Today is a new day...

Friday, November 06, 2009

Yesterday, I was doing so well and I was within my calorie range. I wanted to eat something and I knew I wasn't hungry. I avoided it for about an hour...then I ate like a whole bag of Pirate Booty. Yes, caloric air! I was disappointed and was thinking about why I did this. Was it procrastination, boredom....what was it? I did eat it while in front of the TV which is bad. Mindless eating is not a good thing.

I was thinking about someone I know that has really bad teeth this morning. Then came to the conclusion that this person doesn't really take care of themselves. A light bulb went on in my head! When healthy people meet me, they probably think the same thing! So, is being overweight because you're not taking care of yourself similar to having bad teeth because you're not taking care of your teeth? I think there is a parallel here. Both results are visual that other people can see and both can be prevented. Also, both can have potential genetic or medical reasons for a portion of the problem, but prevention and good health will make the result less prominent. When I thought about this, I was just shocked at myself. What have I been doing to me all of these years? Why did I think it would be okay? Was it okay because I don't care or value myself? Why didn't I realize this before?

This morning, after having this epiphany, I decided I am not going to treat myself poorly anymore. I am going to take care of myself and do the things I need to do to make myself a better, more healthy person. That includes putting good food into my body and exercises my body to keep things running at their best.

If I have issues tonight, I will turn to alternatives such as blogging, reading, walking, cleaning, laundry, anything but the TV. That seems to trigger old behaviors. In fact, I think I should limit my TV time each week. There are only a few shows that I like to watch anyhow.

Considering limiting TV time to:
Monday - None
Tuesday - Biggest Loser (1 hour)
Wednesday - Top Chef (1 hour)
Thursday - None
Friday - Diet Tribe (1 hour) & Ghost Whisperer (1 hour)
Saturday - None
Sunday - Watch my Netflix movies (2) for the week (3-4 hours)

Total TV Time: 7-8 hours per week

P.S. I bet you I will have new found time on my hands to do other things!

  

Wow...what have I been doing?!

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Looking back over the past year, I have not really dropped any weight. Although, I feel I have been on a diet like never before. What gives? I decided to keep my WW account and weigh in each week. However, I am going to stick to my Sparkpeople calories and stay below the recommended 1560 each day. I am also going to get 30 minutes of exercise each day, no matter what.

Why I have to state this over and over is irritating. I know I am saying it so I will believe it. I am not taking care of myself because I don't feel I am worth it. It is this stupid cycle I have myself in and I need to get out of it. As I would tell anyone of my friends, you are beautiful, you deserve every happiness and you will figure a way to make it all happen. Now if I could only follow my own advice! Easier said than done, but I will take it one day at a time. One moment at a time!

  

Haven't been here in a while!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

I restarted WW about 4 weeks ago. I started again at 208.8! I am now down to 201. That is great but I have been having issues the last few days. Anxiety and procrastination are my driving forces to eating bad foods. I need to deal with the emotional issues attached to my weight for once and for all.

I researched counselors and found one. I sent an email last night and am supposed to have a phone consultation today. I am a little nervous and scared, but know that this is probably the best thing for me. I am not sure how I am going to pay for it, but I will work it out. I think this is the component of the plan that I never planned for. I truly don't think weight is strictly a matter of just eating too much. I think the overeating is definately linked to emotions and how we deal with those emotions. It also seems pretty evident even when it is played out on television, i.e. Biggest Loser.

I hope this goes well and I hope that I am making the right decision. Will keep you posted.

  

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TRACYAGRACE 9/17/2009 12:37PM

I think you've made a great decision and good luck with your appointment! Report Inappropriate Comment

MYSTICRAINS 9/17/2009 12:32PM

It's always good to look to emotional and mental health. It's just as important as physical heath. They have food counselors who specialize in emotional overeating, weight issues as well. I wish you the best of luck. Report Inappropriate Comment

Starting Over...yet again!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

So yesterday, I thought I didn't do too bad. I just finished tracking what I ate and it was no bueno. I ended up with 2100 calories! Ey-yi-yi! So, today I am starting over and my goal is going to be under 1550. Also, I am going to either go to a kickboxing class or take a walk outside. I have been slacking on my exercise and it's not good.

I can do this, I just need to keep reigning myself in and realizing what I am doing to myself. I have been working about 18 hour days with about 4-5 hours of sleep and I think that is taking it's toll on me. In fact, I know it is. My body is achy and tired and I am on the verge of losing my voice.

What I am going to do today to promote my good health:
* Make my lunch and take it with me instead of turing to fast food
* Take a water bottle with me today so my throat doesn't get dried out
* Exercise for 30 minutes if it's a walk, 60 minutes if it's a kickboxing class
* Make dinner instead of a frozen entree, this will keep my energy up when working again tonight from 9p - 1a

  

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KROLES55 8/13/2009 12:41PM

Good job on focusing your goals.. Keep at it... You can do it... Karen Report Inappropriate Comment

Hanging On for Another Day!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I made it through another day. Today has been one of the better days calorie wise. I should have gone to the gym for my kickboxing class, but I have to work tonight at 9pm. I actually have to leave in about 30 minutes. I am so tired!

I also got my grade back from my accounting class. Very bummed I got a C. Oh well...I know I don't test well and this was all tests for the grade. I will have to study a lot more next semester. I am bummed and I kind of want to eat something because of it. At the same time, I am making myself feel that feeling instead consoling those feelings with food. I think I am going to make some tea and then get ready to go...

  

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POSTMARK 8/11/2009 10:59PM

Way to Go.... One day at a time :) Can't help on your class, I was always a GOOD test taker...... Report Inappropriate Comment