Thursday, September 10, 2009
I was really busy this morning and was pushing a fast deadline. I thought I would not have time to eat, so decided I would grab a coffee and a donut on my way past the kitchen. After finishing a work out, I went for the donut, got distracted by a pet kitty, then proceeded to make my breakfast. Before I realize what I had done, I was eating a bowl of Wheaties cereal. I kind of missed the chocolate donut.
Seriously, I felt good about, when not thinking on it, choosing breakfast cereal over the donut.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
Yesterday I smoked too much in the morning. It is a habit with me and I thought I cured myself. I was wrong. It was actually silly as I seemed to have no drive to not smoke. then something odd happened. My DRIVE kicked in and I noticed how many cigarettes I smoked. Smoking cigarettes, like consuming calories, is not something you can undo once done. Unlike calories, I cannot run a few extra miles on the elliptical to burn off the guilt. Instead, I calculated the minutes that remained in the day and space my cigarettes to keep close to my goal count. It worked, I ended the day by meeting my goal count and exceeding my average minutes between cigarettes. I figured with all the work I had to put into making up the differences in the time that I wouldn't do that again.
I did. I did the same thing this day. Smoked too much too often in the morning and spent the rest of the day making up the difference. As in yesterday, I managed to make the goal again, but...WHY do I keep doing this?
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Step 5. Take the mystery out of staying motivated. (Mind Over Body (10-Step Program)
1. True or False: My motivation seems to depend on what the scale (or tape measure, fit of my clothes, etc.) says. I feel motivated when I see results, but unmotivated when I donít. SCORE (1-10): False __4___ I rated this a four because my motivation does not depend on results; however, how I feel about the results can affect my motivation. (If I am not doing well and I fell okay with that, I an still motivated to continue toward the goal.)
2. True or False: I feel like I am in a constant battle with myself. In my ďnormalĒ state, I want to eat whatever I like, whenever I want it, and/or my body just naturally gravitates towards the couch. Itís very hard to make myself do what I know I need to do. SCORE (1-10): False __6___ I do not feel a constant battle, but some days it is more difficult to get started than on others.
3. True or False: I really want to eat healthy and exercise most of the time, but I just canít seem to resist the temptations that I run into most days. SCORE (1-10): False __1___ I have not problems with resisting temptations; because I usually don't resist. I find that resisting causes a conflict that may turn into a battle of wills. Instead, I think about how the activity will affect my goals and moved forward from there. (This statement does not pertain to quitting smoking, I do resist and distract for that issue.)
4. True or False: I think I would do much better if I had more control over my life and my time. There are just so many demands on me that I canít fit exercise and healthy meals into my day as often as I want to. SCORE (1-10): False __2___ I marked this one false only because the second sentence did not fit.
5. True or False: I do well for a few hours (or days or weeks), but then I have a bad time and things really go downhill. All I see is what I did wrong, not all the things I did well. I get flooded with negative feelings, and just want to give up. SCORE (1-10): False __7___ This one was answered as false only for the second sentence. I tend to look at what worked and reformulate the plan from that vantage. Previous attempts (success and failures) strongly affect future results.
Interpret Your Results: Identifying Problems & Solutions:
I have some inaccurate views about what motivation means and feels like. I figured that being motivated meant that I wanted to do it, I felt excited about doing it. "Your motivation will be much stronger and consistent when you focus on making conscious choices about what you can do consistently to meet all of your needs and desires."
"you probably struggle with some strong either/or and all-or-nothing thought patterns, as well as an overdose of perfectionism." Yup. That overdose of perfectionism is a killer for me. The good news: I have learned to turn things that go less than perfect into a study for future process. It works best that way because I do not see the "wrongs" as failure; I see them as a discovery.
Take the Quiz yourself:
Sunday, August 16, 2009
The last two days I have done unreasonably well on cutting back on my smoking cigarettes. This day it seems to be a little more difficult to maintain my goal, but it's still working.
I find myself expecting to fall away from my current success. Why?
I think about it and only find that it seemed too easy. Or, maybe the nicotine is calling me. Either way, I can only imagine it is going to be more difficult from here. If I continue to think that this good streak is not going to last, it probably won't. I need a distraction.
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