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My demon

Friday, February 26, 2010

My demon has raised it's ugly head today. I hate feeling like people in my office are talking about me behind my back, and not saying anything nice. I know I'm panicking for nothing, but when there are a couple of people that just won't talk to me, won't hardly acknowledge me, it's hard to get through the day without panicking. They talk to, and get along with everyone else in the office. Why not me? Is it because I don't want to gossip with them? Is it because I'm there to work, and not play around like they do? I don't know. I've been trying really hard to keep positive about everything I do and/or say. I think about how my family loves me, how great I'm doing taking charge of my body, how my boss likes the work that I do. Sometimes it's just not enough. I hate this feeling. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. WAIT!! IT WILL BE BETTER!! IT WILL BE SATURDAY!! emoticonHere's to hoping that we don't get stuck watching our grandchildren all day.

  
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HICALGAL 2/27/2010 9:53AM

    i've felt like that...and you know what? it's good to want everyone to like me but it's also ok if some don't. i've got enough stuff going on in my life and don't need to carry their baggage along with me..besides i've got friends and family who love me unconditionally. so girlfriend, don't let those smal things bother you...in the vast expanse of universe...it's a speck of dust and irrelevant compared with what's going on in the world. count your blessings...you've got so many. emoticon

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CARMEL466 2/26/2010 8:16PM

    WooHoo for the weekend! I had a rough work day also but it's over! Hope you have a great weekend. Thanks for the goodie.. happy to report my exercising is going well. Thank you for the support.

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looking forward to a positive Thursday!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Yesterday was a good day. Didn't sleep well last night, but I'm energized from my morning walk that I know I can make through the day!
I'm thinking about making an appointment for md to see if I can't get off blood pressure meds. I don't think I need them anymore. I know I'll wow her with my continued weight loss also!

  
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CARMEL466 2/25/2010 8:26PM

    Good luck on getting off your meds. That would be fantastic. Hope you had a great day.

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HICALGAL 2/25/2010 3:59PM

    hope you can get off the meds...that would be so awesome! keep kickin' it!! emoticon

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PHOENIX2B 2/25/2010 10:16AM

    Wow, that's a big deal, to come off blood pressure meds... here's to you losing enough weight to be able to go back to your doctor about it! emoticon emoticon

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looking forward to a positive Thursday!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Yesterday was a good day. Didn't sleep well last night, but I'm energized from my morning walk that I know I can make through the day!
I'm thinking about making an appointment for md to see if I can't get off blood pressure meds. I don't think I need them anymore. I know I'll wow her with my continued weight loss also!

  
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DEE845 2/25/2010 8:08AM

    Ireceived the following this morning at 5:10 am from my daughter when I was really feeling down and it was exactly what I needed. Jesus is never far from us. Perhaps, you need a little reminder of how important you are in this world.

When you are feeling alone and no one cares, read this cuz it absolutely true.

Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep. At least 15 people in this world love you. The only reason someone woould ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. there are at least 2 people in this world that would die for you. You mean the world to someone. someone that you don't even knowexists loves you. when you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. When you think the world turned its back on you, take a look. Always, remember the compliments you have receivedForget the rude remarks.

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Positive Tuesday

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Today was a very positive day! Of course, we're still really busy at work, but I didn't let any of that get me down. I was able to finish a couple of projects and correct some mistakes, so I felt really good about my day!
I was energized by my morning walk and have ended the day with over 16,400 steps for the day. Tomorrow is a new day, and I'm hoping to make it to 20,000 by the end of the day. Of course, tomorrow is gym day, so I should be able to make it easily.
I have a doctor's appointment Friday, so while I don't expect that I'll be able to get off my medication, I'm hopeful that he'll adjust the dosage.
Have a good night my friends.

  
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CARMEL466 2/23/2010 8:49PM

    WTG! Good luck at the doctors.

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KARLYNCANDOIT 2/23/2010 8:37PM

    Yahoo for a good day!! My goodness that is a ton of steps.... You must have a active job. Good luck at the doctors. Have a fabulous rest of the week!!!

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Back to Positive Day!

Monday, February 22, 2010

Today was a MUCH better day! As a Spark friend mentioned, "we all have the winter blues."
Thank you to those of you who posted the kind comments on my blog about my bad day. They really brightened my day and made me smile. emoticon It's nice to have the support when it's needed.
I'm back on track, which started this morning with my morning walk around the office. An hour and a half later and I hit my 10,000 step goal. I stayed on plan all day and got on the elliptical after work, mostly to relieve some stress from the day. I'm beat, ready for bed and looking foward to a GREAT day tomorrow!
Again, thank you my spark friends for your generous and kind comments.
Have a great night and a Blessed tomorrow!
Julie

  
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HICALGAL 2/23/2010 5:01AM

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