Friday, March 23, 2012
The past few days have been busy, busy, busy... Apparently that's my life for the next few weeks so I need to plan in the future so I don't come home and binge or run out to grab a quick/unhealthy lunch somewhere.
I just got my BodyMedia Fit armband yesterday in the mail. I'm wearing it now. I got a little annoyed though when I went to put it on. I have always had large arms. Its my one genetic flaw that I wish I could literally cut off and pay a doctor to fix. (I only need $3-8k depending on what website you look at though. only...) SO until I can get the loose skin on my arms fixed I just have to deal with large upper arms. On the bonus side, I have an hour glass shape with a defined waist -- so I didn't lose the genetic lottery. But anyway, I can barely wear the armband that comes with the device in the box. I mean I can go on the website and order a larger strap, but that did deflate my ego a bit. [I've avoided the poor me, look at my loose skin blog for awhile -- and I'm not going to go down that rabbit hole of self loathing -- 'cause honestly I would rather have a ton of loose skin than tight skin full of fat!]
But back to what annoyed me -- I'm wearing the armband, but its so obvious that I'm wearing the armband. Think about a roll of like pillsbury dough for biscuits or something -- then imagine a band squeezing that dough in the middle = basically what my upper arm looks like right now. I have a cardigan over my tank top today, and you can clearly see through that that my upper arm has got something wrong with it. *sigh* I'm just trying to ignore it because I'd like to get an actual real account of what my calories burned are. Especially when I kill an hour on the treadmill. The Spark numbers you can enter on the tracker might be a little low -- or not -- that's why I can't wait to try this armband thing out.
One interesting thing I saw was my sleep habits. I know I wake up and toss and turn a lot (and I don't think I have sleep apnea, I've always been like this) -- but I usually spend at least 8 to 9 hours in bed every day, no exceptions. According to my armband, last night even though I was physically in bed for over 8 hours, I only slept 6.5 hours. So there goes my whole theory about sleeping through the night. We'll see if it was just a one night thing, or if that's always how I sleep.
On the positive side, I'm learning a new scientific technique. I've been staring at a mass spectrometer for the past two weeks. Which I know little to nothing about. I did a lot of chemistry in my undergrad and some mass spec 4 years ago... but its all a little fuzzy. Plus what I'm trying to analyze is being stubborn and hiding which is making for some very slow annoying progress. This whole day has been A) run sample, B) get no results, C) change something = and repeat! So hopefully I can get this worked out or I'll just be a trained lab monkey for the next few weeks until I get it figured out.
But tonight I get to see The Hunger Games! Only one of my other friends wanted to go, so its a lot more low key than the last two Harry Potter films. We're going to the 6:15 show to sort of beat the rush of the evening... or not... who knows. And then I might head out on the town later tonight. So I need to avoid movie theatre everything! Pat of me wants to hit up the gas station before the movie like I used to -- do the horrible thing of buying like 2 candy bars, some twizzlers, and a soda. I honestly can't believe the fact that I would eat 1,000 calories of sugar -- and maybe another 1,000 of popcorn just because I was watching a movie. I once was tempted to get an order of nachos... no thanks, I'll save 1300 calories and 45 grams of fat!
Knowing me right now I'll just take half a honeydew or something in there with me. I've seriously become obsessed with that fruit. I bought 4 on Sunday.... I've eaten 3.5 of them! I'm even getting less annoyed at cutting up the fruit. I've also cut up 2 pineapples this week. So I'm subsisting on fruit, eggs, lunch meat, and skinny pop popcorn.
Oh well, I'm going to ignore this armband thing and try and focus on the fact that I'm going to be geeking out and watching the Hunger Games in 3 hours!
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Haha.. I guess after today we all realize just exaclty how much or often we use Spark. Luckily from the comments Iíve been seeing, most Sparkers are understanding of the delay and havenít freaked completely out yet. I was just surprised that the mobile app also stopped working as well as the site. So for now Iím typing this up in Word and Iíll upload it later.
So yesterday was a good day all around. I did a huge experiment in the morning, and I managed to finish up way sooner than expected Ė Iíll find out tomorrow if anything worked, but at least I managed to get in one final large experiment before I leave for my conference next week.
Then I went over to another lab to run some of my serum samples on a mass spec Ė did some fiddling and the tech managed to find the peak Ė which was reeeeeally good considering theyíve been working on this for months.
