO WORK ON YOUR THESIS!!! emoticon

That's so great you already have your house under contract! I thought that might have been what news you'd gotten. Congrats!

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BEECHNUT13 3/12/2013 8:04PM

    Ugh... committees... I feel your pain, sistah.

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Someone make me productive!

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Ahhhhh... I've reached the point where I should be freaking out... but I'm not. I'm presenting tomorrow morning to my lab, then to my committee Tuesday. And I somehow can't get myself moving. I literally feel like I don't care. What. Is. Wrong. With. Me?

I have goofed off all day practically and somewhat yesterday. I reorganized the garage with TJ. For some reason, felt PMSy and slightly annoyed for no reason the whole day Saturday, so I got nothing done. Really. Nothing. Felt like it was okay to take a breather. Then today... same thing. Ugh.

My fitness is down for the last few days. I haven't worked out other than cleaning, so its not like I feel like I'm doing anything productive. I feel so indifferent and blasť about life that I am really starting to weird myself out.

I have no food plan for the week... no work plan for the week... no plan. I think I'm starting to get freaked out by the reality of having people in my house. The listing goes up on the MLS tomorrow, so theoretically people could start coming tomorrow if my broker has people lined up. I picked up after TJ left so that I would stop watching TV and feeling lazy. Only to get back on my laptop and goof off on the internet for like another 90 minutes... *facepalm.

Someone come slap me. Or better yet, freak me out to the point of productivity. I tried just spending 5 minutes working out to get myself going, but that didn't work. My office is officially turned into an office/workout space. Everything is in there all organized so I can use it as needed. My bike is set up. My treadmill is set up (and seriously so dusty it was depressing). The arm looks better again. The doc told me Friday to start stretching it, so I don't lock up my shoulder or let the skin get too tight (really after three months I finally hear that~!).

Ugh... everyone keeps telling me its going to be all right, the committee will let me graduate, but I just won't know until Tuesday afternoon. Perfect time for Shark Week to start right?! Sometimes I think mother nature is one sick bit*h.

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BRADMILL2922 3/12/2013 3:52AM

    Good luck for Tuesday! I hope Monday went well for you!

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DB1167 3/11/2013 9:57AM

    GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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ADARKARA 3/11/2013 9:16AM

    OMG it's Shark Week?! I always forget about it until it's here!

I'll be thinking about you today as you present! I know you'll do great!

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EMMYLOU010409 3/11/2013 9:03AM

    If you start doing things, time will go by quickly, means Tuesday afternoon will approach quicker, which means graduation will come quicker, and your arm will heal faster, and... uh, well, JUST MOVE! COME ON, GIRL! GO GO GO GO GO GO!

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SKAHONEY4U 3/10/2013 11:39PM

    We will be fine and both graduate in May!! Also, I need a kick in the ass too. I relaxed all weekend, even got a pedicure. Didn't write a word, and my cells may have died (ugh). I. Seriously. Need. To. Write.

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JUJUFISH 3/10/2013 11:11PM

    I'm in the exact same boat, right down to Shark Week. Kudos to you for having that much written! I have 1.5ish pages to go. Only problem is that my completed draft was due Friday. I've been in the same funk for the last week, except also with the desire to punch people in the face on occasion. After talking to some of my old colleagues, it sounds like it's just part of the thesising process.

You will pull it together. You will present completed slides. And you've done the work, so you will graduate.

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