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Wednesday, June 15, 2011

This is my blog today. Please don't read. I'm just venting to myself and it would bore you.

Well I am always trying to be upbeat about everything. I don't like negativity. However, just have to say I am really discouraged and just don't know which way to turn anymore. On the positive, I've lost 20pounds I think, I 'm afraid to get on the scales. It only took me a year to do it. Most people it takes a couple of months. Also on the positive I've managed to keep most of the 20 pounds OFF. Yay me. I just can't seem to make any progress towards getting past this one place that I am continually stuck. I can gain and Relose down to that point, but forget getting any further down. No, my clothes aren't fitting any better, no I do not have any more energy than I did.

Ok, so I 've lost 20# and kept it off!

I have not lost any weight for almost a year, other than the 5#'s I gained back and lost again.

I've read articles after article. suggestion after suggestion. I cannot keep consistant with anything I try to start. I thought if I try and log everything I eat today and keep it up I'll do better. I can't even make it through the day logging my food. By 3:00 I'm forgetting to do it. Just totally forgetting. Like I never did it or I'll think about it and too lazy to actually sit down and write it down.

I'm hoping for a big turn around starting tonight. My husband bought a bike lastnight and I hope we can go bike riding. I hope that this will build leg muscle and consequently start burning more calories.

I am absolutely no good at counting calories. I was trying the point thing with Weight Watchers on my own, I didn't join and was excited as the first couple of weeks I managed to lose 2 and 1 1/2 pounds but then stalemate again as I got to that area that I cannot budge past. My weight tracker does not reflect my true weight. I'm more like 205-206 and just continue to hang there or go up to 209.

I can't even track my food for a day and to count calories is just not happening. I can't figure out how many calories are in my casserole I'm having for supper or the ribs that my father in law is cooking or the sweet potatoe fries he makes. How do you eat normal food and still lose weight. I do attribute my success at keeping those 20#'s off to the fact that I have become a better veggie and fruit eater than I used to be.

Let's hope biking gives me a new found love and lease on this weight loss journey, because I have just about reached the end of my rope of motivation and not sure how to regain it when there are absolutely no results. No weight loss, no health benefits, no inches lost.

Ok enough negativity for the day. I'm gonna go home and try to work up the motivation to make my husband go biking tonight, although I'm so sleepy now it's hard for me to not go home and wanna sleep.

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CCCARTER3 6/15/2011 3:44PM

    Hi,you can vent here too,I dont mind.
Somepeople want to read positive all the time,which nothing wrong with that,but we all are inperfect people and it helps to vent then we can move on to what we really want.

Write down your reasons you want to lose weight,go back to the time you lost the 20 and see how you got there.
You can do this ,it just takes 1 step at a time. emoticon
once you get started riding you will love it and want to do it again.
be good to you

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Wednesday, June 08, 2011

If knowledge were all it took to lose weight, I'd be the skinniest person alive. I have read and reread so many different ideas and ways to do this. I keep trying to tweek and have some success on my own, but it just seems that I consistently do OK for a week or maybe even two and then I'm falling into the trap of "splurging" shall I call it.

Then you have to decide, am I gonna watch calories and eat whatever, or am I going to try and eat healthy. I've found that other than veggies and fruits, which I have been using for almost all of my snacks, everything else throws you over the limit on something. If you are following WW then the protein rich foods seem to use a lot of the points allowed. If you follow calories, then you can't have any of your faves.

Then I start looking at Recipes and think Oh I'll try that, but then I end up cooking for myself and then the rest of my family.

Oh what to do what to do.

I was doing really well on the exercise for a couple of weeks, now here I am AGAIN, slacking on it. Why can I not be disciplined enough to continue on. Why can I never have enough WANT, or Willpower to get through the tough phases and continue on. I've been hanging around this current weight for a year now. It's totally ridiculous that I cannot get motivated long enough to make another 10 pounds go away. I so wanted to have another 20 pounds gone by July 15 and yet, here I am, I've lost my motivation, my desire-although always there-just not strong enough.

