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Bring Sally Up - Squats

Saturday, July 05, 2014

My firstborn came home from Pensacola, FL for the weekend. He went to You Tube to show me this squat challenge. Not only was the music kicking, but he, his brother and I did this. I petered out after a minute. Fascinated, I am determined to do this three times a week.

After my thirty-minute walk, I made it two minutes. (I was sore from that minutes I did yesterday!) There are many variations I can do--squats, crunches, push ups--so much so I can mix it up and vary it.

Eventually I hope to build up to weighed squats.

Sure pays to have a Marine Corps son! emoticon

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WENDYSPARKS 7/16/2014 9:53AM


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_RAMONA 7/14/2014 12:21PM

    I'm going to try this! THANK YOU!

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CIERAPOET 7/9/2014 8:11PM

    emoticon I'm going to have to check this out later on this evening. Have strength to do today. Thank you for sharing this! emoticon
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BABY_GIRL69 7/8/2014 6:10PM

    Ouch!! Who told your son to find Sally?!! lol This is really cool but you have to hold the position...ugh!!

God bless & thanks for sharing...NOT! lol


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GOLFGMA 7/6/2014 6:51AM

    Sounds like a great challenge! emoticon

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SOOKIE 7/5/2014 9:12PM

    That is a fun song to do squats (or any other fit move to). Keep at it!

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Doing my be under duress

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

This morning I woke up in a funk. Teary. Sad. Depressed. After watching some TV I rose up and made myself some breakfast and wandered into my den. My eyes dropped to the corner of my screen.

June 18, 2014.

Today is what would've been my dad's 86th birthday.

I sobbed.

When you're still in a grieving process, it's easy to tell yourself to "stop it" or "cut it out" or so many other cutting comments to make yourself braver. Truth be known, if you have loved anyone a colossal length of time, periods of sorrow will creep upon you at any given moment. Along with tears are those periods of laughter and happy remembrance.

My dad was wise, spiritual, and comical. One of my sisters told me I had him the longest and this is why I get like this.

I've been weaning off my meds for about a month now and I'd been doing fairly well. As much as I want to blame it on the lack of pharmaceuticals, it would not be true.

I simply miss my dad.

Tears do take a lot out of me, but I do well if I let the grief run its course. Then I can continue with life.

Heading to the Y is jus the thing I need.




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BABY_GIRL69 6/19/2014 6:09PM

    You know your dad always with you.... I loved my mom & I can talk with her anytime. Knowing that we had the times we did give me loads of comfort and knowing she isn't suffering or hurting any longer....

God bless & be encouraged!!


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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 6/18/2014 4:57PM

    You know, I stop looking at the losses of love ones as a negative. Now I see it for what it is....a blessing. It’s a new chapter in their spiritual lives; they are now on the other side cheering us on as we work our journey through God and Jesus Christ so we can join them on the other side. I haven’t lost a parent, but I have lost my grandmother, uncles and aunts who stepped in to parent, and sometimes I stop and remember the fun times with them, and the lessons they taught me. I think as I walk my journey. What would they do in this moment? They would laugh, cut a rug with some of those fancy loose steps and shake depression loose. I'm wishing you the best today. Have a wonderful hump-day! Celebrate the life don't grieve too long, but celebrate.

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I'm scared

Monday, June 16, 2014

Oh, I know I shouldn't be scared of anything, but I am now. I need help and I am asking the spirit of SP for it.

My 190 has went to 200 lbs. I know I'm not eating correctly and I am telling myself to be 'happy' in this body.

But I'm not.

I have backaches. My feet are swollen. My face if much fuller than it's ever been. I am fighting not to buy larger clothes.

I have gorgeous eyes and a bright smile. I am artistic, free-spirited, spiritual, outgoing, and adventurous.

I see the positive in myself at some point in my day.

But when I wake up, I feel the stomach in which, on my 5'2 frame, is totally out of proportion.

I just reset my readings. I wrote down my new weight and just stared at it in denial.

Only four years ago, I was kicking it!

Recently my brother-in-law rudely asked me "what happened"? I don't speak to him unless totally necessary.

What if I can't lose it? What if I gain more? emoticon

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_RAMONA 7/14/2014 12:18PM

    Hey there, BEAUTIFUL!

First of all, I am so sorry for your losses and struggles. Any one of these would bring a less strong and courageous person down. It's a testament to who you are that you are here at all (I cannot believe the CLODS you seem to have in your life).

