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Years Wasted

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

I have just looked back over my Spark pages, and realised that I have wasted so much time eating and getting fatter!
I know that when I gain weight, I get to a point where I will not get on scale, buy clothing without elasticated waists, and never look in a full length mirror - that way I can remain in denial about how big I am, and not diet. I am so hoping that this diet will be different for me than last years effort... and the year before too (where I lost weight extremely well until a family tragedy had me hurling at breakneck speed back towards chocolate, cakes and crisps!).
So... fingers crossed as I once again step into the diet whirlwind and try to gain back control of my life :)

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ROBBIEY 4/29/2014 3:26PM

  emoticon Don't give up!!!! You Can Do it!!!

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WIFE49 4/29/2014 2:03PM

    emoticon Here is wishing you the best of luck as you begin your journey of becoming healthy.

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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Well, I did walk to the shopping centre with my grandaughter - but after a lot of shopping and chasing her around (it was so much fun! lol) I decided to take the bus home. By this morning, I could barely walk at all. I have an old leg injury that stopped me from walking very much years ago- I used a stick for nearly 8 years... and it's playing up again. That along with the blood blister that appeared on the bottom of my foot last week, and I'm a walking hazard! *lol* Still, I did a walk today, and curbed my calorie intake after the gluttonous (is that even a word??!!) day I had yesterday. All in all, I think I'm doing okay - but it will be the scales that determine just how well I'm doing, and I'm only weighing myself once a week now. The dreaded Monday morning weigh-in *lol*. A big difference from this to last time I dieted and weighed myself at least three times a day!

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BARBIE042 3/11/2010 6:46PM

    emoticonhang in there and you will be at your goal in no time.


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Feeling my age!

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

My legs ached today - I am SO unfit! I didn't use my trampoline today - but I did take a long-ish walk with the dog. Tomorrow I'm planning on walking to the shopping centre with my grandaughter (she wont be walking *lol*) and doing the shopping - probably walking quite briskly for at least an hour and a half. Today I've been almost good - I did snack a lot... but after I opened the Jammie Dodger biscuits, I managed not to eat any at all - yay me.

So, I feel a lot different than last time I tried to lose weight... but that's kinda good in a way - it may be more difficult, but at least it's different (no excuses of boredom). I'm trying not to get obsessive this time too - though I know it will take a lot longer to lose some weight, I'm hoping that I'll make it an easier lifestyle to stick to forever.

So, for now I'm taking it easy - just chilling out about the diet and hoping I'll not get too frustrated :)

Just got my beautiful grandaughter off to sleep, so I'm off downstairs for a bedtime drink.


More than a year...

Monday, March 08, 2010

Yes, it's been more than a year since I 'sparked'.
What can I say?
I have excuses... illness and suchlike - but to be honest, it's shame that stopped me coming here... shame and downright laziness.
In one year, I went from a size 8 to a size 20... and I hate it so much. I've become introverted again - staying in and almost totally agoraphobic once more. How could I have let this happen? I put on 5 stone - that's 70lb!!!
I have two wardrobes full of the most amazing clothes... and NONE of them fit any longer. I need to lose so much weight - my life is at a standstill until I can sort this out. I give myself a year to get myself back to who I want - no, who I NEED - to be. Maybe being back on here and blogging, seeing progress (or not...we'll see) will help me get back the real me.
I'm 41 years old now... maybe turning 40 was a catalyst - in a bad way - that made me feel so low and start to become lazy and fat again. In any case, I don't want to slip quietly and scared into my fifties being fat and afraid. I want to be vivacious and happy - and slim enough to enjoy my life... before it slips away.



Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Reading through my own spark page, I realised with a sudden jolt that I will have to change the wording very soon. I will no longer be 'almost 40'... in 13 days - I WILL be forty! I know that heading towards my 30th birthday I was a bit over-awed by it all, knowing that I wasn't in my twenties any longer - why it's such a big deal I really don't know. But forty has me in knots... Why is it so important? Why do I feel the sudden urge to blatantly lie about my age?
Ah, yes... 21 AGAIN ...
Somehow I don't think I can get away with that any longer *lol*

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MNTWINSGAL 2/10/2009 5:25PM

    Hi Sheleen,
If you think that's bad, look at me! I turned 50--yes, 50!--a few months ago, and I'm still trying to wrap my mind around that! It's not so bad though, so keep your chin up and whatever you do, don't act your age emoticon

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