Wednesday, June 09, 2010
So I've seen a lot of things about people who are thin but when they look in the mirror all they see is someone who is ugly and overweight and not what they really look like. It's sad but it does effect a lot of people. (I believe it's called body dysmorphic disorder.)
I'm lucky (or maybe not) because I also feel that I have body distortion when I look in the mirror. My profile picture is a really good example of how I feel I look. This is a real picture of me but it involved moving my camera, tipping my head, stretching my neck, getting the lighting just right and cropping away my arms. It may not be a true representation of me physically but it's how I feel I look in the mirror (on a good day). Though on the other hand when I'm having a bad day (not too often) I see myself how I "really" look with my double chin, big cheeks, wide nose and then I look down at the rest of my body and that's a whole other story.
The reason why I think it's important for me to realize this is I feel that as I've been getting heavier over the years my positive outlook and image distortion has shielded me from what I actually look like and have been doing to my body. What I'm trying to take away from this is that I can look at myself and see me for all I am physically but not be discouraged at how far I need to go. I know I need to loose weight so it's good if I can see me and not what I want to be or what the worst of me is... Just me!