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Had to get weighed at doctors today...3pts left for the day & its 1:38pm!

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

I wasn't supposed to be weighed today, had I known, I would have worn something different. I was in jeans, full jewelry and tennis shoes. Yep....back up again. Ugh! I thought I did fairly well yesterday. Today...I am running out of veggies and I have 5 points left for dinner tonight.

So, what is dinner going to be???
Spaghetti squash (0)
2tsp Olive Oil (2)
Banana if I am still hungry (0)

Then, I am going to Zumba at 8pm tonight! I am just so mad I had to get on that scale. Then, they gave me a sheet as I left with my BMI on it (Yes, I know it's high...I told ya I am on WW trying to lower it) and a note on how to lose weight.

The crazy thing is I was here to get my birth control prescription renewed. I left feeling even worse about myself. Sitting here being frustrated, I wouldn't let myself eat any more until I figured out why I am frustrated and wanting to eat. It's because I am angry. Do doctors think that we don't know we are obese? Do they think that we don't know what healthy eating is? Why has no doctor ever asked me WHY I might be overweight? Or, WHAT is propelling me to make poor decisions?'s you're fat, here's a sheet cause you're an idiot and don't know what healthy eating is, and you need to exercise.

Duh! I exercise 3-5 times a week, an hour each time. I eat more fruits and veggies than most of my skinny counterparts. I take a multi-vitmin every morning and I don't drink soda (diet or regular) of any kind, just water. I don't keep unhealthy or processed foods in my house and I haven't had gluten (breads, pasta, processed foods) since July this year! AND...despite all that, I am STILL struggling with my weight!

One bright spot in the visit...a nurse clinician told me I should have my Anti-Thyroid checked. She said she had gained 40 pounds and then she pointed to her neck. She had a large horizontal scar across her neck and said that after she had her thryroid problem fixed, she dropped the weight immediately. I have been tested for thryroid issues because my mom and my grandma both have it. But I was only tested for regular thryrod issues, not the anti-thyroid. Thank goodness for that nurse! If it wasn't for her, I might have stopped for Mexican Food after the appointment since it was lunch time. But....I didn't!

Time to get back in the right frame of mind!

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RYDERB 11/9/2011 5:46PM

    I'm sorry. Sounds like it was a rough visit. Don't worry about being up. You know when you're losing weight, the only way for the number to be accurate is if you use the same scale, and weigh in wearing the same thing (or nothing), at the same time of day.
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    I so agree with you on the doctor not asking the most important question: "Why do you have a weight issue?" It was very nice having the trainer at the gym (my first consultation with her was yesterday) actually ask me if I knew what got me to this weight. She also was very informative because of my being 50 and is teaching me some things with food that need changing (bye bye carbohydrates to a degree) just because of my stage of life.

Your story sounded just like mine....exercising consistently, eating within the calorie range and still it doesn't budge.

Hang in there, but I know how frustrating that darn scale can be!

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Yesterday was a ROCKSTAR day!

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

I have been struggling...there is a lot of change going on in my life...I am moving again (moved in July) at the end of the month, I am going from a 1BD/1BA apt to sharing a condo, I am trying to find a new job and my group of close friends have recently changed. It's a lot and I think it has been reflecting in my eating.

Yesterday, I did well!

I only went over my dailies by 2 points! And, I got 8 glasses of H2O in, as well as a Zumba class. I got on my scale this morning (I know I wasn't going to do that, but its habit) and yesterday I was 223....this morning I was 219.5! Saturday, I was 220, but did damage on Sunday and was up 3lbs! Goes to show just how important each day is.

So, I am stoked that yesterday went well. I wanted to make sure I wrote about it so I could carry it in today. Here's to another great day!

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TAMARA6905 11/8/2011 11:18AM

    Best of Luck for today being just as successful! Keep rocking it!

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Weekends are killing my good weekly efforts! Gotta get out of this cycle!

