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Friday, September 28, 2012

Well I had an interesting 2am wake up call. My Pomeranian Pippa was throwing a hissy fit and freaking the eff out. At 2am. Needless to say I wanted to kick her. So after like 15-20 minutes of her crying I got up to physically carry her outside, which I don’t do since I have a doggy door.

I should have known something was wrong by the way she was acting. There was a RACCOON in my kitchen/dining room!!! At least I think it was. All I saw with my sleepy/not awake/really annoyed eyes was something grey/black with a bushy tail going out the doggy door – and this thing had to be about 30#~!!!! So unless it was a really fluffy housecat who went to the wrong place – I just fed a raccoon dog food out of a bowl.

So needless to say, I screamed – scared the crap out of my roommate, and locked the doggy door. Then tried to find a way to calm down and not freak the eff out about this happening again since raccoons are freaky smart!

Pippa was so scared she slept in the bathroom (the farthest point from the kitchen) for over an hour shaking. My silly little dog wanted ME to get up and get that thing out of the house ASAP! And she’s kind of a bully about attacking things (she tried to attack a horse for Christ sakes), so I wonder if she went near it and it swiped at her. She’s super fluffy (she had a bath last night) so I’ll check her again when I get home, but she wasn’t hurt. *thank god

So now what? Lock the doggy door at night? I turned on the outside security light. Maybe that will scare them off, but jeez, I was floored. Still kinda freaked out by it.

Fitness wise, I started some lower body stuff, more weightlifting. My abs need to get whipped back into shape. I might do some cardio tonight after I go out to dinner with friends. I ate pretty good so far. I couldn’t figure out what I wanted for lunch so I just brought cereal and soy milk. I’m weird sometimes…

Date was okay earlier this week. He was so normal it was refreshing, especially after the last guy was a stalker. I eventually just had to send him a really b*tchy message telling him the reasons WHY I wouldn’t go out with him again. Then he said, oh well if you change your mind I’d still love to go out with you *CrAaAaAzZyY

So yea, I’m looking forward to a normal weekend where I can get some good workouts in, clean up a bit, and craft on my Halloween costume (a TARDIS dress!). I may end up doing an Andy Warhol Marilyn… you know, paint myself pink and wear my white dress around to see if anyone gets it ;-) But for now I want to finish my TARDIS dress.

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

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JELLEN726 10/1/2012 3:46PM

    I love your stories! We had that happen with a squirrel. LOve Halloween Crafting and best of luck to you! I am working on Tinkerbell emoticon

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 9/29/2012 2:48AM

    That raccoon would have scared the ever-lovin' crap outta me!! Up in the night, unidentified fluffy thing in the house... not supposed to be there - wouldn't have dealt well. I have an overactive imagination!!

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SKAHONEY4U 9/28/2012 9:12PM

    That is a hilarious story, albeit I'm sure it was scary at the time!

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TALVARADO6 9/28/2012 6:50PM

    Oh my!! Yes, lock the doggy door at night until you feel some assurance that the raccoon or whatever it was isn't going to come back. I would flip out!! No wonder your dog was in a panic.

Some guys just do not get it... even if you are 100% clear with them. That is just so weird....

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SUSIEGKORN 9/28/2012 4:27PM would have heard me scream all the way from St. Peters if that had happened to me!!! Wish I could remember the spark member's name that had a similar blog a few weeks ago. You would love her story! I agree....LOCK that doggy door!

Anyway, have a good weekend! GO MIZZOU! I'll be watching the game at 11:00 am tomorrow on TV!

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SHRINKING_SARA 9/28/2012 3:58PM

    Yea I'm locking the doggie door tonight. I don't want to freak out every time I hear a noise!

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SDLEE514 9/28/2012 2:27PM

    I would have been SOOO freaked out! wow what an event. and andy warhol marilyn is so clever!

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BEECHNUT13 9/28/2012 2:23PM

    You could have had a new pet!

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FINDING_MELISSA 9/28/2012 2:19PM

    Lock the doggy door! Raccoons are very smart and if the raccoon found any thing it liked (food, dog food, something from your trash) it will be back.

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BUTT0N 9/28/2012 2:09PM

    I love the Andy Warhol Marilyn idea!

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40LESSOFERIN 9/28/2012 1:45PM

    lol....I would have screeeeeeeamed to. What a freaky night! Scary! poor Pippa

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MELLIE1030 9/28/2012 1:29PM

    OMG, I would freak out. I hope it's out of your house.

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Cardio! Woo hoo! Wait, ouch!

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

So I started back with my cardio. I'm a month post-surgery so I have no restrictions other than being lazy and out of shape. A week prior to surgery I did 3-10ks. A month later, I'm huffing and puffing after 30 minutes. Pouring in sweat at a low speed. It's crazy how fast your fitness disappears! That was Sunday.

