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Busy bee!

Friday, March 08, 2013

Well the house is clean. Its so clean I don't want to touch anything! The realtor is making the listing live on Monday, so from then on its going to be hopefully sold quickly and viewed by a ton of people. I practiced cleaning today before I went to work. The bathroom is spotless. The kitchen is spotless, heck everything is. So I'll get at least 5-10 minutes of cleaning in every morning before I leave for work and that basically counts as some "exercise" if I rush right? ;-)

Otherwise, my mom took my pups away yesterday :-( I need to focus on thesis writing and keeping the house clean, so its just one less thing for me to worry about if they aren't here... But not having a dog to cuddle, or realizing this morning that I made too many eggs cause the dogs aren't here to clean the plate, oh and the fact that I actually have to clean my plate myself, lol.

So yea. That's gonna suck. Hopefully I'll be more focused on working if the house is so clean and empty.

In other news, my weight is up, but I feel great. I don't feel fat. I think my clothes look good, its just annoying that the scale doesn't seem to realize that I am awesome.

I finally have my treadmill set up again. Still haven't used it yet. I've been too busy! Tuesday I only had 26 minutes of activity according to my Body Media armband, but I burned over 2600 calories that day. Then Wednesday I had 57 minutes of activity but only burned 2200 calories that day. So its weird. I was non-stop moving and burned more calories on Tuesday but not "fast" enough for the armband to track it, then Wednesday I was walking for longer (to and from the bookstore) but my METs that day weren't as high, so I burned less. Oh well. I've gotten lazy about tracking my fitness minutes, I just let the armband do it for me ;-)

In arm news -- it is healing. I saw the doc on Wednesday and he burned me with some silver nitrate. It was seriously gross. I had a nodule that was preventing the skin from healing on one side... so we chemically burned it off. Basically turned it into elephant skin that fell off. For the first time I was even grossed out! It hurt a little bit once it was over, and more once it fell off. I have to go back in less than 2 hours and do it again. *soooo not excited BUT it is closing so I will do whatever it takes to finish this sucker up so that I can get on with my life.

AND now I'll get back to doing what I'm supposed to be doing... my thesis writing and making my powerpoint presentation for my committee meeting on Tuesday *eep!

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EMMYLOU010409 3/10/2013 7:45PM

    Oh, oh, man. I am so sorry you're without pups right now. Long story short, my mom said something like, "Oh, we'd just take care of Loki during that time" and I go, "Absolutely not. You think I'm going to survive without him for 2 months?!"

STAY STRONG! On the pup aspect, the arm, the working out, the moving, the real estate-- everything! You're doing great!

Oo, sparkly clean!

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AHTRAP 3/8/2013 2:24PM

    You ever have to use silver nitrate in lab? If yes, I bet the next time you touch the stuff, you'll have a half smirk/half grimace on your face.

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S-N-I-P 3/8/2013 2:11PM

    Busy Bee indeed

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CHODGES83 3/8/2013 1:31PM

    emoticonJust Toss that scale & show it how awesome you are! emoticon

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CAGMUAHFO2 3/8/2013 1:08PM

    Glad the house is getting finished and the listing posted!! Sorry about your pups!! I would be lost without mine. Hang in there though. YAY on your arms healing!! Good luck with your thesis and presentation!!

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REDDBETSY 3/8/2013 12:58PM

    I think that you are amazing! So glad that your arm is progressing!
I know you miss your babies-- ((HUGS)).

Good Luck with thesis and presentation! Your presentations always look amazing, and you know it, but luck anyway!

(*Knocks Wood* for Speedy House Sale)

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ADARKARA 3/8/2013 12:35PM

    You ARE awesome!!! Keep up the great work!

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ENDERLI 3/8/2013 12:09PM

    You ARE awesome....your scale is just in denial! LOL!

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Thank God for Extensions!

