Thursday, April 02, 2009
So I have been struggling to stay OP for the last month or so. This morning I took a look at my previous week just to see what was going on. I also recounted my WPA's I used just to see if I had been keeping an accurate tally...Answer? NO! I am at -41 WPA's, which means I am 6 points over my actual allotment.So, I will need to stick to my daily points for the rest of the week. What the heck was I doing?! No wonder....I looked at the previous week and the same thing was going on. For some reason I have "wonder math" when it comes to my WPA. So, I decided that once I hit my daily points, that's it! No more...
Monday, March 30, 2009
This morning I decided that I am ending my 30 year relationship with my home scale. It rules my life, it tells me how I feel in the morning. If I am up a pound, the day usually is not so good. If I am down a pound, the day is great and the eating plan goes out the window! I need to stop this insanity of weighing in every morning because it is negatively impacting my world. I used to use it as a means of watching and making sure I didn't go up, but that sort of changed to a weird obsession with the scale. If I am stay somewhere else for the night, I wake up in the morning not knowing what I weigh and I am disoriented the rest of the day. So, in order to change this habit of mine, I have decided to hide the scale and not weigh myself until my next WW weigh-in which is on Sunday. I am going to follow my plan and trust the plan. For some reason, I was not doing that and I need to. I think this will also commit me to attending my weekly meetings on a regular basis since I have been all over the place!
Let's see how Sunday goes...If it goes well, I will do the same thing the following week and so on...If it doesn't, I will have to evaluate my week and find out where I went wrong!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
So I just came back from a business trip and I was kinda stoked because I hadn't seen everyone in a year and I thought my body had changed a bit. Unfortunately, it is not the case. I have seen some of the pics that came back and oh my gosh! I look huge! Feeling a little down and resorted to old eating habits because of it. Yes, I admit...I ate frosting. I know! So bad! But, I just calculated my calories for the day with my mishap and I am at 1800. Not totally terrible, but not great. I am just going to have to rededicate myself to this proces to get the results I want. Worse yet, there was this guy there that I am somewhat attracted to. I saw a pic with him and I. He has his arms around me and I look so very large! What a bummer. I know I made progress, but it just sucks to see this staring back at you in photes. It kinda kills the little bit of self-confidence I had kinda built up.
I am not eating anything else for the rest of the night. I will have 3 more glasses of water before I go to bed. I think I will take a bath and read to keep myself from grazing in the kitchen. In fact, I am going to finish cleaning up the kitchen, start the dish washer and refill my water bottle.
I need to just stop the feelings bad for myself right now. I know I have accomplished something, I just need to remind myself to continue. If I stop, I will not get where I want to go.
Thanks for the vent! Weight loss is a difficult journey...before this year, I don't think I truly understood what a mental and emotional journey it really is. I totally get it now!
Monday, February 02, 2009
I just have to share! My goal last year was to complete 12 5K's. I did it and went from over 1 hour to about 40 minutes. I could not break that 40 minute point though. Yesterday I completed my first 5k of 2009 and on the clock I was at 40:36. I was a little disappointed, but then realized that I did not cross the start line for almost a minute or so because there were so many people. We had a chip on our show to monitor our time from the point we cross the start line to the point we cross the finish line. Our results were just posted. Guess what? I came in at 39:25!!! I am so excited and proud of myself. Also, this course was MAJOR hills! It was a tough one and I still made it!
This is very encouraging because I was feeling pretty bad this morning. I have been eating fairly well, much more to plan than last year AND I have been exercising. I got on the scale this morning and had gained 5 lbs from Friday!!! I don't understand this. All I know is that I have been exercising a lot, I am so sore it hurts to sit on the toilet and I didn't drink much water yesterday, but drank 3 glasses of water and a cup of coffee before I put myself on the scale this morning. On top of all that, I am supposed to start my TOM within the next day or so. I am hoping that it is all just water retention and the female body's craziness. But, the 39:25 made me feel much better!
Thanks for letting me share!
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Today I went to Bootcamp AND I was on time! I missed on Monday because I overslept. I must have woken up to turn the alarm off because I woke up with my Blackberry in my bed (that's my alarm). I set two alarms yesterday and today.
Yesterday, I exercised at each commercial of Biggest Loser. It totalled to 34 minutes since the show was 2 hours. It was pretty good too because by the time finished, I could feel my leg muscles tensing up, similar to when I jog or go to Bootcamp. Wow, that show last night was eye opening! I can't believe that there are so many young contestants at such a high weight. It is a little disheartening to know that our country is not taking care of itself. Very surprising since we now have the knowledge we have about health and most of these kids were born in the late 80's, early 90's. The great thing is that they are doing something about it! That is wonderful! I almost cried when the guy from the white team went down. You could see the horror on his wife's face, she was terrified. It was so sad and I think a huge reminder to the other contestants of how important health is and how much danger they have put their health at.
Now, I'm not saying I am any better than them. I have the same exact problem and have had it for years. It is on a smaller scale, but nonetheless, I am in the same boat. This is it for me! It ends here. My life is worth more than cookies, cake and fast food. I know this and soon it will show on the outside through weightloss.
Good luck everyone and have a great week!
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