Monday, March 19, 2012
So I have had an incredibly stressful and busy, busy last week. A LOT of things have happened -- mostly good, thankfully.
So picking up from my last blog entry...
I had lunch with my friends on Wednesday and they all were telling me how good I have started to look. I was also wearing a tight, tight shirt instead of my usually billowy tops, so my progress is really starting to show. (I love this shirt by Kiyonna -- sizes 10+ -- http://www.kiyonna.com/plus-size-clothing/
SALE/21111804) One of my friends even said I was starting to look skinny. Seriously the s-word I never thought I hear coming out of someone's mouth! And let's be honest, I'm still 188 so I'm not skinny, skinny, but I'm skinny compared to the almost 90 pounds I've lost. I was still a little gobsmacked though that someone would say that.
Thursday also turned out to be good. My co-worker apparently took mediation to heart and has had a much better attitude at work. We were even nice to each other! It was kind of a shock seeing her be nice and make jokes instead of storming around being a crab like she has the past few weeks.
Later on Thursday my Mom came down to visit. She was helping my sister move about 45 minutes away from me, so she stopped by. I finally guilt tripped my parents into getting me a new bed since they gave my bed away to my older sister (the one moving). So there was a general shuffle of furniture -- taking apart the cast iron guest bed that my mom wanted back, taking apart my bed and reassembling it in the guest room, and then putting together my new bed frame -- and moving all 3 sets of mattresses! So I didn't really get a "workout" in, but I was moving constantly and have several bruises to show for it--so hopefully that won't affect my scale too much when I weigh-in tomorrow.
Friday was spent finishing up loading my Mom's truck and shopping. I have a conference coming up in two weeks, and still didn't have any dress pants. I found a pair, and a new longer pencil skirt, so I think I'm set. Add to that some new cardigans and I should hopefully look professional. My mom was another person who used the S-word this week. I just saw her at New Year's, but apparently this last 13 pounds is starting to show more.
She asked me a few questions though that I'm still pondering...
She asked me if I ever thought I would get down to this weigh... and when I said -- yes, of course I did think I'd do it eventually, she seemed shocked. I think that's one difference between us right now. I KNOW that I will lose weight if I put my mind to it and devote the time and energy without getting derailed by a lack of progress or by stress and emotions. My mom is trying to get more active on Spark, but I don't think she has the right mindset. She's always down on herself for emotional eating and binging at night. Her attitude about herself is pretty poor, and I think one of the keys to success is believing in yourself.
The other question she asked me was about how much more I want to lose. My doctor asked me that last week as well. Honestly I don't know. I'm in a good place right now, even though I'm still in the 180s. To my mind, that is so much lower than where I have been in a long time, so going even lower is a fun challenge. My goal right now is to get down to 176 by my birthday. After that I guess I'll have to re-evaluate my goals, but I don't have a magic number in my mind that I have to get down to... So I just told her, I don't know. I honestly just want to see how far I can get down to, but doing it in a healthy way. No fad diets, no crushing workouts that make me want to vomit, no starvation, no deprivation... just eating healthy and working out. So we'll see how low can I go? I think not having an ideal number might actually be beneficial for me right now.
After my mom left on Friday I watched the worst game of basketball and officially now have no interest in March Madness...
Then I had a date with a new guy in town. He's got mild Asperger's so he's a lot more high energy than I am. I'm pretty mellow. But we have a lot in common, so we'll see.
On St. Pat's Saturday I spent 6 hours at work! I had to finish up the special work project and luckily for me -- it turned out good. The experiment worked and my results looked good. So I got a gold star. Well, at least I gave myself a gold star ;-)
Then I met friends out for dinner. Once again I was wearing a really tight shirt and 5" heels so my one friend told me how long-legged and skinny I was looking -- that S-word keeps popping up! Seriously = mind boggling to me. I had fun, drank a green drink, and got to chat with friends.
I had a date with the eHarmony guy from last weekend on Sunday. I think we really hit it off, but he's stuck in Kansas City on a 3-year contract, and I'm moving in six months -- and definitely not to Kansas City, so I think that guy is out of the running. Hopefully the guy in town will work out, but for now I'm still just having fun dating.
So that gets us to Monday. I'm finally trying to catch up with SparkFriends and update you all on myself. I forgot to weigh-in this morning -- so I'll do that tomorrow morning. Hopefully the crazy, fast paced, not being able to work out or track my food last week won't be too harsh on my scale. I did pick up 4 giant honeydew melons at Hyvee -- they're on sale for $3.48 -- and they are delicious! So I'm going to put down the sugar and pick up the fruit to try and get on the Spark bandwagon for some of the sugar detox. I really don't have that much of a problem with sugar (unless I'm in a binge) so hopefully cutting down on sugar won't be too much of a problem.
