Thursday, May 02, 2013
It was about a year ago now (I only ever wrote down that it was the beginning of May) that I had a revelation that I needed to lose weight. I had known for a long time, but it was then that I truly knew it was time to make a change.
I decided I needed a plan, instead of just jumping into this weight loss thing blindly like I had so many other times. So, I made a plan that was had, but that I had faith that I could follow. I also knew that I needed a goal, so I decided that going from 260 to 150 in a year was a good goal. After all I have read numerous articles of people doing just that. I marked the official start of the diet on June 16th, 2012 and crossed my fingers.
Now a year later I haven't reached my goal, nor do I think that I will... and that's completely okay. I learned a few things though...
First, my body doesn't process glucose properly (as in blood sugar). If my blood sugar goes too high I have an allergic reaction. Short term symptoms include stomach upset, acne, and obesity. Long term symptoms include diabetes and heart disease. It was pretty shocking when the doc laid this one on me. I mean, doctors have been telling me for years that my obesity wasn't natural and that there needed to be something biologically causing it, but to actually have a name and treatment is really empowering. Although learning that entire food groups are ACTUALLY bad foods for me was a bit of a downer.
Second, even though I didn't reach my goal, that doesn't mean that I didn't win. I lost about 85 lbs over the past year. I started a job that I would have never been able to get as a "fat girl." It's a sales job, I've known for years that I would be good at sales, but couldn't get a job because I didn't have "the look." I know that people say that weight doesn't matter and anyone can do any job, but it's completely untrue... you can only do a job if you can get hired for it.
Third, I actually like myself more. I know I'm not suppose to think this, but I really do. I talk to people more and gave up a lot of the issues that I had when I was a bigger girl.
Now all that I need to do is find a boyfriend... after all that was one of my motivations for going through this.
Oh... and finish this weight loss journey. I'm soooo close!