Friday, April 16, 2010
The scale tried to get me down this morning!!
I'm sure that the scale and Blobby McFlabface were in cahoots this morning to try and get me to pig out on my lunch today!!
The scale showed a higher number again this morning, which is normal after I zumba, but not THAT much higher...
I had a temporary moment of panic, but had a serious think about it while I showered. I've been extra good about water recently, I usually make myself drink 8 glasses just at my desk during the day, as well as a small one right when I get up, usually at least a bottle full at the gym, and varying amounts throughout the evening... yesterday I didn't have very much water by comparison.
There was an adorable little smiling goodie bag on the table when I got home on my lunch yesterday decorated with sunshines and rainbows... I HAD to see what was inside... and one of dear BF's coworkers had given him home made cookies... my FAVORITE kind of home made cookies: oatmeal chocolate chip! I was caught unprepared and ate THREE OF THEM!! I couldn't believe it!
BUT, I had an EXTRA low calorie dinner to make up for the unknown calories of the cookies. It was a bit high on the sodium though (ling ling potstickers and trader joe's chicken fried rice), and I ended up eating pretty late 'cause I got caught up in working on the ADORABLE sock monkey crochet baby blankie and matching beanie I'm making for my best friend... crochet is like drugs to me... "just one more line and then I'll stop, I swear!"
SO, after a nice think, I didn't care WHAT the scale had to say. I did fine, I'm doing fine, it'll come right back down sometime this weekend so long as I stick to my diet and exercise guns!
Also, I've moved into the dreaded 'squishy' phase. I HATE it!! BUT, I'm just trying to keep in mind that it's a good sign of positive progress. All that super packed marbelized fat is getting smaller, so I feel squishier. Sure, I feel like I should feel firmer for all the muscle I have to be building, but thanks to last time with SP I KNOW what's happening, and while it's annoying, I can try and celebrate it as an accomplishment....
Hope you all have a fabulous and productive weekend!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
My journey is so much simpler with SP this time around. Sure, the first time I used SP I lost 20lb in like a month, and lost most of the rest of my 50lb total within the next several months... but then I got stuck. Nothing seemed to work.
Sure, this time has been painfully slow as far as the scale is concerned, but I'm recognizing all the same patterns of behavior in my body from before... so the surprises are limited, and usually good!
I saw my big drop on the scale yesterday morning, as per usual, after my rediculously hard core Tuesday night body sculpt class. And again, as per usual, a slight gain back this morning.
And here's the important part.... I was EXPECTING it. Not because I ate extra, not because I did anything 'wrong' yesterday; because it's what my body does every week. I wish I'd saved the link to the SP article someone shared on the Done team that made me feel better about it. I know from last time that my body just hangs onto a little more weight the few days after a really hard workout, but this article explained it. It's perfectly normal to see a slightly higher number on the scale for a few days after new or unusually vigorous exercise. It had all the metabolic and physiological reasons, but I have to remember enough of those for class, all I really need to remember for sanity as that it's normal, it's to be expected, and it's in no way an actual 'gain'. Now I take it as proof that I worked hard!
And, a slight miracle... I passed up SEASON FRIES last night!! I traditionally like to eat out after an evening test. I don't think of it as rewarding myself with food, I think of it as rewarding myself with not having to cook and clean! Well the dear BF had been craving a good restaurant burger, so we went to a delicious local chain. AND I didnt' get a burger. I got a chicken sandwich on sourdough with grilled onions and ortega chili's (super yum!) and asked them to go light on the cheese. I ordered sweet potato fries instead of the regular, but when we got home we had 2 orders of season fries... and I have always LOVED their season fries. And then the miracle part... I wans't into them. I LOVED the sandwich, and it was plenty big. I ate about 5 fries and then gave the whole rest of the tray to the BF!! It didn't even occur to me what I was doing at the time. They tasted geasy and starchy and unapealing. I gave away something I didn't like.... Later I realized I had lost my appetite for a 'bad' food I used to love, and as the self-proclaimed QUEEN of "i payed for it all, I'm gonna eat it all," it really is shocking behavior!!
I'm ready to waggle my rhythmically challenged booty literally off in a manner that resembles dancing!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Spark People... You win again!!
I've been resisting eating more than 1300 calories per day like you wouldn't BELIEVE, but still burning 1000 calories every Tuesday and Thursday, and a minimum of 500 every Friday and Saturday... for a grand total of 3000 calories per week.
My Dr. told me it was fine to stay in a 1200-1500 calorie range even though I upped my exercise; so I did. After all, even the biggest loser contestants only eat about 1200 calories a day, and they exercise EIGHT HOURS PER DAY, so why wouldn't it be good for me too right?