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

I was supposed to present at lab meeting tomorrow morning with my presentation that I will give to my committee meeting on March 12th. Obviously I'm nowhere near ready with all the house stuff going on.

I got my boss to push it to Friday... and then it ended up getting rescheduled to Monday, the day before my committee meeting. This is GOOD. This gives me time to devote to that, plus I will have my final version by then *hopefully -- and then the rest of Monday to retool it for my committee meeting on Tuesday.

I feel like a weight has been lifted and I no longer feel like puking from the stress. Regardless of this I have still done at least 10 minutes of exercise each day. I am determined to streak into spring with Spark. My arm is healing! I can actually tell every day how much my skin is closing. I've got about 1" wide and 4" long now instead of over 3" wide and 6" long. Its a big improvement. It still bugs me when I try to reach over my head, so I'm trying not to do that.

On the house front, the realtor comes tomorrow to make the youtube video and take photos. My mom is stressing. There's still a lot of little things to be done. So my goal for today is to stay here until three and make some real progress on my powerpoint presentation, even if it is a rough draft, and then go home and help her finish up and try to keep her panic down.

I swear I get all of my anxiety issues from her, but both her and my dad are on anti-anxiety meds. I just borrow them for times like this where I make myself sick with worry. The realtor popped by yesterday and was impressed at what had been done -- so he was really positive. Its just a lot of little projects that my mom think are essential, but in reality won't show up in pictures. (she wants to pull the washer and dryer out and clean behind them?!)

So that's pretty much it. I did another 50 squats last night while watching the Biggest Loser and got in around 250-300 crunches. I'm taking it slow... slowly building my muscles back up. Seeing what doesn't hurt my arm... I'm telling you though, once this sucker closes, I'm needing to get some cardio endurance back. And I will get back up to 2000 crunches before the end of April. I am just glad that at least I know that I can stay at a maintenance level. Not counting calories but trying to eat better, and not exercising and I still have only gained less than 10 pounds through this whole surgery debacle. I can only use this as fuel to get moving again once I'm able.

Hopefully the house will sell quickly.

Hopefully my committee makes no fuss next Tuesday and quickly agrees to let me defend on April 26th.

Hopefully I get the job interview in April in St. Louis.

My mindset is better than it has been the last few days. My mom is even taking my dogs back with her tomorrow to live at her house so that I can focus on keeping the house show ready and I can stay at work longer focusing on writing my dissertation. Its going to suck but at least I know its only for the short term.

Okay everyone -- if I can keep myself positive through all of this stress and get in more than 10 minutes of exercise every day -- you can too!

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NIKKICOLE83 3/6/2013 9:39PM

    This might sound horrible, but when I read your blog title, I thought you were talking about HAIR extensions!!! They DO tend to make everything better! emoticon

I am glad that your arm is starting to heal up. You deserve a reprieve for that. And hopefully the house sells quickly so you can get to St. Louis.

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LOLATURTLE 3/5/2013 3:18PM

    YAY, so much good news after all the stress! Don't stress over the little things on the house, really. I can't imagine it won't sell because there's dust in one corner or something; people don't care about that stuff, they care about like permanent unfixable things. It will be fine.

AH, extension! Ahhhhh. Just reading "committee meeting" gives me hives, haha. Good luck with your presentations! You'll be awesome.

And I saved the best for last: YAY OMG YAY YOUR ARM IS HEALING YAY!!!!!!!!!

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SPARK_JO 3/5/2013 3:16PM

    I thought this entry would be about hairstyle :)

Glad to see you're healing well.

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CHODGES83 3/5/2013 1:55PM

    Sounds like your arm is finally healing! Great news all around! You've got this!

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AHTRAP 3/5/2013 1:43PM

    Glad your boss was responsive to whatever signals you were giving (silent or otherwise).

Really glad your arm is finally closing up.

Your hopefullies reminded me of the end of the Shawshank Redemption

re's to that committee recognizing your brilliance without any fussiness.

