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Sunday, June 26, 2011

I've been stumbling along lately, maybe because I haven't been as active since the surgery. I've gained some weight. Today wasn't any help so I'll probably see today's failure on the scale as well.
Why is it that having a lazy day means eating too much? I haven't tracked everything I've eaten because it would take too long looking everything up.
I was doing fairly well this morning, and did go to the gym and spent just over an hour on the elliptical. Then I get home and decided to watch a movie. Along with that movie came food for lunch, which wasn't too bad really, but then I just had to have popcorn. While it was organic popcorn, I ate the whole bag when it was really 2 servings. Then cookies were calling after that. I over did it on them having 2 serviings instead of one.
Then hubby came home a couple of hours later and says we're going out for dinner. Yes, I went with him and yes I over did it on eating. There's no excuse for today. I don't know if I was just bored or what I was thinking.
I know that tomorrow is a new day and a new start. I'm going to walk in the morning and work out on the elliptical tomorrow evening. And I'm going to carefully track everything I put into my mouth. I still have to take it easy on the elliptical so I'm still not back up to full workout mode, but ANY working out is better than nothing.
Hopefully I can lose this extra weight easily. I guess I just wasn't prepared for days like today.
Thanks for reading. And please don't give up on me my friends. I could use the support.

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WALNUT5612 7/1/2011 10:42AM

    We won't give up on you!!!

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ELISADENK 6/27/2011 8:48PM

    You'll be fine. Give yourself some time. emoticon

On this note, I think I'm going to eat a couple spoonfuls of icecream....

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NATURALLYJJ 6/27/2011 10:01AM

    Yes it is a new day and the awesome thing about that is that it is a chance to start with a clean slate, or plate. Keep on working at it and don't worry about us sparkers giving up on you, we are here for you. Just make sure that you don't give up on YOU! You are worth it!

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GOT2BMEMOMMYOF3 6/27/2011 1:29AM

    Sometimes we have these days, sometimes they can barely be tracked, but the important thing is not to beat yourself up. Probably the overnight weight is some carb/water retention thing, and sometimes days like this remind us of why we're tracking and being careful all of the other days. You will make it through this!

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KSP3776 6/27/2011 12:30AM

    We have all did it! You will continue on and be strong, I can feel it!

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MSHUFFNPUFFN 6/26/2011 11:23PM

    Hang in there--you've already proven that you have what it takes. Every new day is a new beginning! You ROCK!!

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    You are such an inspiration!

Don't give up on yourself, look what you did to begin with with, you can do anything!

I know I will always have to keep track of everything I eat even if it is just to stay justified to myself for what I have eaten, I know that even after my surgery and after all this is gone, (hopefully), I will never want to return here again. If keeping track of every single thing I eat the rest of my life keeps me from it, its worth it.

You're worth it!


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Back to work I go...

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Well, my doctor appointment was very abrupt and quick. He didn't listen to my questions, telling me that I need to speak to my endo about anything like medication and all. Ok fine. He acted like he just didn't care enough to take the time to answer any thing. He did say that there was a 2cm spot of papillary cancer on the remaining side that was just removed. He didn't say if I needed to have any other treatment for that, but I'm assuming not since it was papillary and not follicular. Another question for my endo.

So, I have an appointment with my endo next Thursday and hope that I can get some answers then. I joined a better thyroid team and have been getting more information out of it than I did out of the first team I had been with, which I'm thankful for.

So, I go back to work tomorrow and he said I can go back to the gym starting next week. I think I'm probably going to walk a bit on the treadmill today though, just a light workout for 30 minutes or so, just to get myself back into exercise. Wish me luck. I hope my endo is more informative than this doctor was, and I'm glad I don't have to go back to see him again.
Have a great day!

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RESULTS361AP09 6/22/2011 8:50PM

    I'm sorry to hear about your doctor's visit. I hate when they do things like that! Hopefully you will get more answers next week. Take it easy & good luck at work.

