Friday, October 19, 2007
I just thought about my whole issue with weight loss and it seems that it is this never ending battle. But, when I actually thought about it...It is a battle that I "start" to fight and then for some reason I raise the white flag and surrender. I read something today, it was a story about surrendering the negativity in your life. By doing so, the author states that the positive energy will be allowed to flow back into your life. It's funny because that's what I was feeling as I started to lose weight.
The last two weeks have been pivotal for me. I have been on my own plan, not Core. I have been eating, not eating, counting points, choosing Core foods. It has been a mess. I have to weigh in tomorrow and I know that I am going to gain at least 4 pounds. I allowed myself to go out, have drinks and eat at 2am in the morning twice since my last weigh in. Unless I have been strict and exercising the heck out of myself, then I would have had a chance at maintaining. But, wasn't doing this and I know better.
I got on the scale this morning and it read 209. My scale is under by about 2 lbs. So that means that I am at roughly 211. My last weigh-in was at 206.6. If you are doing the math with me, I have gained 4.4. So, I know this but I want to stay positive. I will go to my meeting tomorrow and use my No-weigh pass. If I get the courage up, I will face the scale.
I digress. I was saying that my armor is back on. I don't mean this in a bad way. What I am simply saying is that my so called armor is really my resources (my Core plan, Core foods, knowledge of activity, healthy planning and actually exercising). I wear my armor when I am on track. It's off when I fall back into my old habits and I end up losing all that I was striving for. The good thing is this armor can be put on again. With that said...
It's time. And I am suited up once again ladies and gentleman!
Good luck to you all!