Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I'm sitting on my bed with a quiet mind. The balcony door open. I'm watching the light play off a tree's leaves as they flutter in the breeze. I can hear the rustling leaves and gusts of wind, people and cars nearby going about their business. I can smell grilled steak from the restaurant next door and the aroma of baking yeasty bread from the commercial bakery up the street. A thought flashed in my mind, "I am exactly where I am supposed to be right now."
Life is not perfect in that there are a lot of things that could improved. On the other hand, life is perfect in its imperfection. For some reason I feel like I was supposed to get laid off from my job so that I could finally have the time and circumstances to grow up emotionally, learn to love myself, and get fit and healthy. I feel like I am in a life training program right now, getting prepared for the next phase of life. I am where I need to be right now. I am doing exactly what I need to be doing right now. Life IS perfect.
Update: Not long after posting this blog entry I tripped and fell down a long, dark hole. I still KNOW that what I wrote is true, but it sure doesn't FEEL like it is. Sometimes things happen in life that makes me wonder. I was so calm and at peace with the world this afternoon. Then, just as I'm enjoying the ride, life sends me a twist. Is it a test to see if I've really learned anything? Is it just a strange coincidence? I'm a monkey who likes to grab hold of the next vine before I let go of the one I'm holding, For some reason, lately I've been repeatedly prevented from doing this. Instead, I let go and I'm flying through the air.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Slow and steady wins the race. Yeah, tell that to the suckers eating my dust!
On Sunday, I did an intense full-body workout focusing on strength exercises. I completed a laundry list of exercises such as pushups, tricep dips, lunges, some other floor exercises, and a whole bunch of stuff using my balance ball. I was kicking behinds and taking names! Okay, not really. I was alone in my living room using the fitness routine generator on SparkPeople. I completed one routine and decided to do another. By the end, I was really feeling it, but that's good, right?
Monday rolls around and I have a tad bit of trouble getting out of bed because I'm so tight, especially my thighs. But I've got my pilates class to go to so there's no stopping me. In class, I did my best, but I was so sore and tight that I was having trouble in parts of the class that I usually have no problem with. I breathed through it and finished the class. Woohoo!
Today is yoga. There's no way I'm going. I can't even walk down my stairs. I really thought about going anyway, but it's the toughest class of the week and if I had this much trouble with pilates yesterday when I wasn't this sore and tired.... Needless to say, the yoga class went on without me. However, I did some gentle stretching throughout the day, and then at 4pm I road the elliptical for 40 minutes followed by some more stretching. I was pretty proud of myself for exercising on my own.
Then there's now. I can barely move. My whole body aches, but especially my thighs. I think it was the lunges that did me in.
The moral of the story: moderation, moderation, moderation! I need to pace myself. Seven moderate days are much better than one kick-butt day followed by several days of struggle. I feel like I made a mistake overdoing it, but I've learned my lesson. I need to become one with the turtle and let the hare do what it does somewhere else.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Yesterday was a tough one. Hubby and I started the day in a lazy way. I made scrambled eggs and cake-like lemon poppy seed muffins with lemon glaze drizzle (one of Hubbyís favorites). I indulged, eating two muffins, which were delicious.
Not long after breakfast, my mother called. It was a nice enough conversation, but after hanging up I felt kind of down. The call was relatively uneventful so I was a bit confused, but Hubby suggested that it might be a crash from eating too much sugar. I donít know. I couldnít seem to get rid of the funk all day.
After dinner, I could not stop thinking about eating more. I was full. Iíd eaten a healthy and filling meal. But I wanted more. Hours went by. I kept trying to figure out why I was feeling so driven to eat, but I couldnít figure it out. I finally gave up fighting and ate 10 pistachios and two more of the lemon poppy seed muffins (over 200 calories each). Once I ate, it felt like my whole body sighed. I had no more desire to eat. I still donít get it.
Iím not happy that I consumed over 500 calories more for the day than the top end of my calorie range. Iím also sad that I slid backwards in the emotional eating department. However, at least this time I was fully aware of what I was doing instead of just eating mindlessly. Also, I did eat too much for the day, but this was a small divergence compared to the damage I used to do. Finally, I know this is a bump in the road, and possibly one I can learn from. If I keep driving forward, being mindful of my diet and exercise on a consistent basis, then I will eventually achieve my goals.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
I'd like to know who swapped me for this person who becomes disappointed when wussy fitness instructors don't kick my behind.
Today, I had a substitute pilates instructor. She was very nice and did a really good job of providing explanations on proper form and such, but the class was milquetoasty. After almost 50 minutes, I only burned 264 calories and my heartrate was max of 118 and average of 89. That's not nearly what it normally is.
When I started doing pilates, I struggled through the whole class. Now, I still can't do teasers all the way up, but I can do most everything else. Today showed me just how far I've come in only a couple of months. (Secretly, I was kind of glad that today's class wasn't too difficult, because I still felt like I was recovering from a challenging yoga class on Tuesday and a core-intensive water jogging class yesterday.)
I now have a new appreciation for my usual, demanding (yet nice) fitness instructors. Hit me with your best shot, 'cuz I'm ready!!!
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