Next I got home and found my new Gap jeans waiting in the mailboxÖ I just ordered a size 8 hoping they would fit since my 10s were loose. AND they did! I havenít had a single number jean size in forever! I know that the number shouldnít mean anything, but it was a small victory for me. Now to temper this with how crazy clothing sizes are Ė I also just bought size 12 dress pants from JC Penny this last weekend, and Iím still wearing size 14 dresses from New York and Company Ė so I guess the Gap is really into vanity sizing. But since its my vanity right now, Iím okay with it ;-)
And I spent 3 hours on the phone with one of the eHarmony guys. Heís in the Army though, so I wonít see him until heís done with Officerís training later next month. Add to that Ė I did a 5K last night and strength trained, so I finally had an endorphin high from exercise. Iíve been so busy lately that my exercise has definitely faltered a bit this week. I also havenít been logging food or the little strength training I do. I donít know what it was Ė I was just almost ignoring my trackers lately. I still havenít gotten my BodyFit monitor, so Iím sure once that finally shows up Iíll start tracking more regularly again.
Today has been a bit moreÖ mentally difficult. I went over to run some more samples on the mass spec Ė but the guy in charge decided to clean it Ė but we didnít know you have to calibrate it after a cleaning, so everything Iíve done today was just a whoops moment Ė weíre trying to calibrate it right now, but Iím not sure if its going to work. I hope so Ė I would really like to run my study samples and get enough data to graduate!
Apparently my Mom wants to visit again. She and my dad are driving out to Hermann where my sister lives on Sunday and they want me to go out there and visit with them. So I willÖ but I will have to face the temptation of eating out the whole day (and getting it paid for) at restaurants so I wonít be as in control as Iíd like to be.
Iím also trying to stop gorging on HoneydewsÖ But at least thatís a fruit and not chocolate right? I donít know if you can tellÖ Iím really bored right now and would love to be spending my time on Spark but I guess the web hackers donít like that idea. Seriously who would hack a dieting website?
Monday, March 19, 2012
So I have had an incredibly stressful and busy, busy last week. A LOT of things have happened -- mostly good, thankfully.
So picking up from my last blog entry...
I had lunch with my friends on Wednesday and they all were telling me how good I have started to look. I was also wearing a tight, tight shirt instead of my usually billowy tops, so my progress is really starting to show. (I love this shirt by Kiyonna -- sizes 10+ -- http://www.kiyonna.com/plus-size-clothing/
SALE/21111804) One of my friends even said I was starting to look skinny. Seriously the s-word I never thought I hear coming out of someone's mouth! And let's be honest, I'm still 188 so I'm not skinny, skinny, but I'm skinny compared to the almost 90 pounds I've lost. I was still a little gobsmacked though that someone would say that.
Thursday also turned out to be good. My co-worker apparently took mediation to heart and has had a much better attitude at work. We were even nice to each other! It was kind of a shock seeing her be nice and make jokes instead of storming around being a crab like she has the past few weeks.
Later on Thursday my Mom came down to visit. She was helping my sister move about 45 minutes away from me, so she stopped by. I finally guilt tripped my parents into getting me a new bed since they gave my bed away to my older sister (the one moving). So there was a general shuffle of furniture -- taking apart the cast iron guest bed that my mom wanted back, taking apart my bed and reassembling it in the guest room, and then putting together my new bed frame -- and moving all 3 sets of mattresses! So I didn't really get a "workout" in, but I was moving constantly and have several bruises to show for it--so hopefully that won't affect my scale too much when I weigh-in tomorrow.
Friday was spent finishing up loading my Mom's truck and shopping. I have a conference coming up in two weeks, and still didn't have any dress pants. I found a pair, and a new longer pencil skirt, so I think I'm set. Add to that some new cardigans and I should hopefully look professional. My mom was another person who used the S-word this week. I just saw her at New Year's, but apparently this last 13 pounds is starting to show more.
She asked me a few questions though that I'm still pondering...
She asked me if I ever thought I would get down to this weigh... and when I said -- yes, of course I did think I'd do it eventually, she seemed shocked. I think that's one difference between us right now. I KNOW that I will lose weight if I put my mind to it and devote the time and energy without getting derailed by a lack of progress or by stress and emotions. My mom is trying to get more active on Spark, but I don't think she has the right mindset. She's always down on herself for emotional eating and binging at night. Her attitude about herself is pretty poor, and I think one of the keys to success is believing in yourself.
