Monday, February 27, 2012
So I have reached a plateau. And it sucks. I've been stuck at 192 for over three weeks now and I am so annoyed. I thought it was because I wasn't working out hard enough... or that I was eating too much or too little. I've been tweaking things and nothing seems to be working.
I know I shouldn't let the scale annoy me, but it does. I think it bugs everyone, we just have to learn not to complain about it. But on the positive side, my jeans feel more comfortable so in my head I'm thinking that I'm switching muscle for fat. And I'm going to keep telling myself that so I don't chuck the scale.
I finished my 30 day challenge on my Wii EA Sports Active. I remember dying when I tried to do it over a year ago. This time around, I did hard the whole way through, and worked out after I was finished with the Wii. BUT I don't think I got as effective of a calorie burn as I was getting on my treadmill and my own strength training plan. Also, in my head I thought I was getting a gold star for completing the work out, and didn't really do as much as I could have afterward -- usually since my quads were burning. Seriously squat holds are the worst!
So now I'm back to my treadmill and I am going to see if I up my calorie burn there, will the scale move. I did a 5k on Saturday and Sunday at about a 18 minute/mile rate -- so not running but walking reeeally fast (I still hate running) on a 5% incline -- so I definitely got my calorie burn in over the weekend. BUT my sister was here. I think she's mad at her husband for wanting to stay in BFE Missouri instead of moving to Chicago -- so she came to stay with me for two days and ended up staying for four.
I tried to not let her be a bad influence, but I cracked. I definitely didn't eat clean. Part of that is my fault for not having good food in the house -- and part of it was her determination to eat at a chinese buffet. I swear I stole all of the broccoli out of the beef and broccoli -- but I also had a few fried eggrolls *sigh* why does chinese food taste so good -- yet its SO bad for you!
So now she's gone. Once I get paid on Wednesday, I'm headed to the store to stock up on fruits and veggies that I will eat -- and I will avoid beef and other non-healthy proteins. I will track my food. I will drink 12 cups of liquid. I will try not to PMS too much this week and not indulge in any more chocolate than I already did for breakfast today. I will try and avoid everything fried like the plague.
And my mini-goal for the week is to do another two 5ks. That usually just means spending an hour on the treadmill. Apparently the EA Sports Active did help out my knee. That and taking it easy for the past three weeks on the treadmill. I'm going to have to incorporate more squats and leg exercises into my strength training from now on.
So yea. I'm annoyed at myself, but not enough to make any stupid mistakes. I am not going to let a little plateau keep me from continuing to lose. Plus I took some new pictures over the weekend in a new $10 pencil skirt I got from JC Penny (seriously -- they have ridiculous deals) and I got a ton of positive feedback. Both from my friends on Facebook and the guys on the dating website -- so I got a little shot of good mojo sent my way. Whenever I'm feeling crappy about where I am right now, I can look at the comments and realize that I am so far away from where I was last year, I can't hardly recognize myself. So now I am just going to use this annoying plateau as fuel to push harder.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Okay so I didn't freak out on Friday like I planned to. I restrained myself and came out looking like the calm, sane one in the situation.
I met with the ombudsman in the afternoon. The department has already been watching this girl since they feel she might not be PhD material and know that she has issues (she's been kicked out of six labs). I basically told them about the violence and anger issues, and mentioned that the girl threatened to strangle the ombudsman's husband on numerous occasions (he's the dept chair). So that got their attention. They want to get her into counseling for anger and for her issues, of which are several, but I also just wanted to report it in case this girl goes nuts on us all and gets a gun -- she's seriously the type...
And then I met with my boss. He was the one who actually brought up Jenniffer! I didn't even have to bring her up! So now that I know that he's also having doubts about keeping this girl, I'm just going to keep my mouth shut. He basically told me to ignore her and just try to avoid her as much as possible... so I don't know what he's thinking, but now I know that's its not 100% I'm going to keep her.
So that went well... Most of my friends ditched town for the weekend so it was very chill. The scale was only down 0.4 lbs this morning, so I didn't feel like lowering my weight loss on Spark. Le sigh... Oh well, here's to another week!
Friday, February 17, 2012
So yesterday was a whirlwind. I felt like starting a fight with this girl because of her attitude. Nothing has changed, I'm being five and acting like she doesn't exist right now. It seems to be working to keep me sane.
I was supposed to meet with my boss to go over my thesis plan... and hopefully talk of graduation in August. I just got a call though, he's busy delivering Girl Scout cookies and wants to reschedule. So okay... whatever, I was just planning on using that time to calmly, rationally talk to him about this girl. Yesterday she literally threw a $500 pipettor across a benchtop. And it wasn't even hers! I am getting out of here, so it really doesn't matter to me what the heck she does, as long as it doesn't get in my way. I'm about to go clean her incubator for her -- I literally offered to do the scummiest job in the lab, that's how much my OCD, oh-no-she-didn't!-I want this done. *sigh*
When I got home from work I complained to a former lab member. She thought from the outside, how crazy this girl is was comical. Knowing that I was there she felt bad, but honestly this person is NUTS! I changed into my workout clothes and did a 5K to get all of the built up energy out. Whew, haven't done one in awhile, and I do mine on a 5% incline on the treadmill to get more of a calorie burn, so today I'm feeling it, but in a good way.
