Wednesday, October 05, 2011
I just saw this on Courtney's (from BL11) facebook page.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Weightloss in random places
So has anyone else noticed weight loss in random places? I know its weird, but the first thing I noticed was my wrist were skinny. Like normal person size wrists. I’ve always had the issue of finding watches that are larger or come with extra links – and now they are loose. Not that I wear a watch that much anymore, now with cellphones/ipods/laptop clocks – but it was just one of the weird thing I noticed.
So now my wrists are skinny, but my upper arms are still the same size. I lost 60 pounds, and maybe only an inch or so on my upper arms. I know everyone says it will all eventually go—but its annoying to want to buy fitted tops, and my southern grandma upper arms are ruining the look. I am the queen of cardigans and shrugs, so I just need to find some smaller fitted shrugs that will accommodate my upper arms.
The other place I noticed it was my midsection/trunk region. It was great to drop a few jean sizes and now I’m buying tops in everyday stores (which is a trip), but now I’ve lost my boobs. Goodbye full C, hello B. Thank god I am finally small enough that I can buy the miracle bra from Victoria’s secret and fake it! (I have never in my entire life been able to buy a VS bra – I’ve been mostly a Cacique bra wearer – and thank god they make cute bras!) So now I’m significantly smaller on top (thanks to the -60lbs!) but I still have got my booty.
My rear has shrunk a little bit. Its not as pronounced as it was, and I think its definitely changed its shape – my red Lane Bryant jeans just don’t fit – they fit in the waist, but now the butt’s a little saggy. But my thighs have only shrunk maybe 2” each (with a 60’ weight loss I guess I was expecting more…).
Not that I’m griping (okay maybe a little) but now my hourglass shape is quite a bit distorted. I’m almost a pear now – and jeans shopping has become a nightmare. My shape has definitely limited me to women’s jeans – no regular jeans for my curvy lowerhalf – so the hunt continues. I’ve been to about six different stores trying on jeans – only one pair of Liz Claiborne jeans worked – but they don’t come in tall. I learned that the hard way when I ordered some online in tall – they weren’t the ‘women’s’ LC jeans.
Yesterday MyHabit (an amazon thing) had some plus size clothing designers in their sale. While I didn’t get the crazy expensive jackets they had available, I did order two pairs of CJ by Cookie Johnson jeans (normally $165 – I got them for $49). They are supposed to have extra room in the butt and thigh so here’s to hoping they work. Then I saw they were on Oprah’s favorite things…. I am hoping they are just awesome jeans – but not gonna lie – after I saw that I’m really hoping that they aren’t “Mom Jeans.” Eep! I’ll know three days from now when I get to try them on. I didn’t have a good size chart so I ordered two different sizes. One of the really nice things about MyHabit is there is free shipping both ways (ie when you order and if you return) – so if they don’t work out I’m not out that much money.
If they don’t fit, I foresee a lot of skirts in my future. This week my mom picked up two of my Lane Bryant skirts that I had altered down (one was a 22 one was a 20 – now down to a 12/14ish). I also got my fabulous Igigi dress altered down as well. I love Igigi dresses. If you’re a size 12-36 and need to go to a formal event – check out Igigi. Her dresses are fantastic! I’m actually a little bummed I won’t be shopping there much more. So for the next few nice events I will be wearing a skirt and freaking out all of my friends that haven’t seen my legs in years! I normally wear jeans, but with the fit being off I’m just not as comfortable rocking a nice pair of jeans.
Anyway that’s it. If anyone reads this who has found an amazing brand of jeans that will fit a booty let me know!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Work isn’t that stressful for me right now. My boss is horrible, but we don’t see each other that often. Yesterday at our lab meeting he started picking on our Chinese female student and my first thought was, poor Hui. My second thought was, oh good it’s not me this week. So the group of us get along well, but now my boss has agreed to let a student rotate in our lab – after she has been in six labs previously. She had rotated through three, and joined one – a few months go by – she gets kicked out/decides to leave, she rotates through another two labs – isn’t accepted and then comes down to us. She’s got some major social issues. She’s aggressive and loud and doesn’t like to accept that she could be wrong or that the professors know more than her… which is a big no, no in academia. The other grad student girls and I have tried to be helpful and talk to her honestly about how she treats people and how to treat people nicely and with respect (and this was over the last year and a half, first with subtle hints, then with more direct conversation, and after she got kicked out of her fifth lab we basically told her she needs to go to therapy if she wants to survive in academia). She doesn’t want to hear it. We’ve tried calmly talking to her, telling her directly when she is making us uncomfortable ( -- ie the first five times she met me, she said at the top of her lungs, “there’s Sara she doesn’t like me” – in PUBLIC, ugh I was mortified – and I didn’t hate her.)
