Friday, July 27, 2012
So I have one month (and a day) until my brachioplasty. I'm starting to get really excited. One thing I'm not excited about... not being able to work out AT ALL for three weeks. I'm supposed to maintain a low heart rate and not get the blood pumping to help improve healing. I'm going to ask at my pre-surgery consultation in two weeks if I can do mild stuff like walking at a slow pace or recumbent biking at a slow pace.
One caveat of surgery is that you're supposed to be within 10 pounds or so of your final goal weight. I've tried to be realistic about the weight I'm going to try to maintain. I'm 5'10" so I think 170 is a good number for my high end. Its definitely better than the 280 I used to be! I don't think I'll ever be one of those "half-her-size" women. It would take way too much exercise and 1200 calorie days to get down that far. Heck these last five pounds have been fighting me for three months.
My SparkGoal right now was to get down to 176 by 8-8-12 (my 1 year Sparkiversary). I weighed in on Tuesday at *gasp* 179.6~! I haven't seen a 17# in so long I can't even remember. I was probably in 6th or 7th grade to be honest. And funny enough, back then when I was 12, people thought I was 17/18 from my height and weight. Its really strange to think about... Someone made a comment last week that I look really young now. I take that as a compliment that I don't look 27, but I guess healthy eating and losing 100 pounds would make anyone look younger. Plus being told you look younger as you near 30 is never a bad thing ;-)
So for goals -- its Shark Week so I'm not anticipating any major losses for the week. The 179.6 was a complete shocker for me. I had dropped the four pounds I gained back, but somehow kept getting suck at 180.4. I worked out religiously for a few days, ate in my calorie range and still those pesky 0.4 pounds wouldn't leave! I have been keeping up the exercise, but my TOM has made my stomach a bottomless pit. I swear I couldn't get enough food for the last two days. I eat clean and healthy for breakfast and lunch. I come home and prepare a healthy dinner -- but I'm still hungry. Its crazy. I know I'm hydrated and full of food -- but some silly hormones are trying to convince my logical brain to keep eating. Luckily I've got a lot of good stuff saved up in my fridge and cabinets, so a binge happens 100-150 calories at a time and not 700+ calories at a time like from a bag of chips.
I'll still aim for 176 on 8-8-12 as some miracle sign from God, but I'm realistic about not reaching it. So instead, now I'm thinking that 176 on the morning of my surgery is a good realistic goal. (The surgery is my 100# lost present to myself from my highest recorded doctor's office visit of 276)
After that, who knows? I know that post-surgery I'm going to have to be conscious of my diet as exercise will be out. Since its just my arms, I'd really still like to get in some core workouts and leg stretches -- I have killer abs (they're just covered up right now)
So anyway, today is a rest day. I've worked out every day this week so far, either cardio or strength training. Apparently my strength training last night and two night ago + cramps is making my entire body hurt! It's probably my own fault for doing 500 dumbbell side bends on each side though. *It's my new favorite move. I was about to upgrade to a 20# kettlebell -- but I'm now saving up for the surgery. On the other hand, some killer upper arm workouts before surgery aren't such a bad idea... Oh shopping addiction, you strike again...
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
So I'm going to post this with a grain of salt. I know everyone LOVES dairy. Cheese is a gift from God as far as I'm concerned, but I only eat it ~1x a month. Cow's milk has been out of my life for months, and you know what -- I'm SO much healthier. My migraines are GONE. Gone. Seriously. If you've ever had one, you know how much they suck. I've taken so much Imitrex in my life its ridiculous. If you have migraine issues, try a dairy free week. Just a week -- see if your symptoms improve.
My irritable bowel syndrome has gotten so much better, I'm weaning myself of medications I've been on since I was 17. When my IBS got worse, my doctor just prescribed more... and then more... and before you knew it I was on 75mg of an antidepressant for the "side effects" -- when it is used at 100mg as an antidepressant!
My allergies in general are also so much better. My body was fighting the milk in my system. My daily bowl of cereal in the morning was leading to a host of problems for me.
So now dairy and I aren't friends. We're casual acquaintances. I've finally found a brand of soy milk I like (and it's from Aldi's = score!), and am experimenting with other soy products (soy ice cream... sadly, not a good one yet).
I just thought I'd post these two articles from the NY Times from this week and a two weeks ago. Just another person's perspective. If you have any issues, try a five-seven day dairy free trial period. See if you feel better. I was amazed, and now actively avoid dairy except as special treats -- and take twice the amount of Lactaid as recommended when I do consume it.
Here's the links:
July 7, 2012, 3:56 PM772 Comments
Got Milk? You Don’t Need It
By MARK BITTMAN
July 24, 2012, 9:00 PM2 Comments
More on Milk
By MARK BITTMAN
And now discuss!
I'm hoping Spark will write something on this -- they push A LOT of dairy products on here -- and I for one, can't enjoy greek yogurt -- come up with another suggestion already~!
Monday, July 23, 2012
SO much has happened lately – I almost don’t know where to begin.
