Saturday, September 21, 2013
I have made alot of changes in about one month's time. On the BL Lime Summer Challenge, during the last week (about a month ago), we had a "word" challenge. We were to think of a positive/uplifting word and post it, and what made us think of that word, then share how it changed your day the next day. Well, between reading the words of others and my own, it was like all of a sudden I was awakened from my slumber. I realized I had not been dedicated to me, my dreams, my life and once I realized that, it fueled my desires to see my dreams come to fruition. I wrote a blog August 29th about how life was about to get busier... that was me taking the first steps to being dedicated to me, to life again!
It's like one step led to another and another and another and here I sit almost a month later and it's like my entire mindset has changed and I'm not sure how it happened! This whole morning routine thing seemed to almost happen by mistake as I don't recall consciously thinking "I need a morning routine" until it began to happen. Sure, in the past I would say I needed to get up earlier, and could never stick with it. Or, in the past I would want to do something, know I needed too, but it was such a struggle and now, it's like change is happening in lightening speed for me even though I am taking babysteps!
Here are some of the changes over the past month...
~ I used to sleep until the last minute before I had to go to work or whatever, I would get Jonah up at 6 for school and go back to bed. Well, one day as i was walking down the hall to get Jonah up, the thought occurred to me... "I might as well stay up, because if I am gonna be a sub, I will have to get up earlier than this anyway! So, i started getting up at 6 and drinking coffee and what have. A few naps here and there, but I got used to getting up. Well, then I thought, since I have to get up earlier to sub, why not take this time to get used to it? So, then I took the time to 5:30. I really struggled with staying awake all day that first week at 5:30, so decided to take two weeks at 5:30. It got easier and then I started feeling "unaccomplished". So, I thought about it and my friend was getting up and going to the fitness center each morning, so I told her I was going to get up and exercise right away each morning. In the meantime, on the Lime team we had started our walk 100 mile challenge and someone had mentioned Leslie Sansone. I did her video one day to get a mile in and then for some reason, skipped it a few days and then all of a sudden, when I told my friend Susie I was going to exercise in the morning, it became a commitment.
~ Then, I noticed I was feeling really sick and yucky about an hour or two after working out, took me a few days and talking to others and Susie to realize, it was breakfast I was missing. So, then I tried to start eating breakfast, missed a day or two, then it became a priority. Susie also asked me if I was drinking my water because of my headaches. About the same time, it was pledge week on the Limes, so I pledged to drink more water. Now, I find myself limiting my pops, almost as if I decided to, but it's like an automatic response almost.
~ Next came getting up at 5am... really rough the first couple of days, but I was getting up, exercising, and eating breakfast routinely. I still felt kind of sick and not "with it" and I had thought eating breakfast within 60 minutes would be good (I saw it online). Then, my aunt, (who is knowledgeable in all this) told me to eat within 30 minutes of getting up and you burn more calories. So, here is the new schedule: Up at 5am, dressed to exercise, breakfast, exercise. After a solid week of exercising every morning (except Sunday) and drinking more water (and finally starting TOM), I lost 8.4 pounds and don't you know that has fueled me even more!
There are more components I want to add to my morning routine, such as hitting the shower as soon as I finish exercising and spending more time with God before I head out the door to start my day. This will require me getting up earlier, or cutting out some PC time, especially on days I sub, but I am getting there slowly.
Today is Saturday and I decided to sleep in 2 hours and got up at 7, I STILL ate breakfast and exercised. In fact, I did 2 miles instead of just 1! :) The plan is to (for now) keep my get up time at 5, maybe sleep in some on Saturday and Sundays AND, I don't exercise on Sundays, that's my one day of rest and I plan on doing the 2 mile video one day/week while doing the 1 mile the other days and eventually work up to doing 2 miles every day.
Anyway, I am rambling now, but I have gained alot of confidence from this. Soon after I decided to start staying up on my own, I read something I shared on here about layers of behavioral change and how it's about becoming the person you want to be or viewing yourself a certain way and that has helped to cement what I am doing! I have always been a night owl, but now, I am becoming a morning person. In fact, somewhere during the getting up at 5:30 I started to LIKE being up in the mornings. I was shocked on Thursday, it was a day off, I did not take a nap and I going all day long, busy, busy, busy, BUT, I felt like I was alive, and ABLE and I wasn't wishing I had the day to just relax, I was excited to be able to be so busy and still feel alert and present.
I have also noticed that there is more time in my day and am looking at doing some projects I have put off for years. Of course, when I sub all day and work all night, the energy and time will be sucked away, but you usually do not sub EVERY day and I will have some days off from DGM.