Cut to yesterday when I thought, I can do better. I got up to 50 minutes at a 5% incline. Not too shabby. I also upped the speed a bit more to push myself. One weird thing happened though. When I was really pushing my heart rate up, my forearm started to hurt. Not bad. More like, hmm, that's uncomfortable and not normal. So I'm going to watch it to see if it keeps up or if its just a temporary thing while I get back into shape. Regardless I'm going to bring it up to the plastic surgeon at my appointment in four weeks. Hopefully by then I'll know if its a problem or if I have the go ahead to just keep using it and its not an issue. (And hopefully in four weeks I'll also be below 180).

I was afraid after my weekend binges that I would magically be at like 190. Nope -- 183. I don't know why I'm so afraid that any little slip up will magically add 25,000 calories worth of weight to my body. I'm four pounds higher than my pre-surgery weight, and with the 12# of fluid gain and not really exercising for a month, I am A OK with that. Hopefully this metabolic reset will let me push past my plateau.

I've been planning ahead on meals this week *go me! I cut up 2 cantaloupes, 1 pineapple, 1 honeydew, 2 pounds of strawberries, and a quarter pint of raspberries and doled it out into containers in my fridge. I spent a hour doing it though... and only two knife cuts at the very end. But now my fridge is jam packed with fruit that I have to eat before it goes bad, so I will not be grabbing chocolate or some other filler.

I also stocked up on egg whites and chicken breasts. I am being a boring old hag when it comes to my food lately, but it seems to be working. I know last summer I lost most of my weight by eating grilled chicken and veggies every night. Now that I'm tracking my calories, its a big *no duh* moment. I had been slacking with my calories, so now I'm focused. I want to look damn good with my new arms. They cost enough, so why not show them off, lol. *as winter approaches and I bundle up*

That's basically it... some crazy drama with online dating. One guy turned stalker-ish last night... haven't had that happen yet. New guy tonight. I'm trying to be all non-chalant about this. I am the queen of first dates.... and not in a good way.

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JELLEN726 9/28/2012 1:13PM

    Gotta kiss a lotta toads....You will get there. But be careful of those crazies!! emoticon emoticon

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CHSHULER89 9/26/2012 4:32PM

    Great job mentally and physically!! It's amazing how our bodies work! Good job on your food planning! Rock on!! emoticon

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LIVINGKERRY 9/26/2012 2:40PM

    Good job on focusing on knowing what works. I find that when i do the "boring eating" it seems to work the best because i am being so cautious.
You bundle up those arms this winter and work them strong, and then BAM come spring when its back to tank tops people are gonna FREAK OUT about how amazing you look.

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BUTT0N 9/26/2012 1:29PM

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Photo story from a woman who lost 160# in a year

Monday, September 24, 2012

From NPR:
At the end there's a link to her personal website showing more NSFW nude/art photos of her transformation. The article has a safe slideshow.

Losing 160 Pounds, One Photo At A Time
Categories: Daily Picture Show
05:00 am

September 24, 2012


After her wedding in 2009, artist Julia Kozerski decided to drastically change her lifestyle. She lost 160 pounds in one year — and documented the transition with her iPhone.

Her series — called "Changing Room" — was shot in various dressing rooms in 2010 and 2011. Her body was changing so rapidly that she kept trying on clothes as a way of exploring her identity.

Courtesy of Julia Koze
At the time, Kozerski was attending the Milwaukee Institute of Art & Design and working on a nude portrait series called "Half." She never intended to publish the photos — they were simply a personal exercise. But a year later, she decided to share the "raw, uncensored and unrestricted 'behind-the-scenes' look" of her transformation.

As for how she lost the weight? She stopped eating junk food, started walking and biking daily, counted calories, and weighed and measured her food portions. (You can see a BodyBugg armband in many of the photos.)

I recently caught up with her by email to ask a few questions about the project:

The Picture Show: You say that this was not an intentional photo series. What do you think about when you look at the photos now?

Kozerski: "Even though these images were taken years ago, when I look back at them, I become extremely emotional. I can still remember the experience presented in each image. I recall the thrills of trying on smaller sizes and the satisfaction of feeling more attractive, even sexy. More so, I remember the devastation of not recognizing the person reflected back to me in the mirror."

These photographs, and others on your site, are very personal, and quite revealing of your physical body. What are your motivations for revealing so much of your private self in your photographs?

"When I began my physical transformation, it was a very private experience. I never intended to share such revealing and personal details with anyone.

"One day, I printed a seemingly abstract, close-up shot of my skin, stretch marks and all, and posted it on the wall during a critique in college. My instructors and fellow students were intrigued. Everyone was very supportive, and I was encouraged to continue my visual explorations.