So I quickly edited my start page every time it tried to give me higher calorie ranges.
But lo and behold... WEIGHT LOSS!! I hadn't seen changes in FOREVER, then 4 days of eating within the suggested SP ranges for my activity level, and suddenly.... almost 3 lb gone!!!
So I have swallowed up my know it all attitude, and I'm enjoying swallowing a little more of my favorite healthy foods too!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I'm confused... but I'm certainly not complaining!!
I had a fabulous weekend. I was NOT feeling motivated to go work out on Friday. I decided to run errands on my lunch rather than pilates, and finished work early, so I was able to leave work at about 4.
I went ahead and got some new workout clothes on my lunch break while I was running errands, 'cause I couldn't stand another week of doing laundry every few days or wearing smelly, crusty work-out clothes!! I got some really cute ones on sale at Target. I even decided to brave wearing tank tops to work out in again. I always used to wear tank tops no matter what size I was 'because I hate feeling wearing more sweat against my skin than I have to... but this time around I've been shy to wear anything that didn't have sleeves.
So I went home after work to put on my favorite of my new work out clothes. (Black just below the knee pants with this cute little pink swooshy thing on the legs and a matching pink and black sports bra tank).... but was still having a hard time motivating myself! I'd worked out extra on Thursday... my toe was mysteriously hurting really bad... excuses excuses excuses!!
I made myself go. I sat and had a nice little internal discussion about how I'd feel later that evening if I went vs if I didn't go... and the go's had it!
I told myself I could just do 20 minutes and some strength training... but there was a baseball game on in the workout room and the Giants (my home team), who have sucked for as long as I can remember, are actually good this season! They were tied and in the 11th inning... so I thought I might as well stay and see if they win so I could talk about it with my dad and brother... well an hour and 15 minutes later they were in the 14th inning, and STILL tied!! I finally had to go home.
Ends up my toe is fine, I just had a bit of a gnarly spider bite poofing up. It swelled up big and gross on Saturday, but didn't hurt anymore, and was perfectly normal by Sunday. I'm glad I didn't let it stop me!
Saturday I got to see my best friend from college, who I hadn't seen in a few months. Got some exciting news from her that means lots of cute crocheting and quilt making in my near future! We even went for a nice to and around the park near my house and fed the geese.
And that led to the confusing part... I've been super good about my calories since weening myself of vacation food. Some part of me knew that I wasn't seeing any results on the scale 'cause it takes a while for all that stuff to work through my system. We had chinese on Saturday.... now, I was proud of myself. I got a meal for 1 and only ate just over 1/4 of it and saved the rest for my boyfriend. Craving satisfied and over-stuffage avoided. Then on Sunday the scale finally dropped a little. ... so I was mad at it. Never reward me for good behavior and then drop after chinese food of all things?!?! So I let Connor get a costco pizza Sunday instead of talking him into something else... and I ate A LOT of it... not all in 1 sitting like the old me, but spaced out throughout the whole day I ate HALF of that pizza!!! And then some leftovers from the fridge!! I don't know WHAT got into me... Then the scale dropped AGAIN yesterday morning... by a WHOLE POUND... after pizza and a burrito!!
So I talked to my dr. about it at my apointment yesterday. Ends up my thyroid is fine. It's under normal by about a point, but not enough to medicate or be concerned about... just enough to make things difficult!! I told her about how sticking to the 1200-1500 I'm not really seeing anything, and then getting frusrated and pigging out I see a drop... and eating out for a whole WEEK on vacation I didn't even really gain...
She suggested that I still aim for 1200-1550 most days, since I do work a desk job, but if there's something I'm really craving, or a day where I'm just extra hungry, go for it up to the top of my suggested SP range with my exercise added in... which is a WHOPPING 1950 calories!! She said not to use it as an excuse to eat 1900 calories every day, but if I want to do it once or twice a week, it's fine so long as I'm still doing those hard workouts 4 days a week.
I think that's perfect. It's like official permission to occasionally indulge when I need to, up to a responsible point, rather than just my own permisson to do so!!
So I'm confused... but I'm not complaining!!!
Friday, April 09, 2010
I don't know what got into me yesterday!!
I opted to sleep the extra 10 minutes rather than pack my lunch and gym bag yesterday morning, which isn't an issue at all, it just means that I come home for my lunch break. And home is only about 2 miles away.