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    Everything is starting to sound pretty bright over there!! Good!! I'm glad you're finally seeing some progress with your arm, that's great.

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ATTACKFATCAT 3/5/2013 12:36PM

    YAY that your arm is finally healing! Definitely keep doing what your doing!

I've had anxiety issues for a long time, and it's still a struggle even now. Sometimes I have to sit down and write out a list of things I can control vs. things I can't. The things I can control I write down what my next step should be on those. I try to focus on those and push the things I can't control out of my mind. I'm not always successful, but writing it down sometimes helps pull it out of my head.

Glad your meeting was rescheduled! And way to go on that exercise streak!

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ADARKARA 3/5/2013 12:35PM

    Yay! Keep positive and good things will happen.

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    Lots going on in your life right now! Absolutely, your attitude is an inspiration.


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Super Stressed Right Now

Monday, March 04, 2013

My house needs to go on the market ASAP.... there was a ton of stuff we needed to do to it first apparently to get it ready. A lot of cleaning, packing, decluttering, and then projects on the house like changing light fixtures and curtain rods we wanted to keep (since the house isn't work any $$ we're taking down a lot of the expensive fixtures).

New back door, paint the garage entry door (which took 4 hours to scrape the old paint off it), new carpet was a debacle (still waiting to hear back about having an inspector come check it out), cleaning the bathrooms, painting the front door, painting the baseboards and tub surround in my bathroom, painting a few ceilings, painting some trim that's bad, adding trim to cover up stuff that is bad ;-) , etc... the list goes on.

And I'm still technically injured so now one really wants me to help, but I have to help.

Plus I have a major thing due at work this week.

My committee meeting is next Tuesday and I'm no where near ready for that.

And it has just been a clusterf**k of craziness and stress lately.

I'm getting a good workout in with all the moving and walking and painting though. My armband doesn't seem to think so though... its weird. Days where I walk a lot it gives me tons of fitness minutes. Days where I do work constantly from sun up to sun down, nope. Barely any. I guess its more strength training that "moderate exercise" which is what it is supposed to track. Its weird.

My backside is definitely still sore. I decided that I will be doing squats everyday and I might as well get a good booty if I'm going to be growing a belly of stress eating food. It hasn't been that bad. Usually I'm too busy to stuff my face full, but there are times where I just can't seem to get enough to eat.

Last night amid cursing from my father, where he accidentally spit in my face while I was below him holding a ladder, I just had to walk off and chew about five tums. My anxiety over it all made me nauseous.

The realtor is coming Wednesday to take professional pictures and a youtube video of the house. My mom is staying to help clean. My sister Beth helped get the two bathrooms sparkling clean this weekend. She was going to stay later but her husband's grandfather passed away and the wake is today and the funeral is tomorrow. She doesn't really want to go, as they are heavy drinkers and they try and force her as a non-drinker to drive their sloppy a$$es around, but she knew she had to leave. Its too bad though, I've never seen my tub that clean~!

We got my father to help us finish up the majority of the projects... its just a matter of cleaning and some minor painting. When I called the carpet company, they offered to have someone come out and redo all of the seams since they are crunchy -- which means it was put down wrong... But that would mean moving all the furniture and we just don't have time or energy... So basically I just want some money back... give me a discount and I'll ignore it. I spent 30 minutes on the phone with them this morning, and a St. Louis rep was supposed to call us back around 10... and they still haven't.

So now I'm at work trying desperately to get some work done and my mom is at my house doing the same. Its stressful for her so i dont know what to do to help her.

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EMMYLOU010409 3/4/2013 9:00PM

    Oof! Stay strong! I know it's so hard to "be idle" while everyone else is working (I hate it), but remember they don't want you to do work out of love-- they care about you!

Maybe try to find a pocket of time, be it 5 minutes or 30, to just sit and breathe, reminding yourself of good things.