This journey can be really hard and disheartening, and it is never easy for anyone. What keeps me going is something a very wise SPARKling said to me December 18, 2008:

"I am still struggling, too. But it's the way we do it that's a motivation for others to follow. You know that, right?" AUNTMOUSE

You are not alone, and you can do this! It may take longer than you'd like, or anticipate (I know ALL about that), but you will do it!

May today and every day bring to you a ridiculous abundance of whatever you need. May you find peace within and all around you. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith and desire... a desire which even itself issues from God. May all your concerns, struggles, anxieties and fears fall like ashes as you rise on eagle's wings, SOARING above all that would hinder you along this tremendous adventure of being and becoming all you are created to be. May you answer your call and use those gifts that you have received to pass on the love that has been given to you. May the presence of God settle into your bones and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love beyond your wildest imagination. May you be overwhelmed by the grace of God as it simply "overtakes" you moment by moment... rather than being overwhelmed by the cares of life!

{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}

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DARKCHILD 6/18/2014 6:25AM

    Just start where you are today. Get rid of the what ifs! Just concentrate on one day at a time. Do something everyday that will get you to your goal. Get up and move everyday for at least 30 minutes, drink lots of water, meditate and pray. Get outside (when it's not 100 degrees emoticon ), see where I'm going with this. Also, what helped me was to change my ticker from pound lost to fitness minutes. Because if you get in the minutes, the pounds will take care of themselves. And it is so encouraging to see those fitness minutes adding up instead of looking at a number from the scale that is not moving or not moving as fast as we would like! All that to say, emoticon , I have no doubt!! And gurl, please, you look good!! You got that "IT" factor. You better own it!! emoticon Put on your crown because you are a Phenomenal Woman!!

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LARABY34 6/18/2014 12:56AM

    What happened to you?! Really!!?? I agree you shouldn't talk to him right now. He knows full well what you have been through and has absolutely no right to judge you. With the losses you have suffered, this is probably going to be the hardest time in your life, but you will get through it. The number is only as important as you make it and it cannot change in this moment but you can. You can make little decisions every hour that will add up through the days weeks months and years and you will be on the other side healed and healthy. Take that big warm heart of yours and give yourself the emotional and physical care that you gave to your parents for so many years. You deserve it and they would want you to have it and learn to be happy. Big hugs!

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BABY_GIRL69 6/17/2014 3:32PM

    You are still here on Sparkpeople so something is going to give. You want you know you have to come get it.... We all now that but what & where is that pivotal moment when we all say hmmmm? It some times hits us like a ton of bricks or soft like a feather but whatever it is don't wait. Start small today, maybe you had a big breakfast lighten up on lunch & get a walk in most days. Then do body weight workouts, push ups, squats, sit ups & jumping jacks. The small changes ignite bigger changes. Challenge yourself everyday!!! It may not work with workouts but then push to do better with eating healthier you can do it!!

God bless & let's go!!


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SHE-LION 6/17/2014 10:00AM

    Thank you all for your advice. I was feeling down about my size, but I must keep on fighting. I know I can get this going again somehow!

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1CRAZYDOG 6/17/2014 9:14AM

    I am proud of you that you list POSITIVE features you love about yourself! That's a fabulous start.

I am "vertically challenged" as well (4 ft. 10.5 in.) and know there's NOT room for junk in the trunk @ our height!

But you can do this . . . WE can do this. You're right . . . there's nothing to fear. You've already taken the first huge step and articulated how you feel. Now keep those feet moving forward.

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JAZZID 6/17/2014 12:49AM

    ... I know exactly how you feel. I am fighting my way back from gaining a ton of weight over the 2013 Thanksgiving, Christmas & New Year holidays! emoticon

I am only 5'2" as well and small boned and I gained from 164 to 176!... That was my starting weight in February. I felt so miserable and felt hopeless. I had to sit down and take a look at why, after all these years, I keep yo-yoing up and down and never reaching my goal

I realize that I have a problem with emotional eating and I also have an addiction to sweets. I had to accept that I needed a "complete lifestyle" change if I was going to succeed at losing weight and keeping it off... exercise has never been a problem for me.

In order for me to lose weight I had to reduce my carbs. My meals are built around moderate protein, moderately high healthy fats and low/lower carbs... I cycle my carbs daily so that I can have variety and not get bored with my meals. Right now I am not eating any sweets at all other than natural whole fruits and some dried fruit in small amounts. I also gave up caffeine because I drank too much of it and now I drink herbal/favored teas and detoxifying/cleansing water.

