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Now I Smash My Friends.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

If you're a follower, and still around, oh my goodness, awesome!!!

I felt like all of you were / are owed and update and explanation. You stuck by and supported me through so much. My friends, and Sparkpeople as a whole...

IT WORKED!!!

That's why I haven't been here.

I don't need it.

My lifestyle changed, and the worst thing I could do is obsess about it.

I have kept off every pound I lost, and a few more, though I don't often bust out the scale anymore. Maybe once every other month or so, just to make sure I'm not delusional.


I did finally pass my Fresh Meat derby assessments, though I had to go through ALL of fresh meat a second time to do it, and roller derby is the highlight of my life these days. I skate 2-3 nights a week, I have this huge circle of new friends, it builds physical activity into my schedule in a way that doesn't feel like "exercise," and, most importantly, it makes me SO HAPPY.


See? Proof!
The final verdict on derby name, by the way: Charlemangle
It makes me feel tough and smart!
It used to be that I couldn't walk up a flight of stairs without getting huffing and puffing. Now I smash into my friends 3 nights a week on skates and covered in sweat and love every second of it (well, maybe not that exact second when I hit the floor real hard).

I ended my relationship with my ex just shy of 10 years together. I didn't mention him much, but he was mentioned, so I feel like I should say something.
It's a big risk, when you change your life, that you will change yourself right out of several friendships, and maybe even your relationship. I saw it happen with a lot of other successful sparkers.
It makes me feel like I have to defend myself. He stayed with me all the years I was fat, and as soon as I start feeling empowered and good about myself I have the nerve to dump him?
Short answer: yes.
Hint at the long answer: weight loss was just one (admittedly major) part of really working hard to be the person I want to be. The more I changed, and the more he stayed the same, the less we had in common. He couldn't understand or appreciate me anymore. I did things that made my soul grow and grow and grow, and he kept working a soul-crushing job and just complaining about it. So, our souls changed in opposite directions, and we weren't soul-mates anymore.
We're trying hard to still be good friends.

So, you know what that means...
I'm dating again for the first time since I was 18!
It's crazy and mostly ridiculous and more fun than I expected. It's really teaching me a lot about myself!
It's also taught me that most guys really don't care about a few extra pounds, not the fun ones anyway. Particularly if you carry them in the fun places!! They're really looking for confidence and independence and sense of humor and all the same stuff we are.
So, single ladies, lighten up a little, m'kay?!

Also, if you know of any single, large, attractive, preferably bearded, viking-esque men with a quick wit, full-time job, and appreciation for good whiskey and bad puns in the Monterey Bay area who like rainbow-haired girls that like unicorns and rollerskates way too much for a woman of nearly 30, help a girl out!!!


Food is no longer a struggle!!
If you get nothing else from me, any of my blogs, or this post, know this:
I HAD A CRIPPLING PROBLEM WITH FOOD AND BINGE EATING AND NOW I DON'T.

I've been maintaining the same window of 10lb for nearly two years now, and it feels great.
Would I like to be thinner? Sure! Not many of us wouldn't.
Could I lose the last 25lb to get to my original goal of 100lb lost? Probably anytime I want!!
BUT, I don't really care. I like pizza and beer and naps and ice cream and 25 extra pounds don't feel like that big of a deal 90% of the time.
I mean, 10% of the time I'm pretty convinced I'm just as big as I was when I started, that I'm giant and fat and gross, that nothing looks good on me and never will.... Hey man, that's progress. I'm down to 10%!! And I'm confident that that percentage will continue to get smaller.
I hope it never gets to zero... I'm pretty sure that makes me a sociopath... or at least a narcissist.


So what's the secret?
What's the take-away?
What can those who have been struggling so hard who come across this and look for inspiration or guidance or ideas or at least commiseration find here that makes it worth reading?

I wish I could answer that.
The secret for me was common sense. You know what you should and should not be putting in your body and in what quantities. You know which choices make you happy, make you feel good about yourself as a person, and which don't. You know you need to exercise, and probably even have a pretty good idea of what kinds and how much of it make you feel good, without feeling like you're over or under-doing it. You know you need to sleep. You know that food doesn't really solve anything but actual hunger and lack of nutrients.
I made a decision that I was done with disliking myself, so I tried to make each decision with that in mind.
I still do!
I'm just not focused on food anymore.

I bought a Snickers bar (my favorite easy to find candy) from some kids raising money for their soccer team and I forgot that sucker in my purse for 3 weeks.
I THREW AWAY left over pizza (my kryptonite) from my favorite establishment because IT SAT IN MY FRIDGE TOO LONG.
A pint of Ben and Jerry's ice cream lasted me a whole week, and 4 sittings.
I went to derby practice 3 nights this week, and swam on 3 lunch breaks, and don't feel like I exercised once.
AND NONE OF THIS WAS A STRUGGLE, even a little bit.


I still don't drink enough water.
I still drink too much diet soda and beer.
I still eat too many carbs and sugar and cheese.
I rarely sleep enough.
I let my swims turn into power napping in the sun on nice days.

I also got wolf-whistled TWICE today on my lunch; and I'm really not that thin.
I got told that I am "ripped" by a strange man last week, as a compliment, and loved it.

Most importantly: I'm so happy.
I'm so comfortable with who I am, and even the things about myself that I'm still working toward changing. My weight, what I eat, and how much I exercise are really not a focus anymore.
REALLY.

There's hope.
Lives and lifestyles change!!

And, because I know everyone loves a before and after:



Oh, and I have rainbow hair and my dream job!!
Life is good.
No news is good news.

  
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ONMYOWN4NOW 1/21/2014 11:15PM

  Thank you for sharing your story so eloquently. I have just begun my journey, but I'm ready and inspired by people like you. My goal is to lose 85 lbs. So far I've lost 3, but I'm on my way. :)

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CARLYG8 12/3/2013 7:11PM

    I had just asked someone about you the other day from the Starfish team. I am so happy to hear that you are well and happy! It is a blessing to have them both. Keep on keepin' on! ~hugs~ Carly

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NASFKAB 11/23/2013 10:59AM

  AWESOME

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GRAMPIAN 11/20/2013 6:15AM

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CHRIAMARIA1983 11/3/2013 10:00PM

    One of the most encouraging blogs that I have read in awhile!

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BEEAUTIFULDAY 10/28/2013 1:35PM

    Great post. Great story. Reminds me of that movie ~ you know the one ;)

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BECKY3126 10/17/2013 4:40PM

    This made me so happy :)
I had seriously missed reading your blogs, but to hear that it is because you are just so busy out there living and that you have reached such a great place in your life....well, that is all we can hope that comes out of this experience on SP. Congrats to you and I wish you all the best and hope that dating remains fun (wink, wink) and that you have fun smashing all your friends!

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MISSLISA1973 10/14/2013 8:39PM

    Thanks for sharing your awesome story!

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NANHBH 10/13/2013 8:27AM

    This blog just makes me smile. You are ROCKIN' it, Sister! Let your soul soar.
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WHITEANGEL4 10/8/2013 11:42PM

    Sounds like you are doing something right. You have a satisfying life and are happy with yourself. That is a big plus for most people

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GEORGE815 10/5/2013 10:49AM

    Way to get to maintain. Congrats!

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GOOSIEMOON 10/2/2013 2:48PM

    I missed your posts (and delightful pictures), but am so glad to see that you are happy and healthy and thriving!

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SHARBEAR100 10/1/2013 7:53PM

    So wonderful you're happy and doing well!! We were lucky to have you here for the time we had. Your blogs are always enjoyable and I'll miss you.
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-CORAL- 10/1/2013 7:48PM

    Oh my gosh, reading this made me SO happy for you. So many times, people leave SP and come back a year later talking about how they gained back all the weight or half of it, how they felt embarrased to admit they failed, etc. I am so excited that you made it onto the derby team and have a fun, happy life. And what you said about pizza and beer and an extra 25 lbs... hey that's me too. I feel like I have to apologize or justify it all the time, but my husband loves my big girly parts and we have so much fun together, and isn't that what life is all about? Congratulations a million times for turning your life around. This really seriously brought tears to my eyes.

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LKS2GAB2 9/30/2013 10:05PM

    Good for you for finding your way. Keep it up, have fun and kick ass!