Good luck! You'll get through this!

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CAGMUAHFO2 3/4/2013 1:43PM

    Oh wow!! You do have a lot of stress on you right now. I would say to try to take a deep breath and try to relax but I know that is much easier said than done. Just try to remember that it will all be over before you know it and the stress will be gone. Hope thigns get better for you really soon!! emoticon

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S-N-I-P 3/4/2013 1:39PM

    Just hang in there, a storm does not last forever...

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ATTACKFATCAT 3/4/2013 1:30PM

    I know the house needs to go on the market soon, but make some time and prioritize the work and committee meeting stuff. The house will still be there next Wednesday, but that other stuff won't be. Also try not to push yourself too hard and lean on your family for support. I'm sure with your injury and everything else going on, they'll be more than willing to help if you have to focus on stuff that's work-related!

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IJUSTNEED10 3/4/2013 1:00PM

    Okay just take it easy, one thing at a time, try not to think about all that you have to do, work on what you can do. You don't want to go crazy doing things you shouldn't be doing with your body you don't want to end up reinjuring it and making your recovery longer. Your health comes first because without you all this work means nothing. ((Hugs))

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AMBERT27 3/4/2013 12:55PM

    Sorry about the stress. To-Do lists always help me. And delegate out your to-do lists to others!! Something I have to make mini to-do list off of my big to-do list to get anything accomplished. Good luck!

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We're gonna have a good day!

Thursday, February 28, 2013

I can't really post more good lyrics from The Nappy Roots, but the beginning of the song is stuck in my head.

My mom and sister are currently cleaning out my house getting it show ready. I had a phone interview with an HR rep at a company in St. Louis. He said he was going to personally walk my CV over to the hiring managers for two different jobs!!!!!

They apparently need to fill these positions quickly, but they will be hiring again closer to the time that I will be graduating. I told him the earliest I could start would be May 13th!

I should hopefully get a call to set up an interview in April, for the job in May if they like me. But he made the comment that he remembered talking to me almost a year later, so that's a really good sign that I have a personality that is memorable.

I'm over the moon. He also said that if no one here would hire me, he has contacts at other businesses in StL that could also potentially hire me if his company didn't, but he wanted the first shot.

I mean, good, good, good, eeee! Super positive. I'm waiting to work on an experiment in the hood. I'm planning on working late a lot, even while my family is here to get stuff done.

The end is nearing and coming up quickly, but grad school for me has been a great time. The only thing that really freaks me out is uncertainty that gives me anxiety.

My family is making a push to get everything done on the house that we can inside while the snow is going crazy outside. The realtor is coming in March 6th to take pictures and make a YouTube video of my house (haha, I'll post a link), and the plan is to add the listing March 11th!

The plan is to sell it as quickly as possible. We are going to be reasonable about it. Its worth less than I paid for it, so at this point, its not worth arguing over $1000. Now $3000 I will argue over! Its going to be a loss for us, my equity is going to go back to repaying the loan from my grandmother and the realtor fees and nothing else. Nada. Zip. Zilch. If I get rid of it before I leave here though, I'll just move in with a friend and her husband/girls for a month or two. That will probably make me much more efficient at working too. And the most exciting part for me will be NO MORE MORTGAGE payment! Ugh, that's a burden off my shoulders too.

So all in all I'm having a really good day. Good job prospects, my family is helping to clean while I work on school, and I have a strong job lead. No interview yet, but hopefully soon, once I've calmed down a bit!

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LOLATURTLE 3/1/2013 1:04PM

    Yay, I love happy news for awesome people. emoticon

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    Sounds like things are going well! emoticon

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RR1_RR1 3/1/2013 9:20AM

    Cool- looks like a bright future ahead! emoticon

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    That is great that he remembered you! Sounds like you have quite the opportunity there.

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AHTRAP 2/28/2013 11:27PM

    I read the line "waiting to do an experiment in the hood", and my brain went "oooh, ghetto chem!"