You know, it seems that things have changed suddenly for me, and it really seems/feels like lasting change. However, I don't think it was really all that sudden. I think it was years in the making, all the times of trying and failing and learning and trying again and listening to different viewpoints and then suddenly, it took root, like reading the bible, the same passage many times and then one day, it changed your whole way of thinking. It was never giving up hope for change. I gave up on me a few times in the process, but I held on to that sliver of hope that one day it would come to fruition. Everything isn't how I want it, and I have fears that I will let this newfound routine that feels like freedom slip away from me, but I keep thinking about how far I have come, about my successes and how much farther I will be NEXT month!
I truly feel like the sleep has been wiped from my eyes and I am awake for the first time in a LONG time. I will admit, that when the alarm goes off, I often want to go back to bed, but I just say, "Come on Shan, you can do this!" I remind myself that it does not take that long, and then I can have a reward, like the PC or a cup of coffee, or talking to my friend Susie or whatever and by the time I talk through all of that, i have used the bathroom , put on the clothes I laid out the night before and am putting on my shoes, well, i might as well stay up and do it at that point, right?
I hope this was not too long and that is was halfway logical to read, haha!
Hugs to all,
P.S. I have noticed that since I started exercising, I am eating better and I like feeling good, so I am eating to FEEL better MORE than eating to lose, how crazy is that??
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Well, I have done everything I can do in order to start substitute teaching. All we are waiting on now is my background check to come back. I've turned in all the papers, I've even gotten my Statement of Eligibility to teach back in the mail and turned in, etc... Gotten in the training, and once the background check comes back, I SHOULD be added to the list right away! I am a little impatient as I am excited to get started! :)
I was reminded of another job I had heard about before, but did not know much about. It is through AmeriCorps and it is called "A-Team". Basically, they go in the schools and work in reading and math intervention with students at risk. It's not in my local school district, but in one about 30-45 or so minutes away. Many people who are teachers live in this county and drive to that one to work and I had planned on applying for a teaching job there at some point anyway! Anyway, I contacted a person I knew who had done the job before and got some contact information and found out that while all the positions are filled at this point, there is a chance that they will receive more funding (should find out this week sometime) and there would be some positions open up in the county I spoke of. There are several benefits to this job and would definitely get my foot in the door in the school I would be assigned to. I went ahead and applied and am waiting to hear back from them about whether or not they get the funding...
I am not sure the job would be best for me if I don't get full-time, BUT, I am leaving it in God's hands! He knows what is best for me at this time and if even working part-time would open the door to full-time next year or possibly even a teaching job. Perhaps, God knows it would be best for me to simply sub this year at my local school district, like I have applied to do...
Morning routine is still shaky right now. Getting up at 5am has really affected me this week and it seems it is all I can do to stay awake most of the day! HOWEVER, I was off work yesterday and today and had no outside obligations or much of anything I had to commit to doing, so that makes it harder. Hubby helped me out some yesterday by getting me up and helping me do chores around the house. Still yet, I have taken a morning nap both days and so far, all I get done is getting up, exercising and eating breakfast...
I'm not giving up, I struggled when I moved it from 6 to 5:30 and then I was getting used to it and decided I needed to add more to it, but now, I am "getting used to it" again, so gonna do what I can, but not stress over what I am NOT doing... It will come with time and once I start subbing, etc... I will kind of be forced to move the routine along a little bit! :) Whatever I can do now to get the routine going, will just help me when the time comes!
I went ahead and turned in my new availability hours at work starting next Monday. That way, if the background check comes in soon I will be able to accept jobs right away and if it takes a little longer, then, I will have it all set up at work and ready to go!
I was turning it in at work and the manager I gave it to, asked if I was sure, because my hours might be cut and subbing was not guaranteed. Well, I feel at peace with it right now... I felt led to start subbing again and I believe that God is going to take care of the whole situation and help me do what is best for me and my family. Besides, if he works me my available hours, I will still get almost as many or even as much as I'm getting right now! Here are my available hours I gave him:
Monday: 4-10 pm
Tuesday: 4-10 pm
Thursday: 4-10 pm
Friday: 4-10 pm
Sunday: 1-6 pm
Without Saturdays, that gives me 29 hours, just what I have listed and he will most likely work me a full shift on Saturdays anyway and give me another day off. I haven't mentioned the AmeriCorps job at work, because I have no idea yet if it's a possibility or not! They might not even get the funding!
Friday, September 13, 2013
My morning routine is not quite going as planned... I am not beating myself up, just trying to think of way to tweak it to work better, OR to do something differently so that I actually DO it! I get through getting up, getting dressed, working out and eating breakfast. That is where it all falls apart. I sit down to eat and drink coffee and instead of spending time with God, I end up getting on the computer instead. I tell myself I will only be a minute and that turns in to two hours or more. Either, I need to sit somewhere else to eat, drink coffee and spend time with God OR, I need to set a time limit for computer and FOLLOW it.
