Monday, July 19, 2010
That's the metaphor for how I'm feeling about my weight loss right now. I'm sure all of us on here have felt this way many, many times but each time I feel like this it really brings me down. I have been working at losing the weight really for the past two weeks. Before that I was trying some days and then really not trying other days, not weighing myself, not tracking my food faithfully and not always getting to gym. So the last two weeks have been a lot better. Ive been working out 5 days a week, burning between 300 and 500 calories each time. Trying to keep my calorie deficit to at least -500 every day, tracking my food religiously, etc. Ive gone from 161 to 158. That's all great BUT....
I feel like I have been working my booty off, I'm working out longer than I ever have in past and I feel like it can all be taken away so quickly. I feel like even ONE "Bad" day negates most of the hard work I have done all week long. I went out on Friday for date night and had a burger and fries and a drink and fruit snacks at the movies. Even just that ONE meal and treat basically wiped out my negative calorie week that I had been working towards. ONE MEAL. That's so frustrating! Can I never have one burger and some fruit snacks? Ive lost 3 pounds but I dont feel any less fat. I can still feel everything jiggle around and my jeans still feel tight. I still have 18 pounds to go. That's seems so dang far away.
Next Friday is mine and Jake's anniversary (the last one before tying the knot!) and we are going to this fancy fondue restaurant that is my absolute FAVORITE. I'm so looking forward to it but at the same time I feel like, will all my hard work and hours at the gym all be for not because of that one big dinner?
Ok, well now I feel like I am rambling. Bottom line: its so easy to gain 20 pounds and soooo hard to lose it! I fight with myself every day and almost every hour about what i should and shouldnt eat and make myself go to gym and it gets tiring. Ive been trying for only two weeks and it feels like its been two years. I'm exhausted. Hopefully tomorrow will bring a new attitude and a better spirit.
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
Well, after feeling a bt down on Monday I am really trying to pick myself up and end the week strong. Tuesday and today have been pretty good! I am trying to make sure that I have AT LEAST a 500 calorie deficit each day, hopefully six days a week. I know that Sparkpeple says that I shouldnt use that report too much but I think it really helps me keep my calories in check and helps keep my mind in the right place. So I'm going to continue to use it daily until I hit my stride.
As for workouts I have done really well this week. I workout for about an hour at the gym Mon and Tues doing cardio and today I went on an hour and ten min hike that was very hilly, and it was HOT out! The calorie burn calculator on here said I burned about 600 cals, I dont know how accurate that is but I'll take it! :)
Eating has been ok, not great. I find myself getting really hungry at night lately since I am staying up much later than I do when school is in and I have to get up early. On summer break I tend to stay up till midnight or 1am so my eating gets thrown off a bit. I eat dinner at 5 or 6pm and then by 10ish Im hungry again! Last night I snacked on cherries which I think was a good choice. And, I know this is an excuse, but when its 90 degrees out I find it a lot harder to stay on track with eating. Cool things like iced coffee and ice cream sound sooo yummy on days like these! But if I do break down I try to get a "skinny" latte which is only 90-130 cals depending on the size. I figure if Im going to get a cool treat it should probably stay under 200 cals and thats ok.
Gosh this is getting long...but anyway, wedding stuff:
I think I FINALLY picked our DJ, that has been the hardest choice so far! Even harder than the dress! They really have the power to make or break the mood of the reception, so its scary to give that power to someone that I dont know. But the guys I think we are going to go with seem very professional and they gave me references of past clients so that was good. Jake and I are going to meet them in a week or so to look over the contract.
The reception and the ceremony decorations are also coming along. I know I still have 7 months till the wedding but what can I say, I like to plan in advance and I have so much time on my hands during the summer months! My mom is making the archway and the centerpieces. Here are some pics of what we are trying to achieve:
My maid of honor and I are also taking Friday night and Saturday to start making our DIY pie stands for the pie buffet. We arent having a wedding cake, we are having pies instead. :) So we are taking hat boxes and covering them with either fabric or scrapbooking paper and making stands for them. So I hope that goes well and that they look nice and not tacky!
Well thats it for now! :)
Saturday, June 05, 2010
I have been away from Sparkpeople for several months. I have learned that I am not in a place in my life or in my relationship with food where I can not track and still lose or maintain my weigh. Thats a hard thing for me to realize. After successfully losing 60 pounds on my own without tracking I kind of considered myself a weight loss expert. But for some reason trying to lose weight again on my own has proven very hard for me over the past few months. I was tracking back in in Sep. through Nov of 2009 but then I stopped and gained a lot back. Right now I am somewhere in the 160s I think, 20 or so pounds away from what I was in November. My wedding is in 8 months and I really want to get back down in the low 140s for the big day! So I am going to start tracking again and hopefully that will help keep me accountable.
On a positive note, my working out has been going really well. I started working out in the morning, something I NEVER thought I could do. The thought of getting up at 5am was always to scary to try it. But once I tried it now I can never go back. It feels so great to be done with my work out before work! I have been working out 4-5 days a week doing 30 min of cardio and I try to get in at least 3 days of 15-20 strength training from a plan that I got from Shape magazine.
On a personal note, the wedding planning is going super!! I went dress shopping for the first time last weekend and it was so fun! I think I found my dress but Im going to some different bridal shops in about two weeks to try on more, just to be sure. Hopefully in 2 weeks I will be a few pounds lighter with a lot less bloating and water retention! We have a venue, a caterer, an officiant and we still need to find a DJ. It has been so much fun to plan the wedding and I can't wait to get married! Also, over the last few months my FH got hired at a new company and then just yesterday got a promotion with a 7...yes 7!.. dollar an hour raise! yippee!
Ok, well wish me luck and I will be seeing all of you all more often on here! :)
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