The other question she asked me was about how much more I want to lose. My doctor asked me that last week as well. Honestly I don't know. I'm in a good place right now, even though I'm still in the 180s. To my mind, that is so much lower than where I have been in a long time, so going even lower is a fun challenge. My goal right now is to get down to 176 by my birthday. After that I guess I'll have to re-evaluate my goals, but I don't have a magic number in my mind that I have to get down to... So I just told her, I don't know. I honestly just want to see how far I can get down to, but doing it in a healthy way. No fad diets, no crushing workouts that make me want to vomit, no starvation, no deprivation... just eating healthy and working out. So we'll see how low can I go? I think not having an ideal number might actually be beneficial for me right now.
After my mom left on Friday I watched the worst game of basketball and officially now have no interest in March Madness...
Then I had a date with a new guy in town. He's got mild Asperger's so he's a lot more high energy than I am. I'm pretty mellow. But we have a lot in common, so we'll see.
On St. Pat's Saturday I spent 6 hours at work! I had to finish up the special work project and luckily for me -- it turned out good. The experiment worked and my results looked good. So I got a gold star. Well, at least I gave myself a gold star ;-)
Then I met friends out for dinner. Once again I was wearing a really tight shirt and 5" heels so my one friend told me how long-legged and skinny I was looking -- that S-word keeps popping up! Seriously = mind boggling to me. I had fun, drank a green drink, and got to chat with friends.
I had a date with the eHarmony guy from last weekend on Sunday. I think we really hit it off, but he's stuck in Kansas City on a 3-year contract, and I'm moving in six months -- and definitely not to Kansas City, so I think that guy is out of the running. Hopefully the guy in town will work out, but for now I'm still just having fun dating.
So that gets us to Monday. I'm finally trying to catch up with SparkFriends and update you all on myself. I forgot to weigh-in this morning -- so I'll do that tomorrow morning. Hopefully the crazy, fast paced, not being able to work out or track my food last week won't be too harsh on my scale. I did pick up 4 giant honeydew melons at Hyvee -- they're on sale for $3.48 -- and they are delicious! So I'm going to put down the sugar and pick up the fruit to try and get on the Spark bandwagon for some of the sugar detox. I really don't have that much of a problem with sugar (unless I'm in a binge) so hopefully cutting down on sugar won't be too much of a problem.
This week looks to be a little more relaxed-ish. I've got a huge experiment to run tomorrow... then a lunch date with the guy in town on Wednesday... some minor work stuff... and oh yea, I guess I should be writing my thesis :-0 Yea, I need to get on that...
Monday, March 12, 2012
So who's been watching college basketball? I spent Friday and Saturday nights watching Mizzou KILL at their games! Unfortunately the two guys I was with weren't into basketball -- what the heck? So they might have been bored, but I sure as heck wasn't :-)
I'm sure that March Madness is going to be just as nuts for me with Mizzou actually standing a chance of getting to the Sweet 16. I'd be more optimistic, but we're a really short team. Until then though -- Tigers all the way -- I need to get my bracket ready later this morning.
So this weekend was good. I had a good date on Thursday, and now the guy won't stop texting me so I'm sure he's into me. The date on Saturday was okay. We talked a lot, but I don't think it'll go anywhere. He's also in Omaha which is like 5.5 hours away and honestly I don't think I'd be up for a long distance thing. The Thursday date was from Kansas City so that's even pushing it for distance. You'd think in a college town there'd be someone but apparently not... So that's that update for everyone.
Somehow in the midst of dating, going out to watch basketball, and not getting to work out -- I still managed to lose a pound because I was focused on my diet. I was wondering how I'd be able to manage all of my social obligations and still make progress, but somehow I did -- so this morning's weigh in made me smile. I also re-did my inches measurements. They really hadn't been changing, so I did my last set in November. So I had a little progress there. Nothing dramatic, but enough to show myself that its starting to add up all over.
The only annoying part of the weekend was the fact that I lost my work keys. That meant I couldn't go into lab on Sunday and finish some experiments I had set up earlier in the week. Turns out they're just sitting on my bench in the lab, so I just had a blond moment and won't have to go through the hassle of getting new keys.
So all in all -- a really good Monday to start the week! The weather is going to be A-MA-ZING! I don't know what I'm going to do, but I might drag my dogs on a walk somewhere outside and just get moving outdoors. The sunshine and warm weather are just adding to my good mood. Tomorrow I have to go to mediation with my co-worker who is bonkers, so I'm sure my blog tomorrow will be full of interesting details... I just hope I can keep my calm and use my good mood now to fuel me through the negativity.
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