Monday, February 06, 2012
Today I read the perfect quote painted on the wall at the gym:
Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going.
What a great quote. The trick is to get to the point where you don't even have to think about it. Because if thinking is involved, choices may be considered. Then decisions are made, not always in the right direction.
This morning, as usual, I woke up in time to make my Body Balance class, but when I did I SOOO wanted to pull the covers over my head and go back to sleep. I have a standing appointment with myself. I should keep it. Then I thought about how good I feel after taking that class. Getting out of bed wasn't quite so difficult then.
At that point it occurred to me, my life has always been a struggle, a battle between me, myself, and I. Every thing, even simple tasks, required coaxing and cajoling. I never realized that others didn't struggle like I did. I never knew that others didn't have a wet blanket over every day of their lives. But I guess that's the difference between minds with untreated depression and "normal" minds.
Last night it occurred to me how "normal" I feel since finding the proper medication. I realized that I'm not the same person I always thought I was. Everything does not have to be a struggle. I don't need to constantly push and push myself to get things done. I can just make a list and cross one thing off at a time. I need to stop thinking like the old me and embrace the new me.
My first step this morning was a huge success! I got out of bed, ate a nutritious breakfast. Got dressed and out the door on time. Took my class, then did my first day of 5K training on the treadmill. Now, I'm back home and ready for my next project.
Monday, January 02, 2012
2012: Day 1 – 194.5 lbs
My goals for this year are to write a book and reach my goal weight. Big goals, I know, but absolutely doable if I keep focused on the ultimate prize: accomplishment of goals that truly matter to me.
To write a book, my first short-term goals are:
- read my book on outlining, and
- read or write for one hour per day.
To reach my goal weight, my first short-term goals are:
- work out five times per week, preferably at the gym (to take advantage of my membership and to get out of the house),
- drink 8 cups of non-caffeinated beverages,
- be mindful of portion control,
- eat when hungry, and
- eat as “cleanly” as possible.
To work out regularly, it would be very helpful if I could wake up by 8 am each day.
To do this and not be tired all day, I plan to get to bed by midnight. This may be the most difficult, but also the most necessary if I want to accomplish my larger goals. To facilitate sleep earlier, I plan to finish chores by 11:30pm so that I can have half an hour to relax before bed.
I know that I will not be perfect. I expect that I will fall short on occasion, but failure is not measured in a day. It is measured at the end of the year when goals are met or not. 2011, 2010, and 2009, all difficult years, are behind me. They are over. No more dwelling. Focus on today. Start fresh every tomorrow. You can do it! I know you can.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
I can't believe it's been almost two months since I posted a blog. I could say that it's been because I'm really busy, but the truth is that I've been pretty depressed and just didn't want to be a total bummer. Turns out that I wasn't just pretty depressed...I was clinically depressed. Life really took a toll on me these last two years, but I'm working my way out and am already feeling a lot better. Hopefully, I'll feel up to posting regularly again. We shall see.
I have not lost weight, but I am very happy to be maintaining. By maintaining I mean that I keep gaining and losing the same pound or two over and over, but I'm keeping within a very small range so that is very good. I hope to exercise more once I stop working. That's right! I finally got a paying job (it's full-time temporary), but just in time for me to leave it, because I am moving to England in about three months. Yay!
I'm really excited (and a bit scared). There's so much that needs to be done to get ready for the move, including finishing up at work...the sooner I finish my two final projects the sooner I can stop working and start focusing on the move and my health again. I also hope to have a bit more time to dedicate to SparkPeople. I miss my Peeps!
I hope you are doing well, feeling well, and enjoying spring!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I went out to lunch with two colleagues. A particular restaurant has become a favorite of ours because of our mutual delight in perfectly cooked sweet potato fries. True to form, we each got a sandwich with a side of sweet potato fries. At the end of the meal, when the waitress was taking plates, I still had a big pile of fries on my plate. One of the ladies asked me how I can restrain myself from eating all the fries. I made some dismissive comment like, "Oh, I guess I just didn't feel like eating them all today." Then she said that I never finish them and wished that she had the same restraint. What!?!
I thought about it and what she said is not entirely true. There are times that I eat all the fries. But she was mostly right. When we go out to lunch, I often do leave food on my plate. As it turns out, without even realizing it, I have been eating to satisfaction, then putting my fork down more and more often. I would have said that leaving food without considerable mental effort is so NOT me, but apparently I don't know myself as well as I thought.
How crazy is it that someone actually noticed my eating habits and would like to do the same? Apparently, I've come a long way, baby!
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