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DENNETJ 9/30/2013 9:45PM

    I didn' t realize you lived in the Monterey area. I used to live there. Awesome place! I'm glad to hear you are doing well. I hear you on the soul growing away from someone. I finally had the piece of mind to step up and say goodbye to my spouse of 14 years. It wasn't working for me anymore. You know what I'm the happiest and healthiest I've been in a long time. I'm still a big girl with a long way to go but now I have people who want to be with me. Dating is a whole new world that is for sure. Best of luck to you!

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IGSBETH 9/30/2013 11:13AM

    Good for you! So happy for you!

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LDRICHEL 9/30/2013 10:14AM

    This is one of the best things I've ever read on Spark! LOVE this blog! What team to you play for? My sister is Asian Sinsation from Naptown Roller Girls and I have done a lot of writing and bout recaps for Bleeding Heartland Roller Girls in Bloomington, IN. We, no doubt, would know some of the same people!

So proud of you. What a great post to illustrate "Roller derby saved my soul". :)

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CUDDLYPOLARBEAR 9/30/2013 7:15AM

    Great post

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FUNZ81 9/29/2013 2:01PM

    Awesome blog! You have given me courage to continue the weight-loss trek I am on. Thank you

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VALKYRIA- 9/29/2013 12:42PM

    I don't think you owe an explanation about the ex.... people can not work out for lots of reasons. No one should judge you for your decision to be a happier person! Congratulations~

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ILOVEMALI 9/29/2013 12:24PM

    This makes me so happy. Your voice is so fierce! Happy ever after to you, Pal! I now know that I can do it, too!!!

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GRATEFUL_BEING 9/29/2013 12:28AM

    Yay! Well done! Congrats on all your hard work.

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    Great story! YOU LOOK emoticon

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LIVINHEALTHY9 9/28/2013 10:00PM

    From reading your blog, it sounds like you are in a happy and healthy place and enjoying life.

Good for you!

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AJB121299 9/28/2013 8:46PM

    nice

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JERICHO1991 9/28/2013 8:26PM

    great!

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NAN111 9/28/2013 8:12PM

    AWESOME!!!!

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BIKERBABE76 9/28/2013 7:05PM

    Awesome! You look great! It's really encouraging to read your blog. I have lost my first ten pounds and your story makes me nt to keep going... emoticon

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FIRECOM 9/28/2013 5:20PM

    Your writing skills are superior and very enjoyable.

Thanks for a great blog.

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RICKISMOM1 9/28/2013 3:40PM

    To "effect 25" : You write:
" I just wanted to know that a binge eater can become a normal (!) eater and a "naturally" thin person. "
I'll have you know that a LOT of thin people monitor themselves. Some women can maintain without continuing to track what they eat--- but many still have to continue to a certain extent. Also, taking care of the underlying psychology that caused binge eating is pretty essential.



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MOMMY445 9/28/2013 3:10PM

    the roller derby sounds like so much fun! love the hair!

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KKLENNERT809 9/28/2013 12:46PM

    Wow, I really enjoyed reading your blog! You are awesome and a great example for us all.

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TORNADOTAMER 9/28/2013 12:05PM

    The tear of happiness I shed for you will water my my newly planted seed of health! Thanks for sharing

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JOANNHUNT 9/28/2013 11:46AM

    AWESOME LADY JUST AWESOME. YOU GO GIRL. MY 10 YEAR OLD GRANDDAUGHTER LOVES ROLLER DERBY. HER ROLLER DERBY NAME IS KAMAKAZI 2003. THEY HAVE A NO CONTACT GROUP FOR AGES 9 TO 18 YEARS NOW AND SHE LOVES IT. SHE HAS GOTTEN A FEW CLASSMATES TO JOIN.
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EFFECT25 9/28/2013 10:00AM

    Finally! Finally there is someone who can tell that it works. Most people say that to maintain you have to monitor your calories, your scale number, keep on tracking, keep on counting how much you exercised etc even after you lost the weight. But it sounded to me always so so depressing. I never would have wanted such a life. I dont want to be a food obsessed person (but thin) who constantly monitors herself and thinks about food. I just wanted to know that a binge eater can become a normal (!) eater and a "naturally" thin person. That is my goal, that is what I will try to do from now on. Common sense, hunger eating and no deprivation. No rules! Thanks for the hope!

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KITTYCAT64 9/28/2013 9:59AM

    You are living the dream. Feeling good in your own skin, and doing what you love. Keep sparking. Hugs Cathy

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Be Somewhere Else, Do Something Different (w/pics!)

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

This morning, in a fit of pout, I bought a baggie of cheddar chex mix snack stuff.

I was invited to go to turtle racing at the local bar that supports my roller derby league with some of the other skaters last night, and was really excited about it, but skipped it because I had to get up really early this morning for a meeting.

Or so I thought.

AFTER getting up really early, and driving 30 miles to the meeting location, and standing in line for an eternity for my monthly Starbucks treat, and sitting in my car for 15 minutes waiting for my coworkers, I started to think...



Is today even the right day for this meeting?
Did I just get up 2 hours early and go through all this hassle and use up that much gas on the wrong day?

Yep.
I most certainly did.

So, after some creative swearing in my car, I had no choice but to turn right around and hurry back to the office.

I was SO ANNOYED with myself.
I was having at least a class 4 pout, and in a moment of pouty weakness, I pulled off at the 7/11 on the way to the office for a giant diet coke and some kind of salty snack.

I walked past the snacks and resisted; I don't need it, it wont even taste good, it's not something that will help me toward my goals.
I went back and picked one up (because with the morning I've had I deserve it!), only to immediately put it back on the shelf, because I know better.
I got in line for my fountain drink.
I went back and picked up the bag again with an eff it attitude.
I can make up for it later. I'm skating for 2 hours tonight, I can have a light lunch, a light dinner, a lighter food day with extra exercise tomorrow.

Excuses, excuses, excuses.

How many times have I been here before?
How does that quote go about insanity being doing the same thing and expecting different results?



Well I might be crazy, but I'm not stupid.
That bag of chex mix will not make me less tired, or give me back those couple hours of sleep, or put gas back in my tank, or make me feel less dumb for mixing up my weeks.
It will just make me feel sad, and gross, and disappointed in myself.

Just because I bought it doesn't mean I have to eat it!
I buy things that I don't eat or use all the time. I don't mean to, but it happens.

I'm going to get up from the computer right this second, and go give it away.

HA! Ran into a cool producer right outside my office from the weekly creature feature show who could not have been more excited to be gifted a bag of chex mix.

Now not only do I NOT feel super crummy about myself for eating something I don't even really want, I feel GOOD about making someone else happy.

I might be slow, but I'm learning, and I'm changing.
I've been there, and I've done that. LOTS of times.

Today I decided to be somewhere else, and do something different.







PS.
If you want to share this or any of my blogs outside of sparkpeople, I'm honored! But, please do it from my blogger page. I put some fairly personal things here on my sparkpage, and it's a little weird to think of non-sparkers reading it, but this has just the funny stuff!
www.legumelegroom.blogspot.com

  
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SUTERSPACE 1/29/2013 10:49AM

    I have things still sitting in my glove box that I bought because I wanted to and then decided I couldn't afford to eat them but they are there, 'just in case'. I guess it is time to go find a worthy recipient, LOL. Thanks.

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MISSFORTE 10/31/2012 7:34AM

    Amazing! When I buy things out of frustration I can't say I "give it up" you are great!

Hope you are doing well these days!

Happy Halloween to you!

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CHUM48 9/19/2012 10:29AM

    If you are not a writer you are missing your calling!

Great victory with the chex, double blessing I would call it!

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SPSPSP1 8/31/2012 2:40PM

    Well done!

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AROCHFORD 7/11/2012 6:37PM

    Love it that you gave it away! I still love to snack but it's getting smaller and smaller.

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CLEO27 7/5/2012 10:58AM

  That's awesome. I gave away a bag of chips after having a few to try. No need to eat the whole bag.

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MARYJEANSL 6/30/2012 10:25AM

  I really enjoy your funny blogs. Thanks!

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EEJAAY01 6/28/2012 7:51AM

  i really love your blogs, and the little drawings. they make me smile, appreciate and feel inspired. thanks you from across the water.

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MNTWINSGAL 6/27/2012 4:50PM

    Love your blogs. You might have saved me from making a dumb choice today. :)

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EMILYDOODLE 6/27/2012 2:54PM

  awesome!