I know I need to up my exercise from just walking. Was considering joining Curves to see if I could get some strength training in that way, but when I asked about Curves on this site many felt I would outgrow their program quickly and it would not do me any good. So looms another decision, do I join Curves, do I join the gym, do I try to keep doing my Leslie Sansone DVD's and get some strength training there? Decisions, decisions. I'm no good at making them and I'm no good at sticking to them. I'm always reinventing the wheel if I may.


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Sunday, June 05, 2011

I have been trying my hand at a personal rendition of Weight Watchers the last couple of weeks. I had managed to lose a few pounds in a two week period, basically what I had gained over the winter.

Now I'm at another crossroads of not knowing what to do. I think I will continue with the points way for a while, it just seems easier to me than all the calorie counting.

I want to start somehow to get resistance training in and just not sure how to do it. I'm thinking about joining Curves, but not sure that it will give me what I really need. I could join the gym in town, but there is a huge start up fee and I really keep thinking that I should be able to do exercise without having to go somewhere to do it. I mean the walking 3 to 4 times a week for 30 minutes is working, but I know it won't last and I will need more to challenge my body.


Another milestone

Thursday, November 18, 2010

I am even more happy today as I got on the scale it finally fell below 200#. I never thought I would see under 200# again. It was just taking so long. I've been watching what I eat, I have even managed to go out two weekends in a row and not totally screw up my progress. I have also started something new with my treadmill. On Friday night we spent the night at The Amish Door in Amish Country and that treadmill had the numbers set up for cardio verses fat burning. I've been doing the cardio but not advancing anywhere. Just sweaty and bored and I HATE exercise! But anyway, I chose to do the fat burning workout. I don't have to walk as fast, I don't have be all sweaty, just mildly perspiring. I am not totally worn out when I'm finished. It is taking longer, about 15 minutes more of my day, but I am getting at least 1.75 miles walked. After doing some research, even though Sparkers don't necessarily agree, I think for me, this is the way to go. I just had so much fat I needed to lose from previous dieting experiences that this way, I think I can burn actual fat stores instead of calories. Also, I think I am eating more too, I think that may have contributed to my slow losing. I wasn't eating enough. I just need to make sure that what I am eating is good for me and not empty calories. I also started taking my vitamins again. I know I should be getting enough vitamins if I'm eating correctly, but I just think I need that extra boost.

I haven't had money to go to the store and today I am out of my 35 calorie bread and pbutter(Nat skippy). So I'm struggling. Gotta go for now. More later.

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MICHELE0008 11/18/2010 9:54AM

    Congrats! That's wonderful! That is something I am looking forward to myself--a long way to go for me. Good luck on your continuing journey.

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Woo Hoo Moment

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

I am so excited to be on here today. Finally Finally since September I have been trying to make the scale BUDGE past 201.8. It would go up but never go down past that. This morning I have finally achieved making it go below. This morning it read 200.8. I am so excited!! I just hope I can continue going down and that it isn't a one day thing. I've struggled sooo hard to get these 25 pounds off, not sure how in the heck I'm ever going to get another 25 off and then another 25 and then another 20. At this point that seems impossible because it has taken so long to accomplish not quite 25. I've been doing some reading up on the walking thing. Although, when I asked the question on spark message board no one was really into watching their heart rate and the fat burning verses calorie burning but maybe for me that is what is doing the trick. I've been doing the slower walking for a longer period of time now since Saturday and have been able to make the scale move, so I'm going to keep trying it that way for a while and see how it works.

I also think I'm going to start blogging more. I think it is just a release for me. I'm the one that always listens to everyone else's problems and tries to help but no one ever wants to reciprocate, so maybe this will give me an outlet to whine, complain, and get all the negativity out so that I can keep the good going. At least here, no one has to read it, but I can still write it and feel like I'm sharing it with someone whether I am or not.

I'm gonna go change my entry today to 200.8. So excited! I do wish there was some where that tracked our weight, like the last time I actually got to change my number and such. I'll have to look a little more. Maybe in the tracker system there is a place. I recall seeing a graph somewhere.

Hope all my SP friends have a great day today. Keep moving, keep eating healthy and I wish you all success!


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