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BRANDTSGIRL 6/22/2011 5:10PM

    Oh good I'm glad your back up and at least able to walk.
I'll for sure be thinking about you:)

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ELISADENK 6/22/2011 3:57PM

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GOT2BMEMOMMYOF3 6/22/2011 1:43PM

    Good luck!!

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JESS0107 6/22/2011 1:41PM

    That is awful that your doctor didn't listen to anything you had to say but it is good that you have a good support team. Good luck on getting back into exercising and going back to work.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 6/22/2011 1:27PM

    Ugh, i HATE when doctor's rush you out of there. Like they don't get paid enough to answer some questions! Hmpf! Time to find a new GP!

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Made it through surgery...

Thursday, June 16, 2011

The surgery went well this morning. So far there's no sign of cancer but they have to test it in the lab to make sure, along with the lymph nodes they removed.

It's been a frustrating day having to stay in bed, only getting up for the bathroom. And then I walk like a baby, not moving too fast yet. I know, like I expect to be able to run a mile

If it wasn't for my laptop, I'd be going crazy with boredom as there hasn't been anything on tv that has interested me to watch. So I've been keeping up with email and Sparkpeople.

Hopefully they'll let me go home early tomorrow morning. Highly unlikely, I know. Even then, I know I'll have to stay down, at least for a couple of days. No weight bearing at all. No lifting anything heavier than a glass of water for probably at least a week. I am drinking plenty of water, by the way.

I'm not happy about the pain though. I can't take the usual pain meds, percocet(?) or vicoden as they make me crazy and darvocet was taken off the market, so they're giving me ibuprophen, which isn't really helping.

Well, that's where I am at this moment. Thank you all for the well wishes and prayers. They've pulled me through the anxiety knowing that my friends are here for me. I thank you all so much!! And thank you to my husband and son for being here for me. I love you both!!

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TIGGERRD 6/17/2011 8:25PM

    I'm glad you're back. I hope you'll have a speedy recovery and good lab results. Best wishes!

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SLIMTHICK2 6/17/2011 7:00PM

    So glad to hear that you pulled through, you sound as though you will be up and about in no time. All the best. emoticon emoticon

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ELISADENK 6/17/2011 4:43PM

    LOL! I'm glad they are giving you Specifics of what you can and can't do.

It's hard doing practically nothing, huh? I know. However, remind yourself that it is for THE best and it will help you recover more quickly.

Would it help to ice the area? There are many other pain relievers out there..... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BOLEBRON 6/16/2011 9:49PM

    I am glad you made through surgery and that there is no sign of cancer. Be patient, I know that it must be hard but you'll be up and running that mile before you know it. Rest and take it easy, perhaps this time will be the only chance you get to do that. Stay positive that everything will be okay. emoticon

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MSHUFFNPUFFN 6/16/2011 9:30PM

    Thinking of you and saying a prayer for your speedy recuperation with as little pain a possible. Take it slowly...

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BERRY4 6/16/2011 9:13PM

    Hope you will be feeling better SOON! Sorry that nothing is much available to help w/ the pain. Distractions are necessary when feeling poorly.

Hope the lab report comes back CLEAR!
Take care!

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GOT2BMEMOMMYOF3 6/16/2011 7:55PM

    So glad to hear from you!! Hope the pain goes away fast! Take care! ((hugs))

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 6/16/2011 7:08PM

  At least you *do* have your laptop with you ... when my husband was in the hospital last year - I took him my laptop for him to play around on .. and he was really happy :)

Sorry to hear about you being in pain. Hope that part of the entire thing stops soon for you.

You are still in my prayers & thoughts.


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MOMMA48 6/16/2011 7:05PM

    emoticonand prayers for a speedy recovery time, hun! Take care and don't overdo. Dr's orders and emoticonmine too, my friend!

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LNSYLVSDOGS 6/16/2011 6:53PM

    emoticon It is GREAT to hear from you! Wishing and praying for your speedy recovery. Sorry about the meds not helping much. Make sure to take it easy on yourself and not try to do too much. Good thing for computers and books to keep a person from getting TOO bored. emoticon emoticon

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Anxiety attack...