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LALISJO 6/26/2012 4:40PM

    Oh my goodness! What a great blog! Definitely put a smile on my face. Congrats on you will power and on your awesome blog! emoticon

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ELIELECTRIC 6/26/2012 12:46PM

    how awesome! your will power is great! emoticon

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SUZAN137 6/25/2012 6:26PM

  So cute! Great blog.

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MOMASAURUS 6/25/2012 1:28PM

    Great blog!!

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LALALEELOU1354 6/25/2012 10:29AM

    emoticon That is fantastic! I love your creativity.

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SMILES650 6/25/2012 10:22AM

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DWILLIAMB 6/24/2012 9:18AM

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JFIZZL 6/24/2012 6:50AM

    I love your drawings and sense of humor! :) Your will-power is inspiring!

Thanks for sharing,
-Jackie

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BONIFIANT 6/23/2012 7:09PM

    Very creatively said and illustrated. Thanks for your frankness and making your point so well.

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1MATHTEACH 6/23/2012 5:31PM

    LOVE the "creative swearing"

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LEUCOSIIA 6/23/2012 2:21PM

  Can I borrow that doodle-headed hampster waffle? I'm still giggling at that!!

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VXWALL1942 6/23/2012 12:26PM

    LOL - I could swear you sneaked along on my last fiasco of a meeting. It included the Starbucks and the post-non-meeting stop at the 7-Eleven too. Wish I could say I had your will power. What a grand example. Congrats!

vicki

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DIANA3 6/23/2012 11:09AM

  What an excellent story and the pics are wonderful. Such a talent!!

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MAMA2EEEE 6/23/2012 11:05AM

  Wow, what willpower! I've managed to walk away from stuff in the store, but never, never have I managed to get rid of it once it is in my house (or my car, for that matter). Thanks for the inspiration!

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BANDMOM2012 6/23/2012 9:48AM

    I love it! Reward yourself in some non-food way for being a super cool chick today! Go get yourself a bad-a$$ roller derby shirt!

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DOTSLADY 6/23/2012 9:04AM

    Cutie patootie - you did it again! WTG gf! Woot for yourself and dance in the leftovers!

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RAINBOWMF 6/23/2012 8:01AM

    Self talk! One of the best things we can do for ourselves.
Thank for sharing.

Excellent blog.

Mary

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DEBK0923 6/23/2012 2:07AM

    great job on the blog

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IACTA_ALEA_EST 6/22/2012 10:00PM

    Yay you!

You've got brakes and you know how to steer out of a slide!
thanks for the good reminder
Allie B.

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SONYALATRECE 6/22/2012 9:12PM

    Excellent choices/actions!

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 6/22/2012 7:43PM

    Way to go. glad I am not the only one.

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TPETRIE 6/22/2012 6:51PM

  You should be really proud of yourself. It's amazing how happy we can make people with a little gift. Not only re they happy , but so are you. You made someone's day. Congrats on a great choice.

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AMOREMOREE 6/22/2012 6:30PM

    Most of the time I have to pick up bits of food my little girls through around, feeling guilty to throw away all that food, then feel guilty I ate it.
I wish I would also not eat it because it is there & no one else will. I will remember you next time. Thanks

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BLNBIKERIN1 6/22/2012 4:32PM

  Thanks for making me feel less guilty: just gave in to an entire oz of potato chips for dessert after lunch...
But just like you: I still have my Martial Arts workout ahead of me, and I can't just not go, because we have a special event today.

P.S. Liked your creative swearing!

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PMFISH 6/22/2012 4:27PM

    emoticon Be proud of yourself, because I am proud of you!!!

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ANYVAR54 6/22/2012 4:27PM

    GREAT BLOG, ALWAYS ENJOY READING YOUR STORIES, ABOUT YOUR JOURNEY.

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GAMELISSA 6/22/2012 4:23PM

  Hey, thanks for the story- - I was thinking about grabbing a piece of chocolate from my boss's office, but you resisted, and I will too!



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LEB0401 6/22/2012 4:00PM

    Hey!... So today a coworker surprised me with a huge coconut maccaroon from the bakery across the street. It was a super nice gesture, but this thing was the size of a softball and greasy with butter. Plus I already budgeted out my calories for the day. After I read this, I slipped it on the desk of the guy down the hall and made his day. Thanks, you inspired me :)

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MRS_EVA_K 6/22/2012 2:45PM

    It was what you made it Lulu. I'm proud of you for saying no to that bag of mess and yes to someone's smile at an unexpected "gift".

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BEAUTIFUL_REINA 6/22/2012 2:32PM

    Wow, this really inspired me. From now on I am going to do my best to adopt your attitude of "just because I bought it I don't have to eat it". That's great. Thats a breakthrough for me!
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KATIEM929 6/22/2012 12:37PM

    That's great! What a way to turn around a crummy situation. Thanks for sharing.
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Several Weeks After "Someday" (w/pics!)

Wednesday, June 06, 2012

Yesterday I binged and ate a WHOLE THING of Chips Ahoy chewy gooey chocfudge cookies.
In one sitting.
In maybe 20 minutes.
I'm not even sure why.

No, you know what, that's not true. I have a pretty good idea why, but it doesn't seem like a legitimate reason, so I try to brush it off and say I don't know why.
In fact, it sounds crazy.

I binged because I'm becoming exactly who I want to be, and it's scary, and it doesn't "fix" anything.

About 85-95% of the time I feel fantastic about myself. I've put in all this work and I feel good and I usually feel like I look good and I'm putting in the effort to be and become who I want to be. It's great!

But then sometimes, for no obvious reason, out of seemingly noplace, I have doubts.
I feel depressed.
I get overwhelmed.
I feel fat and unwanted and unloved and unlovable, even when I KNOW those things aren't true.
I still feel them.

So, the good news is I'm probably not a narcissist or a sociopath.



The bad news is that I will always have at least a little bit of self-doubt, and will probably always have this impulse to soothe that self-doubt with food.

The most important news is that I'm finally learning that that is okay. No one, including me, is ever going to be perfect even most of the time. I have weak spots, and one of those weak spots is my love of chocolate chip cookies.

That is totally okay.
In fact, I'm pretty lucky.
My weak spot could be for crack or moonshine or collecting too many stray cats.

All things considered, cookies aren't so bad.

It's okay to be scared.
Really, being scared of becoming exactly who I want to be is a pretty neat thing to have to be scared OF.

It wasn't scary when it was a far off daydream to be a fit and independent person who was out of the house doing things instead of watching other people do them on tv.
It wasn't scary to lay on that couch in my too-small sweat pants and tell myself that tomorrow I would start. Monday I would begin. Next week would be the first day of that life. Of becoming that person. Someday. On some particular start date in the future I would finally get to doing what I knew I needed to do so I could start pulling those too-small jeans out of the "someday drawer."

There aren't any more things in my "someday drawer."
It's completely empty.
It's been empty for WEEKS.
After years and years of stuffing it fuller and fuller of jeans that I once loved but could no longer stuff myself into, after years of it getting so full that it started to overflow into the drawer above it, there is absolutely nothing in that drawer.
Most of the jeans from that drawer are too big for me now.

I can't bring myself to put anything in that drawer.
It's pretty silly, a whole big drawer I could use to store SOMEthing, sitting empty.
But I don't want to put anything in there. I like knowing it's empty.
I like knowing that I'm living several weeks out from "someday."

I just didn't really prepare myself for the day several weeks after someday. It was always someday I will get my act together and I will become this person. I didn't really plan for what it would be like to actually BE that person. "That" person in those daydreams wasn't really me, it wasn't really even a person, it was just a daydream.

I am a totally different story.
I'm not active because it sounds so so dreamy and "right" to be active; I'm active because I'm out doing things I love! I'm playing disc golf every weekend and learning to play roller derby. I go to Zuma and now love to dance to the pop music I used to scoff at so smugly. I did a triathlon, and I won!! Okay, so I didn't win as far as anyone else participating in the race was concerned, but by my standards I won.

I don't do these things because I have to or am supposed to or because I should, I do these things because I WANT to, because I enjoy them.

That person in those daydreams lived on rabbit food and didn't even want any of the good stuff anymore. I love the good stuff. I drink beer and eat pizza and chocolate and sometimes even cookies. I don't want to give up my love of food, even occasional junk food.