Later I talked to my dad that night and his offer of help was "make sure you take an ativan before you go into your meeting so you don't overreact." Thanks dad, drug up and everything will be a little easier.... well I did just to be safe and not look crazy.
SO right now I'm mellow, I'm working on my thesis plan, and I'm going to enjoy my Friday.
Have you guys seen this 5K that's going to be in St. Louis? http://runforyourlives.com/ -- there's a St. Louis race on 8/18 that I'm probably going to sign up for: http://runforyourlives.com/overview-st-lou
is-mo/ SO this will be my first 5K that I will actually run! And look ridiculous of course... but that just makes it more fun :-)
Thursday, February 16, 2012
So I can't take it anymore. I've complained about my coworker before... but now -- she's dirty. Literally dirty. Her incubator (the box where we keep our sterile cell cultures growing) is full of mold and bacteria and she refuses to clean it.
Refuses to clean what should be a sterile environment. *head banging against wall* I even offered to clean it for her!
So I'm done. I can't take it anymore, the gloves are coming off, and I'm filing a complaint. I tried to talk to my boss, but he brushed me off. I'm meeting with him tomorrow morning to go over my thesis plan, but instead I'm going to continue to let him know how bad it is in the lab. We are seriously concerned that this girl might do something rash. She throws stuff, kicks stuff, breaks stuff, and is so angry ALL the time that we don't know how to handle her. We've been mostly ignoring her, but she all but challenged me today to do something about it.
All this time I have been repressing the inner mean girl, going out of my way to help her, and she is the rudest, most vile, aggressive person I have ever met in my life -- so now it is my MISSION to get her to be reprimanded in some way. She cannot go through the next six to seven years (because she's not that smart, and she doesn't have what it takes to graduate with a PhD in biochemistry) at this University bullying my friends and coworkers. I literally have had it.
As I said, I'm meeting with my boss tomorrow morning, and with our departmental ombudsman in the afternoon. I will go to HR and the graduate school if I have to and file a complaint against her. Am I crazy that I shouldn't be scared to work in the same room as this woman? The fact that not only I, but two other twenty something guys, and a Mormon father of five are all fed up and scared of upsetting her because we are afraid of what she will do should be enough for my boss to step in, but he won't.
SO there's my rant. I'm going to go home and try to channel some of this aggression into my work out. *sigh*
Monday, February 13, 2012
Friday my friends and I decided to have a girl's night. We got all gussied up and went out to some bars for drinks and dancing. They haven't seen me intoxicated before, and Friday I decided to let loose and have a few too many. I don't really drink because I have a genetic thing that makes me get a vicious hangover from very little alcohol if I'm not careful. Basically I have to save up months worth of enzyme in my liver before I can drink and not feel like death the next day. But since I've been here for 4.5 years and they've never seen it, I figured what the heck.
I planned in advance for the booze too. Between diet and working out like crazy before I got ready for the night, I was running a ~1200 calorie deficit. I did my homework on Spark and figured out what drinks would be better... and then didn't follow any of it. Between the flatbread halfway through the night and the shots I don't think I was too far over my calories for the day.
My friend Erin was staying with me for her birthday this weekend too. So we ate out a lot. She was an undergrad where I'm a grad student, so she had a lot of restaurants to hit up. I tried to not get too many bad foods, get in a lot of protein, but once again -- I didn't count calories. I think what the heck, I know its only one day -- I will do better, and I didn't beat myself up about it. It was a lot of fun too seeing some of her friends I don't hang out with.
Sunday was pretty busy too. We all slept in, got brunch, and she headed home. I headed to work and to the mall. I caved and got some new stuff at Maurice's. I needed smaller cami's to wear under my shirts, but the new clothes in there for Spring are really cute. I got two shrugs to wear over some of my tank tops -- I hate my arms, they are still the fattest part of my body, and Maurice's has some great cover ups to layer over tighter fitting tanks/short sleeve shirts. I also bought one box of Girl Scout cookies. I just can't say no. I used to hock them when I was a kid, so I feel obligated to get a box. 4 thin mints are only 160 calories, so I think that is going to be my treat for the week if I'm under on calories. Then back to work to finish up -- I was there until 7. Ick.
So today I slept in. There's snow everywhere, so I'm going to digest breakfast, work out, and then head into work later this afternoon.
Happy Monday everyone.
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