Saturday, January 09, 2010
I wanted to let you know that I can relate to everything that you have been going through from not having enough time for yourself, to not being able to keep your thoughts in order. When trying to find time for yourself, you need to remind everyone that this time is for you, and you alone. You can't let them make you feel guilty over taking this time, as they will just keep insisting on taking your time away. This will work in your favor to helping you get your thoughts in order too. It may take some time to get used to it, but you'll get there.
This may help with the problems you are having at work too. I know you have been thinking that all of the problems have to do with you, but this isn't the case. Most of the time, they have to do something else entirely. You don't have any control over how those people think or act, so stop thinking that you are the cause all of the time.
You also need to remember that they are not talking about you all the time. They have their own lives that they are living. If they are constantly whispering to each other, that does not mean that they are talking about you. So what if they don't want to share with you. You don't want to share anything with them either. You have to remember to tell yourself that you are at work to work, not to socialize. You are doing a good job with your work, something you can be proud of too. Maybe you do make some mistakes, but doesn't every one of them at work? How many times have you fixed their problems? It goes both ways. Stop putting yourself down all the time, and learn to like your job again.
I'll keep in touch about these things and others as they come up. Try to remember that you are a special person and you need to take care of yourself more often, no matter what others may think. They will start thanking you once they realize what you are doing and see the progress you are making. Not only in losing the weight, but in making yourself feel better, both physically and mentally. I love you and I want the best for you.
Thursday, January 07, 2010
Today was not a good day. Yesterday wasn't much better. We haven't been getting in the exercise we usually do because of the weather and because by the time we get home we have so much to do cleaning up after our grown children and grandchildren, it's all we can do to feel up to exercise!!
I wish we could get our house back the way we want it, instead of having all of these people living with us keeping it dirty, and not letting us have a decent nights sleep!!
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day, even though it's going to be very cold and nasty outside again. I hope that we can at least get in some exercise sometime tomorrow.
My eating has been good. I have been keeping on plan with that. I just need to get back to exercise!!
Friday, November 27, 2009
To tell my story from the beginning of this weight loss journey, I started having problems with my weight when I was in high school.
I wasn't seriously overweight, just 10 to 15 pounds, and I remember being worried that I would have the same weight problems as my father had.
He'd always been over weight for most of his life and wasn't doing much, if anything about it.
When I met my husband in high school, I started gaining more weight. By the time we were married I was about 30 to 40 pounds over weight. I remember
that I wasn't too overly concerned about it since my husband was happy with me no matter what, but I swore I'd never weigh as much as my dad.
Then I became pregnant with my first child. I gained a lot of weight with my pregnancy. I couldn't seem to eat enough chocolate! I know that by the time I
had my son, I weighed over 200 pounds. I started dieting, trying every diet I could get my hands on, it seems, only to not be able to keep with any
of them for long. I just didn't have the will power. Then when my son was around 15 months old, I became pregnant with my second child and that diet had
to be put on hold. I didn't gain as much weight in my second pregnancy though. My cravings were different and I ate relatively healthy. After having
my daughter I started again with the dieting. I didn't exercise much in those days. I was a stay at home mother and kept the house clean so I figured
that was enough exercise for me. When my daughter was around 16 months old, I became pregnant again. My third pregnancy was like my first in that
I craved chocolate. By the time I had my son, I was probably around 280 pounds. Again, I started dieting, trying everything I could get my hands on
that either a friend had suggested or that I'd read about. When my baby son was 6 weeks old, I fell and broke my ankle in three places.
I had to have surgery and I was off my feet for a good year before I started physical therapy. The physical therapy helped me lose a bit of weight,
but once that stopped, it came right back on. The following year I had to have back surgery for a bad disc, which put me down again for a few months.
Once I was able to start exercising I had to be careful with what I did. I was a good 300 pounds by then and I couldn't walk far without sitting down
to rest, not to mention the problems I kept having with my ankle. I had to have 5 surgeries on my ankle, the last to fuse it. By 2005 I weighed in at
340 pounds. I knew something had to happen or I would die at an early age.
Something wonderful did happen. My daughter gave birth to her son, Dammien in 2006, then had her daughter, Echo, in 2008. I knew I wanted to be able to
play with my grandchildren, to watch them grow up and not be sitting on the sidelines during their lives unable to do anything!
I talked my dh into joining a gym. I didn't have the motivation to exercise by myself at home. It was the best thing we ever did for ourselves!
When we joined the gym I weighed 278 pounds, having lost 90 pounds using one diet I'd found in a magazine. I couldn't keep up with it though, and I
wasn't exercising so I gained 30 pounds of it back. My dh was and is my motivation while at the gym. He took it seriously, wanting to lose some weight and
gain muscle tone. Since March of 2008, I've lost 149 pounds and have kept it off. I hope to lose another 20 to 30 pounds, at least, to get back down
to the weight that I will be happy with. For now, I'm still at the gym at least 5 to 6 days a week. Both my dh and I have become addicted to exercise.
I feel so much more energy. I don't have as many issues with my ankle or my back as I once did, and I feel so much better about myself.
I'm off some of the medication I've been taking for the past 25 years, including for pre-diabetes. Every time I go in for a check up, my doctor can't
believe how much I've lost! I still have problems with cholesterol, but I'm hoping as I continue to lose the rest of this weight, that I'll be able
to quit the medication for that as well. I log every bite of food I eat, I'm careful with portion control and eating lots of fruits and veggies, and
have cut back on red meat, only eating it once or twice a month. I drink at least 8 cups of water daily, no pop or sugared drinks for me!
Most important to me is that I am able to play with my grandchildren! I am able to take them to the park and for walks without getting winded or tired.
They are my main motivation to continue this journey. I'm not at the finish line, but I'm getting a lot closer!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I didn't make it to my goal yesterday, but that doesn't mean that I'm quitting. I will make it today!! If we don't make it to the gym, for whatever reason, I'm still going to get outside and walk the dog for my exercise and I'll get some weight bearing exercise done at home. The kids are always fun to work with doing these.
I'm going to stay positive in the face of the stress I'm facing today and I'm not going to let anyone in the office get me down. I am strong! I will succeed! I am succeeding! And I am thankful for the support of my hubby and friends that know what I'm up against.
God Bless everyone today!
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