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Day 95 (till the end of the year)...A little Tweak to the diet!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I have been struggling. I have had better days than bad, done more exercise than I have in a long time and have just been going up and down the same few pounds. I found out in early August that I have Celiacs. I have changed my eating dramatically, but still no weight loss.

I picked up a copy of this month's First Magazine, Doctor Oz was on the cover, and they had featured the Blood Type Diet. I have had a few people tell me about this. Well, I bought the book and based on my Celiac's, as well as my likes and dislikes, I had guessed I was blood type O. I did a blood type test last night and guess what? I am O+. Isn't that strange?! I despise coconut (I know people love it, but I can't stand it) and that is one of the things to avoid.

So...I decided that I am going to follow the WW plan with these food modifications as the Blood Type diet helps with what your body can naturally digest and what foods cause you problems with digestions, low or high acid in the stomach, etc. Today will be my first day and I have to clean out the fridge. I am going to miss cantaloupe and cucumbers, but if this helps me budge my weight, I can do without. On another note, I was traumatized by fish as I was forced to eat it...but, I am going to have to give it a go and see what happens. Maybe my adult taste buds will have a different opinion of seafood.

I missed my last two WW meetings, one due to a family thing and the other due to work on a Saturday, and I missed them tremendously! I am excited to go back on Saturday. I have been weighing myself at home and am within my same weight from two weeks again by 2 ounces. So, not too bad. Let's hope the budges...

Oh...and one last thing. This week, I am going to get rid of my scale at the house and rely solely on the WW scale. I am deathly afraid of this, but feel it might be something I can do to help me succeed!


Let me introduce you to my friends Procrastination, Diet and Self-Esteem

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

My friend has been with me for years. At times, she is very helpful. Other times, she is there purely to block me from what I actually need to do. She is a peculiar friend who can often overstay her welcome. I do get frustrated with her from time to time, but have noticed something lately that I never realized before.

She, Procrastination, has been a really close friend of my other friend Diet. Diet and I go way back! We have been best buds since I was 9 years old. I'm not sure why Diet wanted to befriend a 9-year old, but she did. Because my mom was good friends with Diet, I thought, "Well, this Diet must be something good!" Little did I know that Diet would argue constantly with my other friend Self-Esteem. Self-Esteem fought with Diet a lot and it seemed they could never get on the same page. If Diet had won the last argument, Self-Esteem wouldn't show his face. When Self-Esteem won, Diet was out the door. It's so crazy to me why these two couldn't ever be friends. It was really hard for me since I was the one they had in common.

When Diet decided to creep back in again...Procrastination followed. But, I am now seeing with my clear eyes that Procrastination works in two ways. Yes, you know the typical Procrastination and how she can be. But I also noticed that Procrastination had also been secretly blocking me from other things I want in life. She encouraged me when I said things like, "When I am thin, I will be more successful," "When I am skinny, I will find love," "When I can fit into a size 7, I will become a runner," "When I lose this weight, my life will fall into place." Procrastination is a little devil in disguise. Why haven't I noticed this before? Why didn't Diet tell me? They are in cahoots! I just know it!

So, with Diet at bay, Self-Esteem in the wings and Procrastination in full pursuit, I watched the Biggest Loser last night. Yes, I know the show is unrealistic and it's getting repetitive, yada, yada, yada. I like the show, especially in the beginning because those contestants are where I am right now. Somewhere between Week 1 and Week 3, a lightbulb turns on and they seem to kick Procrastination and Diet out the window, welcoming back Self-Esteem. That is what always intrigues me. How did they "get it" all of the sudden and I have been going at this with Diet and Procrastination for like 24 years! And, still haven't gotten it right? What am I doing wrong? How did they make the break and become bff's with Self-Esteem?!

Ding! Lightbulb! I have friends Procrastination and Diet on my shoulder preaching the "shoulds" and I left my friend Self-Esteem about 5 miles behind me on the side of the road. This is the difference. The contestants left Diet and Procrastination down the road and are jogging along with Self-Esteem. What am I thinking?! I picked the wrong friends!