Well I had a whole hour and it only takes a fraction of that to pack my gym bag and make a healthy lunch, so I decided to swing by my obgyn. It's coming up on about time for my yearly anyway, and I wanted to ask her if I could get bloodwork done through her office, rather than pay for a whole OTHER appointment with my genral practitioner. She made it clear that there has to be a reason for her to order lab work, but was open to my explanation. She actually called me back, pulled my chart, and talked to me about it right then and there. I stretched the truth just a TAD to get her to run the thyroid test. We've been doing blood tests on ourselves in lab for the last few weeks, and we DID do a thyroid test... but it was on the rats, because we can only prick, not draw blood, from ourselves. So my rat really was hypothyroid, I just didn't make it clear that that's what I tested on instead of myself for that one.... lol. I also explained that I've just never had any sort of general blood work done, and thought it would be responisble to do. She wrote me up a referral and suggested a lab, the receptionist had even made sure they take my insurance!
So I went in this morning, after my 12 hour fast, and apparently have rather acrobatic veins. Mine was hard to get to come up in the first place, and then it rolled and dodged and everything else it could manage while the phlebotomist dug around for it. He was good at his job though, and it wasn't particularly uncomfortable, considering. He had a bit of a sense of humor on him to. He said bye with a "hope I don't see you again!" Get it? Cause if I have to go back it's cause something is wrong and needs more testing. I liked it.
So I didn't cheap out!! I have my lady exam at 3 on Monday, and my blood work should be in by then too. I'm surprisingly calm and un-nervous about the whole thing.
Then, on my lunch break, my saturday beach walking friend called. We haven't seen eachother since before I went on my trip, and hadn't seen eachother much before that. Which is strange-seeming, 'cause she used to work in the building and we'd go out to lunch most days and hang out after work lots of them! Well we missed eachother and wanted to see if I wanted to go for a walk after work, since she may go out of town to visit some old friends this weekend. So, I don't know if I'm crazy or what, but I suggested she meet me at our place after I got home from Zumba, so she'd have time to go home and change out of her work clothes. Plus she'd never done the little walk around my park with me.
I wrangled a gym newbie into Zumba with me. She was obviously just a little uncomfortable (it's a pretty crazy class), but said she had a great time and was glad I talked her into trying it instead of spin class. According to my HRM I burned 1200 calories!!! And then, just minutes after I got home, I left on a walk with my friend! It's about a 40 minute fast walk from my apartment, to the park, around the little lake, and then back again, with a big hill right at the end. I don't know what I was thinking! My legs are soooooooore today!
We invited her to stay for dinner, and Blobby McFlabface tried his darndest to use it to his advantage. My friend is a vegetarian and we didn't have a lot of full meal options that she could partake in.
Blobby tried his best to get me to order pizza. It's what we've traditionally done when this friend stays for dinner in the past. But I got clever! We had a pilsbury crust in the fridge, so I just made us our own pizza, and just put extra veggies and no turkey pepperoni's on a third of it for her! Sure, usually we eat the whole thing just the two of us (only about 600 calories for a whole half of our pizza!!!), so I knew the dear BF would be just a little bummed to give up part of his... but I just shopped Wednesday night! There were a wide variety of tastey snacks to munch upon while we were making and cooking the pizza! Pita chips with olive hummus, bagel chips, some fruit, whole wheat pretzels, etc. I just pulled them all out and the three of us hung out in the kitchen and snacked and caught up, it was really nice!!
It's tempting to run a lot of errands on my lunch today... My car is humiliatingly dirty and the windshield has so much tree stuff and bird doodie on it that it's a safety hazard... I have checks from the BF for bills and birthday checks to deposit... and I'm in DESPERATE need of some smaller sports bras. Zumba HURT in my current ones. It's never fun that my boobs are first to go, but proper support for them is pretty important. I was thinking I could do all that tomorrow, since I have the day off but the BF doesn't, but my best friend from colleg is in town tomorrow and wants to visit... I've only seen her about 3 times in the last year, all with the husband/bf (who were friends too, through us) present, but never a day to just ourselves. She's even up for going for my usual Saturday beach walk with me!
BUT, the original plan was to go to pilates on my lunch. I... well... I guess you'd say 'enjoyed' the couple of weeks I went before my trip, but I've had to miss the last 2 since we were out of town. I was kinda looking forward to all the soreness and the sense of accomplishment that comes with it... Sure, I can always just go to the gym after work and lead myself through my own workout instead, but I'm partial to just going to the classes and turning my brain off and knowing I'm gonna get a good workout... And getting home a little earlier on Fridays to get my weekend started with a bit o' the 'ol rum...
Either way, I promise I'll exercise.
Please feel free to kick Blobby in the mouth. He keeps trying to convince me that I can skip exercise today since I did extra yesterday.
Today is a NEW day!! What happened yesterday doesn't count!
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