Monday, August 22, 2011
The more you do something you don't want to do, the more unhappy you make your life. The more unhappy you make you life, the more you rely on your vices. The more you rely on your vices, in my case, the more you weigh!
Well...I think I made an important life choice last week, then got scared away. But sitting at work in a job I don't like, much less love, just reinforces the fact that the choice I made to change has to move forward. Despite my fear, despite the fact that this economy is not ideal, despite the fact that other people have advised me not do do something because of their fear, I think its time for me to trust myself. It's time for me to believe in my ability and make decisions in my life that will help me get to a happy place in this world.
That includes my health...I think I fear being a normal size woman. Believe it or not, it is so much easier to hide in society when you are a big girl. Craziness...
Sunday, August 21, 2011
I am convinced of this! This morning I had every intention of having gone to the grocery store, Target and pay my bills by 11am so I can go to the beach and relax. Well, I made a healthy breakfast this morning and thought I would turn on the tube while I ate. That was about 8am. It's now after 11a and I still need to shower.
I have realized over time that the TV is my taboo. When I am done with work, I really just want to veg out in front of the TV. This starts around 7ish and then I find I am watching an episode of Seinfeld, which I love but have probably seen every episode already, which ends at 11pm. Where did my evening go? I am wasting my brain cells. Of much more worthy note, I am being inactive on the couch, usually wanting to eat something because the couch and I have a very bad snacking relationship. I know this is how I gained a lot of weight. I think I convinced myself somehow that I "deserved" couch time because I worked all day, my stress level is always through the roof and its the "least" I could do to make myself feel better.
In actuality...it is the LEAST I can do to keep my body healthy, it's the LEAST I can do for my self-esteem and it's the LEAST I can do to treat my body well. I need to starting thinking differently.
* What is the MOST I can do to keep my body healthy?
* What is the MOST I can do for my self-esteem?
* What is the MOST I can do to treat my body, mind and spirit well?
I know the answer is not be a couch potato. It's time to make a change!
Saturday, August 20, 2011
As many of you know, I recently found out I have Celiac's. Which means no gluten, no bread, no processed food (for the most part), no sauces, no whole grain bread yumminess...I have cut it all out. I do feel 100 times better, but my weight has halted. It stopped going down and now, I am going back up. I just don't understand this. My body does not function like a normal person's body does because of this disease. But, I am not eating like a crazy person, I have been eating healtier than I have in probably the last two years. But it feels like my body doesn't want to budge. It is beyond frustrating.
So, I decided that this week, I am going to stick to 1500 calories, exercise once a day, even if it's 20 minutes, make sure I am getting enough protein and water, as well as taking my vitamins each and every day. I will try this for one month and see what happens. I now know I can have brown rice, I can't have corn products or sugar (triggers my migraines) and potatoes seem to be okay.
I am going to plan out my week right now and go to the store to make sure I have everything I need. I am all sweaty cause I just got back from the gym, but will take a quick shower as soon as I finish my grocery list.
Frustrated but determined!
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
So...I wasn't eating enough. I started eating more, but realized I had more cravings now. What had changed? Not enough protein. Duh...I am learning.
I found a place that does Gluten Free Pizza on Monday night. I had a rough day and since my old habits die hard, I thought I would try it. For those of you that are not aware...GF products are pretty much twice as heavy in calories than regular flour based food of the same type. Well, it was SO GOOD! Since I haven't had any of those type of carbs in over a month, I went overboard.
But, I still counted it. I am still in my points and calorie range but, I weighed myself this morning and gained 2 lbs! Ugh...I just need to get back on track. It started this morning and I am on program again...I am going to Zumba tonight, Kickboxing tomorrow and have to find something for Friday. But, that will put all my points and calories in the right place and this will be the first week in a month that I hit all my dailies calorie needs and my WPA (weekly points allowance, flexible calories for the week). We will have to see what the scale says.
Balance is so hard!
Today's Lunch! Healthy, healthy!
Saturday, August 06, 2011
So...I have realized that I was not eating enough, based on my daily needs and accounting for the gym time. I was staying within my calories (1200-1550), but I think my count needs to be higher. I lost a little more this week when I realized I wasn't eating enough. I think I need to be at 1400-1700 per day. Especially on days when I do kickboxing and burn over 900 calories!
I am going to try this week in getting all my WW points primarily and will keep track of the calories also. But, I will go by points this week and see how I do.
I am convinced that weight loss really is a science and no one person's body follows the same rules! We are all so different and what works for one may not work for another.
Craziness...Here's to a great week!
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