I’ll start with the negative and work to the positive. Negative = my co-worker seriously sent from the devil. She’s gone from being difficult to actively going out of her way to be petty and snippy towards me. No one else really, just me. She’s not the smartest girl in the world though, so her Facebook profile had no privacy settings on it. She’s obviously so nuts, everyone in the lab are not her friends on FB (and let me preface this story with the fact that I feel like an idiot using FB in an argument). She apparently had posted some really negative things on her profile about her co-workers. We just ignored that stuff – but two of my friends came to me to tell me about the scary threats she had been posting. And just for sanity’s sake, note that everything she posts is from her deluded, paranoid world – we don’t do ANYTHING to her in lab, but she imagines all of these insults. She’s the most paranoid person I’ve ever met.
Here’s her post: “not a fun day when having to deal with a co-worker who throws tantrums like a 5 years in the middle of lab…..I just like it so much when lab-mates throw my lab coat on the floor on purpose….;(“ Her sister then offered to kick my ass, another friend offered to hang me using a winch from his truck, and she replied “hmm…am thinking about it”
*Screeching breaks* -- say what?!? Needless to say I sent my boss an e-mail immediately. AND called someone in the department to let them know how crazy she has gotten lately. I talked to a department ombudsman for half an hour and my boss for an hour and a half later that day. Apparently they can’t do anything since it doesn’t specifically use names – but still, scary. She’s definitely the scary type of science graduate student like the guy in Aurora, CO. Thankfully my boss seems to be taking it seriously. I think he’s starting to collect a paper trail to use against her when he fires her. He’s just afraid that A) she’ll commit suicide or B) she’s going to sue him and the department. I told him she’s too much of a sociopathic narcissist to commit suicide, but he just wants to take this carefully. *Can we say stressful?
And just to show you how bad her English skills are (she’s a native born, Missourian BTW) – here’s another one of her posts. “I love having to re-writing things…to only have to punt it off to people who write worst than me…oh it gonna be a rough week :(“ I’d love to tell you that’s her trying to be funny—but nope, that’s her normal grammar. She’s already sent two more annoying e-mails bashing me to my boss and the lab since Friday. Now instead of getting too annoyed, I am just reminding myself that she’s just put another page in the book that will be used to fire her… The more she involves my PI-boss, the more he doesn’t want to keep her. I just hope she gets the mental health care she needs, oh yea, and doesn’t attempt to kill me!
OKAY – and now for something completely different! Positive things!
I’ve been pretty good about my food intake since I dropped my calories. I also have been consistently exercising. I was sooo tired after seeing Batman at midnight – but I was smart with my food so I’m feeling good. I’ll do an official weigh-in tomorrow but I feel good. My jeans that were tight last week, fit again comfortably. I am motivated to get down to the 170s. This morning I was at 180.4 – so poised and ready for that final tip into the 170s!
I think dropping my calorie range has forced me to be a lot smarter with what I am eating. At 1700 I could fudge it a little. I could splurge a little – which meant I often said – whatever I’ll just have a bit more. Now-a-days I see it as a small budget of calories for the day, and fruit and veggies fill me up for less. So hello plums, goodbye granola bars. And you know what – it feels good almost to put together a HUGE dinner to only find out its 268 calories! Have you all made a meal that stuffed you to the gills, only to enter the calories, and ask yourself what the heck was I doing eating all of that high-calorie crap that barely touched the hunger? I think by treating this as a game, seeing what foods/meals I can create, and then staying at the lower end of my calorie range = I am finally going to see that progress that has been sorely lacking. I know at my higher weight, I still ate some of the same foods – but I had a few bad ones I still ate. Honestly I used to keep candy bars in the house to treat myself at the end of the day if I still had the extra calories. Seriously. I don’t have that luxury anymore, and I am eating a better quality of food, and feel amazing.