So I don't really want to be that person from those daydreams.
Those daydreams are outdated. "That" girl can go ahead and join the princess and the mermaid and the vampire hunter as fond memories of something that I thought I wanted to be so badly.


Yesterday I binged and ate a whole thing of Chips Ahoy chewy gooey chocfudge cookies.
But you know what else I did yesterday?
I made myself snap out of it. I put on some good motivational music and yelled along and put on my work out clothes and went to the gym and worked hard and felt great about it.
I put that binge behind me and I moved on and had a great evening.

Yesterday I binged and ate a whole thing of Chips Ahoy chewy gooey chocfudge cookies.

Today that doesn't matter.
Today I got up and put on a cute outfit that makes me feel good about myself.
Tonight I will go to roller derby practice and work hard and have a fantastic time.

The only someday I'm worrying about now is the end of July when I get to take the skills assessment, hopefully pass, and officially pick out my derby name.
I'm currently leaning toward "The Rad Hatter."

Yesterday I binged and ate a whole thing of Chips Ahoy chewy gooey chocfudge cookies.

Today I wont.






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LADYJAJA 7/31/2013 7:14PM

  Excellent blog post! Hope you made the team (love the name you picked!). Don't stop writing, you're so good at it! emoticon

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CJYOUCANDOIT 5/10/2013 11:15AM

    Love the empty drawer. With me it is a shelf in my closet. It is full of pants I cannot fit into. I am planning on an empty shelf in a year or so when they are gone because they are too big! Congratulations on your accomplishments and thank you for sharing your journey. You are an inspiration!
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MITCHARVEY 11/13/2012 9:10AM

    I am reading this blog after i had a similar night. It is always great to hear how other deal with minor set backs. emoticon

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WILDFLOWERMA 10/26/2012 12:20PM

    I think we can all relate to what you've said here -especially when it comes to the "someday" drawer. My someday clothes are in a storage bin in the attic, but I wonder if it's really helpful to keep them. Congrats on your amazing progress :)

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GOOSIEMOON 10/26/2012 9:10AM

    I know the feeling! emoticon

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MISSLISA1973 9/5/2012 11:31PM

    AWESOME blog!

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SPSPSP1 9/3/2012 3:53AM

    Good for you!

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CHARTHESTAR 7/12/2012 8:59PM

    love the empty drawer! It doesn't seem silly to me. i have a big suitcase that I am going to see empty someday.
When- you no longer need the empty you will fill it with perfect fit items. Maybe for a once in a life-time vacation that you have totally earned by taking all the baggage off of your body and mind and celebrate the improved you- that you keep fit and healthy now.
That sounds like a good goal for me to work towards to.
Now.... where should I go? Hawaii? Norway? Can't really plan that- I will change and evolve and the new places that I go might reflect that.

Where would you want to go? Maybe the place where chocolate chip cookies were first made? or manufactured?

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SYZYGY922 7/9/2012 4:54PM

    I still have occasional binges, too, for the same set of reasons. I guess we just have to remain honest with ourselves and continue to tell ourselves that we're worth taking care of!

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JANWHOSOEVER 7/8/2012 3:42PM

    Thanks for the blog. I binge once in awhile too. Good reminder to just pick yourself up and keep going rather than beat yourself up over it.
BTY -I love the name "Rad Hatter" Good luck with the roller derby!

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LOVELY1INRED 6/24/2012 1:27AM

  This is EXACTLY why my mother stopped going to Weight Watchers after she lost her pregnancy weight....and then promptly put on twice as much. It scared her to be successful after so many years of being told she wasn't good enough, and she sabotaged herself. Kudos for your self-awareness and jumping back on the bandwagon!

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SLUDERCATS 6/22/2012 2:55PM

    Thank you for being so transparent and sharing something so personal that speaks to others like myself!

Gayle

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MYNAMEISSMILE 6/21/2012 5:19PM

    Love it! Today I had maybe 12-15 cookies, but then I just went for a 5 mile run, and I don't feel bad about it. The run was just to relax and let my mind wander, but running serves so many purposes in my life, and I love it. And cookies. I love cookies :)

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NANHBH 6/21/2012 4:59PM

    I can so relate to this. Thanks for sharing this with humor!
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SSORENSEN1 6/21/2012 10:06AM

    I love cookies and brownies too! We won't be successful if we give up our loves so I have learned to plan for them. So good to hear about the someday jeans fitting and that you aren't beating yourself up over cookies....like you said it could be much worse! Keep on sparking!

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TIGERESTJEN 6/20/2012 4:44PM

    I loved this blog. It made me think that we can all do it. I especially loved that your someday clothes are all gone. Great work and great motivation. THNAK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for sharing your story emoticon emoticon

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WHITEANGEL4 6/18/2012 1:58AM

    You will become a member of the team. You have what it takes to win. Loved the blog and all is well emoticon

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SANDIK9806 6/14/2012 9:59PM

    Yep! You really nailed it!! Thanks for reading my mind!

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TERESANAVARRO 6/14/2012 8:28PM

    I love this blog! Thank you for putting these feelings into words. And thank you for giving yourself permission to eat cookies from time to time. I feel like I can give myself permission to do that too.


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CHEETOMATH 6/13/2012 11:32PM

    Great blog! I too have a weakness for cookies: chewy chocolate chip! Good for you for getting back to it the next day! That's what we gotta do, not dwell on it. It happened and now it is over!

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SMILESHINE81 6/13/2012 1:24PM

    What a great blog! Thanks for sharing it, and the reminder that each day is a new day.

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NHEMBERGER 6/13/2012 12:07PM

    You go Rad Hatter! Great Blog! emoticon

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BRANDI.FEY 6/12/2012 5:52PM

    Great post! And great attitude!

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CINDERSJR 6/12/2012 5:25PM

  I say "Ditto!" So much of what you say makes so much sense! I also have a "someday" drawer that I've emptied, how ever I'm filling mine up with "today" stuff. LOL. Thanks for sharing! emoticon emoticon

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EGMFROMGA 6/12/2012 2:09PM

    I loved your blog I do see me there and my someday drawer is a bin full of clothes just waiting for me to lose the weight to fit in them. One day it to will be empty just like your drawer. emoticon

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LMCGLOT 6/12/2012 11:18AM

    WOW!!! Love your analogies!! I can so relate! GO YOU!!

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RAEHIPPYCHICK 6/11/2012 4:04PM

    This struck such a chord with me (I ate far too many home-cooked hotdogs on Sunday!) and I adore the illustrations :-)

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MOLLIEMAE50 6/11/2012 3:15PM

  I can relate to much of what you say. I am reading this at a time when I am feeling afraid to become as you so aptly put that "someday" girl. Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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LMJ2874 6/11/2012 11:29AM

  Sounds like you are a strong and amazing woman! I understand 100% what you were writing about. Helped put things into perspective. Thank you for sharing such a personal battle.

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TRAVELISMYGAME 6/11/2012 8:31AM

    Thanks so much for sharing this! I see so much of myself in some of your comments!

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AUSSIEFLOSS 6/10/2012 6:56PM

    Yep. sounds like me...but my someday 'drawer' still has stuff in it. I think I'm doing great, or horrible in my healthy habits, then proceed to stuff myself, being fearful of my feelings, either good or bad. Your Blog rocks!

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APPLEGREENGIRL 6/10/2012 6:26PM

  LOVE the fact that your "someday" drawer is still empty!!

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STINASTEW 6/10/2012 11:49AM

    Btw, the pics were hilarious too :P

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STINASTEW 6/10/2012 11:48AM

    LOVED this blog! I love that you owned your overeating, but then got up from it. That you didn't let it get you down & admitted that it's scary, but that it's okay. Thank you for sharing things a lot of us feel but sometimes can't admit. Good luck to you! :)

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FLPALM 6/10/2012 11:01AM

    Love the "PICTURES" makes it a GREAT BLOG!

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SUNSETSEEKER 6/10/2012 8:27AM

  Thanks for the encouragement, great writings, cute drawings, you are awesome. SOMEDAY I hope to have an empty closet too! (My stuff is in the extra closet!)

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COLLEGE_KID 6/10/2012 2:32AM

    I can't wait for that feeling of someday being today. It even sounds ludicrous in my mind, but this blog has got me craving the feeling. Thank you and also congratulations being the person you set out to be and enjoying it as well.

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 6/10/2012 1:04AM

    Thanks for the reminder. I sometimes think it is harder to go down in sizes than it was to go up. I am working on an attitude adjustment.

