Friday, December 21, 2012
My home town for the last 30 years has been Newtown, CT, a small, quiet, picturesque New England town, where nothing out of the ordinary ever happens. I have worked in the school system here for 12 years, the first two years at Sandy Hook School where this horrific tragedy took place. Two of my friends were at work at SHS on 12/14/12, when our world here changed forever. Teachers I worked with years ago, still work at the school. Six of the children in our school lost innocent little siblings on that horrible Friday morning. I too was at school, a few miles away, in lock down, wondering what report was true, and hoping, praying, begging that the last report we heard, the one with the number 26, was a big mistake. This just couldn't be right, the hospitals reported only three casualties had arrived, where were the rest of the children?
Well. we all know what happened, there's no need to repeat what newscasters all over the country, all over the world have been reporting. But what many people don't know is how our town responded to this horrific act. We came together in LOVE, that's what we did. And although we were angry, we came together in PEACE. We reached out to each other for comfort, to offer our services, to just sit and pray together....and we have begun the healing process. We created memorials, we made ribbons to wear in support of the Sandy Hook School community, we brought food, we found another school to send those Sandy Hook students to when they return to school, we have been STRONG...together.
The media has grouped this senseless act with Columbine, Virginia Tech, Aurora and even 9/11, and for all of us everywhere, our world has been rocked once again.
Please take a moment of silence or offer a prayer for the families of those directly impacted, for the first responders who should never have had to witness something so horrific, for the brave teachers who gave their lives to protect their students, and for those of us in the community who are starting to pick up the pieces and help our community to heal.
Monday, January 02, 2012
The start of 2012 has given me renewed hope, renewed determination, and renewed trust in the universe.
I spent part of last night watching one of my favorite people Wayne Dyer speak about The Power of Intention. I love this man. I need to have this information etched on my brain, have access to it 24 hours a day, or at least take time and start my day with the daily intention to connect. Yep, that's all I have to do is make the choice. So, that's what I'm doing today. I'm committing to reconnect with source, with the universe, with God, with whatever amazing power holds my space on this planet. And I'm going to get the job done...I'm going to be the most amazing person I can be. End of story. Namaste, Mary Ann
Saturday, December 31, 2011
This time of year gets to me thinking about what I've accomplished in the past year, and also about what goals I am going to set for myself in 2012. Not those "January 9 and their over" type of goals, but good healthy life changes, changes that make my proud of who I am.
So, first of all, and this has to come first.....
I AM GOING TO WORK ON LOVING MYSELF MORE.
Actually, this is probably my only goal, all the other stuff that I'll list below will probably fit nicely in this one goal. Is this selfish...you bet it is, 'cause if I don't take care of me...NO ONE WILL. And, when I take really good care of me, everyone benefits.
How am I going to accomplish this, you might ask (or not)?
Well, I'm going take MORE time out of my day to do the things that make me feel like I belong here on this planet, and that I serve a purpose. Yep, simple as that...simple but will it be EASY? This is not the time set aside for me to do the laundry, make the phone calls, pay the bills, do the shopping, make the lunches, cook dinner...oh no, no....this is just the time for me to BE ME. For me to be embraced by the being that is Mary Ann.
For starters, I will commit to the following:
1. getting to at least two yoga classes each week
2 volunteer more than every other week at the soup kitchen (what's another 2 hours on a Monday afternoon)
3. take MORE TIME to get in touch with my spiritual side
4. attend more meetings (ask, if you really want to know)
5. make healthy choices 85% of the time (every freakin' day). So at 1200 calories, that leaves me 180 calories that don't have to be PERFECT.
6. work on the PERFECTIONISM defect, yuck
7. continue with trainer twice a week
8. add a day of strength training on my own (...duh, I know how to do it)
9. commit to cardio 5 times a week
10. try kickboxing (did I really say that?)
11. look myself in the mirror every morning and commit to being the best I can be
12. blog on Spark, at least once a week (to hold myself accountable)
13. oh yeah, get rid of those 25 pounds that have been following me around for the last few years.
14. get into the best shape I can between now and next July so I will be ready to make a difference to the people of Liberia (this is a long story...but my goal is Africa or bust!!!!!
15. do not let fear stop me from doing whatever I want to do
I'm sure I'll think of more to add to this list, but I'd say what I have listed fits nicely into the category of LOVING MYSELF MORE.
The bracelet I've worn for years is inscribed with the following:
May all beings be peaceful
May all beings be happy,
May all beings be safe,
May all beings awaken to the light of their true nature
May all beings be free.
Happy New Year everyone!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Good morning everyone. I'm feeling positive today and today believe I can really do this plan and be successful. I am also starting a workshop on the Sugar and Food Addiction team entitled Sugar...the Hidden Eating Disorder. I am really looking forward to delving deep and getting some answers as to why my issues around the food still plague me after all these years. I will be required to go deep inside and really search for reasons why I do what I do (or should I say did what I did), even when I don't want to. I thought I was really looking forward to this journey, but have been putting off starting the workshop. I have read through the materials for the last week and then....I decide to postpone or avoid taking the first step, always with a "good" excuse. I know that recovery requires doing the footwork, but I still stay stuck. What am I afraid of? What is the worst that can happen? What will I learn about myself? So, regardless of my feelings or my fears, I commit to picking a quiet time tonight, grabbing my journal, and getting down to business. I am reminded of a slogan from a twelve step fellowship that says....."It works if you work it", so that's what I'm going to do.
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
Tomorrow is weigh day and although I have been on track ALL WEEK, I'm afraid to get on the scale. I don't consider myself a negative person, actually quite the opposite, but I am feeling negative this morning.
The what ifs are making me crazy. What if I didn't lose? What if I did everything right and nothing happened? What if I gained? What if this program really won't work for me? What will I do? Will I be disappointed and confused, of course I will? Will I be doubting my ability to do this, yes I will? Will I self-sabotage like I have done in the past...NOT THIS TIME, I WON'T! I WON'T, I WON'T, I WON'T. Nor will I reward myself with food if I am happy with the number on the scale, 'cause I can go there as well.
So, we'll see tomorrow at 6:30 a.m.. WHATEVER IT IS, IT IS!!!!! Thanks Spark friends for all your support. I am so grateful I met you all, you help me more than you know. Namaste.
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