I now look at sugar as a toxin, however, realistically, I am not saying that I will never have another cookie or piece of cake, but it will be in controlled manner and because "I want to eat it".... not... because I am craving it!

Surprisingly, it hasn't been that hard once I made it up in mind that I am done!

emoticon... I was where you are right now in February. I had to buy bigger size jeans because I had out grown my size 12's... I am now wearing loose size 14's. I felt better though with the bigger size because I had some "breathing" room. I just followed my nutritional plan and didn't worry about weighing myself, but instead I just focused on how my clothes started to fit. Slowly but surely my jeans started fitting looser. I still have a ways to go, but I feel that I am finally headed in the right direction.

Figure out what you need to do to lose the weight... i.e., cut down on what foods, eliminate foods; pay more attention to portion size, etc.

Try not to focus on the "end of the goal" but rather the day by day changes, no matter how small, that you can make that will help you reach your goals.

If you have to buy one or two pieces of larger clothing I would do it because wearing clothes that are too tight will only add to your frustration, at least it did for me. Although I mentally knew the jeans were bigger, I actually looked and felt better in the larger jeans. Just something to think about.

Surround yourself with positive people; those who inspire and motivate you to be a "better you!"... look at others success and although your goal may be different, appreciate the effort it took for others to reach their goals and know that if they can do it, so can you!

Pamper yourself, you are beautiful... losing weight will make you feel better about yourself, but you are very pretty so don't let people like your B-I-L make you feel bad about yourself.

Remember that if you did it in the past, you can do it again!... emoticon emoticon ... you are not alone in your journey. ~ Dee emoticon

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LADYGSC 6/16/2014 5:32PM

    We have to set our minds to it and just do it!! I've done it before and I know it can be done. Right now I'm at a place where I can't seem to get back into the swing of doing what needs to be done to finish this thing. For me it's not a temporary fix, it's a lifetime fix. Let's work at it and not give up - you can do it!

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How the weight came on

Friday, April 25, 2014

It stands to reason while I have rededicated myself to become healthier, it has dawned on me that it’s not just the fact I don’t want to be overweight, it’s the fact of my closest friends and families’ judgment because I did. And it is not the whole of the group, but a few who take it upon themselves to tell me --- as if I wasn’t aware of it --- that because I was not as small as I used to be it became a personal slight against them. It’s like I stepped upon some of their toes and regrettably have forgotten to say “I’m sorry”.
I have always placed others’ needs ahead of myself. There was a time I felt I had it all together. I made the time for myself and felt darned good about it. I balanced school, work, home life and my passions.
But then my parents became ill and I became a caretaker.
In 2009, I began putting on weight. This was the year my mom died. A few years later, my dad developed bone cancer and I completely placed myself on the back burner. Three weeks before Daddy died, I lost a sister to suicide. This was 2012.
With counseling, psychotropic meds, and lack of interest of life in general, the pounds steadily increased. I wasn’t myself after the loss of my parents and my sister. It took every ounce of faith to heal.
What I’d discovered along the way wasn’t the loving, caring people in which sustained me, but the people who believed they were telling me about my loss of self for my own good. It wasn’t enough I was a thoughtful, loving woman, but the physical changes in which took precedence over the kindness of my heart.
A former friend tried to force me on a scale to “show me” just how much I let myself go, how awful I looked. “You used to look so much better” he chastised me. (It was sufficed to say I used some of my mother’s language after this conversation. I am no longer in contact with this person.)
Now I am more than determined to regain my health and strength back. I am encouraged to begin this journey towards the woman I am meant to be.
I had believed I had this fitness under control, but life occasionally does interrupt the best laid plans. I am trying not to feed myself a lot of negative, stinkin’ thinkin’. I am aligning myself with positive people, those who see beyond the outside of me.
I want to conquer the world …. Again!


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VDALE4 5/29/2014 11:59AM

    Beautiful Woman Award"

You are the recipient of the Beautiful Woman Award!!

Once you've been given this award, you have to paste it on the page of 8 other woman who deserve it. If you receive more than 3, you know you are really beautiful!! If you break the chain, nothing will happen, but it's always good to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out!

Again, Congratulations Beautiful!!