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 6/10/2012 1:00AM

    Thanks for the reminder. I sometimes think it is harder to go down in sizes than it was to go up. I am working on an attitude adjustment.

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SHEL_V2 6/9/2012 11:53PM

    Great read (except I need to listen to Manah-manah until I can no longer picture your cookies). I think with your artistic talent you could build an awesome diorama of a derby match in your "someday" drawer!

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TRIPLEL1977 6/9/2012 9:02PM

    Thanks I needed this.

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CARDAMOMMA 6/9/2012 6:16PM

    Huh, I guess I haven't realized that there will be a day several weeks after someday. Interesting to know that it might like it looks an awful lot like today, except for the empty drawer. I can't wait for the empty drawer.

Thanks for another inspiring blog post!

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GODIVADSG 6/9/2012 2:48PM

    You did anamazing job ofmoving on. Thanksfor the lesson! What a fun blog to read.

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CASTIRONLADY 6/9/2012 2:32PM

    I was listening to bunch of graduation speeches - one was "it doesn' matter how many time you fall down - if you get up one more time that you fall".

You've done it! You're up at at'em again. emoticon

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SPUD676 6/9/2012 11:43AM

    Kudo's to you!! What an inspiration! I, too, have found exercise that I looooove such as Basketball, Dance, Tennis, Swimming, Volleyball..and the list goes on and on..Exercise I have found does not have to be something you hate emoticon!! So what if you ate that many cookies at one sitting..you pulled your boot straps up and didnt feel sorry for yourself..you went and worked out and felt great about it!! Awesome!! So happy you dont have a "someday" drawer anymore as well...Awesome!! Again, Kudo's to you!! By the way, "The Rad Hatter" is a TERRIFIC Roller Derber Name!!!! emoticon

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LAURA_1982 6/9/2012 10:41AM

    This is a fantastically insightful blog. Thanks so much for sharing. It was an absolute pleasure to read... and the pics are hilarious. :)

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SUSIEGKORN 6/9/2012 10:37AM

    Great insight and a motivating post! I can relate! Thanks for putting it to words.
Here's to us!

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LULUBELLE65 6/9/2012 10:29AM

    This is an awesome blog, and the Rad Hatter is a great derby name!

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Go Pink! (w/pics)

Thursday, May 24, 2012

I did it!!!
On Sunday morning my alarm went off at a time I generally associate with the most raucous of my drunken evenings, I rolled excitedly out of bed, and put on the ugliest thing I've ever owned.

Or at least bought for myself to wear. I was a child of the 80's and 90's and I'm sure there were uglier things, but there were also adults to blame them on.

My partially floral one-piece triathlon suit was allllll me.
You know you're jealous.



I had a light breakfast, checked that I had everything I needed for the 47th time, and drove off into the darkness surprisingly calm. During the hour long drive to my race destination the edges of the sky began to lighten, and just as I pulled up to the water of the reservoir the sun broke over the surrounding hills.
I knew it was going to be a great morning!!!

I felt pretty out of place with my bookbag full of gear and my street bike with the nifty thing on the back for carrying stuff, but everyone was smiling and positive and looked just as sleepy eyed and almost as confused as I felt.

I found a place for my bike on what I thought was a rack near the back, spread all of my goodies out on my towel, and commenced the excellent people watching of pre-race rituals.


I got over-excited and put on my wetsuit about half an hour too soon, and then took it half way off because I felt silly and it touched my throat, and then pulled it back on only 20 minutes too early, and then felt tired of standing around and marched down to the water.
Well gingerly picked my way over all the rocks and twigs and things to the edge of the water, made some general "ewww" faces at the squoogey mud at the edge of the water getting between my toes, and then some really happy faces as I realized the water was a balmy 71 degrees.
Ahhhhhh.

The racers were divided by age and gender into different start "waves," and the waves were distinguished by different colored caps. I sort of clumped together with my fellow bright pink cap wearers (my current favorite color, which I took as a further sign that everything was going to be awesome). And was relieved to find out that everyone else seemed just as confused and nervous and excited and unsure of themselves as I did.

And then time magically sped up and slowed down all at once.
It was time to swim, so I swam!
Swimming was the only part of all of this that I have any previous experience with, so I was able to settle into a comfortable pace right away. I stuck to the outside edge of the pack, and looked up to get my bearings every 5-6 strokes or so.
Some super fast people from the waves behind me passed, and I passed some slower swimmers from my packs and others. All the different colors of swim caps were mixed together in no time, and I just stopped worrying about it and kept swimming.
Just as I turned the corner around the buoy I was guestimating as half way through my 0.75 mile swim, I caught sight of the finish!!
I couldn't believe it!!!

I climbed up the slippery boat ramp to the transition area surrounded by smiling strangers shouting encouragement. It was a little overwhelming, and I couldn't pick out my personal "cheering section" of dad and boyfriend from the crowd, but it was encouraging and made me smile in return.

I hurried over to my little transition spot and was able to get ready for the bike ride with a lot less stress than I'd expected. Just peel off the wetsuit, wipe off a little with my shammy, throw on the tank top I brought to cover the hideous tri suit and hold my number, sit down shamelessly to put on socks and shoes (just 'cause other people around me can do all this standing up in 3 seconds doesn't mean I should tip over and hurt myself trying), shoved on my helmet and sunglasses, and I was off!!
Kind of.
You can't get on your bike in the transition area, and the little "mounting" line was pretty crowded with people trying to hurry out onto the bike course, but it all sorted itself out pretty quickly and THEN I was off!!

I was literally one of 2 people out of the 700 participants on a street bike (with big fat tires and handle bars that have you sitting almost straight up) instead of a fancy road bike (With skinny little tires and handle bars that have you lean way down - they are easier to pedal faster. I walked around and checked), so I wasn't off very FAST, at least not compared to the road bikes, but I didn't mind as much as I thought I would.
People were very polite about letting you know they'd be passing, and as the miles wound on, and more and more and more people were coming up behind me, my thoughts weren't so much that they were passing me, they were more that I was doing AWESOME.
If people on super fancy road bikes, who couldn't have started the swim more than 20 minutes after I did (when the last wave started), took until miles 12, 14, even 16 to catch up and pass me, I was doing really well!!! That means I had to be ahead of all of those people on the swim for them to pass me later. They had the advantage of superior equipment and were only barely faster than me at the bike, obviously I was winning at my made-up newbies with lamer equipment division.

About half the people out on the course even seemed to comment that I was doing amazingly well "on that bike" or "those tires" and shouted "go pink!!" as they passed.

All that training out on the local rec trail paid off. I was even able to bike all the way up the horrible steep awful mile long hill at mile 11 that had about half of those fancy bikes being walked up it!!
Sure, I was in first gear, but I was pedaling, and the coast down the other side made it seem totally worth it!

According to my dad and boyfriend I managed to finish the bike leg before a good 40-50 people who were on those fancy bikes, which to me is pretty darn awesome!

I felt surprisingly energetic as I pulled into the transition area... and then I got off of my bike.
My legs were like twitchy gelatain!
I had about 5 seconds of panicking that I wasn't going to be able to complete the race, but as I walked my bike back to my little stall, and took off my helmet, and chugged down some water and sports drink, I started to feel just fine.

Everything was going to be okay, that bike ride was just hard!
I was pretty sure I had to be forgetting something, since the transition from bike to run was basically getting off my bike and ditching my helmet since I didn't use fancy bike shoes or anything like that, but I walked quickly out of the transition area smiling and excited.
The run portion went 2.5 miles up the road and then just turned around and came right back down it, so there were runners going the opposite direction the whole time. Everyone was totally positive and encouraging. We all shouted encouragement back and forth. "Almost done!" "The turn-around is just past those trees!" "Keep it up, doing awesome!" It was great! I felt encouraged and had fun encouraging others.

I reminded myself over and over of my goal for the run (to run at least half of it) and repeated my running mantra when I was flagging. If I'm not going to actually die, pass out, or injure myself, I can keep running.

There were water stations at each mile marker, which made it easier to gauge the distance, and I ran about half of each mile, just as I'd hoped!

I even got stung by a bee and kept going!
(I'm not allergic or anything, so this isn't technically an important part of the racing experience, but for whatever reason it stands out to me as proof of how bad ass I am at triathloning)

When I crossed that finish line I was running, and I was happy, and I knew that I really did it.


