Friday, January 28, 2011
Before I ramble on about anything about me, I would like to ask you all to please keep my brother in law and his wife in your prayers. They just suffered a miscarriage yesterday (their first child) and as you can imagine, this has hit them hard. They really are good people and my heart goes out to them.
Starting with something like that really makes me feel like my "issues" aren't really that important. I look at my son and realize that even though my health and appearance aren't where they should be I truly am blessed.
Yesterday wasn't too bad of a day really. I exercised some, actually worked drinking water into my day and I didn't get a visit from that dreaded binge monster. I still cannot understand what is up with this weather though! One day they are calling for snow, and literally 12 hours later...its 70 degrees with the sun shining! I guess that is Texas for you though. Today is going to be 73 with loads of sunshine so I'm forcing myself out of the house for some much needed fresh air and Vit. D!!! Plus, my little guy is going stir crazy I think.
*Bragging Mommy Alert*
Bryce (my little guy) has learned how to say "love you" and let me just say...that is a heart melter right there!!! I was telling him "mommy loves you!" yesterday and he said, "Lub Ooooo!" Of course he's also learned to leap from the couch like a spider monkey as well...which is causing Mommy some stress because he doesn't always stick the landing....is it considered being overprotective if you wrap your children in bubble wrap and make them wear a helmet?? If he doesn't quit channeling his inner flying squirrel I just may resort to this!!!
*End Bragging Mommy Alert*
I was watching infomercials (stop laughing.) yesterday and I saw one for Zumba. Anyone do this? It looks like a blast, even though I couldn't dance even if I was standing on someone's feet.... But I can sure flail around to the music in a quazi-seizure like motion...and that'll do. (yeah, enjoy that mental image) I'd really like to give it a try (and of course I'd REALLY like to try out some abs like they have too...) So...feedback anyone?
For those that blog often...do you ever feel like you're just confined to talking about weight issues? One of the reasons I don't blog as much is because I feel like everytime I set out to do so I have to focus on weightloss/gain etc. I hate feeling like I'm being defined as the fat girl thats at least trying. There is so much more to our lives than the weight struggle.
Sooo...here's a bit of a challenge to those that want to humor me. Leave me 1 comment that is just all about YOU that doesn't have anything to do with weightloss! You guys give so much by supporting me, and I'd love to get to know y'all! I'm not suggesting we get all "facebook-y" on here, just a tidbit of info that you'd like to share :)
Happy Sparking friends!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I haven't blogged in a while...heck, I hadn't really even logged in until recently. I could write a novel about where I went and why...but I don't guess that really is important and all that matters is that I'm back.
Why is it so hard to log in and participate, but so easy to just...skip a day, then a week...?
I had the most obscure dream last night. I remember going for a walk down the road that Bryce and I walk when I'm exercising. Everything was fine until I realized that nothing was changing. It just kept going, with no end and I panicked. Started running thinking I'd get to the end...but that end never came.
Woke up in a sweat...so does that count as my cardio for the day? No? Worth a shot. I don't usually dream that often, but when I do watch out because its sometimes more vivid than my life when I'm awake.
So whatever that dream was supposed to mean....
Things in my life are changing. I've been a stay at home mommy for the past year, but now I'm headed back to the working world. I had my first interview a few days ago and they hired me. I'm excited, but also a bit sad because I don't know how ready I am to leave the little one. He's been my entire life for the past year. I KNOW he'll be fine (my sister is keeping him in our home for me) but it'll be hard for me. Its for the best though. The other issue is that I've been home for so long I've almost forgotten how to interact with people. I literally only leave the house every 2 weeks for grocery shopping (or to walk)...and I'm always with my husband. I haven't been anywhere on my own in over a year. Its kinda scary...which i never thought I'd say because I used to be the most independant thing you'd ever know. Makes me wonder just how much of "Myself" is even left...
So yeah, things are changing. Change scares the hell out of me, but I think it will be a good thing. Gotta be better than the way things have been.
Wish me luck.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Goal for tomorrow
Water: 80 oz
Exercise: 120 total
Eat "freggies" with every meal
Make up Shane's "treats" for his Christmas party
The weekend was just one big food train wreck after another. I wasn't tracking. I wasn't exercising. I have no excuse. So I'm starting over again.
Having a horrible time with depression, and its getting harder for me to hide it and pretend it doesn't exist. I'm the worlds best at pretending I'm fine. I dont want to do that anymore.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Tis the season, my friends. Granted, Christmas season kind of started way before Thanksgiving showed up, but now its just full force. You can't walk into any store without being bombarded by cakes, candies, fudge and cookies! The huge displays are for the breads and treats. As you ALL know...being healthy SUCKS sometimes during the holidays...but does it really have to??
I've decided no. Now before you all jump me and remind me that we are trying to facilitate healthy lifestyles...hear me out!! I'm not suggesting we throw caution to the wind and sit down with a fork and tray of fudge. The key here is moderation! For me personally, if I tell myself that I can under NO circumstances have any of the goodies, I will automatically dive head first into the first fondue pot I see. If I tell myself that i can have a piece or two...then I don't start a full out rebellion. I just know that if I DO indulge in that cookie or other various thing that my inlaws love to bring I'm not only going to have to track it, but I'm going to have to exercise more AND I'm going to have to adjust the rest of my meals to control my intake. Tell me no and I'll stage a battle scene not unlike something from Braveheart. Tell me I'll have to put effort into it...the lazy side of me says "Screw you I'm eating a carrot...haha track THAT."
So...here's my battle plan.
OPERATION: BATTLE OF THE BULGE
Breakfast: oatmeal 150 cals and if fills me up before I head to treat central.
Lunch will probably be something from a party tray...which I won't be all up in because I can't stand other people's hands on my food...sooo, I'll probably grab half a sandwich or some fruit
Christmas Dinner: 100 g of Ham (and i have no problem whipping out the scale here..), and veggies, which will free me up to enjoy ONE dessert from the table. And really, this shouldn't be that bad. Christmas isn't about eating anyway. I don't know how or when everything became so food-centered. My approach to this may not work for anyone else, but I've decided if I take a tongue-in-cheek approach to this it makes it a little more...do-able.
It was either that, or force myself into tight jeans so I wouldn't even be able to sit down at the table....
Thursday, December 16, 2010
I didn't get on the computer at all yesterday because I was in bed all day with a miserable stomach bug. 103 fever and all that comes along with tummy issues. Thank God it was just a 24 hour bug, don't think I could handle longer than that!! Unfortunately, now my house looks like a massive tornado spent some time in it. And that massive tornado has a name...MY HUSBAND!!! He was a godsend because he let me sleep but MAN that dude is destructive lol
Thanks for the feedback on the Wii, I think we're gonna go ahead and get one.
Yes, that was a snake I was holding, it was dead (the only reason I'd hold it) and it was just a bullsnake. We get that kind of thing out here alot.
The good news is that I've lost 2 more pounds ;)
have a wonderful day all!
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