What kind of stuff are you working on, anyway?

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 2/28/2013 10:59PM


If buddy remembered you and he seems that into it... I think your job prospects are VERY good!!

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CAGMUAHFO2 2/28/2013 4:51PM

    emoticon That is all awesome news!!! I will keep my fingers crossed for you that everything turns out exactly like you want it to!!

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Can we quit it with all of the snow already?!?!

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Seriously. Snow. Stop it.

Another winter storm blew through Columbia last night. I haven’t been outside, but they’re reporting we got 7” more snow! Ugh, the nerve! I need to get outside and shovel before it freezes, but I’m all warm and cuddled inside my house. I just need to graduate so that I can get my boyfriend to shovel all the snow for me ;-)

SO a recap. Last week 13” of snow. It sucked. I shoveled part of it, and my neighbor with a snow blower got the rest! I made him and another neighbor cookies for their trouble, and then had a few. Actually I was so tired after shoveling and making cookies while they used the snow blower, that I ate 3 cookies and my nighttime meds and went to bed early!

My stupid arm is still stupid. Its healing though. I can finally really see progress as the scar borders start to fill in. The incision wound is also much, much shallower so its really filling in from underneath as well. The problem is that my stupid arm is becoming super painful. The nerve blocker I’m on is just not enough. I have finally increased it to twice a day if I’m working to cut down on the pain, I’m becoming less zombified on it, so there’s a plus.

I think the weather is what’s bugging it lately. My left arm scars were hurting a little bit last week, so it makes sense that the incision would hurt + nerve damage = spasms of pain. Plus I was using my arm more – but not stretching the skin – but the increased activity did its toll.

Upping my heart rate and cardio seems to be out. Even low impact stuff, if I really get going, causes a little too much of an increase in my blood pressure to be pleasant. I have so many weights in my garage right now that I want to lift. I need muscles to feel good… so this whole break is really doing a number on me mentally. I’m super positive about what I WILL do, its just a matter of being annoyed and aggravated that I CAN’T do it YET. But I will…

This weekend my dad and TJ came down to help me get ready for the carpet install on Saturday. Well I should say the carpet install that was scheduled for Saturday. When I got the confirmation call on Friday I double and triple checked that they WERE coming. I had 2 people driving in to help me, so I wanted to make sure the carpet was coming before I had them drive in the snow.

So they showed up, we finished ripping up carpet and pad and cleaning and moving everything but the beds out of the house on Friday. Woke up super early on Saturday and cooked breakfast and cleaned and moved the beds in the bathrooms and threw all of my clothes on top of them. And waited. And waited. They were supposed to show up from 8-10AM. So at 10:15 I was on the phone. 15 minutes and 3 phone calls later I was on the phone with the right person who called the installer… over… and over… and then she said she would call me back. Turns out the installer was ignoring his phone calls from his company. His van was “not working in the snow” or something, but instead of telling them this at 8AM he waited three hours to finally take a phone call from them at 11AM. By the time they got this sorted out, and I gave them my whole “it needs to happen today, I’m injured, people drove… (all very polite)” message – it was literally too late for anyone to pick up the carpet from the warehouse which had closed.

So they put me down for Monday and said their installers would move my furniture. And they WOULD be there from 9-11AM and they would compensate me, and they were sorry, yadda, yadda, yadda…

So by this time it was almost noon! We dragged the beds back out of the bathrooms. I hung all of my clothes up again… and showered. I was angry. My house was all shoved into my garage, diningroom, and kitchen. And no carpet. It was a wreck.

We ended up painting two ceilings and I painted some baseboards and were able to do small projects on Saturday and Sunday (and spent 2 hours at the gun range Sunday morning—my dad and TJ bonded over shooting guns—it was werid!). TJ left because he had to go to work, but I had my dad stay. I didn’t want strangers in my house with me alone.