This week looks to be a little more relaxed-ish. I've got a huge experiment to run tomorrow... then a lunch date with the guy in town on Wednesday... some minor work stuff... and oh yea, I guess I should be writing my thesis :-0 Yea, I need to get on that...
Monday, March 12, 2012
So who's been watching college basketball? I spent Friday and Saturday nights watching Mizzou KILL at their games! Unfortunately the two guys I was with weren't into basketball -- what the heck? So they might have been bored, but I sure as heck wasn't :-)
I'm sure that March Madness is going to be just as nuts for me with Mizzou actually standing a chance of getting to the Sweet 16. I'd be more optimistic, but we're a really short team. Until then though -- Tigers all the way -- I need to get my bracket ready later this morning.
So this weekend was good. I had a good date on Thursday, and now the guy won't stop texting me so I'm sure he's into me. The date on Saturday was okay. We talked a lot, but I don't think it'll go anywhere. He's also in Omaha which is like 5.5 hours away and honestly I don't think I'd be up for a long distance thing. The Thursday date was from Kansas City so that's even pushing it for distance. You'd think in a college town there'd be someone but apparently not... So that's that update for everyone.
Somehow in the midst of dating, going out to watch basketball, and not getting to work out -- I still managed to lose a pound because I was focused on my diet. I was wondering how I'd be able to manage all of my social obligations and still make progress, but somehow I did -- so this morning's weigh in made me smile. I also re-did my inches measurements. They really hadn't been changing, so I did my last set in November. So I had a little progress there. Nothing dramatic, but enough to show myself that its starting to add up all over.
The only annoying part of the weekend was the fact that I lost my work keys. That meant I couldn't go into lab on Sunday and finish some experiments I had set up earlier in the week. Turns out they're just sitting on my bench in the lab, so I just had a blond moment and won't have to go through the hassle of getting new keys.
So all in all -- a really good Monday to start the week! The weather is going to be A-MA-ZING! I don't know what I'm going to do, but I might drag my dogs on a walk somewhere outside and just get moving outdoors. The sunshine and warm weather are just adding to my good mood. Tomorrow I have to go to mediation with my co-worker who is bonkers, so I'm sure my blog tomorrow will be full of interesting details... I just hope I can keep my calm and use my good mood now to fuel me through the negativity.
Friday, March 09, 2012
I've been seeing other people's Body Fit Media results on Spark, and I wanted to get one... and then I waited... and I thought about it... and then I waited...
So now I think I'm going to get one. There's a Groupon for the armband if anyone else is thinking about getting one you can use this link to see the deal:
I went ahead and finally bought one... maybe now I'll be better about actually knowing how many calories I'm burning. I always feel like maybe the trackers aren't 100% accurate. Also, I never knew how much I was burning during workout videos...
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
I told this one guy I've been dating that I would make him a birthday cake since his family wasn't around to throw him a party... so tonight I'm going to make a cake that has more calories per slice that I will admit on this website. Needless to say, since it's a Paula Dean recipe, its not in anyway healthy and since I'm trying to impress this guy, I'm not going to change one bit of it to make it healthier.
So now, I'm going to make this ridiculous cake, and in my head I know how bad it is, and I really don't want to have a piece... but if I don't eat any that would be weird right? So in my head I'm going to have a small piece -- which will still be like 300 calories! Oh well, planning ahead for tomorrow calories-wise will be essential.
In other news I went to my GI today to talk about reducing meds. She gave me tons of compliments about my weight loss and how good it was for me health-wise -- and we agreed I can try to step down off some medications. I'd love to be able to cure my GI stuff with just diet and exercise, but we're going to cautiously step me off meds to see how my guts are working with 75 less of me to move around.
All in all a good day... until the mediator called. I've blogged about my one co-worker who is such a pain to deal with. She has some sort of mental issue where she can't see how her words and actions are affecting people and her lack of respect for everyone drove me batty and I reported her behavior to the department. Anyway long story short, they're trying to force her into counseling for her anger and violence issues, and as part of is, they want her to go to mediation with me, so that we can talk about "why I hate her." Her words. It'll raise my stress to much to vent about it now, but I agreed, and from talking with the mediator over the phone and our department ombudsman, everyone is on my side (even thought they're not supposed to be). I'm getting the gold star for being the only one stubborn or strong enough to stand up to her and try to force her to get the help she needs.
So sometime next week I'll have to sit in a room with a mediator and an irrational person and try to have a calm, rational conversation. I'm not looking forward to it at all...
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