Sunday, March 10, 2013
Life has been pretty stressful lately... DH has chronic migraines and is off work, my 19 year old DD is having some pretty serious legal issues and my job has been pretty sucky lately. So, between work-work, school work (I'm working on my MBA), house work, shopping, cooking, paying the bills, driving kids around and taking DH to doctor appointments, I haven't had a lot of time for exercise. I know that those are excuses, but they are also real reasons. I'm not saying I have no free time. I do spend some time watching TV, but with some much going on, and so much stress, I'm not sleeping at night and by the end of the day, when I have time to exercise, I don't feel like it, and DH is so lonely from spending so much time alone, that he likes to have me watching TV with him (he also has vertigo which prevents him from doing very much, so he spends about 90% of his time watching TV.
I got my doc to give me something to help with sleep, at least until the stress lets up a little, and I'm hoping to start getting up earlier in the mornings and exercising, before I'm exhausted. I just bought "Walk it Out" for the Wii so I plan to use that on days it isn't nice enough to walk outside.
I also haven't been eating the way I should. DH is in pain all the time and the one thing that seems to give him some joy, is eating, and of course it isn't healthful eating. It is much harder for me to eat the way I should when he isn't, but I need to double my efforts and focus. When I allow myself to get derailed by him it just brings me down and makes things worse. I also fell off the wagon for my gluten free this weekend. It is really hard, with everything I need to do, to know that I have to specially prepare anything I want to eat. There is no, "just making a sandwich" or "picking up fast food" or anything else quick and easy. They do make gluten free convenience food, but it doesn't taste good, is less healthy than regular convenience food and is ridiculously expensive. I need to get some food made up and frozen in individual portions, but I just haven't made the time yet. Another thing I need to make a priority...
But tomorrow starts a new week and I'm going to focus on having a positive attitude. I'm going to commend myself for the things I do right, and cut myself slack for the things I do wrong, and not dwell on them. I just want to start moving in the right direction again, even if my progress is slow. If I start slow, the momentum should gain on its own. I WILL do this!