"... I began taking more risks. More skin was shown, then more of my body, then my face ... It was gradual. Eventually I became comfortable with seeing myself, having others see me, and speaking about my experiences."

Was the act of taking these photos inspirational for you as you worked on your weight loss?

"As I worked toward losing weight, the iPhone photos were mainly ways for me to pause my progress (even if only for a split second). I lost over 160 pounds in one year. It was a full-time job being a newlywed, a first-time homeowner, a full-time college student and a caretaker for my ill parents. Needless to say, that time in my life was overwhelming. Looking back, I needed these photographs. These images allowed me to outright see that I was making progress. Without them, I am not sure I would have had the motivation to move forward."

What message do you hope that viewers will take away from your series?

"A sense of motivation. We all have things we wish we could change about ourselves or our lives. Big change can happen; start small."

View the entire set of photos from "Changing Room" here.

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LYNNIERN 9/26/2012 8:54PM

    Thanks for sharing the info. Her work is very interesting and I loved watching the transformation during the changing room series.

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 9/25/2012 11:50AM

    Thanks for sharing!!

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BESCAIFE 9/24/2012 10:32PM

    Isn't that amazing? Very inspirational, and it makes me wish that I had the forethought to take more pictures through my progress. She was actually on SP right when I started in 2010 but left the community shortly thereafter.

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BEXXYOH 9/24/2012 9:51PM

    Beautiful and haunting- thanks so much for sharing.

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I ate like a fat kid...

Monday, September 24, 2012

Ugh. I ate like a fat kid all weekend. And I feel like crap today = coincidence? I think not.

I went home on Thursday to spend the weekend and pick up my new laptop. It was also my grandma's 93rd birthday so I went out to dinner with her and my parents. So she's 93... losing her memory, very frail, kind of like taking care of a 3 year old when it comes to eating. I basically did that. My mom was on some terrible anxiety crab fest, and my dad was stressed out and annoyed so I tried to make the best out of the situation.

Then we tried to get dinner. I ordered a grilled chicken sandwich with sweet potato fries -- it was one of the best looking things on the fried, country fried, and slathered in grease menu. Then it came. The bun was MASSIVE people. Like comically so. So I took one bite, thought --its not worth it... then tried to eat the chicken. Blah blah blah -- it was bad. So were the fries. So was the dessert I ordered.

Cut to the country store. I bought a blackberry pie and custard to share with my friends later that night... People, I ate three slices of that pie and a ton of custard. *gasp* my calorie counter just died a little. And I guarantee it was partially stress eating from being around my parents but it was also a bit of, holy crap PIE! (the fat kid in me saw pie... and couldn't resist).

Then the next day I got up -- ate egg whites (after a slice of pie *blush*) and got my shop on. I need tights. I bought all these cute skirts and I don't want to stop wearing them just because its going to be freezing outside soon. Buuut I'm 5'10". I had a love/hate/hate/hate relationship with tights. Being both tall and a size 22 made finding tights impossible. I often used to break or bust my tights just putting them on since I had to stretch them to the max to get the height right.

So I bought tights this weekend at H&M, Nordstrom Rack, and Target. I'll see what works, but I kind of went overboard on the whole buying tights thing. Now I actually need to wear them! As a tip for other talls, I am still buying plus size tights when I can just to ensure they're long enough. I had a cashier look at me, look at the tights I was buying and ask me if I got the wrong size. I was in 3" heels though, so she went, or is it a height thing? Most tights stop at 5'10" and 160-175 pounds... I'm over that, so I upsize the tights as much as possible.

I also did some more shopping. I got a few sweaters from the Banana Republic outlet and a new pair of skinny boot cut jeans from the Gap. I'm actually going to try and rock jeans IN the boots this year. I didn't last year because I thought my waist to hip ratio would make me look funny... I don't know what I was smoking, but my ratio hasn't changed that much and I can't wait to get out my boots this fall. I may even wear tights with boots with skirts! Haha, its a whole new wardrobe and if you can't tell = clothes + fashion = LOVE.

After I got home I ate preeeetty badly again. I didn't have plans for that night so I stayed in with my parents and my new laptop working on getting it in order and transferring my old computer over. I thought I'd be spending time with my mom so she wouldn't complain, but she hid out away from me... She's turning agoraphobic again, so I'm trying to not let that stress me out too much.

Saturday was a big *bleh* why did I eat that day. I got up early to go to a Farmer's Market. I bought some kettle corn there *cause its crack cocaine in popcorn form, some fresh bread for my parents, and some really good teas. Then I had breakfast out with friends, I tried to get good options, then we hit up a cupcake store. They were getting some for later... and somehow I walked out with 4. 4 gourmet cupcakes. I ate three of them this weekend. +one that my friends bought. So I ate 4 cupcakes this weekend and a third of a pie. WHAT AM I DOING?!!?!

