Tuesday, March 05, 2013
I was supposed to present at lab meeting tomorrow morning with my presentation that I will give to my committee meeting on March 12th. Obviously I'm nowhere near ready with all the house stuff going on.
I got my boss to push it to Friday... and then it ended up getting rescheduled to Monday, the day before my committee meeting. This is GOOD. This gives me time to devote to that, plus I will have my final version by then *hopefully -- and then the rest of Monday to retool it for my committee meeting on Tuesday.
I feel like a weight has been lifted and I no longer feel like puking from the stress. Regardless of this I have still done at least 10 minutes of exercise each day. I am determined to streak into spring with Spark. My arm is healing! I can actually tell every day how much my skin is closing. I've got about 1" wide and 4" long now instead of over 3" wide and 6" long. Its a big improvement. It still bugs me when I try to reach over my head, so I'm trying not to do that.
On the house front, the realtor comes tomorrow to make the youtube video and take photos. My mom is stressing. There's still a lot of little things to be done. So my goal for today is to stay here until three and make some real progress on my powerpoint presentation, even if it is a rough draft, and then go home and help her finish up and try to keep her panic down.
I swear I get all of my anxiety issues from her, but both her and my dad are on anti-anxiety meds. I just borrow them for times like this where I make myself sick with worry. The realtor popped by yesterday and was impressed at what had been done -- so he was really positive. Its just a lot of little projects that my mom think are essential, but in reality won't show up in pictures. (she wants to pull the washer and dryer out and clean behind them?!)
So that's pretty much it. I did another 50 squats last night while watching the Biggest Loser and got in around 250-300 crunches. I'm taking it slow... slowly building my muscles back up. Seeing what doesn't hurt my arm... I'm telling you though, once this sucker closes, I'm needing to get some cardio endurance back. And I will get back up to 2000 crunches before the end of April. I am just glad that at least I know that I can stay at a maintenance level. Not counting calories but trying to eat better, and not exercising and I still have only gained less than 10 pounds through this whole surgery debacle. I can only use this as fuel to get moving again once I'm able.
Hopefully the house will sell quickly.
Hopefully my committee makes no fuss next Tuesday and quickly agrees to let me defend on April 26th.
Hopefully I get the job interview in April in St. Louis.
My mindset is better than it has been the last few days. My mom is even taking my dogs back with her tomorrow to live at her house so that I can focus on keeping the house show ready and I can stay at work longer focusing on writing my dissertation. Its going to suck but at least I know its only for the short term.
Okay everyone -- if I can keep myself positive through all of this stress and get in more than 10 minutes of exercise every day -- you can too!
Monday, March 04, 2013
My house needs to go on the market ASAP.... there was a ton of stuff we needed to do to it first apparently to get it ready. A lot of cleaning, packing, decluttering, and then projects on the house like changing light fixtures and curtain rods we wanted to keep (since the house isn't work any $$ we're taking down a lot of the expensive fixtures).
New back door, paint the garage entry door (which took 4 hours to scrape the old paint off it), new carpet was a debacle (still waiting to hear back about having an inspector come check it out), cleaning the bathrooms, painting the front door, painting the baseboards and tub surround in my bathroom, painting a few ceilings, painting some trim that's bad, adding trim to cover up stuff that is bad ;-) , etc... the list goes on.
And I'm still technically injured so now one really wants me to help, but I have to help.
Plus I have a major thing due at work this week.
My committee meeting is next Tuesday and I'm no where near ready for that.
And it has just been a clusterf**k of craziness and stress lately.
I'm getting a good workout in with all the moving and walking and painting though. My armband doesn't seem to think so though... its weird. Days where I walk a lot it gives me tons of fitness minutes. Days where I do work constantly from sun up to sun down, nope. Barely any. I guess its more strength training that "moderate exercise" which is what it is supposed to track. Its weird.
My backside is definitely still sore. I decided that I will be doing squats everyday and I might as well get a good booty if I'm going to be growing a belly of stress eating food. It hasn't been that bad. Usually I'm too busy to stuff my face full, but there are times where I just can't seem to get enough to eat.
Last night amid cursing from my father, where he accidentally spit in my face while I was below him holding a ladder, I just had to walk off and chew about five tums. My anxiety over it all made me nauseous.
The realtor is coming Wednesday to take professional pictures and a youtube video of the house. My mom is staying to help clean. My sister Beth helped get the two bathrooms sparkling clean this weekend. She was going to stay later but her husband's grandfather passed away and the wake is today and the funeral is tomorrow. She doesn't really want to go, as they are heavy drinkers and they try and force her as a non-drinker to drive their sloppy a$$es around, but she knew she had to leave. Its too bad though, I've never seen my tub that clean~!
We got my father to help us finish up the majority of the projects... its just a matter of cleaning and some minor painting. When I called the carpet company, they offered to have someone come out and redo all of the seams since they are crunchy -- which means it was put down wrong... But that would mean moving all the furniture and we just don't have time or energy... So basically I just want some money back... give me a discount and I'll ignore it. I spent 30 minutes on the phone with them this morning, and a St. Louis rep was supposed to call us back around 10... and they still haven't.
