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I'm Sick and I HATE Men right now...

Friday, February 01, 2008

Just letting off a little steam. Not only is my nose stuffed, my voice gone and there is no oxygen getting through my nostrils, but on top of that, guys stink!

So, I have been absent here for the last 2 weeks due to travels for work and now have the cold/flu thingy I have. I met someone a few weeks ago and things were going great. I could not believe that I met a nice guy, sweet, attractive and he was treating me so well. Well, he had taken a couple of pics of him and I and recently got them developed. We were supposed to go out on Saturday and I had called him to figure out what time, where, etc. He told me he got the pics back and then didn't say anything. I thought, well, did I look terrible or something? So I asked him if they came out bad and he didn't say anything. So I moved on about Saturday and he was kinda brushing me off. Of course, I got defensive (typical me), and said, "We don't have to go if you don't want to." He stated it was fine and to call him on Saturday.

Now, is it just me or is this weird. He normally sends me a text or calls me everyday. I know, I know. I find it a bit much as well, but this was his pattern. After the above mentioned conversation, he has not contacted me at all. I am a little P.O.'d to say the least. I feel as though he thinks I am just plain ugly and unfortunately, I have self-confidence issues due to my weight. Had he called me names, got mad at me for something I said or did, or didn't like my family, I wouldn't be as upset. I think it just stung more for two simple reasons. First, this is the first guy in about 2 years that I started to let in and trust. Second, he hit on an issue that is very sensitive to me, my looks/weight.

So, I got upset, talked to a friend, shed a tear and I am now done with it. I blocked his email and deleted his number from my phone. If he wants to see me again, he can contact me and we will have to go from there. I know I am probably overreacting, but honestly? Do you not have the guts to tell me what you were really thinking about me? Or, did your friends make comments about my weight and now all of the sudden you can't be seen with me? C'mon! Nothing changed.

When are guys going to grow up?

Okay, I have done my venting. I will shut up now.

  
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IAMSUCCEEDING 2/2/2008 5:10AM

    {{HUGS}} Men, can't ;ive 'em, can't live without 'em! ;) This too shall pass, Maybe HE has self confodence isssues, we always think it is me, has to be, but it very well could be him. Hope you feel better soon too. Chin up! You are doing great!

~Trish

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SKNYJNS 2/1/2008 8:51PM

  You would be miserable with this dude anyway. Get over him quickly and move on. He's rude and was misleading!

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Confessional...

Friday, January 25, 2008

Okay, so I think I lost my way the last 5 days. Today was the first day that I have been truly back on track. I wanted to post this because I wanted to be able to look back at this in a few months and realize what the journey has been to me.

Last night, I was a little emotional and I suppose bored. I wandered in the kitchen and was looking around. I really wanted something sweet. I stopped for a moment and realized I wasn't hungry. For whatever reason, I took a pan, heated it up, threw in a couple of handfuls of marshmallows and made a small batch of Rice Krispy's. I then ate the whole thing!

I still don't really know why I did it, but I think I have realized that me, TV and evening don't mix. Today, I did well. I was poking around the kitchen again tonight, but made a different choice. I grabbed a bottle of water, stuck a jolly rancher in my mouth and it has made all the difference!

I thought it was important to capture this and maybe it will help others see that this is totally a learning experience. I guess I just need to understand that it is persistence, not perfection.

  
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IAMSUCCEEDING 1/25/2008 7:35AM

    It is crazy we do this isn't it? Seems when I do this I am emotionally trying to get rid of something or lacking something and replacing it with food. It has taken a LONG time to come to this realization and now when I am heading that way, I do stop, I do stay out of the kitchen and I find someone to talk to. It distracts me enough and I am able to work through it.

Today is a new day and it sounds like you have already refocused yourself, that is great. ALso take a look back at what you have accomplished.

{{HUGS}}
~T
rish

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Back from Hawaii!

Friday, January 18, 2008

I just got back in today. I weighed myself (it was 2p in the afternoon) and I was at 213. I am not sure what that means. I know when I weighed in last week, I was at 210.5 but it was morning.

Over the week, I tried to stick to fruits, grilled meats and veggies. Although, there were a lot of cheese platters around and Lapeert's ice cream! If I had an ice cream, I did not get the waffle cone. If I had a burger, I ate the inside and left 1/2 or all of the bun. I walked 2 miles 3 days in a row and I snorkeled for 1.5 hours on one day. I tried to get in some activity when I could. I also think that I am severly dehydrated and may be retaining water. I will let you all know how the weigh in goes next Sunday. If I do NOT do the 5K this Sunday, then I will be weighing in.

I should have blogged while in Hawaii. I think I would have been a bit more focused. I didn't do terribly, but there are a few choices that I could have made differently.

I am learning and that's what this is all about!

  
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DIVALINDA 1/19/2008 11:20AM

    Welcome back! Will you have some pics to post?
Sounds like you did fabulous with your sensible eating. I'll be sending success vibes your way if you do the 5K tomorrow.

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A Little Relapse & First Cycling Class Ever

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Last night I had a little bit of a relapse and ate Chocolate Chips. Yes, the baking kind. I don't know what got into me...I was doing so good and I wasn't even hungry! I got right back on track and am doing good again. Luckily it was only a 1 hour lapse! Traditionally, my lapses would start with an hour and continue for days. So rather than beating myself up, I decided that I would pat myself on the back for getting right back on track. I realize that this will happen from time to time, especially in the beginning. Once I have done this consistently, it will happen less and less.

On another note, I went to my first cycling class tonight. It was a beginning class and it kicked my butt! Actually, it kinda hurts to sit since the seat is not very comfortable. BUT, I sweated a ton! It was awesome. I would highly recommend trying it, just be sure to go to a beginning class. I will be attending this class for the next few months before going to a regular cycling class.

I am excited for Biggest Loser tonight! Aren't you???

  


Baby Shower, Belly Dancing and Boxing the WII way!

Sunday, January 06, 2008

The baby shower went well actually. I had a late breakfast and the Baby Shower was at noon. I actually didn't eat anything, I did have a beer though. (This was a co-ed baby shower and because men were there, they only had beer. Kinda strange). Anyhow, I didn't have cake either. We went to PF Chang's that night for dinner and I had a small bowl of brown rice and 2 lettuce wraps. I also played Boxing on the new Nintendo WII and my arms are so sore! In fact, this morning I woke up with a bruise on my inner arm and I think I popped a blood vessel! I was sweaty after about 5 minutes.

On to Belly Dancing. I felt like the biggest dork and my arms felt like they were going to fall off! It was a lot of fun and all of the other participants have been doing it for over 2 years. Obviously, I was not nearly where they were at, but it was fun all the same. The class also went from 6:15p to 7:45pm. My tummy is still a bit sore in strange places.

I have Zumba tomorrow night and I am trying to clean my house right now. We have had a lot of rain today and I have been watching movies while cleaning. Needless to say, I haven't been too productive. I am getting there though! I have to have the house clean tonight because I will have my family over Thursday night because we leave at 6am in the morning on Friday for HAWAII!!! Very excited...it is a surprise trip for one of our family members. I am going to weigh in on Thursday morning instead.

Okay, I think I have caught everything up. Whew! I hope you all are having a great weekend. I got to go out through the rain to the car to get some bottled water. I feel like a desert here! So thirsty! (This will be my 3rd bottle today!).

  


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