I could blame Shark Week for this but I'm not going to. This was all me not being prepared and falling prey to peer pressure. I think its official. I can't move back home or I will gain all of the weight back. I think having my own space away from my old friends (that I lived with during my fat years aka my whole life before 23) is beneficial.

Literally the first thing I did when I got home was throw everything out of the car, breathe, change, and get on my treadmill. I haven't done that since the surgery. I bought a tight fitting long sleeved running shirt to compress my arms. I went slow and could only do 30 minutes, but it was a start. I felt like pushing myself after all of the crap I ate this weekend, but I know that wouldn't be the best for the long run. So yay, cardio! *cough, cough* I am so out of shape!

Today I need to get some work done, go buy a cable for my new computer, and go get healthy groceries!!!! I am in desperate need of a detox after this weekend. I did get a lot of "holy crap you look great" or "daaaaayuuumn" from people I saw from high school at my hometown street festival. That was pretty encouraging, and it reminded me to keep on and get back on track. I look good now. I want to look even better, and I want to stay that way.

Exercise and diet are the keys for me moving forward. I'm a month post-surgery tomorrow and I'm getting back into my old workout routine ASAP! I need it. It's my therapy. Exercise is my drug and I'm an addict! Now I just need to clean up my kitchen and I've got this in the bag.

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SERENEART 9/24/2012 9:25PM

    emoticon I understand where your coming from.

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CHSHULER89 9/24/2012 7:27PM

    Know the feeling... Ready this week to get going! Too many bdays and fall comfort foods. My y weight meetings start back tomorrow nite after off for the last month. I've done ok, but the #'s will tell. I feel great, love getting those wonderful comments. Also enjoyed the shopping, a new slender jacket and tried on jeans i and can fit a size down! We can do it so keep up that positive attitude!! U rock! emoticon

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 9/24/2012 7:04PM

    What was with this weekend?? I too, could not keep the food out of my mouth!!

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LEB0401 9/24/2012 2:10PM

    1. Don't you absolutely hate it when something you order at a restaurant is neither nutritious nor tasty? What a waste!!! That keeps happening to me more and more, I've almost sworn off restaurants all together. Like.. I could make better and healthier food at home thankyouverymuch.

2. I too ate like a fatty this weekend. Beer, pumpkin bread pudding, and white chocolate chip brownies. I'm now in detox mode.. we got this!

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Carpet Burn from too many crunches

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

My arms are sore from yesterday’s strength training exercises, or from the fact that the back of my arms are so numb I may have given myself carpet burn doing crunches because I couldn’t feel it… whoops… the weird things I’m going to have to get used to after brachioplasty…

In other news—I’m working to get my Abs back! Those suckers started to disappear after three weeks away from exercise. I want them back ASAP!

I just updated my Tumblr with about a week's worth of recovery photos... I think its getting better. I'm still not ready to rock my scars in public yet, but its getting better. They don't hurt. The pain I have is from exercising my muscles back into existence which is much better than surgery pain. It's pain I feel that is accomplishing something. I'm going to stupidly try to really weight train my arms before my next doctors appointment right before Halloween... 1) to look good for the Doctor and show my dedication to getting some guns and 2) to rock a sleeveless look on Halloween no matter how freakin' cold it is!!!

Last year I wore a fitted t-shirt on Halloween and was proud of myself. This year's goal = sleeveless. Plus awesome scars are kind of praised on Halloween right?! Haha... that's one way to look at it anyway.

For the pics go to my Tumblr:

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CHEEKY1000 9/19/2012 9:30PM

    Okay Who-Sister, I just saw your photos and OUCH! Maybe the bruising wasn't painful, but it looked like it. I think you look fantastic--adorable! Woot woot!

Glad I read this. I was contemplating skipping my workout because I am sooooo not up for cardio, but that doesn't mean I can't get in some abs and arms. Thanks for the reminder/guilt-trip. LOL

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SHRINKING_SARA 9/19/2012 9:17PM

    Thanks. I am taking it slow. I just didn't realize how far spread my numb areas are. It's almost making it feel like my arms are suspended in mid air and not touching the ground. It's like some kind of weird phantom arm skin thing... I'll adjust but I'm definitely going to be more careful next time.

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SUSIEGKORN 9/19/2012 9:03PM

    Just checked out your pics on your other blog. Your arms are looking so much better! The scars look good (healing wise:) and the bruising and swelling is diminishing! Woo-hoo! I worry about you over-doing it though. Please be patient and don't push too hard, too soon. I care about your well-being.....listen to what your body is telling you. Promise?

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 9/19/2012 8:38PM

    Good luck, don't push too crazy hard!!

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LATTELEE 9/19/2012 8:34PM

  Good luck

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