Tuesday, June 10, 2008
I suppose I really need to realize that I am going to have relapses. This weekend was a not the best choices weekend. I felt quite a bit of stress, feel bloated (that TOM), and have sugar cravings like you would not believe!
I did much better today, was about 2000 calories. That is not very good, but based upon what I have done over the last few days, it is wonderful! I need to look at the positive. Tomorrow I will aim for 1500-1600 calories. By Friday, I hope to be averaging about 1300-1500 again.
I have to remember....THIS IS A PROCESS! I will learn from my setbacks. I need to give in to my cravings if it is something I really want. Otherwise, I will eat other things as substitutions and overeat when I could have just had that one chocolate chip cookie. It would have been less calories than what I ended up consuming.
Live and Learn, right? Right!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
I came down with this bogus cold/flu thing this weekend and spent most of my time laying down in bed. I thought it was just allergy, but then I started getting the fever feeling and the achy (sp?) body. I have been taking medicine and I feel a little better, but still not up to par. I can't be sick, I don't have sick days. So, I am just going to work through it and plow on.
Our weather in So. California has been pretty fickle lately and I thought that might have something to do with it. We were in a heat wave and then next few days brought 2 tornadoes and hail. Go figure! Don't you hate when you are under the weather???
Saturday, May 24, 2008
I have completed the third of my twelve 5k's today. Although, today's run/walk was FOUR miles, so a little more than a 5K. I was so excited! I actually finished and I came in at 1:01:21! That is amazing to me. In 2006, I did the Turkey Trot 5K on Thanksgiving Day. My time was 59 minutes. That means that my time was only a 2 minute difference and I did an EXTRA MILE! Can you tell that I am excited!
It feels great and I even ran quite a bit. I want to start running and I can if I do a little at a time. I learned today that my breathing is the key. I usually let myself get winded easily, but I was able to control that a little and keep running. In fact, I did a whole Dave Matthews song all running!
I just wanted to share! I know I will be really sore tomorrow. Oh well, it is a good sore!
Friday, May 23, 2008
I have been meaning to post this and totally forgot! I was at my Mom's house last weekend and had brought a load of laundry with me. While I was in the shower, my Mom had taken my clothes out of the dryer and folded them for me. When I came out to look for my jeans, she had told me they were on the table.
I grabbed the top one from the stack and went to put them on. After doing so, they felt a little different. I looked down at them and noticed that they weren't mine. (My Mom is about 30 pounds heavier than I, so I know they weren't hers and I have no sisters). A little perplexed, I showed my Mom and asked who they belonged to. She looked really surprised and started laughing. They were my godmom's pants...She had given them to my Mom to hem.
Now, the funny thing about this is this. My godmom has always been the thinner one of the three of us. In the last 5 years, she has gained a lot of weight. She will never admit this, but in fact tells my mom and I how we should be eating and that she hardly ever eats anything. We never say anything, as we know being heavy is a difficult thing. Also, when we were in Hawaii, my godmom claimed she weighed 140 pounds but know that this is not close to true. So this incident was more of a eye opener for us. We never knew what size my godmom was because she cut out the tags of all of her clothing before she ever gave it to my mom to alter.
To me, this was a triumph. I am a size 16, recently down from a 18. I was astonished that these fit me...and perfectly! It was a nice surprise and it made me feel like I am making the right steps towards health. In a way, it was nice because my godmom has always criticized me "because she loves me" about things I eat and don't eat. Despite her criticism's, I know I am making the right choices to better health. This just helped to confirm it.
Of course I would NEVER tell my godmom about this because I don't want her to feel bad about it. I think it has been difficult for her to deal with the fact that she has gained weight and when she realizes that, I will be totally supportive.
Monday, May 19, 2008
I splurged on Saturday...I am finding it a bit more difficult to stay in my calorie range. I was over 2800 on Saturday (ey-yi-yi!) and Sunday dropped down to about 1900. Today I'm at 1782. I should be under 1550. I think the stress is getting the better of me and I need to change that.
I am going to the gym in about 20 minutes and will be taking my hour long Zumba class. Which is great! I have to go out to lunch tomorrow for a colleagues birthday and we won't know where we are going until we are ready to go. I will get a chicken salad no matter where we go with dressing on the side, no cheese. I will also drink water, as I have not been keeping up with my proper water intake.
Once you are on a roll, it seems very easy, breezy. When you lose the groove, it's a little harder to get back into. I am totally craving sugar because I ate it on Saturday. (Another lesson learned!) So, my groove is coming back this week.
I have officially 5 months to get under 180 pounds so I can afford health insurance. If I remain at the weight I am at, I will have to pay over $150 MORE each month. With the way gas, food, credit card rates, etc. are going, I can't afford to do that!
I'm gettin' my groove back y'all!
I have no choice! ;)
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