Monday, April 13, 2009
Like many other people, I feel off the wagon about a month ago. However, this time, the fall was different. Even though I wasn't on one hundred percent, this was the first time my off the wagon was about 75-85%! That is progress for me. I decided this morning that I am going to follow th WW healthy guidelines, but I am going to take SP advice and count calories just for the week to see how it goes. If it goes not well, then back to points I go. If it goes well, then I will continue with the calories. I just noticed that I would go over a few points, but the calories could range from 100 - 600 depending on what it was I ate. That explains a lot of my up 2 lbs, down 2lbs, up 3 pounds, down 2 pounds, down 1 pound, up 3 pounds. I have been up and down the same 7 pounds for the last 6 months.
This needs to stop. The other component I am noticing is the connection with the TV. If the TV is on, I am a bum, a procrastinator and a eater. I will sit there, somewhat entertained, somewhat bored and then will wander into the kitchen. That needs to stop too! I am going to make one more attempt this week to also break the bad habit of weighing myself in the morning. I used to think this was a good strategy for me, but realized that if my weight was up, I would throw in the towel 50% of the time. If I was down, I would "treat" myself for doing well. Both habits do not promote good health or positive reinforcement during this long weight loss journey. That is why I need to stop weighing myself each and every morning. It is not productive.
Phew! Thanks for letting me vent! It is off to a new day, a new start and a new season!
Thursday, April 02, 2009
So I have been struggling to stay OP for the last month or so. This morning I took a look at my previous week just to see what was going on. I also recounted my WPA's I used just to see if I had been keeping an accurate tally...Answer? NO! I am at -41 WPA's, which means I am 6 points over my actual allotment.So, I will need to stick to my daily points for the rest of the week. What the heck was I doing?! No wonder....I looked at the previous week and the same thing was going on. For some reason I have "wonder math" when it comes to my WPA. So, I decided that once I hit my daily points, that's it! No more...
Monday, March 30, 2009
This morning I decided that I am ending my 30 year relationship with my home scale. It rules my life, it tells me how I feel in the morning. If I am up a pound, the day usually is not so good. If I am down a pound, the day is great and the eating plan goes out the window! I need to stop this insanity of weighing in every morning because it is negatively impacting my world. I used to use it as a means of watching and making sure I didn't go up, but that sort of changed to a weird obsession with the scale. If I am stay somewhere else for the night, I wake up in the morning not knowing what I weigh and I am disoriented the rest of the day. So, in order to change this habit of mine, I have decided to hide the scale and not weigh myself until my next WW weigh-in which is on Sunday. I am going to follow my plan and trust the plan. For some reason, I was not doing that and I need to. I think this will also commit me to attending my weekly meetings on a regular basis since I have been all over the place!
Let's see how Sunday goes...If it goes well, I will do the same thing the following week and so on...If it doesn't, I will have to evaluate my week and find out where I went wrong!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
So I just came back from a business trip and I was kinda stoked because I hadn't seen everyone in a year and I thought my body had changed a bit. Unfortunately, it is not the case. I have seen some of the pics that came back and oh my gosh! I look huge! Feeling a little down and resorted to old eating habits because of it. Yes, I admit...I ate frosting. I know! So bad! But, I just calculated my calories for the day with my mishap and I am at 1800. Not totally terrible, but not great. I am just going to have to rededicate myself to this proces to get the results I want. Worse yet, there was this guy there that I am somewhat attracted to. I saw a pic with him and I. He has his arms around me and I look so very large! What a bummer. I know I made progress, but it just sucks to see this staring back at you in photes. It kinda kills the little bit of self-confidence I had kinda built up.
I am not eating anything else for the rest of the night. I will have 3 more glasses of water before I go to bed. I think I will take a bath and read to keep myself from grazing in the kitchen. In fact, I am going to finish cleaning up the kitchen, start the dish washer and refill my water bottle.
I need to just stop the feelings bad for myself right now. I know I have accomplished something, I just need to remind myself to continue. If I stop, I will not get where I want to go.
Thanks for the vent! Weight loss is a difficult journey...before this year, I don't think I truly understood what a mental and emotional journey it really is. I totally get it now!
Monday, February 02, 2009
I just have to share! My goal last year was to complete 12 5K's. I did it and went from over 1 hour to about 40 minutes. I could not break that 40 minute point though. Yesterday I completed my first 5k of 2009 and on the clock I was at 40:36. I was a little disappointed, but then realized that I did not cross the start line for almost a minute or so because there were so many people. We had a chip on our show to monitor our time from the point we cross the start line to the point we cross the finish line. Our results were just posted. Guess what? I came in at 39:25!!! I am so excited and proud of myself. Also, this course was MAJOR hills! It was a tough one and I still made it!
This is very encouraging because I was feeling pretty bad this morning. I have been eating fairly well, much more to plan than last year AND I have been exercising. I got on the scale this morning and had gained 5 lbs from Friday!!! I don't understand this. All I know is that I have been exercising a lot, I am so sore it hurts to sit on the toilet and I didn't drink much water yesterday, but drank 3 glasses of water and a cup of coffee before I put myself on the scale this morning. On top of all that, I am supposed to start my TOM within the next day or so. I am hoping that it is all just water retention and the female body's craziness. But, the 39:25 made me feel much better!
Thanks for letting me share!
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