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Am I Really Afraid of That?!

Friday, February 25, 2011

Someone on the WW boards asked tonight, What is your biggest hurdle and how are you dealing with it. I was super surprised at my response and wanted it to be on my blog so I can remember where my head was at this time. I'm thoroughly convinced that weight loss is a mental task, not just a diet. I think people who have never been heavy have a very difficult time understanding that, and understanding why some of us are afraid at times.

"I'm struggling right now too...My biggest problem is learning how to deal with stress and eating mindlessly at night.

It's hard, but every morning, regardless of what happened yesterday, I just aim to make that day good.

I think somewhere in there, I'm afraid to succeed. I have never been thin and I'm afraid of it because it's almost as if I will lose my identity. Sounds silly when you say it, but it feels real...."

  


Going out to eat is so much easier when you open up!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Last night, I had dinner with four of my friends. It was our little bookclub. I actually told them that I was on Weight Watchers. That was a big step for me! I don't think I told but 2 friends my entire life that I was dieting. It made things so much easier for me and I felt much more satisfied with my choices because I wasn't coming up with some bum reason why I didn't want to eat more.

They just understood. They asked me if I wanted another glass of wine, I thanked them and said "no. I have had enough points in wine tonight, but thanks!" I got a little laugh from them, but they accepted it and didn't push back. It was so nice to have that and so nice to have the understanding.

I don't know why I didn't do this earlier, my friends are great and super supportive! I think this will help me on my journey.

  


Going out to eat is so much easier when you open up!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Last night, I had dinner with four of my friends. It was our little bookclub. I actually told them that I was on Weight Watchers. That was a big step for me! I don't think I told but 2 friends my entire life that I was dieting. It made things so much easier for me and I felt much more satisfied with my choices because I wasn't coming up with some bum reason why I didn't want to eat more.

They just understood. They asked me if I wanted another glass of wine, I thanked them and said "no. I have had enough points in wine tonight, but thanks!" I got a little laugh from them, but they accepted it and didn't push back. It was so nice to have that and so nice to have the understanding.

I don't know why I didn't do this earlier, my friends are great and super supportive! I think this will help me on my journey.

  


Realizing intentions are worthless without action...

Saturday, February 19, 2011

This morning, I got up early before my WW meeting. I wasn't going to weight in because I knew I was going to gain about a pound. But, we weight what we weight, whether or not it's documented. So, I got dressed and went to the gym at my apartment complex. I told myself, I won't kill myself, let's just do 20 minutes. That's all I had time for before my WW meeting anyways.

I did it and realized, "Wow...I'm really out of shape." I did 20 minutes and only covered 1.18 miles. The year before last, I had gotten to a 5k in 39 minutes. This was a huge shocker because I think I have been confusing intent to exercise with actual exercise. Intention are great, but they mean nothing when there is no action behind it.

Today, I know I have gained weight, but I have lost my physically ability and endurance over the last year. It's time to get it back!

  


Had a lapse tonight, mini binge...

Thursday, February 17, 2011

I had a rough session with my therapist tonight. It was progress, but for me, emotional progress is really hard for me to deal with. I thought I was okay, but in about 40 minutes, I had about just under 1000 calories. Not good.

Getting this mental part of emotional eating is so hard! This morning, I thought I had a grip on it, but a huge emotional swing got the better of me. I have no excuses. All I can do is accept this as a learning experience and try to move on. Tomorrow is another chance for me to get it right. I don't want to be unhappy anymore...

  


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