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Day 17: Site Seeing Across CA, Stepping Away from the Calories!

Thursday, December 20, 2012 has been an interesting week to say the least. I have to go to WW to weigh in tomorrow, as I missed last week. My friend who is British, but has been living in Australia has come to visit. She asked if she could stay with me while here and I said yes. Again, still learning how to say No.

We have gone all over since Friday...Solvang, Hearst Castle, San Francisco, Alcatraz, Hollywood, Disneyland (I opted out here due to work, but drove her to and fro), San Diego yesterday, Warner Bros Tour this morning and dropped her at Universal Studios this afternoon. I am working still too, and am beat!

However, I think I was able to maintain and even lose during all of this! A victory in an of itself! I got on the scale this morning and it was showing I was about a pound down. We will see tomorrow or Saturday! Something interesting happened though...

As she was ordering all of this decadent, fat full food...I was watching and was somewhat turned off by it. Also, I have noticed that she has slept in the car, pretty much every trip and is always tired. I think it is a direct link to the foods she is fueling her body with and the exercise we are doing. It is just wiping her out. Now, I am not saying anything at all to her, it is her body, her money and her choices. But, in her, I have seen myself.

She lives a lot via computer and mobile phone, watches TV quite a bit and even though she has traveled the world, she seems to care more about the lives of celebrities than her own life, which I have learned is somewhat mundane. The reason I am mentioning this is not to throw her under the bus, but because I can see it is what I am doing (in a way) with my life.

That is NOT the life I want.

I don't want the highlight of my day to be found at the end of a fork. I don't want my life to be exciting because of pictures I post on FB. I don't want to be laid out for a nap because I cannot make good healthy decisions on what to fuel my body with. This trip has been very interesting and eye opening for me. There is still so much more I want to do with my life and that cannot be accomplished without a healthy body, healthy mind and positive attitude. I will not find any of these in a bowl of ice cream or a jar of cookies. It just isn't there.

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SWAZY33 12/21/2012 7:31AM

    Great post!!
GO YOU!!! for making healthy choices when it would have been easier to join your friend in not so great choices.

All those places you mentioned are SO on my wish list. I have family in Cali and when my whole family had gone out there for one of my cousins weddings...I wasn't able to go and ever since I heard about their fun time...It's been on my wish list!

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Day 4 , 5 & 6: Cookie Monster, Cookie Monster Returns, Bloater, Results of my Actions

Sunday, December 09, 2012

If you have been following me, you know that I tend to "forget" to blog when I am not doing something I should be doing. It is a silly pattern of mine, and yes, it is childish. I don't mean to, but I am trying to work on it. why I am posting today.

Day 4 was Thursday....Thursday I was emotional. Unhappy again back at my old job and on commission only now, so stressed about finances. What did I do? I had good intentions and put gym clothes on in the morning...Well, I ended up buying Creme Wafers (they are those wafer cookies that come in strawberry, vanilla and chocolate - yup, pure sugar) and eating 5.5 servings of the 9 servings in the package. Believe me, I was sad to do it, but I tracked every crumb/point that went into my mouth that day. After I did this, I didn't feel great and then had a waxy feeling on the roof of my mouth. Thank you creme filling. I tried to get back on track immediately, but because I had already spent 32 points on cookies, my day was shot. I did have a salad with lite dressing for dinner, so I didn't go totally crazy.

Enter Friday morning. Yup, the rest of the cookies were my breakfast. And, I was kind of a bum the rest of the day and did nothing (no activity). If you looked at my ActiveLink, you would have thought I was dead or sleeping. Total flat lined. But, I did count all my points and because of the cookies, I was at -24 for the week with my WPA. I really don't like seeing red in my tracker. It was inevitable that I would gain Saturday morning, not only because of the overage in points and the sedentary week (really, ActiveLink puts this right out there for you to see! It is quite fascinating since I thought I was a lot more active than I actually am. Chalk that up to "Duh," Kristi) but also because those cookies had a ton of SODIUM! I'm a bloater! I usually don't eat a lot of sodium (like popcorn, etc) two days before my WI's cause I know my body. Bloat.

Saturday...I went to my meeting and made myself get on that scale. "I" put those cookies in my mouth...time to step on that scale and acknowledge the results of my actions. Yup, up 1.6lbs. In looking at my WI's for 2012, I have been up and down the same 10 pounds since January! It's time to get off this roller coaster.

I did buy the new package of WW 360 items for two reasons.
1) The Success Book - 'cause it's obvious I need to have a little help since my success is not consistent nor truly success if I keep gaining it back within the month
2) The New Tracker - I do track on my phone, but I noticed when I track on paper, I almost always lose. This is not always true of my online/phone tracker. There is something about writing down your points physically that makes a difference for me. Yes, I know people are different and what I am learning is we all need to do what works for US, not others. So, I realized this is what works for me.

Now...the reason I am posting this is not to publicly shame myself, but to understand for me, that this is not going to be a straight line. I made some mistakes, now I need to learn from the mistakes and work on a few things...
1) Not turning to food when I am frustrated, stressed and trying to figure out how to not go other words, emotional.
2) Not allowing myself to be a bump on a log and being a couch potato
3) Writing down my food choices on a physical tracker rather than the online tracker

It is also important to recognize the things I did well, or better than before...
1) Tracker, even if the points went over, I tracked
2) WI - even though I know the scale was going to go up, I got on it
3) Got back on track right after my slip-ups, rather than taking it to binge-town

My New Years Resolution for 2013 is to learn from my mistakes and better myself by making small changes everyday.

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RYDERB 12/17/2012 9:32AM

    I'm with you on the actually writing down, what I eat. It makes a big difference to hold it and see it. Flip pages back and forth. Yes tracking on SP is easy but almost too easy, as I don't ever look at any previous days. It takes too long to go back and forth.