Finishing 614 out of 700 may not sound very impressive, but I did it, and I did it in the amount of time I set a goal to finish in, so as far as I'm concerned that 614 is just code for 1st place.

Go Pink!








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LADYJAJA 7/31/2013 7:04PM

  I'm behind on everything since being away awhile, so just read your blog post and have to tell you, as a voice among many, how proud I am of you! I could just imagine you out there, giving it your all, staying positive, and being so brave. Great blog post and an inspiration! Congrats on all your accomplishments over the past year! emoticon

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NANHBH 6/21/2012 5:01PM

    Congratulations, Lulu!

I'm training for my first triathlon. I got sideline for awhile with a knee injury, but hoping to do one in August. Any tips for another "Noob?"
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DEBK0923 6/14/2012 2:47PM

    awesome blog, great job

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GEORGIAPAM 6/12/2012 9:17PM

    I just love your style! LOVE the running graph! you are so great! emoticon

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GODIVADSG 6/11/2012 5:22PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonI especially love the bike part of your Tri! The last tri I did I was so inspired by this fellow on a similar bike... and he had 2 ironman reflectors on it!! Way to go! You did great!!

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AUSSIEFLOSS 6/10/2012 7:33PM

    Oh my. Ah, tears. Laughing. I loved the 'I make this padded crotch look hawt'. Can I borrow you or your humour whenever I feel like crap about myself? Great! Thanks! I'm going to follow you around like a fan follows a celebrity. No, I'm not like weird or scary or anything. Just a lost soul, who recently has been betrayed like in the worst way ever by the man who was supposed to love her,cherish her till death do us part. Whatever man. So I'm looking to boost my self esteem that was pretty much not only trampled on but thrown to the 'dawgs'. Well, I can say that he's not MY problem anymore. Someone else can take his crap now. Not going to be me.
Sorry. Well, you inspire me to care for myself, and be positive!!

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AROCHFORD 6/9/2012 12:14PM

    Congrats. I absolutely loved the legs are for wimps pic!

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GRACEFULJOURNEY 6/8/2012 6:00PM

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CATDUG19 6/8/2012 10:14AM

    I was teared up at your running picture of the happy pink girl. Good for you and continue your blog I love it

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AHAPPYLIFE 6/7/2012 1:52PM

    SUPER blog! Thanks - loved it!!

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KIMCOLLINGS 6/7/2012 12:08PM

    Way to go!!! What a terrific accomplishment! Love your blogs!

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PLYNSN316 6/7/2012 11:38AM

    GO PINK!!!! So amazingly inspired by you! What an awesome accomplishment!

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MOSTMOM1 6/7/2012 8:24AM

    Go Pink!!!!! Fly your Noob flag, fly it high! WOOHOO!
Love your blogs.
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SAFETYSUE 6/6/2012 10:59PM

    Go Pink! My favorite color, you rock my friend! You did it with courage and grace!
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ELPHYY 6/6/2012 6:39PM

    YOU. ARE. AWESOME!
I love your blogs and you are an inspiration!
Congratulations on your HUGE achievement!

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FLY0NTHEWAL1 6/6/2012 4:16PM

    totally bad ass. : )

really enjoying the blog posts that I've read too!

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ANIMAL_L0VER 6/6/2012 2:37PM

    Lulu, this is amazing and hugely inspiring! Congratulations on a tremendous job well done and for always seeing the bright side of things! How awesome!

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SAHARASUE 6/6/2012 2:34PM

    emoticon emoticon That is SO awesome! Way to go. I'm totally impressed. You should be very proud. emoticon emoticon

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FEISTYOWL 6/4/2012 12:28PM

    What a great blog!! (well, obviously as it's a popular one too!).

I really enjoyed reading about your experience - it was like I was right there with you! I hope to do one of these someday, so it was great to read a Noob's story!!

Way to go!! You totally rocked it!

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CHRISTIE6625 6/1/2012 2:57PM

  You're amazing.

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HEALTHYME229 6/1/2012 9:02AM

    Sweet! I love how you were able to see how successful you were when it would be so easy to see otherwise. What an inspiring tale!!
Go pink!!

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CERULEANSIN516 5/31/2012 7:18PM

    I always enjoy reading your blogs, they make me laugh and inspire me!

Awesome job with completing this Triathlon!

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ERLYWA 5/30/2012 9:55PM

    I loved this blog! And you did super great!! :)

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YIWEN39 5/30/2012 9:21PM

    Congratulations :-) Sounds like you had so much fun and your attitude is just fantastic! emoticon and emoticon one more time!

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XXEDRA 5/30/2012 5:21PM

    Congrats!

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KAREN_NY 5/30/2012 4:56PM

    THAT is how you smack it down -- WOW!!!!!!!!!!
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And bonus! One of your very best blogs. Love it -thanks for sharing!!

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BMCKEOW1 5/30/2012 2:27PM

    It is code for 1st place. That is awesome it sounds like you had such a good time. Whoo. You are a rock star

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COLEE82 5/30/2012 2:02PM

    Congratulations!

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CUDDLYPOLARBEAR 5/30/2012 10:50AM

    great Job....

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ABILUCHA 5/29/2012 6:20PM

    So inspiring! Yay!

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ERINTHEROCKSTAR 5/29/2012 4:14PM

    YAY!!! GO PINK!! Awesome blog - I hope to try a triathlon one day - thanks for the newbie perspective!!

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    Fabulous!!

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PIXIEMOM13 5/29/2012 2:08PM

    That is so awesome! I'd love to try a "tri" one day..but I'd need to get a bike and learn how to swim. (LOL)



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MRS_EVA_K 5/29/2012 9:21AM

    You did awesome Lulu and 614 is pretty good for your first outing. Go Pink!

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    AWEEESOOOOMMMMMMEEEEEEEEE! emoticon emoticon

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TMOORE073 5/28/2012 10:45PM

    Wow! I am so inspired by your story! I so want to do a Triathalon myself! I'm almost 50! Little scared about the swim. Not a very good swimmer. Been running for almost 29 years! I still have knees believe it or not. Ha ha Good for you for getting out there & trying something new! Wish me luck! emoticon

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MYADOG1 5/28/2012 10:38PM

    Go Pink!

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PHOTOFIT 5/28/2012 7:46PM

    kudos!

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SHAYWEE 5/28/2012 8:13AM

    Great Job!! :D

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  Go Pink!!

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LAURIETAIT 5/27/2012 11:37PM

    Great job! Go Pink!

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    Your story was AWESOME, as always! Way to go "Pink."
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  way to go! Go PINK!

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    emoticon Really enjoyed reading about your TRI!! Way to go, and since it was your first, it was a PR for you! What's next? emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Lessons in Roller Derby (w/pics!)

Thursday, May 03, 2012

In case you somehow haven't heard me blabbing incessantly about it, I decided to try out for the local flat track roller derby league!!!

What made me decide this, you ask?
Umm... a whim.

Someone told me a couple of weeks ago that there IS a local roller derby league, so I googled it, discovered that there was an informational meeting that coming Sunday for potential newbies, and immediately decided I was going to do it.


Never mind the fact that I've been on quad skates maybe 10 times total and the last time was probably 20 years ago, I was going to do roller derby and I was going to kick arse at it!!!!!

I immediately began diligent work on creating a roller derby name and researching entry level skates.
(I'm still deciding between Shreddy Ruxpin - #85 and Phenoma Blond - #007)
The informational meeting went great, the women there from the league seemed super nice and welcoming, and I was even MORE determined to be a Monterey Bay Derby Dame!!!

When the first opportunity to actually get on some roller skates finally came around the next weekend I couldn't be more excited or more nervous. I got the boyfriend and a couple we are good friends with to go with me, so I wouldn't be so scared, and just couldn't wait to step out on that floor. I was last in the group to put on my skates, but with everyone else so many years out from their last skating adventures and so confidently moving around the little putting on of the skates area, I was sure I'd be great.

And then I stood up.
I was not great.

Standing in those rental skates with such vivid memories of having them slide right out from underneath me as a kid was terrifying. I was like a baby giraffe on ice, and I wasn't even moving or off of the carpeted area yet.