Monday, November 07, 2011

When I weighed in on Saturday, I had gained 3.4 lbs! I had exercised and had been pretty good during the week. The weekend was another story, not horrible, but not good. It always seems when I start exercising, I gain. I am learning to accept that. However, I also learned that if you screw up the weekend, you can kill your weigh in even if you are good during the week.

So, Saturday, I gained. I did okay Saturday, went over my points by about 9...used my weekly points allowance as I knew I would since I was at a baby shower. Sunday....ugh, Sunday. I was a slug most of the day, did do a 4 mile walk and grocery shopping, but that was it. I had a 79 point day! (I usually get 33). I ate the whole thing of hummus with carrots and the rest of my Gluten Free cookies, which was 5 total. But, those easily put me in my 46 points over.

Have you noticed my pattern? I do eat healthy stuff, but I just can't seem to control the portions. It is frustrating for me to, because I know better! So rather than let this snow ball continue, I have decided that I am going to STOP it today! I had a healthy breakfast scramble with 5 servings of veggies and both of my oils for the day. I will make a healthy lunch and I am going to the gym tonight. I will also get my 8 glasses of water in today. (I haven't gotten my water in for almost a week now).

I need to remind myself that this is something I need to do EVERY DAY! I cannot take a "break" on the weekends and mess myself up for the rest of the week and then again on weigh in day. I need to break this habit that weekends don't need to be as OP as the week because that will keep me where I am at, up and down the same 5lbs.

This week, my commitment is to myself. To make myself important and to take care of me because I deserve it.

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JERSEYFLOWER 11/7/2011 9:26PM

    You're learning! It's a process.

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SHELLE13 11/7/2011 7:55PM

    Thanks, ladies. I tracked everything this weekend, that's how I know the damage I did. But...yes, weekends are tough. I am glad to know that I am not the only one that struggles with this.

This week, I am not weighing myself every morning...I need to focus on staying on track, getting my water in and getting to the gym. On Saturday, I need to renew my commitment to staying on track and stay within my daily points/calories. Otherwise, I will be bouncing up and down these same 5lbs forever. Who wants that?!

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RYDERB 11/7/2011 1:01PM

    I think you've set a great goal for yourself. I do the same thing. Workout 2 hours a day, and track my food, but on the weekend, it all goes out the window. But I'm ready to change my pattern. I'm worth the extra work on the weekend to stay on track, and so are you! Good luck! emoticon

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AMYSRUN4LIFE 11/7/2011 11:37AM

    I have the same issues with weekends! I've been struggling with it for, well forever now it seems! It's way to easy to just "let go" and not pay much attention in this house when we're running like crazy to soccer games and such.


One of my goals for November is to get through weekends successfully staying in my calorie range, 1st weekend didn't go so well.

BUT....We can totally do this!

Thanks for the blog! You have given me the motivation I needed!!

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Yesterday was a BAD day....Ugh, why doesn't this ever get easier?!

Thursday, November 03, 2011

Yesterday was really tough for me. I ate more than I wanted, I wasn't hungry, but stress is there and this really lazy girl feeling. I am not a lazy person, but lately, I just don't feel motivated to do much. I think it's because I dislike my job and I would rather stay in bed than get up in the morning and go to another day of blah.

I know eating is not going to make it better. I know this! But, for some reason, last night, I ate instead of going to Zumba. And, I love Zumba! I was sitting on the couch watching Top Chef and just felt like I had my feet stuck in cement. I was paralyzed....and it wasn't cause Top Chef was on. I have it on my DVR. But, the crazy thing is I was sitting there knowing I would feel better if I went to Zumba, but I didn't move. It is craziness!

On a positive note, I tracked everything I ate last night. I when I said I wasn't like ice cream and candy. I have Progresso Light Soup for dinner, 94% Fat Free Popcorn, Broccoli (I know!) and carrots with Hummus. It wasn't like it was a full fledged binge, but I felt myself not being in control and it feels like a runaway freight train when it happens.