I need to stop allowing myself to believe that everything will be better in life as a thin person. This is not the truth. What is the truth is I will have my health in check, I will have my Self-Esteem in check and my fear about doing a lot of things I want in life will be a little bit less because I won't have to worry about how my weight factors into it. That's it! I am not going to automatically become independently wealthy, fall in love with the perfect man and travel the world just because I lost 80 pounds. That is just ridiculous....

C'mon Self-Esteem, we are leaving these two nut cakes, Diet and Procrastination, behind!

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Weddings and babies and birthdays and....FEAR

Monday, September 19, 2011

This weekend was jam packed. Friday night had a wedding, then a birthday on Saturday morning then one of my close friends had her baby. Yesterday, I did absolutely nothing. I had a great weekend, except for yesterday.

I am frustrated with my weight and frustrated with my life right now. I am not happy in my job, but the economy does not make it very easy to just move on to something else, especially since I live in L.A. and our unemployment rate just went up to 12.1%. Also, I have been struggling financially. It stinks.

I will say this...I have seen a pattern here. When I struggle financially, my weight goes up. Can we say stress eater?

Last night though...I had a little come to Jesus talk with myself. Basically it came down to this...No one can make my life better but me. No one can change anything in my life or with my body but me. I don't have a fabulous fairy godmother who can wave her wand and make everything okay. It's time for me to step up and face a lot of fears that I have that I have run away from over the years.

The main fears I have...
...Fear of success and fear of failure - Which will get me ONLY stagnation
...Fear of being thin....I don't know any other identity but to be the fat girl
...Fear of making a mess of my life - But, that is better than not living it
...Fear of financial failure - I need to be more frugal with my money and start saving so this fear is not so strong

Life is not easy and weight loss, well in my case, seems to be about everything but weight! I suppose this is why there is no easy cure and no easy way to lose it but to deal with the emotions, triggers, drive, impulses and re-learn how to deal with things in life other than turning to food.

On another is Day 103 - I got up this morning, albeit a little late, but got out and walked for 30 minutes. I do feel better about today.


Got my booty up this morning! (Day 108)

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Well, yesterday was okay. I could have made some better choices and used my calories for actual food instead of Gluten Free cookies. But, I tracked it and found myself starving last night. Well, duh Kristi! Cookies are not food! I did eat some carrots with PB and an ounce of mozzarella. I did try to eat an apple first, but cut into 3 of them and they were all icky inside. Had to throw them out.

Last night I set my alarm for 5am. Well, I snoozed until 530a, but I did get up and put on my workout clothes.

I was going to go to the gym in my complex, but decided...I am just going to go for a walk around my neighborhood. So I did...I was planning on walking 15 minutes out then turning around and coming back for a total of 30 minutes. Well, I walked an hour! I also did a little more than a 5k. I didn't realize I lived in such a hilly place, but I do! This was the first time I walked in my neighborhood....I moved about one month ago or so.

What else is really nice about walking outside? It was really peaceful, despite the traffic, I loved smelling all the different scents from jasmine to fresh coffee to roses, but most of all, I feel happier! It sounds strange, but it was a great way to start my day!

I already know that I will be sore, but oh well!

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Day 110 Review! 109 Days to go!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Yesterday was actually pretty good! I had a healthy breakfast and a very light lunch on accident. However, it worked out good because we ended up going out to dinner. I had 2 chicken soft tacos, no refried beans, rice and a salad. I only ate one taco and 1/2 of my rice, which was about 1/4 c. I did have chips with guacamole, but counted it and even made myself stop eating once I hit my serving.

I was at a total of 1542 for yesterday! I didn't get my exercise in and it is becoming more and more apparent that I am going to have to do my exercise in the morning because my schedule changes so frequently!

Here is to another great day!

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    Way to eat out and not go over your calories! That is always a tough one.

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