So now I'm at work trying desperately to get some work done and my mom is at my house doing the same. Its stressful for her so i dont know what to do to help her.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
I can't really post more good lyrics from The Nappy Roots, but the beginning of the song is stuck in my head.
My mom and sister are currently cleaning out my house getting it show ready. I had a phone interview with an HR rep at a company in St. Louis. He said he was going to personally walk my CV over to the hiring managers for two different jobs!!!!!
They apparently need to fill these positions quickly, but they will be hiring again closer to the time that I will be graduating. I told him the earliest I could start would be May 13th!
I should hopefully get a call to set up an interview in April, for the job in May if they like me. But he made the comment that he remembered talking to me almost a year later, so that's a really good sign that I have a personality that is memorable.
I'm over the moon. He also said that if no one here would hire me, he has contacts at other businesses in StL that could also potentially hire me if his company didn't, but he wanted the first shot.
I mean, good, good, good, eeee! Super positive. I'm waiting to work on an experiment in the hood. I'm planning on working late a lot, even while my family is here to get stuff done.
The end is nearing and coming up quickly, but grad school for me has been a great time. The only thing that really freaks me out is uncertainty that gives me anxiety.
My family is making a push to get everything done on the house that we can inside while the snow is going crazy outside. The realtor is coming in March 6th to take pictures and make a YouTube video of my house (haha, I'll post a link), and the plan is to add the listing March 11th!
The plan is to sell it as quickly as possible. We are going to be reasonable about it. Its worth less than I paid for it, so at this point, its not worth arguing over $1000. Now $3000 I will argue over! Its going to be a loss for us, my equity is going to go back to repaying the loan from my grandmother and the realtor fees and nothing else. Nada. Zip. Zilch. If I get rid of it before I leave here though, I'll just move in with a friend and her husband/girls for a month or two. That will probably make me much more efficient at working too. And the most exciting part for me will be NO MORE MORTGAGE payment! Ugh, that's a burden off my shoulders too.
So all in all I'm having a really good day. Good job prospects, my family is helping to clean while I work on school, and I have a strong job lead. No interview yet, but hopefully soon, once I've calmed down a bit!
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Seriously. Snow. Stop it.
Another winter storm blew through Columbia last night. I haven’t been outside, but they’re reporting we got 7” more snow! Ugh, the nerve! I need to get outside and shovel before it freezes, but I’m all warm and cuddled inside my house. I just need to graduate so that I can get my boyfriend to shovel all the snow for me ;-)
SO a recap. Last week 13” of snow. It sucked. I shoveled part of it, and my neighbor with a snow blower got the rest! I made him and another neighbor cookies for their trouble, and then had a few. Actually I was so tired after shoveling and making cookies while they used the snow blower, that I ate 3 cookies and my nighttime meds and went to bed early!
My stupid arm is still stupid. Its healing though. I can finally really see progress as the scar borders start to fill in. The incision wound is also much, much shallower so its really filling in from underneath as well. The problem is that my stupid arm is becoming super painful. The nerve blocker I’m on is just not enough. I have finally increased it to twice a day if I’m working to cut down on the pain, I’m becoming less zombified on it, so there’s a plus.
I think the weather is what’s bugging it lately. My left arm scars were hurting a little bit last week, so it makes sense that the incision would hurt + nerve damage = spasms of pain. Plus I was using my arm more – but not stretching the skin – but the increased activity did its toll.
Upping my heart rate and cardio seems to be out. Even low impact stuff, if I really get going, causes a little too much of an increase in my blood pressure to be pleasant. I have so many weights in my garage right now that I want to lift. I need muscles to feel good… so this whole break is really doing a number on me mentally. I’m super positive about what I WILL do, its just a matter of being annoyed and aggravated that I CAN’T do it YET. But I will…
This weekend my dad and TJ came down to help me get ready for the carpet install on Saturday. Well I should say the carpet install that was scheduled for Saturday. When I got the confirmation call on Friday I double and triple checked that they WERE coming. I had 2 people driving in to help me, so I wanted to make sure the carpet was coming before I had them drive in the snow.
So they showed up, we finished ripping up carpet and pad and cleaning and moving everything but the beds out of the house on Friday. Woke up super early on Saturday and cooked breakfast and cleaned and moved the beds in the bathrooms and threw all of my clothes on top of them. And waited. And waited. They were supposed to show up from 8-10AM. So at 10:15 I was on the phone. 15 minutes and 3 phone calls later I was on the phone with the right person who called the installer… over… and over… and then she said she would call me back. Turns out the installer was ignoring his phone calls from his company. His van was “not working in the snow” or something, but instead of telling them this at 8AM he waited three hours to finally take a phone call from them at 11AM. By the time they got this sorted out, and I gave them my whole “it needs to happen today, I’m injured, people drove… (all very polite)” message – it was literally too late for anyone to pick up the carpet from the warehouse which had closed.