Positive news #2: I went to see a plastic surgeon this morning…. Eep! That was stressful. I had an 8am appointment so I got up early, woke up my mom who wanted to come with me, and made breakfast. I ate a full breakfast of oatmeal with blackberries (yum) and we were off. I barely got into the room with the doctor – and showed him my upper arms before he said, “oh yea – no problem at all. I thought I still had some fat in my arms – apparently not nearly as much as loose skin. I genetically inherited my southern grandma arms from my mom’s side of the family. Even my aunt who is skinny has wiggly, large upper arms. So at 27 – having lost 100 pounds – almost done with my weight loss – I’m an ideal candidate for surgery. He was really positive about the results I could expect, so I bit the bullet and did it! I’m having surgery on August 28th. I’ll post my before and after pics once I heal up. (who doesn’t love those!). The surgery itself is going to be an in and out the same day, but will be done under general anesthesia. I was soooo nervous, anxious about this appointment. I had some evil thoughts running around in my head about how I would not be able to do this, or something would happen and it would be way out of my price range. But I think I can make it work. Thankfully as a graduate student I still qualify for the 3.4% student loans (they never check to see what you spend it on) – and there’s 12 months, no interest financing for part of the costs. My mom was pushing me to get this surgery done (partly because she wants it herself eventually) so she’s determined to try and help me pay for some of it. My dad is also really supportive of the whole idea, so I don’t know what they’re going to do. They obviously can’t pay for the whole $6,300 (yep—two arms = $$$$) – but they want to help some. I always want to know what people are paying for these surgeries so here it is: the plastic surgeon’s fee is $3600, the surgery center’s fee is $1800, and the anesthesia fee is $920. Only the $3600 can be financed for 12 months, my savings is going to cover the anesthesia (they only take a cashier’s check or money order), and my mastercard is going to have to cover the surgery center’s fee. So there it is. I’m doing this! Pretty soon I’ll be able to high-five everyone without also slapping myself with my upper arm ;-)
Positive news #3: I went to see my primary care physician later this afternoon. I’ve been having massive hair loss for the last few months. Guess what. Losing a significant amount of weight freaks your body out. Your hair is one body part that sees this stress and says, ok, we’re not going to waste our energy growing hair now. He told me it was called “telogen effluvium” – my hair is basically taking a chill pill and waiting for me to stabilize. But apparently this is just a temporary thing – and my hair should grow back sometime within the next few months. Just to be sure though I got some bloodwork done, a thyroid panel, and checking my iron/B-vitamin levels to just make sure there’s nothing else going on. But he was kind of surprised by it. He’s saw me at 260 last year – so being 180 today was kind of a shock – so I got some high-fives and praise for doing it, and he asked A LOT of questions about Sparkpeople. So I definitely spread the Spark.
Positive news #4: (just for today—its an awesome day) I got a cute new purse on clearance for $16 and cute Born shoes on clearance for $31 (at Marshall’s) – and then my mom ended up buying them for me. She has guilt issues and tries to buy us stuff constantly – which she really shouldn’t.
Positive news #5: I just got some results back on one of my science experiments I’ve been working on for years. Guess what – I found statistically significant changes~! For the scientists on here, one of my p-values was 0.0001! I did a happy dance! SO EXCITING.
Today has been a reeeeeeeally good day. I’m in such a positive mood. It looks like I’ll be in my calorie range for the day, and I’m going to go change and jump on my treadmill! Let’s keep this burn going and I WILL be in the 170s by the end of next week!
(Holy crap this was long~! If you made it this far = kudos!)
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Well it happened. I updated my goal this week on the main page since I am on a plateau... and even though I was complaining earlier this week about having problems staying under 1700 calories... now my range is now the dreaded 1200 to 1500.
How am I going to do this? Well after that realization I went to the grocery store. I have never wanted to take a picture of my cart more. Seriously I checked out and all I had was a TON of fruit (grapes, raspberries, strawberries, red plums, black plums, gala apples, and black apricots), veggies, 99% fat free turkey and 93% fat free turkey, weight watchers chicken, and some skinny pop popcorn (my munchie breaker).
All told I spent a whopping $90 -- but it was all deliciously good looking food. Plus my dinner (turkey taco salad -- I mix the super dry 99% turkey with 93% turkey for an edible turkey taco) and my calories for dinner with plums for dessert was only 275 calories... so maybe if I focus more on meal planning -- I'll be okay.
I've got 150 calories for the rest of the day -- so the goal now is to do some MASSIVE cardio, burn up 500+ calories, and use the 150 calories for my recovery snack.
I CAN DO THIS!!!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
So I watched "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead" -- which you can see on instant Netflix or online at: http://www.fatsickandnearlydead.com/
It looks interesting. I've been thinking about shocking my system... I just don't know if its a good idea. I'm a biochemist. I know its kind of stupid to just drink juice for 10 days, with limited protein, barely any fiber, just fruit and veggie juice. But still...
I think the movie serves as a long commercial for the Breville juicers. The cheapest one with a good review is $200 -- plus paying for fruits and veggies to juice for a week and a half ~$150-200 -- so I'd be looking at a $400 diet for a week. I think my budget would agree that probably right now, its not a good idea.
But still I'm trying to do some research and hear back from anyone on Spark that has done a juice fast. There's a few Spark Groups related to it -- so there are Sparkers out there that have tried it. I just don't know what to think about it.
So that's my "hmm" should I try it -- for the day.
In other news, I called the plastic surgeon to get a consultation for a brachioplasty (aka--goodbye chicken wing arms!). My mom's all worried about me having surgery (and she'd be the one driving my butt around that day and for the next few days) -- so I asked her to come down and go with me on the 23rd.
Its exciting. I'm devoting myself to religiously track my food intake. I've been working out, but then if I eat too much -- the scale is not budging. I've been good today--lots of fruits, air popped popcorn, and tuna. I'm trying to lean more towards 1400 calories if I can budge it--but its sooooo little! I honestly don't know how the people staying at 1200 can manage it. But I'm trying to learn the better choices.
Haha, instead of juicing I should just focus on actually eating the stuff I would juice -- right? I probably won't juice -- I'm supposed to avoid celery and dark green leafy vegetables to avoid kidney stones -- so I guess I should focus on actually eating the freggies.
By the way -- the plums I've gotten in the last week = SO GOOD! And black velvet apricots are my new addiction. Random blog... but its been that kind of a day!
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