I THINK I will try this... I will go to computer long enough to put on some worship music and then move to another seat in the house to eat, drink coffee, and spend time with God.
We'll see how it works... part of it is just being disciplined enough...
OH... and I was hungry before i worked out this morning... what's up with that? I still worked out first, but wondering which is best??
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Well, as some of you know, I have been getting up earlier to get in some kind of routine. So far, I am getting up BY 5:30, immediately getting dressed, fixing the coffee pot and then doing my WATP video to walk one mile. Then, I get my cup of coffee, sit down and that's it. By the time I catch up on spark and facebook, I am sleepy and ready to go back to sleep! So, I have been taking a nap the last three days. I haven't really been eating breakfast and am wondering if that is part of my problem... however, I want to work out BEFORE eating because if I stop long enough to eat, I might not get back up to workout. So, I looked up how quickly you should eat breakfast after getting up in the am and this is the answer I found...
"Breakfast jump-starts your metabolism in the morning, so eating soon after you wake up can raise your energy level right away and encourage you to be more active throughout the morning and into the afternoon. Your blood sugar levels are naturally low when you wake, so eating within about 60 minutes of getting up can help prevent a complete blood sugar crash. If you wait until almost lunchtime to eat, however, your energy may be dragging and you could end up overeating during the first meal of the day."
Read more: www.livestrong.com/article/445916-wh
So, I would be tempted to jump in shower after my walk, BUT... I think, for now, breakfast should be my next step to make sure that I am eating within 60 minutes of getting up.
I was trying to take babysteps in this routine thing in order to not burn out or get overwhelmed or whatever, but I am feeling "unaccomplished", so I NEED more than just getting up and exercising, because then I just sit down and procrastinate everything until I am too tired to do it. I THINK I am experiencing those "sugar crashes".
SO, I pledge not to beat myself up if the routine I am creating right now does not work for me! Instead, I will evaluate and go from there. Besides, when I start subbing, it might need to be tweaked anyway! :)
Here is what I propose for the next few mornings to see if it might work better for me:
~ Get up no later than 5:30, but earlier is fine if I wake up on my own (like I did this morning)... I will set alarm for 5 or 5:15 starting Monday.
~ Get dressed to work out
~ Make sure coffee pot is on brewing
~ WATP (about 15 min)
~ Fix and eat breakfast (normal size servings and TRY for protein)! - drink coffee while eating and spend time with God
~ Shower and dress appropriately for the day (work/home/school)
~ Computer break! - facebook and sparkpeople
~ Go through any mail from the day before if needed, fill out forms, paperwork, etc.. right then
~ If home and no appointments, pick at least one chore to do
~ Check off list and re-evaluate
That's all I can think of right now... let's see how it works!
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
I got this recipe from a friend who shared it on FB, here's the recipe:
1 bag of frozen tortellini
1 small bag of fresh spinach
2 cans of italian style diced tomatoes
1 box or 4 cups or vegetable broth
1 block of cream cheese
put all ingredients in crockpot, chunking up the cream cheese. Cook on low for 5-6 hrs
I bought cheese tortellini, doubled the recipe, used one large bag of spinach, instead of two small bags AND I added 2 14 oz. package of polish kielbasa! Keep in mind, that when i doubled the recipe, it would not fit in my 6 quart crockpot and has to put it in my huge roasting pan. I put it on 400 degrees for about 15 minutes to get pan hot and wilt the spinach a little. Then turned it down to 200, where it's been the rest of the time.
Here is what it looked like by the time i got it all mixed up and JUST had turned down to 200 degrees.
Next is how it looked about 2 or so hours later:
This is what it looks like now...
I haven't tasted it yet, but I want to soooo bad! I keep thinking that the cream cheese will melt and become creamier, BUT... who knows. I did not think to add any seasonings as there was basil, oregano and stuff in the diced tomatoes....
Does it look done to you??
Update: After tasting it, I agree with Barb. next time I will add tomatoes with chili's or rotel to add some spiciness and some Italian sausage! Believe it or not though, I did not add any salt, even in my own bowl, I guess the chicken broth and kielbasa made it salty enough.
Maybe next time, I will do the calories, but I already threw all the packaging away and I don't want to measure it out cup by cup to figure out the servings...
Susie also made it to today, she used one can rotel and one can cheap version of tomatoes and chilies and added a bag of frozen shrimp. She wants to try with HOT italian sausage next time, but loves it this time too. She said hers tasted alot like clam chowder. Both are more like a stew or soup... Oh yeah, she used frozen spinach. Both her hubby and mine said it would be good with rolls. :)
I MIGHT try it with low-sodium broth and lower fat cream cheese next time... not sure.
Give it a try and put your own spin to it, let me know how it turns out!
Oh yeah, here's a pic of how Susie's turned out...
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