Sabotaging ones self

Friday, February 12, 2010

It's funny how just when things are going strong, I can get cocky and do myself in. With all the Valentines Day ads, I wanted something sweet. I didn't have any fruit. So I succumbed to the evils of chocolate.

Yeah, Yeah. I know what you're going to say. Why did I have it in the house in the first place. .... You're right .... It's exactly like an alcoholic keeping liquor in the cabinet.

So I skipped dinner and had a pot of tea instead. The calories are still within 1200 range for the day, but I'm sure the sugar affected my progress. And I COULD HAVE BEEN A CONTENDER !

Oh Well. Today is a new day. Got to get some fruit in the house.....It's going to be a tough weekend. Maybe I'll do an extra 1000 steps for penance.

  

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ROXIELADY 2/13/2010 5:18PM

For now there are no sweets in the house, by choice. I have a weakness in particular for this box peanut butter and chocolate pie, made by the same co that makes that cheesecake..these are to die for, but I learned the hard way I have no willpower around these, at least right now! I make them in cupcake papers and freeze them individually, but that doesn't stop me from busting into them. Happy Valentine's Day! Report Inappropriate Comment

KATIEJO5 2/12/2010 11:55AM

Good for you for getting right back at it! I usually have my chocolate fix outside of my home. If it's here, it calls my name like a Siren from the sea until I eat every bite. I bought some Valentine candy for the family, but it isn't chocolate.... Report Inappropriate Comment

MBOLTON5 2/12/2010 10:47AM

A little chocolate won't hurt you. We all need to indulge now and then. Replacing dinner with Chocolate however does not sound like a healthy choice. Report Inappropriate Comment

MORTICIAADDAMS 2/12/2010 9:54AM

Forgive yourself and move on. Holidays are meant to be celebrated and not be a deprivation. I have chocolate here and use portion control. Report Inappropriate Comment

DOCYJK 2/12/2010 9:51AM

It's like those sneaky fat cells, sensing your victory, creep out of their appointed places on your hips and thighs, and take over your BRAIN! I think of it as invasion of the will-snatchers!!! Have you thought about visualizing them (the fat cells) and then making yourself a super-hero to tame them? (Personally, mine looks like Lara Croft, and the fat cells look like disgusting little amoebas!) Honestly, though, we've all been there. The best thing you can do you already did - you got back on the horse that threw you and road on! You ARE a contender, and you're in it for the long haul, so don't forget to give yourself both a break and forgiveness!!! Hugs - Yvonne Report Inappropriate Comment

DESERTDREAMERS 2/12/2010 8:48AM

It happens - we see something and want it. Or, sometimes, I have what I call an "out of body" experience - I see my hand reaching to the donut ... I taste it ... my hand reaches out again. Whose hand is that?? Enjoy the moment, learn from it, and move on. We're human and fallible. If I NEVER can have chocolate again, I'd kick over the traces and gorge. Letting myself have an occasional piece (OK, a few pieces ... several pieces, but only once!) keeps me a lot saner. Report Inappropriate Comment

New Kitchen Toy

Thursday, February 11, 2010

I'm trying hard to make these new habits a part of my life, so I got myself a few tools to get me there.

I love pressure cookers; they're super fast and they make soups and stews in no time.
But I don't want to make a pot of something I'll be eating for a week. So I finally found a small one that suits me perfectly (WMF "Perfect Plus", 2.5 qt. Pressure Cooker from CHEFINI.com) A bit pricey ($209), but saves me a ton of time and money in the long run. I can cook food fast, full of flavor, and loaded with vegetables.

  

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BROOKDOESLIFE 2/11/2010 2:18PM

That's awesome! I might have to get one of those too! Report Inappropriate Comment

MORTICIAADDAMS 2/11/2010 2:04PM

I have several sizes of pressure cookies and they are great!! Report Inappropriate Comment

FRANNIEDID 2/11/2010 11:44AM

I love kitchen toys!! Report Inappropriate Comment

KATIEJO5 2/11/2010 11:20AM

I love to cook and I love things that make it quicker! Pressure cookers are amazing. I only have a huge one that was great when I had four kids at home, but is gatherering dust now. I am going to look into the little jewel you found. Thanks for posting the info! Report Inappropriate Comment

MARLOU4 2/11/2010 10:29AM

Having a new toy can make cooking more fun. Enjoy making our soups and stews this cold winter. Report Inappropriate Comment

to photograph or not to photograph

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

I was toying with the thought of keeping a photo journal of my weight loss progress and it occurred to me that I don’t have a picture of myself at my maximum weight. I have a thing about photographs. I HATE THEM. I even dislike the ones from the neck up because they still show my fat chins. So I made myself a promise. When I hit the ‘overweight’ weight range, I’ll start taking pictures. (That’s 40 pounds from now).