I waved my friends away and assured them I just needed a minute to get used to the skates and would join them out on the floor. They all tore off a wee bit wobbly but quite confidently into the general flow of skaters... I nearly fell at least 47 times in the 5 foot trip from my chair to the entrance to the rink, and stepped gingerly out onto the tiles of the actual floor.

How did anybody manage to move around on these things? Who the hell thought putting wheels on shoes without any kind of device to keep you from tipping over backwards was a good idea? Couldn't I play roller derby on inline skates?


I dragged myself hand over hand along the wall, despairing.
In what conceivable universe was I going to be able to get from this state to trying out with just 3 Saturday evenings of open skate to practice in?
I'd never be a derby dame.
My dreams were crushed.
I wanted to cry!

And then the first turn came.
Those sadists had set up a little blocked off area at the end of the rink where people could practice things other than moving in a general counter clockwise direction, which meant I had to make it all the way across the vastyness of the hockey rink without a wall to clutch.

I was pretty sure I was going to die.
Or be run over by a mob of jeering 8 year olds on spiked skates and mad maxian garb and THEN die.
But death was, in any case, eminent.


I can do this.
Deep breath.
One foot in front of the other in a general slidey type motion.
I can skate, I skated, I even owned a pair of neon pink roller blades with mint green buckles and orange wheels. Sure, I had to run into parked cars or signs to stop, but the going forward was never a problem. I know the mechanics, all these other people seem to be making it across this expanse unscathed. I don't see a single spiked skate in the vicinity.

Let's do this!!!



It wasn't pretty. I wobbled and almost fell several times, but I DIDN'T fall, and I kept going, and I MADE IT!!

HURRAH!!
I AM THE MASTER OF ROLLER SKATING!!!

And then this girl that I'm pretty sure was born with wheels on her feet whizzed right past me and did a nifty twirly maneuver to go with the music.
I was startled and distracted. I lost my balance, I was going down!!!
Thank goodness I'd made it to within clutching distance of the opposite wall!

Okay, so not quite the master of roller skating, but I wasn't QUITE despairing anymore.
Discouraged, yes.
Disappointed, definitely.
But determined! I want this! I am going to find a way to make it happen for myself!! I am not going to let a little thing like being terrified of roller skating stop me!!


Half an hour or so later I was able to do 3 loops around the rink without touching the wall EVEN ONCE!! Sure, I was maybe 8 inches from it and going about the same speed as I would be walking, but I was doing it! I was skating!!

A few of the girls from the derby league had come in and were hanging out in the little sectioned off area, waiting to show new league hopefuls the basic skills needed to get into what they call "fresh meat" training.

Dear boyfriend came over and encouraged me to join in, but no way did I feel ready to work on anything but not falling down, was he crazy?!

I'll just go introduce myself....
I teetered over, and introduced myself, and explained that I was really just at the work on not falling down stage.
And to my amazement no one seemed even remotely surprised by that, or skeptical that I could be ready in time for try outs 3 weeks later.
Really?
Well alright then, show me all of the things!!!

And then something amazing happened.
I stopped concentrating so hard on not falling down, and started concentrating on learning some basic stops and how to cross my feet over eachother when turning.

When I stopped trying so hard not to fail, I did great!!
Sure, I ate it pretty hard a couple of times, but I ate it doing a pretty darn impressive cross-over if I do say so myself.

By the end of the night I was out on the rink skating and appropriate speeds, crossing my feet over eachother, weaving between slower skaters, I didn't have to look down at my feet.

I WAS SKATING!!
I WAS THE ROLLER SKATE MASTER!!!!!

My own skates came in the mail later that week, and the following Saturday I was doing all the basic moves necessary to make it into "fresh meat" well enough that they started teaching me NEW things, things they teach after one makes it into fresh meat.
By the end of my second Saturday night out on the rink I was able to keep up with the "real" derby girls and didn't fall once (other than when learning the correct way to fall and doing it on purpose, of course).

I stopped grasping at what seemed safe and familiar but kept me more or less stationary.
I stopped concentrating so hard on what was directly in front of my toes, blaming every little bump and warp in my path for my stumbles.
I stopped putting all of my effort into not failing.
I started doing things that felt new and awkward and scary.
I fell down, twice, and it HURT, but I got right back up and tried again.

I know I'm going to fall a lot more. I'm going to get some pretty impressive bruises, and it's going to hurt, and the things I learn will often seem difficult, even impossible at first, but I will learn them, and I will learn to be great!







PS
If you want to share this or any of my blogs outside of sparkpeople, I'm honored! But, please do it from my blogger page. I put some fairly personal things here on my sparkpage, and it's a little weird to think of non-sparkers reading it, but this has just the funny stuff!
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POPEYETHETURTLE 11/20/2012 2:15AM

    Back in the days of the 2nd part of the last century, I learned to skate. We were able to afford to go to the real Roller Rink about once every two months, depending on how many soda bottles people through out along this stretch of "Super Two" by our house. The rest of the time we sidewalk skated. We had a "llooonnnggg" block with a sidewalk all around it. It also had a 20 degree incline, so once around the block - up one side and down the other, was a solid half mile.

Only two people could skate side-by-side, so some of the races became very interesting and we all suffered from knee scab syndrome and palm scraped syndrome - but it was adrenaline pumping fun!

A broken back with crushed disc's mean I no longer even think about skating.
I miss those old Roller Derby shows on Saturday morning.

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ENGINERDLISA 8/8/2012 2:22PM

    Found your blog entry searching for derby people here on spark. I totally relate to your adventure, especially because I became quite intimately familiar with the floor attempting to do a cross over last night. I did pick my foot up and cross it over the other foot before I fell, so I count it as a success! I really need to embrace what you are talking about and stop worrying about falling and focus on the skills.

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JMMCOLORADO 7/2/2012 10:00AM

    I totally want to do roller derby. You have encouraged me to look more into it.

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STINASTEW 6/23/2012 11:34PM

    Great job! Perseverance pays off! :)

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NANHBH 6/21/2012 5:08PM

    WOW, Lulu,

And I thought I was fearless in trying new things. Not sure I'd try roller derby - but I'm never gonna say never!
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AUSSIEFLOSS 6/10/2012 7:16PM

    Oh! LOL. I posted on the last blog that our coastal scene looked like Monterey. Darn am I good or what? emoticon

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MAIM138 5/24/2012 9:40AM

    !!!!!!

I've missed a LOT in my Spark hiatus!

YAY for you derbying!

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CREECE1 5/13/2012 1:38AM

    I love your pictures and your story. When I was in my late forties I went skating with our grade school kids. I was wobbly at first and stayed close to the sides. After a while I got back my confidence and was back to the same kind of skating as a child. I only fell a few times. My parents thought I was crazy for skating. I went to have a good time with our church school children and their parents. Great going! I like your courage and spunk.
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ELISELA2011 5/11/2012 7:22PM

    I love your skating adventures! I had one once, for my 23rd birthday, I was determined to have the skating party I never got as a kid. I ended up with 2 sprained ankles and a twisted knee followed by an ice storm and loss of electricity in most of the town. EPIC! emoticon

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CARLYG8 5/11/2012 8:38AM

    Love it! As a former "disco queen" at the local skating rink in the 70's, I remember gliding through the air on skates, the music blaring, effortlessly dodging small children, and jumping from going forward to backward without even thinking about it ....oh, the good old days (laughs)!!!

The last time I went skating? Really skating? A couple of us decided in our twenties how much fun it would be to go skating, and off we went. It was fun while it lasted, but ended way too soon with a trip to the ER. I fell and broke my arm...yikes!

I took my son once to try and teach him how to skate, and he would have no part of it. I went around slowly...(is there a word that means slower than slow?) and headed home. It did feel good to do those couple of slow laps even without any major zigging or zagging...oh, and the music?...Eh...don't the kids of today know that you have to have DISCO music to skate?? How you "skate" to today's music is beyond me!

Since I broke my hip, my skating days are definitely over. One fall could cause serious consequences that I am not willing to risk. But, I would love to go out there one more time, hair flowing, moving to the music, oblivious to everything and everyone around me and just let go.......

(**also...don't know if you will need this piece of advice or not because it sounds like you are picking it up pretty quickly, but you can tighten down the "trucks" on the bottom of your skates just a little, and it makes your wheels a little tighter, and not as free spinning. Definitely a good idea when you are learning to skate, or just learning to stand up in them).

Hugs! And thanks for the memories!