So now imagine my horror when my boss agreed to take her. I haven’t been mean or rude. I’ve been helpful, but once again I had to sit her down after she literally did nothing for three weeks and have a come to Jesus talk. So now I’m finally getting her to do something, but I feel like pulling teeth. Part of me wants her to fail miserably for not having any drive to do research in our lab, but I’m not. I’m helping her as much as it stresses me out and makes me crazy.
So this little blip has added a TON of stress to my work life, which I really did not need. Only one of the other grad students in the lab is helping out with her – and she has rebuffed his offer to show her techniques several times and he’s almost fed up with her too – and he is the calmest, nicest religious father of four – so she can definitely strike a nerve!
So instead of me being annoyed with her constantly I’m going to try and turn the other cheek – and even though I do not want her in my lab in anyway whatsoever, I’m not going to be the nail in her coffin – its up to her to either sink or swim.
(I would normally complain about this on Facebook, but too many people – including this girl are my ‘friends’) So Spark people – how should I deal with this boatload of stress?
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
So I didn't count calories or anything other than "eat healthy" and eating consciously to lose my first 40lbs... then I joined Spark and started counting calories. The past few weeks my weight loss has slowed a bit, partly through me slipping a bit, and partly I think because I was consciously eating less than I was supposed to.
I just hadn't realized how much calories were in food, and now since I'm a bit OCD I'm obsessing over it a liiiiittle too much. In my crazy head, if Spark says I should eat 1650 calories and I only eat 1400 calories that's a good thing -- but apparently its not. When I was at my highest weight of 276, the insurance company actually made me go to a nutritionist who wanted to put me on a 1200 calorie diet (and no exercise, btw -- I thought that was weird, but at that point I probably wouldn't have done it anyway) and that 1200 calorie mark has kind of stuck with me. So now even though I can tell you the calorie count of everything in my kitchen, I almost feel like its a bad thing for me to know -- because with my personality I will obsess over it, and with my memory I will literally never forget it. I feel a bit Bridget Jones' Diary entering in my daily calorie count. I almost feel like I need to enter the number of 'fags' (cigarettes) and 'units' (aka alcohol) -- both zero btw.
So I searched around Spark and found the math about how they calculated it all. I bought the Kindle edition of The Spark so its really difficult to search around in once I've finished reading a section to find the page with calorie ranges for weights... The math is all on this site:
So I guess my new goal for the next month is to always meet my calorie goal for the day (something I never thought I'd say) and to do it in a healthy way and not in a splurging chocolate/desserts kind of a way.
Thursday, September 08, 2011
So I had a really good weekend. I didn't track my calories -- I was way too busy, but I did try to consciously not screw up and eat in moderation -- which was especially difficult on Saturday. It started out with a bridal shower - I made sure to eat before i left, and was confronted with both "why aren't you eating" (there was literally 3 salads made with mayo!) and "you look so good" to which I replied--yes, because I'm watching what I eat. That was fun, and then came the cupcakes -- fancy, delicious cupcakes from a fantastic bakery. And I didn't have one. I opted for a small piece of blackberry cobbler since it had more fiber and some fruit.
Then I went back out later for the bachelorette party. I gave up all alcohol, since i don't really drink anyway -- and since the bride to be wasn't a big drinker, the night was okay. We went out to the Schlafly Tap Room in St. Louis. All of the food on the menu looked delicious, but wasn't really healthy. The two appetizers ordered were french fries, and poutin -- which is french fries covered in gravy and cheese. I had a little bit of them, and then ordered a cup of minestrone to try and fill my stomach before dinner. Then a bit later I had half of a sirloin burger and was pretty full. The girls decided to order a sticky toffee pudding to share, and my god you'd think that with six girls they would have tried to eat a little more of it. It was gooood. That's the only thing I splurged on, but still i didn't have more than five bites of it. And honestly, we left more than half of it on the table (3 of the girls there, me included are on Spark, so I think that helped).
Then Sunday, the stress of helping my parents around the house -- and my mom making awful food choices again this weekend -- good think I brought food home with me.
Monday was fun, I ran around with a friend I hardly get to see since she lives 5 hours away. We did go get Imos since she wanted some StL pizza -- but I ate a bunch of salad first to try and not eat as much pizza. And for dinner, not gonna lie, I stopped by McDonalds on the drive home from my parents, but I only got a McDouble which is the least scary of their burgers calorie wise -- and I haven't had McD's in over 3 months -- which would have been an eternity for old Sara.
So now -- I've been to the grocery store, my fridge is stocked with fruit, veggies, pickles (did you know an entire pickle spear is only 5 calories!), and other healthy treats -- so I'm going to continue on the path (and actually use my treadmill this month) so hopefully I will look good enough to wear my Halloween costume in 2 months!
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