I restarted WW about 4 weeks ago. I started again at 208.8! I am now down to 201. That is great but I have been having issues the last few days. Anxiety and procrastination are my driving forces to eating bad foods. I need to deal with the emotional issues attached to my weight for once and for all.
I researched counselors and found one. I sent an email last night and am supposed to have a phone consultation today. I am a little nervous and scared, but know that this is probably the best thing for me. I am not sure how I am going to pay for it, but I will work it out. I think this is the component of the plan that I never planned for. I truly don't think weight is strictly a matter of just eating too much. I think the overeating is definately linked to emotions and how we deal with those emotions. It also seems pretty evident even when it is played out on television, i.e. Biggest Loser.
I hope this goes well and I hope that I am making the right decision. Will keep you posted.
So yesterday, I thought I didn't do too bad. I just finished tracking what I ate and it was no bueno. I ended up with 2100 calories! Ey-yi-yi! So, today I am starting over and my goal is going to be under 1550. Also, I am going to either go to a kickboxing class or take a walk outside. I have been slacking on my exercise and it's not good.
I can do this, I just need to keep reigning myself in and realizing what I am doing to myself. I have been working about 18 hour days with about 4-5 hours of sleep and I think that is taking it's toll on me. In fact, I know it is. My body is achy and tired and I am on the verge of losing my voice.
What I am going to do today to promote my good health:
* Make my lunch and take it with me instead of turing to fast food
* Take a water bottle with me today so my throat doesn't get dried out
* Exercise for 30 minutes if it's a walk, 60 minutes if it's a kickboxing class
* Make dinner instead of a frozen entree, this will keep my energy up when working again tonight from 9p - 1a
I made it through another day. Today has been one of the better days calorie wise. I should have gone to the gym for my kickboxing class, but I have to work tonight at 9pm. I actually have to leave in about 30 minutes. I am so tired!
I also got my grade back from my accounting class. Very bummed I got a C. Oh well...I know I don't test well and this was all tests for the grade. I will have to study a lot more next semester. I am bummed and I kind of want to eat something because of it. At the same time, I am making myself feel that feeling instead consoling those feelings with food. I think I am going to make some tea and then get ready to go...
I just joined the Fire & Ice Challenge on the 30 somethings (with 50-99 lbs to lose) board. I think it is a good idea! We started Aug 1st or later (I started today) and the challenge ends on Dec. 1st. Today is the first blog after yesterday's post to just get healthier.
I am not going to do anything crazy and I am not even going to subscribe to any diet service or program. That is a little scary to me! But, I know what I need to do. I am just not doing it. I am going to use Sparkpeople to track my food and exercise. I know a few weeks ago I had planned on not tracking at all, but that is not a good solution for me. I get too crazy after the first few days.
So the eating plan for today:
* Lean Ham sandwich on whole wheat bread with FF mayo, mustard and veggies
* 1c grapes
* Light Yoplait Yogurt
* 1c whole wheat couscous
* 1c frozen veggies
* Soy sauce
* Salad with tomatoes, 5 olives, 1 tbsp Feta and FF Caeser Italian
If I am still hungry, I can have some 94% FF popcorn.
* 8pm - Dance class at the gym
I will post again tonight to record how I did with food, exercise and water.
I have been all over the map the last few weeks and have felt very out of control. I see the link between my bad eating habits and my sense of control in other areas of my life. I went dancing last night and saw some pics...lets just say, they made me very sad.
I think I just need to realize what I am doing to my body when I choose to eat unhealthy foods. I know in my head what to do, but it is getting disconnected from my actions. This is such a tough thing to deal with and it is a constant battle for me each and every day. I want to just be able to eat when I am hungry and that be it. I know it will not be as easy as that. So, what can I do each day to take care of me and get me back to healthy?
1) Exercise each day for 30 minutes - This can be simply going for a walk, going to the gym or popping in a dvd
2) Drinking at least 8 glasses of water each day
3) Wash face in the morning and every night
4) Choose healthy foods to eat and make the best decsision I can make at each meal
5) Start taking baby steps to eliminate sugar from my diet - I don't need it to live and my family has a terrible history with diabetes
Let's just start there and see how it goes. I am not going to limit or eliminate food groups (with the exeption of sugar). This makes me too crazy and I end up giving up. Also, I am going to try to get at least 6-7 hours of sleep each night. That would be great!
One last note...I think I am going to try to blog every morning and each night as well. I think this will help me to focus on why I am doing what I am doing.