So they put me down for Monday and said their installers would move my furniture. And they WOULD be there from 9-11AM and they would compensate me, and they were sorry, yadda, yadda, yadda…
So by this time it was almost noon! We dragged the beds back out of the bathrooms. I hung all of my clothes up again… and showered. I was angry. My house was all shoved into my garage, diningroom, and kitchen. And no carpet. It was a wreck.
We ended up painting two ceilings and I painted some baseboards and were able to do small projects on Saturday and Sunday (and spent 2 hours at the gun range Sunday morning—my dad and TJ bonded over shooting guns—it was werid!). TJ left because he had to go to work, but I had my dad stay. I didn’t want strangers in my house with me alone.
Monday morning came. I went to get an oil change… no installers… By the time I got back at 10:30, I wasn’t waiting for them to be late. I was assured at 10:45 that the installers were coming, they were just going to be late. They finally showed up at 11:20 and didn’t leave until after 5PM. Yes. You read that right. 2 guys took over five hours to install carpet in three small bedrooms, one hallway, and a livingroom. That’s RIDICULOUS! Max 3 hours. I’ve talked to several people about how long their installers took. My mom had hers done with a larger area and it was only 1.5 hours!
It was frustrating. And apparently no one told them they were going to move the furniture back or haul away our carpet… so they were kind of grumpy by the end. One of the guys spoke no English, but he was very nice. The other guy spoke English but he had a very thick accent and spoke way too fast. I took Spanish, but its been awhile, and I was honestly trying to listen to what he said to me, but I couldn’t understand half of what he said. They also got dirty fingerprints on ALL of my doors. Not like small smudges but full handprints on both sides of my doors. They nicked the baseboard in one room. Rehung a door improperly and left it installed badly. And by the end of the day I was just going nuts.
The dogs were freaked out. I was annoyed it took so long. My dad needed to get home before the storm hit. I needed to GO TO WORK during the storm since they took so long. It was stressful. My anxiety was through the roof. I have so much work to do to graduate and my committee meeting is two weeks away. But today I’ve just been catching up. I slept in (ha, until 7:15). Then relaxed a bit to calm my nerves. I need to put my office back together and go in there to seriously work for a bit, but now I think I need to head out to shovel before I do.
The power keeps flickering, so I was kind of waiting to see if it was going to go out. I think it should stay on *knock on wood*, so I’ll go out and shovel and pop in for a quick hot shower to warm back up.
Then working… I need to be working… ! Oh and its me, so I need a new manicure, but it will be simple.
My dad will be back next weekend to finish light fixture projects, my mom and sister might come out later this week to help deep clean… and I need to talk to a company in StL about a job on Thursday.
My nerves are starting to fray like crazy… the endtimes of a grad student have broken many a person~! Luckily I have a good group of people around me which helps out. I just need to pick up the slack on my end and buckle down hard!
Friday, February 22, 2013
Yesterday it snowed... and snowed... and snowed... a total of 13"! Plus snow drifts over 2" in my front yard. Ugh.
So I shoveled. I had to. And now my back hurts like a fiend! The plows have yet to reach my street. Apparently the jerks made it all the way to the street over from me and gave up... and haven't been back since! What the heck! I am the last street out here -- so they literally had 2 streets left to plow in my neighborhood and they LEFT!
So I'm stuck. According to the volunteer firefighter across the street -- cars all over my neighborhood are stuck. One neighbor had to ditch his car a mile away and walk to his house... so until the plows decide to come to my street, I officially will be unable to leave my house.
And I have a big experiment to do in lab... and cells that need to be fed. So this whole 4-6" of snow prediction is crap. 13" is not 4"~! The plows in town have gotten most everything cleared, but who knows when the county will come back out to plow my street.... Grr....
One good thing from yesterday -- I submitted a job application and contacted a HR rep on LinkedIN. AND he got back to me! I have a phone interview with him next Thursday to talk about the company and my career goals... which I need to figure out, lol!
I'm going to go get ready for the day -- get my hair done, new bandage on, and try to go shovel some snow and clear my car off again. I got the snow drift off it and turned it on yesterday to melt the ice, but now there's new ice and another 3" of snow on it... and I AM going to lab today. I only have 63 days until my defense, so I don't have time to waste.
And the carpet install... it was supposed to be Saturday. My dad was going to drive to my house today, and TJ was going to drive in after work. So far I've told my dad to wait until I confirm the install and TJ hasn't responded to my texts, so I assume he's stuck in StL traffic on his way to work. I called Home Depot, but there aren't enough people at the store to answer my question. I was told to call back in a few hours.... no joke... so I have no idea if its happening... if I should tell people to come in to town to help... and if I'll get to work.
Oh... can you tell I HATE SNOW!? Ugh... I'm a grumpy cat today. And apparently an adult (or just a crazy grad student) since I can't wait to get to lab!
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