Monday morning came. I went to get an oil change… no installers… By the time I got back at 10:30, I wasn’t waiting for them to be late. I was assured at 10:45 that the installers were coming, they were just going to be late. They finally showed up at 11:20 and didn’t leave until after 5PM. Yes. You read that right. 2 guys took over five hours to install carpet in three small bedrooms, one hallway, and a livingroom. That’s RIDICULOUS! Max 3 hours. I’ve talked to several people about how long their installers took. My mom had hers done with a larger area and it was only 1.5 hours!

It was frustrating. And apparently no one told them they were going to move the furniture back or haul away our carpet… so they were kind of grumpy by the end. One of the guys spoke no English, but he was very nice. The other guy spoke English but he had a very thick accent and spoke way too fast. I took Spanish, but its been awhile, and I was honestly trying to listen to what he said to me, but I couldn’t understand half of what he said. They also got dirty fingerprints on ALL of my doors. Not like small smudges but full handprints on both sides of my doors. They nicked the baseboard in one room. Rehung a door improperly and left it installed badly. And by the end of the day I was just going nuts.

The dogs were freaked out. I was annoyed it took so long. My dad needed to get home before the storm hit. I needed to GO TO WORK during the storm since they took so long. It was stressful. My anxiety was through the roof. I have so much work to do to graduate and my committee meeting is two weeks away. But today I’ve just been catching up. I slept in (ha, until 7:15). Then relaxed a bit to calm my nerves. I need to put my office back together and go in there to seriously work for a bit, but now I think I need to head out to shovel before I do.

The power keeps flickering, so I was kind of waiting to see if it was going to go out. I think it should stay on *knock on wood*, so I’ll go out and shovel and pop in for a quick hot shower to warm back up.

Then working… I need to be working… ! Oh and its me, so I need a new manicure, but it will be simple.

My dad will be back next weekend to finish light fixture projects, my mom and sister might come out later this week to help deep clean… and I need to talk to a company in StL about a job on Thursday.

My nerves are starting to fray like crazy… the endtimes of a grad student have broken many a person~! Luckily I have a good group of people around me which helps out. I just need to pick up the slack on my end and buckle down hard!

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    Goodness gracious what a pain in the pa-toot! Hopefully you've had a chance to calm down a bit!


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SUSIEGKORN 2/27/2013 2:35PM

    OMG you just can't get a break! It can only improve from here, right? Best to you, and hang tough!

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KIKKI-G 2/27/2013 12:07PM

    I feel the snow pain, I totally thought it was over & spring was on the way too but we got hit i'm pretty sure with the same/similar storm too....its still coming down as we speak and was alternating heavy rain and snow last night. its a slushy MESS outside.
but as MISTY_MOUNTAINS mentioned, the days are getting longer and its not bitter cold out so that makes me happy!
I'm not even going to touch your nightmare carpet experience as I would have ripped them a new one too so....good on you.

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 2/26/2013 4:18PM

    What a frickin' nightmare!! I think you're holding up pretty good, I would have lost my mind on those guys!!

I'm am also SO over the snow. We just got more here last night too. It's been crazy this year, I haven't seen snow like this for years. On the plus side, it hasn't been as cold these last couple days and the days are getting longer.... it's almost over!!

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CHODGES83 2/26/2013 3:30PM

    Thank goodness the snow keeps missing me!
(Knock on wood)

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REDDBETSY 2/26/2013 2:30PM

    Poor Sara!
Just remind yourself that the new carpet is in, and that the rest can be done in SMALL STEPS by you and your deep-cleaning-team.
Try Magic Eraser on the doors. It saved my house during those long-ago toddler years. (Magic Eraser and Baby Wipes can get Permanent Marker off of upholstered furniture, did you know?)

Remember, one step at a time. Calm. Focus.

Sorry it sucked so badly, though.
We got the snow, too-- Time for some thesis work!

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