I don’t ever want to come back to this again…..and I don’t want any reminders.

Some people think that a photo at this point is a good warning. But I need to focus on what is going to be, not the toxic reminder of where I’ve been.

  

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SHERYLP461 2/15/2010 10:02PM

I like the idea of pictures, I plan to change mine after every 10#, that is if I ever lose 10! I'm such a slow looser compared to most on this site, but I feel so much better even with the 4.5 I've lost since Dec. but I am looking forward to that new pic. sherylp Report Inappropriate Comment

MORTICIAADDAMS 2/10/2010 9:17PM

I'm so with you on this one. I'm shocked when I see pictures of me. Report Inappropriate Comment

JERSEYGIRL1950 2/10/2010 5:51PM

I hate pictures too..but now I'm kicking myself in the butt..wish I had some when I was over 200 ..took me many years to get to where I am now and it would be great to see the difference now..even if you took it and not posted maybe tuck it away for awhile...course I'm a lot older now and probably would be complaining about the wrinkles that I have accumulated..LOL Report Inappropriate Comment

PICKIE98 2/10/2010 5:08PM

I am the same way,, if you go to my sparkpage, there is one of a group of we sparkers in Frankenmuth, MI on a spark day,, what a huge heap of woman... I just need to focus on getting to goal and enjoying the journey... Report Inappropriate Comment

FATMAN210 2/10/2010 4:43PM

INORDER FOR YOU TO SEE WERE YOUR GOING FIRST YOU MUST SEE WERE YOU BEEN. I JUST TOOK A PIC OF ME ON MY PAGE AND IT LOOKS UGLY BUT THAT OK CAUSE I KNOW THAT BY THE END OF THIS YEAR IT WILL BE GONE AND HOPEFULLY I WILL NEVER SEE THAT BELLY AGAIN. Report Inappropriate Comment

LOPEYP 2/10/2010 4:39PM

Whatever works for you. It's your journey. Report Inappropriate Comment

clutter

Monday, February 08, 2010

Clutter

I started watching a show called ‘HOADERS’ this weekend and got to thinking about the clutter in my own life……. I realized that I’ve been doing some hoarding myself in other ways.

I opened the frig and saw jars and containers that I don’t remember opening. So I got rid of the ‘science experiments’ and anything that looked unfamiliar, and ended up with a bag full of garbage. Then I looked at the cupboards and did the same thing. Even some of my canned goods were too ancient to donate.. Those that were safe, but not diet safe, went to the food bank. Now I see a kitchen that has order and an abundance of healthy options.

Then I looked at the closets, and found things that were too big. Holding on to that stuff is not healthy. I’m not going back there, so out it went to good will.

In the process, I found an entire wardrobe of things that I had purchased, and grown out of all too quickly. Items that will be perfect in just a little while. Some even had the tags still on them. And I sat there thinking. I know I’m going to wear them.

And finally, I thought about some of my social life. People and activities that I need to avoid (if only for now) because they will sabotage my efforts. And I need to keep focused.

So I now have a little more order in my world

  

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KATIEJO5 2/8/2010 9:35PM

It feels so good to get rid of the excess "stuff" in our lives, doesn't it? Nice empty space anywhere is calming and soothing. So why is it so tough to just do it? I am really proud of you- that takes energy and faith! Report Inappropriate Comment

MORTICIAADDAMS 2/8/2010 7:56PM

Wow. Look at you go!!! I love Hoarders. I have problems as well. I need to do what you did. Report Inappropriate Comment

Hey Mr Scale ! --- A little cooperation please ?

Thursday, February 04, 2010

Be patient, be determined, be focused

My scale isn’t moving as quickly as I would like. I really expected to see the scale move today…but noooooo.

I feel like I’m waiting for the pot of water to boil. I’ve got the burner set to high, but I feel like I have a huge pot of cool water, and it’s going to take TIME to really get things going. I know the water is heating up but it feels more like blind faith than exact science. I believe it’s going to happen, but it’s really slow this time.

I’m following the rules harder than ever and I know I can’t give up. I can’t afford to. My body was starting to rebel against me, before I got serious, and I know I caught it in time. Still, I need more than a temporary correction, I need a major update. And I need to do it before I have a critical breakdown.

I guess the real key is perseverance. Plateaus and little slips are not failures, as long as I continue heading towards my goals. But, I could really really use a little momentum.