Thursday, March 11, 2010
Well, I did walk to the shopping centre with my grandaughter - but after a lot of shopping and chasing her around (it was so much fun! lol) I decided to take the bus home. By this morning, I could barely walk at all. I have an old leg injury that stopped me from walking very much years ago- I used a stick for nearly 8 years... and it's playing up again. That along with the blood blister that appeared on the bottom of my foot last week, and I'm a walking hazard! *lol* Still, I did a walk today, and curbed my calorie intake after the gluttonous (is that even a word??!!) day I had yesterday. All in all, I think I'm doing okay - but it will be the scales that determine just how well I'm doing, and I'm only weighing myself once a week now. The dreaded Monday morning weigh-in *lol*. A big difference from this to last time I dieted and weighed myself at least three times a day!
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
My legs ached today - I am SO unfit! I didn't use my trampoline today - but I did take a long-ish walk with the dog. Tomorrow I'm planning on walking to the shopping centre with my grandaughter (she wont be walking *lol*) and doing the shopping - probably walking quite briskly for at least an hour and a half. Today I've been almost good - I did snack a lot... but after I opened the Jammie Dodger biscuits, I managed not to eat any at all - yay me.
So, I feel a lot different than last time I tried to lose weight... but that's kinda good in a way - it may be more difficult, but at least it's different (no excuses of boredom). I'm trying not to get obsessive this time too - though I know it will take a lot longer to lose some weight, I'm hoping that I'll make it an easier lifestyle to stick to forever.
So, for now I'm taking it easy - just chilling out about the diet and hoping I'll not get too frustrated :)
Just got my beautiful grandaughter off to sleep, so I'm off downstairs for a bedtime drink.
Monday, March 08, 2010
Yes, it's been more than a year since I 'sparked'.
What can I say?
I have excuses... illness and suchlike - but to be honest, it's shame that stopped me coming here... shame and downright laziness.
In one year, I went from a size 8 to a size 20... and I hate it so much. I've become introverted again - staying in and almost totally agoraphobic once more. How could I have let this happen? I put on 5 stone - that's 70lb!!!
I have two wardrobes full of the most amazing clothes... and NONE of them fit any longer. I need to lose so much weight - my life is at a standstill until I can sort this out. I give myself a year to get myself back to who I want - no, who I NEED - to be. Maybe being back on here and blogging, seeing progress (or not...we'll see) will help me get back the real me.
I'm 41 years old now... maybe turning 40 was a catalyst - in a bad way - that made me feel so low and start to become lazy and fat again. In any case, I don't want to slip quietly and scared into my fifties being fat and afraid. I want to be vivacious and happy - and slim enough to enjoy my life... before it slips away.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Reading through my own spark page, I realised with a sudden jolt that I will have to change the wording very soon. I will no longer be 'almost 40'... in 13 days - I WILL be forty! I know that heading towards my 30th birthday I was a bit over-awed by it all, knowing that I wasn't in my twenties any longer - why it's such a big deal I really don't know. But forty has me in knots... Why is it so important? Why do I feel the sudden urge to blatantly lie about my age?
Ah, yes... 21 AGAIN ...
Somehow I don't think I can get away with that any longer *lol*
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
My laptop is definitely on it's way to computer heaven... The screen is so damaged I can hardly see what I'm typing - let alone see any pages on the internet properly. It won't log onto the internet when I ask it nicely to, and it's slow.
Hmmm... Face is a bit cracked, memory and instructions are a bit muddled, slowing down... my computer and myself are more alike than I might care to admit - perhaps this is why I can't bear to get rid of it.
Of course, all this flaffing around has meant that I'm all over the place when it comes to posting here, and doing my BLC. Maybe I've taken on way too much - even little extras at the moment are hard to make time for. I'm trying to make time for everything, but there never seems to be enough hors in the day. And on that note, I am off to do my exercises for the day!
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