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ARGENT690 5/10/2012 10:16PM

    Omg, that was a great story! I wish I could have gone. It sounds like it was a great time. emoticon

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KIPPER15 5/10/2012 9:24PM

    emoticon I could never make it as a derby girl. I look forward to reading more soon.

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COUPONS0216 5/10/2012 7:14PM

    I LOVE your blogs, they are so real, down to earth and funny. I ALWAYS smile or laugh when I read your blogs and not only are you a talented artist with words but your drawings are awesome too! Have fun with your new challenge! You go girl! emoticon

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SUSIEMT 5/10/2012 2:42PM

    I enjoyed your blog very much! As I was reading I couldn't help but think that your experience with the roller derby skating is so similar to my spark journey! AMAZING!

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DIXIED88 5/10/2012 1:48PM

    Oh My Goodness!! I have not laughed so hard at a blog in FOREVER!! It's mostly because you just described me last August.

I'm going to be a ROLLER DERBY GIRL! Why would I let a little thing like not being able to skate get in my way??

Now I'm on a team and trying to up my endurance. It's amazing and I LOVE it.

Good luck!!

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MARYM1962 5/10/2012 1:28PM

  good for you! I can not skate at all - I have no ligaments in my left ankle and one more injury will require surgery, so that is NOT for me! You showed courage and determination in doing what you wanted - keep up the good work and good luck out there in the rink!

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FCARMICH 5/10/2012 8:47AM

  okay and good luck!

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DIET-DELIGHT 5/10/2012 3:57AM

    Ouch! You go, girl!

You couldn't work LuLu into a derby name? I like the choices you mentioned though. Let us know which you choose!

I'm assuming you've seen the movie "Whip It" [http://www.imdb.com/title/tt117223
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Cheers,
Dana

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LIVINHEALTHY9 5/9/2012 9:11PM

    That is so cool!
Good for you for going after what you want. That's awesome!

Keep us posted on your Roller Derby experiences.

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BMCKEOW1 5/9/2012 1:33PM

    I am so jealous of you. I want to this but I'm a bit scared about doing it. I don't even know where to start looking to see if there is anything in my area for it. Way to go you.

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BLUE_KARMA 5/9/2012 11:59AM

    That's fantastic! Way to reach for your dreams.
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NERDS333 5/9/2012 7:53AM

  I've been wanted to be a Derby Girl too & have not had the guts to go try (yet). I'm even on the local mailing list! Thanks for posting your story, I think next time they are having tryouts I will go. You rock!

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LAFEMMEDELALUNE 5/8/2012 8:36PM

    There are even Roller Derby teams here on Spark!

Your courage is really inspiring!

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KLONG8 5/8/2012 5:17PM

    OK, you are now my idol. You're fearless!

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JOCEPINK 5/8/2012 2:29PM

    Hilarious!

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3016DEBRA 5/8/2012 1:32PM

  That's so COOL!!! It's not the falling down that matters - it's the getting back up that really counts...HOORAY FOR YOU!!!! emoticon emoticon

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COUPONS0216 5/8/2012 1:16PM

    You go girl! Have fun and kick butt!
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NADS1959 5/7/2012 11:06PM

    sounds like fun and exercise- great job. How did u draw the pics? Very good there.

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KHAMMARGREN 5/7/2012 2:15PM

  Way to be brave!

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MELISAF 5/7/2012 1:33PM

    Wow!! Loved your blog! Best of luck in reaching your derby dreams! sounds like a blast!


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FUSCHIA6 5/7/2012 12:17PM

    Go Lulu!
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SLIMLEAF 5/7/2012 11:07AM

    I hadn't heard of flat track roller derby leagues before (perhaps we don't have them in the UK?) so don't really know what you're embarking upon but your determination and courage are inspiring. Well done!

I look forward to hearing how you get on.

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FATHINSN 5/7/2012 12:56AM

    Sounds fun! And love the ending, be more confident and throw all cautions, I think you will do great in the tryouts!

I remember my own experience when I was a kid and I wore our traditional clothes Baju Kurung which sort of like knee-length long sleeve blouse with long skirt so just imagine trying to get balance in that outfit LOL Good thing I was just a kid so any embrasssement that might occured when I fall down was stamp down with my kiddy happiness, hehe.

By the way, I love name Shreddy Ruxpin :D

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 5/7/2012 12:23AM

    Oh Girl, you are a hoot! Good for you for taking on such an endeavour!
I wish you luck! Let us know how it "ends up"! LOL
Hugs and boo boo kisses!
Mary
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MISSIFISH 5/6/2012 9:50PM

    I am so afraid of bruises and pain... I don't think I could do it, but I am so excited to follow your experiences and live vicariously! What fun! You have to post EVERYTHING!!!

Good luck at tryouts!

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ETWOLIE 5/6/2012 8:30PM

    Wonderful blog! Last summer I got on quad skates for the first time since I was a kid and joined a roller derby team and it was very intimidating, but it was also one of the best things I have ever done. Roller derby is a great sport and the derby women are always so supportive of one another. You are going to have the time of your life :)

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THINNYGINNY 5/6/2012 6:25PM

    Ooohhhh - I wanna do that - I'm a 46 yr old mom and pastor's wife and I wanna do roller derby - so much fun to be bad.....maybe after a few more pounds come off I will sneak away from kids and try out. Your story was so flippin hilarious - loved it!!!

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BHODGES865 5/6/2012 5:37PM

    When I found out we had a roller derby group here, I seriously considered joining since I was a skating demon when I was in junior high (many many many decades ago). I am impressed that you went out there to try out. I look forward to hearing about future skating endeavors!! And I've been thinking of going to the local rink and this has convinced me that I need to go for sure!

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SAHARASUE 5/6/2012 4:22PM

    Yay!! emoticon That's so great! You should be really proud of yourself for getting out of your comfort zone and conquering that fear. Good job! You're gonna be an incredible roller derby girl!

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CATLADY52 5/6/2012 3:24PM

    I just had a flashback to the last time I skated. But it was on ice though. Roller skating was for kids under twelve or the Derby folks. I fell a few times but it was fun!

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CM_GARDNER78 5/6/2012 2:34PM

    HAHAHAHAHA - Oh my gosh - I came back and read this again - and am still laughing!! HAHAHA! ;-)

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CURVYELVIESAYS 5/6/2012 2:05PM

    I'm dying to learn to skate. You blog is funny and poignant. Great job1

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SMANISMELL 5/6/2012 10:36AM

    Sounds like you could have a lot of fun doing this! Good luck!
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PHANTOMSMASK171 5/6/2012 7:37AM

    Great job, and after you are thru fresh meat, I hope you're drafted. I am a member of a local league here, I don't skate but I'm friends with many roller girls. I have a lot of fun, with them. So WTG on going in the right direction towards playing Roller Derby. I can't afford the due's or WFTDA insurance myself otherwise I would so be out there skating with my friends.

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VANHALENFAN 5/6/2012 12:54AM

    Excellent!!!! It's great that you are trying something new and have such a positive attitude about it! That alone will bring you far. Best of luck to you! emoticon

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KNITTINGNAN 5/5/2012 11:47PM

  Oh you bragger!!!! How I envy you on those roller skates. It's been years since I've skated, but I remember the feel of my hair whipping in the air as I skated faster and faster....never mastered anythig outside of that, though, and when I wanted to stop I just aimed for a group of stationary skaters to catch me. Now I'd be afraid of breaking a hip....heck, I'm afraid of breaking a hip just walking down the sidewalk to our mailbox.

Your blog brought back such fun memories, not only of my own adventures at our local skating rink, but also of me and my friends sneaking into the high school fieldhouse, where roller derby and wrestling exhibitions were held. I remember Joanie Weston, the blonde bombshell from the Bay Area Bombers. She had a long ponytail that the other skaters would grab to whip her off the track. It was great! My parents had a fit, thinking I'd quit school to join this sport.

Roller skating would be such fun exercise if I wasn't so afraid of falling. I envy you!

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MCMAHANEY 5/5/2012 11:29PM

    emoticonSounds like lots of fun. WTG!!!! I can see myself doing exactly this. I loved skating every Friday & Saturday night as a kid (my cardio, lol). Skating is something I would love to get back into. You have just inspired me to look for a league in my area. emoticon

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WINEALITTLE 5/5/2012 11:00PM

    Once again, entertaining AND insightful. I look forward to your blogs and reading about your progress.
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