Saturday, April 23, 2011
It has been a rough go for me these last few months. I felt as though I was eating the right things, but my body wasn't responding. Today I WI and she told me I gained 0.2. I was so disappointed as two days ago I even started a somewhat gluten free diet. Well, I was entering my weight in my tracker and it told me I lost 1 pound...I thought, this can't be right?! Well, duh! Last week I had to WI as a visitor for the WW systems and I DID lose a pound this week! One pound is equal to one package of butter! Yay!
I am so excited because this is the first loss I have had in months! I think I am going to try keeping a somewhat gluten free diet and keep up with WW. I am so excited beyond belief! I am going to make a healthy breakfast and then go for a walk since it's a beautiful day!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
I have been pondering this for quite some time. My digestive system has been going haywire, I think due to stress and I haven't changed my eating habits (except for cutting out cheese and most dairy), but I have been gaining. I think there is something going on here.
Today, looking at my tracker, it's crazy filled with carbs. Its not the best for me, I know this. It's also really hard for me to eat protein as I am not that crazy about it. I was a vegetarian for 7 years, till I got sick...So...maybe this is something I can do. I just need to learn the ropes a little more. My greatest faults are carbs and if eating this way makes me feel a little better, it's so worth it!
If you have any suggestions for Gluten Free products, I would love to hear them!
Sunday, April 17, 2011
I had my WI yesterday and I had gained 1.2...This was not a surprise since I was in a hotel 3 nights out of the week and had to have business breakfasts, lunches and dinners. It was tough! I know I am super dehydrated too...But I realized that life is what you make of it. I am losing a lot of my life to TV shows, tiredness from overworking and feeling carppy about myself because of my weight and lack of physical ability.
I know it's all within my power to change it. I know, for me, this is a mental change that has to happen, followed by learning new skills to cope with emotions and understanding that food will not make everything better. It really is a matter of attitude and right now I am not living the life I had imagined. It's time to change that. I am living life in fear...Fear of failure, fear of success, fear of being made fun of by a certain family member, fear of being thin, fear of getting heavier...there are all these things swimming around in my hear.
I saw Black Swan recently...it's somewhat disturbing. But, I was able to connect with one theme that ran through the film, the desire to be perfect. I grew up dancing and was always told to lose weight. I was thin and at a healthy weight, but they (dance teachers) thought I should lose weight. At 9, I went on my first diet and started to GAIN weight each year after that. What had happened was I was trying to be perfect everywhere else because I thought that would please people, but the only thing I had control (really) over was food. I would eat to make myself feel better, I would eat in anger every time someone called me a name or my dance teacher told me to eat "lettuce." It was a horrible cycle.
Somehow in adult life, I have carried this with me. I am an adult now, and I have the power to chose what food I eat and what I don't eat. What I need to get rid of is the diet mentality I have developed over the last 24 years! It won't be easy, but I am ready.
I am ready to live the life I imagined!
Saturday, April 16, 2011
This last go round at WW has been difficult for me. I feel like I'm eating less, but I'm gaining weight like crazy! I know it's what I'm eating and I know I have been better on portion control. I want this weight gain train to stop!
I'm going to WI this morning, I know I gained 2lbs. It would be one thing if that was all I gained, but I haven't really seen a loss since October. That is a problem. This week is the first week in a very long time that I have without major business travel. I am going to take this week super seriously and write everything down on PAPER, not the online tracker and see how it goes.
I am also going to make a promise to myself that no matter what, I have to get 20 minutes of activity in each day, no excuses. I should start right now! I'm hungry, but not eating anything until I WI. Plus it's probably false hunger and I am just dehydrated...my water intake has not been good.
This week, I will:
* Drink 8 glasses of water
* Exercise 20 minutes each day
* Track EVERYTHING I eat
* Stay within my DAILY and WPA allowances
* WI Next Saturday
* Attend WW meeting tomorrow too, and one more during the week
Sunday, April 03, 2011
I have had a rough two months or so. Since November, I have gained about 10 lbs. In February and March, I was gone on business travel almost all of both months. I got extremely sick last week and was traveling as well. It was not good. They also gave us Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner each and every day. Because I was sick, all I wanted to do was sleep. So, needless to say, I didn't get in much exercise. Also, the food was chosen for us, so I tried to portion control, but had no idea what was in anything or how it was prepared. Because I left when I was sick, I didn't have time to go and buy food to bring along, which is what I normally would have done.
It was a learning experience and I was realizing just how much off my program I had gone. I entered my food in one day and it was way, way over what I normally ate, even though the portions weren't huge. It was just very rich food.
I am finally feeling better. I went to my WW meeting this morning, stopped at the farmers market and also went to the grocery store. I am going to cut and prep my fruits and veggies for the week and clean my house. Everything is taking more energy as I am still recouping from being ill. I am having to rest in between. It's gonna take longer, but that's okay. I need to take care of myself because I don't want to be that ill ever again.
I learned this week that taking care of yourself and feeding yourself healthy foods is extremely important. Especially if you travel a lot for business and have high levels of stress. Not taking good care of yourself does no one good.
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