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The runner in my mind

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Today was w1d1 of c25k (take 2). I've done the program all the way through before, even ran a 5k, but it's been years so I was expecting it to be basically starting from scratch. And it pretty much was but I don't think I'm in as bad of shape as I thought. I was able to make it all the way through without having to stop anyway, although it is still very hard to envision week 9!

It was a windy day, not too hot, altogether perfect for exercising outside. The boys played at the playground with Yaya nearby and I circled round and round. I waited to feel silly but never did and that's a change. I used to be more self-conscious about people seeing me exercise. My feeling now is more "I need and want to be running" not "what do people think about me running". Maybe that's just being grownup? happy? secure? I don't know or care really, just glad there's one less thing holding me back.

There is a version of myself in my mind who runs without getting winded, who runs with grace, who runs like she's having fun-who IS having fun. I'd love to morph into that runner. Til I do, I'll keep reminding myself to take it one workout at a time. Maybe one day I'll be running and realize that I've become that runner without even realizing it.
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RIDICAT 4/12/2011 6:01PM

  In my mind, you run very gracefully without getting winded and have fun while doing it and i'm sure I would say the same thing if I actually knew you!! keep up the good work and motivation!!! emoticon

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Making it normal...

Sunday, April 10, 2011

As has happened before, I drifted away from Sparkpeople and have returned. I'm taking it really slow. Right now, I'm concentrating on tracking my food, trying to hit nutrition goals. I will start working out again next week, 20-30 minutes a day. I actually wasn't going to blog but noticed I hadn't at ALL in 2011 and just couldn't stand that.

Since I've stopped visiting Spark then returned at least 3 times and I know others have too I'm not going to go into a big "why". Sometimes there is no why anyway. The important thing to me is refocusing and getting healthier in a consistant way. I tend to go full-force, overdo and quit. Every time. I'm already fighting the little voices in my head that say "cut WAY back on calories, do P90X NOW!" Truth is, I'm not ready for p90x right now and would probably hurt myself trying and I'm not interested in dropping pounds as quickly as possible. In fact, with my recent weight gain, I've gained some curves that I'd like to keep so I'm not really aiming at a big weight loss. I want strength and energy though, tone and endurance. And to halt the weight gain, I'm tracking my food so I don't go crazy. My normal had become abnormal. I had been eating out of boredom, out of habit and not hunger. It is time for a better normal to take over. I'm trying to find my way to living a healthier lifestyle. I don't want a total makeover of the life I'm living now but there are things I need to do differently and it's time to work on them. So here I go again, embarassed that there is an "again" but I would rather be back "again" than "never"!


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ROLLINGREEVES 4/11/2011 12:21PM

    Many of us here have many "agains" also. We're just glad you have returned and of course wish you well. It is nice that SparkPeople is always here for us and is forgiving. I am stubborn and really have to take baby steps. emoticon emoticonDebbie

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Cleaning is my hobby now

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

I've been doing Flylady! Now, my routines still need work but I've been following the zones around my house for about 3 weeks and the difference is AMAZING! Each room I've been in, decluttering and such, looks wonderful already, even if there will still be work to do next time it comes up. I actually have been getting so excited just to tackle a little area every day.

I LOVE feeling in control of my house!

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MOOKBALL 9/8/2010 9:42PM

    Good for you. Getting rid of the clutter, or finding a place for it, or never even bringing it into the house (decisions to be made before going to the cash register) is a step in the right direction.

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Note to Self:*

Monday, August 23, 2010

You'll feel better after you exercise - whether you want to now or not!

Going off meal plan isn't always a bad idea, except when it is. Figure out what is a treat and what is a binge.

There ARE muscles under that soft belly. Seriously. Keep doing the ab work and eventually it'll show.

Being stronger is better than being skinnier.

Being stronger feels sexy.

Having fun burns calories!

Oatmeal will fill you up longer and give you more energy - resist the Whataburger breakfast tacquito!

Stretch more.

When it gets easy, it's time for a harder workout. Don't get TOO comfortable.

You can be fit, healthy, athletic, and energetic!

*just a few things to keep in mind. Love, Shawna.

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MARYANNSQUEST 8/29/2010 6:37PM

    Love your note Shawna! All of them ring true. Have a fantastic day. emoticon

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TASOGAREBAN 8/24/2010 1:49PM

    LOL! Best...note...EVER. I always have to remind myself that I feel better after I work out too. And during as well, sometimes, especially when a good song gives me a second wind at just the right time. And I always tell myself that my abs are under there somewhere. I just gotta dig to find them, hahahahah! Good note, girl!

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My Pre-K Personal Trainer (and the awesome Workout Generator!)

Friday, August 20, 2010

Tonight during our workout (my MIL and me) my 4-year-old hopped up on a footstool and proceeded to motivate us! "You're doing great, Mommy!" "Good job, Grandma!" LOL! He and his brother (Jack, almost 3) usually do their own version of the 30ds with us. Jack has even been seen spontaneously doing pushups or arm crosses. It's nearly unbearably cute.

Yes, I already did a round of 30ds but we're not ordering p90x til the end of the month so I'm sticking with Jillian in the meantime. :) I just pick whatever level I feel like (or my MIL feels like) and do that. Plus I'm LOVING the Workout Generator here on Sparkpeople! I saw it on Hidden Features a couple days ago and it's awesome. I was feeling like I needed more but I didn't want to always do another full DVD every day so the Generator is PERFECT. I can pick what area I want to work and go from there! I'm finding that I really miss working out if I skip a day and that I often feel like doing more. I like that my body feels different. It's subtle but I feel stronger and more... graceful? Idk how to put it really but I like it. emoticon I used to run for exercise and shied away from strength training but this time around I haven't done any running and I'm really liking the ST. Maybe I'll get back into running eventually but it's soooo hot right now that I can't even think about it, lol!

On a separate note, Coach Will starts Pre-K on Monday. I'm so excited for him and nervous and happy and sad... It's the end of an era and the beginning of another. He's super excited, got to see his class and meet his teachers Thursday night. I know he'll have a great time and really I'm looking forward to it. I loved school as a kid and I know he will too. Fun times ahead!!
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