This is So Very True You are Beautiful Inside and Out !! Have a great week Honey

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    Good on you for leaving these toxic "friends" behind. You deserve to be happy and healthy and getting fit needs to be something you do for you. Good luck on your journey! emoticon

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SUEPERWOMAN 4/27/2014 8:13PM


I am wishing you the very best. You have some well-meaning (?) CRAPPY (ex) friends.
It really is enough that you are a wonderful woman. When you are ready to lose weight and get healthy just for you, it will happen. Your story is my story, too.

xoxo Sue

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RACEWELLWON 4/26/2014 7:50PM

    We have a ton in common and know what its all balance - you said a key element - I put other first !! Yes, we have a way doing that don't we - I too have been working on these same issues emoticon hugs Karen

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LARABY34 4/26/2014 11:44AM

    I was just thinking about the same type of thing in my life. I am coming up on hitting my natural weight and I was saying to myself how good/strange it will be to not have it hanging over me. I'm not a person that continually sets achievable goals and fails so it will be a very big relief. I was trying to think back to when I first thought about losing weight and it was along the same lines, although not nearly as great a struggle and loss as yours. When my father starting dying, I couldn't comprehend how life would have any meaning. I have a big family that I love very much but he is just that important to me. The depression was debilitating. It wasn't that I just didn't feel like going to work or getting out and have fun. I didn't feel like doing anything. I just wanted to figure out a way to make it not true and since that wasn't possible I just stayed in brain and spun. I knew I was making myself sick and I couldn't bring myself to care. It was very beautiful and healing that my father so wanted me to be healthy. Especially in the end, one of his biggest concerns was that I was going to be ok. I promised that I would be more than ok and that I would gain all my strength back and more. I think it would make him proud and happy for me to see me reach this goal. Not because of looks or social norms, but because of health and happiness. Even though he is not physically here to help me fight against all the negativity in the world, he is a big part of my heart and he loved me so much (even though he never once said it) that it is my honor to carry out the tradition by loving and caring for myself. I am happy for you that you are focusing your loving heart on caring for yourself. Mourning is unbelievably hard and you can feel great for weeks and then it hits you like a ton of bricks. Just keep comforting yourself in the way you wish your "friends" were. Step on the scale indeed! Oh thank you, I didn't notice before..What are people thinking! I will think positive thoughts for you my friend!

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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 4/25/2014 10:18PM

    Hey Beautiful Lady,

You will conquer the world, you are such a beautiful and powerful passionate woman, and as I was reading your blog I said. She’s so ready to conquer the world –look at her bearing her soul. That’s something we don’t do when we partake in these journeys, we look for the "Water proof Band-Aid" to cover up our (wounds) from our emotional battles –with these diets we go on. But a water proof Band-aid can only be worn for so long and then it starts to peel and we’re standing in front of the mirror looking at square one again. It took me all of 3 years to learn this. 2011-2013 at the end of the day the last look over will always be from you, and if you don’t like what you see standing in front of you, you start to do the work, peel back the layers and become the beautiful lady you want to see, not the lady everyone wants to see, be the lady you want to see. Conquer the world friend.
Peace & Blessings

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LADYOLIVER 4/25/2014 8:38PM

    emoticon Let's make it happen.

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On my way

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Today was the first day I had done yoga in four years. I am a major procrastinator, and I know change cannot happen unless I am proactive about it. After sitting in front of my computer playing games, I logged onto SparkPeople. Now don't get me wrong .. I love spinning the wheel and getting my Sparkpoints, but I'd joined Sparks many years ago at the time to keep a handle on my stress. Now, I have to get a handle of the weight gain the psychotropic meds had impaled upon me. At the time, they (all) had helped me deal with the sadness, angst, and anxiety over my dad's passing. Now, I am ready to get back to what I used to do best .. stay on a path of health and wellness.
I was rusty during my movements and I tried my best to ignore my lack of flexibility, but in the end I felt as light as a feather. Even the rubbing of my thighs didn't hamper the positive vibes yoga brought to my mind and spirit.
Now to access my teams. I want to become challenged and encouraged.
I 'm on my way.


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GOLFGMA 4/25/2014 7:19AM

    Great that you are back and feeling the yoga! emoticon

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MSPROVERBS31 4/24/2014 8:45PM

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Glad that you are back at it! Glad you are feeling better! You are on your way!!!

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LANSELMI 4/24/2014 6:06PM

    Your are on your way. Great first step. We are all here to encourage and support you.

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MJRVIC2000 4/24/2014 5:42PM

    Plan your workday and then work your plan! God Bless YOU! Vic.

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RAPUNZEL53 4/24/2014 5:41PM

  Good Luck!

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