I did get on the scale this morning and I am up 4lbs! However, I didn't drink much water yesterday and I had both soup and popcorn. There could be some salt issues playing here.

What it comes down to is this. Why won't I do the things I need/want to do to lose this weight? Why does it always seem that I am purposely doing things to sabotage myself or keep myself at this weight? I think a lot of it stems from my lack of self-worth and self-confidence. In some weird way, I think I believe I don't deserve to be thin and healthy. The stupid thing about that is I know that it's crazy and absurd to believe that...this seems to be a constant struggle with me.

C'mon Kristi, get it right girl!

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HDHAWK 11/3/2011 6:21PM

    I think many of us have those issues. I've been trying to get back on track for months. I've started listening to the Inside Out Weight Loss podcasts. Lots of good info there.

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SMIDGON 11/3/2011 3:53PM

    My issues is weather and how I feel physically. THEN, I just don't give a darn. Sound familiar?



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MUFFIY831 11/3/2011 3:38PM

    Wow, I feel like I could have written this myself. You recognize the issue - that's an important first step. Small changes - maybe you don't make it to zumba, but maybe you walk around the block before Top Chef starts. Once you're in your sneakers, maybe the motivation will come. Hang in there - you DO deserve to be your thinner fabulous self - tell yourself that every day until you believe it!

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 11/3/2011 3:06PM

    Hang in there. We all go through phases where it is just so hard to do what we know we need or want to be doing. Next time just give yourself that little extra push and do it regardless of how you are feeling. emoticon

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CLASSYLADYMAY 11/3/2011 1:46PM

    Dont beat yourself up about it.. try drinking more water and planing out your =meals.. exercise really helps with food and i am sure you will be back to your classes soon.. so dont give up..!!! now about weighing,, its better not to keep doing that.. sometimes better to see how clothes fit to see if you lost or gained.. so keep moving.. and YOU will do this!!~

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TREP13 11/3/2011 1:32PM

    One off day is not going to destroy the efforts you've made thus far. You're doing great and think about what you wrote above, you said it was a "bad day" but your eating wasn't terrible. You made healthy choices even though you didn't exercise. Maybe it's time to shake up your routine to make things fun again. Try a new class, a new DVD or one of the videos on SP (I love the 10-minute kickboxing one).

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TBRANTNER3 11/3/2011 1:02PM

  definite sodium issues. don't beat yourself up. i've been avoiding the popcorn because of the sodium issues but have taken up an addiction for peanut m&ms, maybe when I get home tonight I'll the rest of the m&ms, then I don't have to worry about it anymore...

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CRYSTALSHINES 11/3/2011 12:52PM

    You DO deserve it! We all have our bad days, you just have to keep going the next day.

I usually get lazy and super snack-y right before I start... and that's usually when the scale is its meanest.

Don't beat yourself're doing great!

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We make more than 200 FOOD-RELATED decisions DAILY!

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

I was just thinking about this weekend. It was a tough one for me. The weekend was busy and there were temptations all over the place. Overall, I did well with my points. However, before I had reviewed my tracker, I was thinking I did terribly. Why?

Well, I had remembered hearing about a study from Cornell that said the average person makes 200 food-related decisions in ONE DAY!

No wonder! I had to have my WW OP hat on 200 times for the last 3 day! That is 600 times....I'm sure the average WW has more stress on him/her for each decision because we are torn by what we should do OP versus what our old habits would do. It is a constant struggle and I think, well for me, it is super draining!

I know I need to be OP for the rest of the week. And, I think it will be a little more manageable because I will be in a bit of a routine, without much deviation. Routine does help us enforce good habits without having to think too much about it.

I think this is something that most WW'ers struggle with because have to make healthy decisions when you have made not so healthy ones in the past is difficult. I suppose if it were easy, there wouldn't be too many overweight people in this world.

Here's to a great day with success on my 200 food related decisions!


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