Saturday, June 20, 2009
So, I was doing great today. Was in my calories range and then...I was sitting in front of the TV and was trying everything I could to not wander in the kitchen. My willpower is not that strong and I ate, just a few at first, sugar wafers. I had one serving. Then...I put them away, then I ate another serving. Then I put them away. Then...I opened the bag of tortilla chips and ate way too many. I don't even know how many serving I had. I can say though, there is still A LOT left in the bag. But, that means that I am at the 2000 calorie range again for like the 4th day in a row. I would do fine, blog and then my need to snack would get the better of me.
So....I was thinking. If I didn't have this food in my house, then I wouldn't eat it. Then, I thought, but how am I going to have food that I should and need to be eating to be healthy without overindulging in things. Now, normally, I don't have tortilla chips or sugar wafers in the house. I am about to start my TOM and I stopped at the store on my way home instead of driving through the fast food joint for lunch. The thing is, I was SO hungry that everything looked good. The weird thing is that when I was paying for it, I felt sad. I think I knew I didn't want or need this, but it is a really hard habit to break.
Now, the thing I might regret. I joined Jenny Craig Direct and cancelled my WW membership. Right now, I am spending about $400 - $500 per month on groceries and another $40 for the WW membership. Jenny Craig will be about $400-$500 per month and I would need to buy my fresh fruits only. It pretty much works out to be the same. And, I don't have to have bad stuff in the house, everything is portioned out so I can keep track of one less thing in my life and I am supposed to have a counselor that I speak to once a week on the phone. This works best for me because my schedule is crazy.
So, I have purchased four weeks of food and it will be delivered to my home on Tuesday. I am still going to use Sparkpeople to blog and track my exercise. I think I might just be having buyers remorse right now, especially since I haven't received an emailed receipt yet and I signed up about 1.5 hours ago. I just need to tell myself, simmer down now!
I will let you know how it goes (even if no one is reading this!).
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
So, I think the last day I tracked food was Friday. It has been a busy weekend...but I was very conscious of what I ate and made the best choices I could for the moment. I don't think I did stellar, but it is also not as bad as it could have been.
But, today...Today was awesome! I just got back from Kickboxing and I feel really good! I ate healthy foods today and when I was exercising, I could totally feel the difference in my body. I didn't feel like it was taking every ounce of effort I could muster, no...instead it felt like I could kick and jab all night! I felt that energy and it was so much better than the way my body feels when I eat poorly or have too many processed foods. Wow, I never thought there would be a difference but there certainly is.
I think that I am going to stick it out one more week with Spark and if I am lose 2 pounds this week, then I will end my WW membership for the time being. Not being a WW, it feels like I am depending on myself more and the expectations are higher. Also, it feels like I am doing it for reasons other than "staying OP." I think I have been a WW for too many years and have developed unhealthy ways to cheat, play games with the scale, etc., etc. Having myself be responsible is something totally new to me. Maybe that's what I need right now...
Thursday, June 11, 2009
So, yesterday went well! I could have blown it a million times, but I didn't! I stayed under 1550 and I am so proud of myself. Last night I was trying to book a flight online and it took me 5 hours. I was so frustrated because every flight I choose, it would say the fare is no longer available when I choose it. Very frustrating and I wanted to eat. I am an emotional eater and I noticed this last night. I had turned off the light in the kitchen and when I looked over there, I remembered why I had done that. Kitchen is closed. It worked. By midnight though, I can say I was honestly hungry, but I haven't missed a meal in the last year so I figured it wouldn't kill me to not eat for a couple of hours.
I woke up this morning and was a little hungry. That is also a first for me in a long time! I just wanted to share. I am going to make this Day #2 and try to maintain my one-day streak!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I am within my calorie range right now, in fact I have about 50 calories to spare. I may have a sugarfree cocoa made with hot water later tonight. I am going to start my homework right now and do all I can to stay away from the kitchen! I did the dishes already, maybe I should turn off the light so it looks as though it's "closed" for the day.
I am still really sore and am giving my body a rest today from exercise. If I start to wander to the kitchen, I will make myself come back to sparkpeople.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
So, last night...the same thing happened. Again, I really think if I am in front of the TV, it is a very strong learned habit to start eating something. I didn't even have dinner, I had snacky things.
So, that means that I have to have a new plan for tonight. I will not turn the TV on at all! I am so behind in homework anyways, it will be good for me. I am stopping at 1300 calories tonight, that way if I still want a snack later, I can have something without undoing all my hardwork throughout the day.
I am super sore too! I have kept up with exercise and water. My body hurts! I think I am hanging on to a lot of water because of my sore muscles. It hurts to sit down or stand up! It is a good thing though, I know that! If I start to fall off the wagon tonight, you may see another post!
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