Monday, September 05, 2011
So, yesterday...we went to the L.A. County Fair. This could have been a night mare. However, I think all in all, I did okay. What I ate at the fair:
* Chicken skewer (2/3 of one skewer) - Chicken, onion and bell pepper only
* Sprite (it sucked that this was cheaper than water and I couldn't bring in my water)
* Vanilla ice cream bar dipped in chocolate (no cone)
We walked 6.10 miles, I brought my pedometer. My feet are still a little achy cause we stopped a lot to look at things. I do have to say, when I got home. I was actually starving. I made a mistake. Instead of eating a piece of fruit or just going to bed...I had a mini cup (the single serving) of Haagan-Daaz ice cream. I think it was because I was hungry, tired, had just drove an 1.5 hours home (dropping off friends) and I just wanted something convenient that was sweet. I would have been better off with grapes.
Overall, not a horrible day. I still had a calorie deficit of -280. So, that's good...but, it could have been better if I had changed just one decision (grapes instead of Haagan-Dasz) and even better if I changed two decisions (grapes and water instead of sprite). I am starting to see where my mistakes are lying. It's making poor decisions when I am tired. I don't do so well then! Noted!
Update: 11:56a - I forgot I ate Cinnamon Almonds in the morning...I had about 3/4 of a cup...that was 600 calories! I didn't realize! Ugh! So...that actually put me over 300 calories...so a few missteps here. But, now I see where I am messing up. Its poor decision when I am tired and forgetting to track small things that pack a punch, like almonds! I need to be more aware and track, track, track! Today will be better!
Sunday, September 04, 2011
Yesterday, I knew I would be using a lot of calories in the evening because I was having dinner at my parents house. So...I went to Zumba AND did 30 minutes on the bike. Over all, I ended up with a calorie deficit of over 600! So, I did well.
This morning, I was starving on my drive home, but did not stop at any fast food. When I got home though, I ate a little more than I should have of Cinnamon Roasted Almonds. I tracked them all though and I am going to the Fair today. I think it will be okay because I really can't eat any of the Fair food due to my Celiacs. I might be able to have Turkey BBQ'd or a plain baked potato. That's probably about it. I will count all of our walking as my activity today since we will probably be walking for about 8 hours. I think I will also wear my pedometer too! Just cause I am curious!
Here is to another good day!
Saturday, September 03, 2011
I have been fighting with 5lbs forever and a day. I have over 75 to lose, but somehow keep sabotaging myself or allowing myself a "pass" more often than I should. This week, I had one really stellar day, it was Thursday. The rest of the days, not stellar. This is reflected in how my week went. I gained 1.2 for the week. Not the direction I was looking for.
So, it's time to buckle down, be honest and do the things I know will get me to my goal. Eating healthy (which I do), minding my portions (which I don't right now), exercising (which is inconsistent) and drinking my water (another in consistent aspect). In thinking about this all morning...there is only one way to make myself accountable and stick to plan. That is to post about it. I post about my victories and sometimes my pitfalls if they are health related. However, when I personally mess up because I really wanted sweets, I neglect to post that. How convenient of me! ;)
So, my challenge for this week is to stick to my WW plan, watch both my points and calories and exercise everyday for at least 20 minutes. Here is the posting part...every morning, I am going to post how the previous day went. I think this will make me more accountable because if I am constantly posting that I ate a can of frosting, I know it will be shameful enough for me to stop. Not only that, it will help me identify patterns within myself. Of which, I see sometimes and other times are not visible to me, especially in a moment of stress or frustration.
I will post next Saturday after my WW meeting how I did. If I lose, I will do this one more week. If I don't, I will re-read all my posts to find out what is actually happening. If any of you notice something I don't, please let me know, in a friendly manner of course...I am an emotional eater and can be hurt fairly easily when it comes to my weight.
Thanks for listening and let's make this week a great week!
Thursday, September 01, 2011
So...if we're being honest here...yesterday was the FIRST day in a long, loooooong time that I wasn't super over or super under my calories! Woohoo! I also made it to the gym, despite having to work all day, make dinner and then go back to work (driving about 45 min) again at 10:30p! I get a gold star for yesterday!
Now, it's really important for me to recognize this? Why? Well...I think I am like most people and I tend to harp on my pitfalls, mistakes, etc. and it is all negative! I need to make sure that I am taking a moment to be positive about the GOOD things I do, not just the bad. I am my own worst critic.
So I am going to keep this going today and so far, so good!
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
I veered off the road a little last night. I had a binge...it is something I have not done in a long time. Surprised I even could, given the fact that I can't eat much anymore. However, I realized that it was because I was feeling negative emotions. Rather than calm myself or figure out what was wrong, I popped back into old habits and used food to cope. I think the fat girl in me doesn't like change, but the skinny girl in me is fighting to be let out. It is a constant battle every day!
Now, I know I have made a lot of mistakes and I know I keep trying to get myself motivated, and for the most part, I would say I am. But, when emotions hit, I just don't deal with them very well. That, unfortunately, is the God-honest truth. I need to learn how to handle this without resorting to food. I know that I am "supposed to" go for a walk, take a hot shower, write in a journal, etc. I know what I should be doing, but what I am having trouble with is realizing what is going on in the moment and being able to handle that. I think I tried to rid myself of emotions for so long that I don't even know what's going on when it does happen. It is a very strange disconnect.
The only way that I am going to realize and become aware is to somehow STOP myself in that moment. Make myself figure out what is going on then take a different action that doesn't involve food. Because my auto-response is food and I have been doing that for 33 years, it's going to be a hard habit to break. I know this...
What it all comes down to is I have to try. I will fail, but the important thing is to get back up every time. With every defeat, I have to follow it up with a success. Eventually, I will learn a new auto-response over time...
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