Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Looking back over the past year, I have not really dropped any weight. Although, I feel I have been on a diet like never before. What gives? I decided to keep my WW account and weigh in each week. However, I am going to stick to my Sparkpeople calories and stay below the recommended 1560 each day. I am also going to get 30 minutes of exercise each day, no matter what.
Why I have to state this over and over is irritating. I know I am saying it so I will believe it. I am not taking care of myself because I don't feel I am worth it. It is this stupid cycle I have myself in and I need to get out of it. As I would tell anyone of my friends, you are beautiful, you deserve every happiness and you will figure a way to make it all happen. Now if I could only follow my own advice! Easier said than done, but I will take it one day at a time. One moment at a time!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
I restarted WW about 4 weeks ago. I started again at 208.8! I am now down to 201. That is great but I have been having issues the last few days. Anxiety and procrastination are my driving forces to eating bad foods. I need to deal with the emotional issues attached to my weight for once and for all.
I researched counselors and found one. I sent an email last night and am supposed to have a phone consultation today. I am a little nervous and scared, but know that this is probably the best thing for me. I am not sure how I am going to pay for it, but I will work it out. I think this is the component of the plan that I never planned for. I truly don't think weight is strictly a matter of just eating too much. I think the overeating is definately linked to emotions and how we deal with those emotions. It also seems pretty evident even when it is played out on television, i.e. Biggest Loser.
I hope this goes well and I hope that I am making the right decision. Will keep you posted.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
I made it through another day. Today has been one of the better days calorie wise. I should have gone to the gym for my kickboxing class, but I have to work tonight at 9pm. I actually have to leave in about 30 minutes. I am so tired!
I also got my grade back from my accounting class. Very bummed I got a C. Oh well...I know I don't test well and this was all tests for the grade. I will have to study a lot more next semester. I am bummed and I kind of want to eat something because of it. At the same time, I am making myself feel that feeling instead consoling those feelings with food. I think I am going to make some tea and then get ready to go...
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