Monday, June 13, 2011

I'm really getting anxious about this surgery. I really DO NOT want to do it, but I really don't have much of a choice. It's either get the rest of my thyroid removed and not have to worry any more about cancer, as long as there's none there now, or let it sit there and continue to worry that there may be cancer and I'm not doing anything about it.

I didn't go to the gym today. My stomach has been upset all day because of this. I should have gone even though I didn't feel like it. It may have relieved some of the stress from today. I'll go tomorrow and Wednesday for sure, then I won't be able to go for a few weeks. I sort of feel like just letting go of the gym now since it's only two more days that I'll be able to go, but that's my anxiety talking.

Tomorrow is going to be a stressful day anyway since our office is down two people, out of seven. It makes it hard to get major work done when there'sso much of it and not enough people to share the load. Hopefully by Wednesday I'll have a handle on most of my work. I can't leave anything on my desk while I'm off for a week.

Wish me luck that I can get through the next two days without problems and get this surgery over and done with. And please pray that there isn't any cancer.
Thank you.

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SLIMTHICK2 6/14/2011 6:16PM

    By God's grace you will pull through. I've had surgery and the anxiety was tremendous but God and my praying friends saw me through, you will make it. Have a peaceful day. All the best. emoticon

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NATURALLYJJ 6/14/2011 11:21AM

    I hope that all goes well, there is a blog today that you should read. It is on LOVESTYPO's page and is titled I felt I had to share this email. I tried to put a link but my computer was not cooperating. Good luck.

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SUZBOISANNE 6/14/2011 6:40AM

    You strike me as a strong and caring woman and as such I am believing that you will breeze through this. I will picture you smiling and healthy! Best wishes.

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 6/13/2011 10:23PM

  Sending you my thoughts & prayers.


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GOT2BMEMOMMYOF3 6/13/2011 10:19PM

    Hey there, you're gonna do great! Soon this will be all over with! ((hugs!))

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RESULTS361AP09 6/13/2011 9:43PM

    I am sending prayers & positive thoughts your way! Please know that you will be in my thoughts & I hope work isn't too crazy the next couple of days. Take care & keep us posted.


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    Hope everything goes well for you - don't beat yourself up about missing the gym one time - go for a walk to clear your mind - and go to the gym tomorrow!! Good luck with the surgery!! emoticon

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LNSYLVSDOGS 6/13/2011 8:52PM

    You have a lot on your plate right now. I agree what has been said....I think that going to the gym will help you work off some of the anxiety you're feeling. Exercise helps us keep our sanity during stress. I am convinced of that!

I will be praying for you about the surgery and that all goes well. Hugs to you! emoticon emoticon

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BOLEBRON 6/13/2011 8:36PM

    The anxiety is justified but it will help to keep your mind occupied and to take care of yourself like going to the gym. Stay positive and try not to drive yourself crazy worry about something that has not happened yet. I will keep you in my prayers. Keep us posted and good luck.

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SOULOFADANCER 6/13/2011 8:23PM

    I will pray for you and know you will be fine!

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A great day today!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Had a great time with my grandkids at my husband's company picnic today! We played catch and did a lot of walking. And I ate too much food. I'm not going to try to track what I ate, but suffice it to say, I'll be spending extra time on the elliptical tomorrow morning and getting back on track with eating within my calorie limit.

This is especially important considering my upcoming surgery and the time I'm not going to be exercising afterward, then slowly getting back into exercise once my doctor gives me the go ahead, which could be 3 weeks after the surgery. I'm still unsure how I'm going to manage not over eating during my convalesance. Wish me luck! I'm sure I'm going to need all the support I can get!

Good night and thanks for reading.

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SLIMTHICK2 6/12/2011 5:42AM

    Good that we can go out enjoy the day and not worry too much about tracking calories and feeling guilty this is a once in a while event and I think it should be allowed. Have a lovely day. emoticon

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GOT2BMEMOMMYOF3 6/12/2011 1:22AM

    Hey there! Glad you had a great day!! You needed that!!

Will be thinking of you with your surgery...what day is that?

Take care!!

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