I'm so proud of you for acknowledging your bad choices. We can't fix it, if we don't admit it's broken.

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OLIVIANIGHT 12/9/2012 5:31AM

    You're right, it takes a certain kind of bravery to track when you know you've overeaten and get on the scale when you know it will have gone up. Keep going and you'll get there : )

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Day 3: Survived the Dating Mixer!

Thursday, December 06, 2012

Well....last night a friend of mine and I went to a Stir event/mixer.

I'm sure you have seen the commercials on TV for these things. Only, I thought there were puzzles or something to do, but when we got there, there was nothing.

We get into the place, and it is like a junior high dance at the gym. People just standing around, guys watching every girl that comes through the door and no one really talking. Needless to say it was very odd. So my friend and I just get a drink and then find a spot to sit down at. We got to catch up and that was nice! Two guys came over to talk to us and I have to say, they were both very nice. Well traveled and good conversation. I don't think there was much of an attraction there, but it was at least interesting.

I am not sure if I want to go to one of these things again, if I do, it will be a "cooking" one so there is something to do! I also came to the realization that I am not very good at friend isn't either. Ha! I would guess that most of us in the room aren't very good at it, so that's why we were there.

I will chalk it up to experience!


Day 2: Avoided the 875 Salad at the Market Last Night!

Wednesday, December 05, 2012

So yesterday, I did fairly well. I have to be proud of myself for passing up the potato salad at the market though! It was about a cup or so, but the package said it was 3.5 servings, wow! Little servings. It was also 875 calories for the container! Each serving was 250 calories...I am glad I chose to NOT put that in my basket. I could have easily eaten the container in one sitting, but I left it right there on the shelf for someone else to purchase!

This morning has started out well, I had a healthy breakfast. I had planned on going to the gym this morning, but have missed the 9:30a class because I was on work phone calls. I thought I could maybe work in a daytime work out since I do work from home. I now remember why this didn't work before. My schedule is a little hectic and it fluctuates all the time.

I think moving forward, I am just going to focus on ONE day at a time!

On another note, I am going to a singles event with one of my friends tonight. I am feeling a little nervous about it going and about my weight. Weight and dating for me has been a huge road block. I don't want to be so guarded yet I am also afraid of being teased and made fun of. I know it sounds silly at my age, but some men never grow out of that and it does hurt to be called names and be made the joke of. I really hope that doesn't happen tonight. I hope that it will be fun and there will not be any "incidents" of that sort. I don't think I am emotionally ready to be called "Fat" again by another man. I am still healing the wounds from the last time.

Wish me luck!


Day 1: Getting to a Healthy BMI, My Self-Challenge for 2013!

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

So, I made a decision this morning. I am going to get to a healthy BMI within ONE year! I need to lose 75.2lbs to get to a 24.9 BMI, which puts me in the healthy category. A friend of mine decided to do Healthy Wage. I was reading over the details and the goal of the plan is to get you to a healthy BMI within a year. This challenge makes the assumption that it is a do-able goal. However, what I liked about it was that they do use WW as a official weighing location. So...I thought, maybe this would be a good goal for me.

I have struggled with my weight for years. I think this last year was helpful because I am finally understanding why and when I eat things for reasons other than hunger. That is a huge step for me. And, I have gained and lost the same pounds throughout the year. I feel more ready to do this than I have in a while and I know the things that need to change to get me to a healthy weight. I don't want to be skinny, I want to be healthy. It is important for me also because I have struggled with health issues. I am hoping that some of these things will either clear up or make themselves apparently known when this weight disappears.

Today will be my first day to getting to a healthy weight. And, I am proud to say I have said no to 1) Carrot Cake 2) Lemon White Chocolate Cookies 3) Chips already this morning. I need to consistently remember why I am doing this and to think "Is this the healthiest, most nutritious food I can eat?" when I do choose to eat something. I think the other thing I have learned over this last year is that I can be lazy. Lazy to get out and exercise. Lazy to cook and cut up vegetables. Lazy to prepare my meals ahead of time. Lazy and accepting of convenience such as Drive Thrus, microwaveable meals, etc. Those things can be a part of a healthy diet with the right choices and if they are on occasion, but I know that is not what is happening with me.

And...I know I have said this before...but, my TV needs to be turned off MORE! I would have so much more time to do things if I would just turn the darn thing off!

I waste so much life laying on the couch staring at the TV. I know life wasn't intended for that and it needs to stop now. I will choose 3 shows I would like to watch each week, and that will be my TV time. I really don't need anymore than that. I could use that time to be more productive, get more sleep, clean the house, exercise, write, read, etc. There is so much more I could be doing, but I know I am wasting at least 3 hours a night on silly TV, and I don't really follow any shows but The Voice!

I have the power to change my life and I can start now! I am not going to wait until January 1st when I already know what to do now and I am going to end this laziness of mine! Finally!

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RYDERB 12/17/2012 9:26AM

    Less TV is a great idea! Dec has been a tough month for me lots going on, but I got so much done the 8 days I had no computer and had to limit my cell phone usage, because my husband had taken my charger by mistake. I missed everyone, but I was so productive it felt amazing. But I think I could get the same result with just less TV.

Congratulations on your Challenge!
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Set daily, weekly, and monthly goals, to help keep you on track and you WILL get this DONE! Good luck! emoticon

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KERRIELYNN719 12/4/2012 11:42AM

    Good Luck on your journey!!

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LACIEKAY 12/4/2012 11:38AM

    it's tough for a foodie (like myself) to think of food as JUST fuel for the body and not a hobby or a reward.
i'm a month in and when i want something sweet i'm satisfied by an apple. it's amazing to me. not to say i don't struggle when i open the cookie jar for my kids! haha
good luck! emoticon

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