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Still feeling inadequate

Sunday, February 06, 2011

I went out with friends today, and I got a lot of compliments about my weight loss and how I am doing. I am still feeling inadequate though, like I am still not beautiful or pretty enough and that I don't have what guys are looking for or what society considers beauty. People today are so influenced by society that its hard to resist the feeling of being not good enough. Even with my spirtual relationship and my closeness with GOD it's not enough to help me get confidence. I guess I mainly jealous of "thick" girls because they get the attention of men period. Regardless of ethnicity, nobody wants the fat girl and nobody wants the skinny girl with no shape.... I am not giving up on my diet goals but I just wish I knew what to do about this self-esteem issue.

People are sick of me talking about it. I am sick of talking about it, but some days I feel like I am nothing compared to what is out there. I know every girl has her issue, and I am special for a reason. However I would like to feel wanted or at least admired. I feel like I fall into the background so much and I am washed out by all the other girls who are media look a likes. A lot of the times I feel like crying because I start thinking about how I am not like other girls, and even though I shouldn't compare myself to anybody its hard to accept myself sometime.... I just wish I could love myself for who I am.

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IAMCHANGE 2/6/2011 3:34PM

    Well self-esteem issue are so hard and we make it harder because we feel everything.Just as you beat up on yourself it takes one day at a time to stop but it really help to hear from other out here. It is easier to give love than to take in love with questioning what they real meant. We one learn to take other by the words they say we love to love our body more.

Keep up your hard work.

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SEXYMAMA201 2/6/2011 2:10PM

    I know............ all of these comments are helpful I just had to vent that out last night because women no matter what... are self-conscious about something. I mean its one of those things that I know my beauty aspects (eyes, hair, nice legs, no cellulite nice boobs) but on the flip side you see women with other aspects and it seems that men out there can't think for themselves like women do.... @ chaostheory35 yeah I believe there are some men who love large women or skinny women whatever.... but at the same time there are GROWN MEN succumbing to the pressures of society and that's what bugs me. Why do I have to change myself to get respect when men do nothing :( booooooooooooo emoticon

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EUPHRATES 2/6/2011 6:06AM

    I say this all the time - it bears repeating though.
"Comparison is the thief of joy"


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QUEEN_REINA 2/6/2011 4:08AM

    I was going through some of what you are..really low confidence and just not loving myself. What I did that helped a lot was
1) switch ALL of my online names and persona's to confidence building names ("Queen Reina", "Beautiful Reina" etc)
2) changed all of my pass words to things that mean I love myself in someway
3) spend just a measly 5 minutes each day writing affirmations and positive stuff about myself.

It took about 3 months of doing all this stuff everyday but my confidence is higher than it has ever been. I think we spend so much time telling ourselves negative stuff that we finally believe it. Spend a little time telling yourself positive stuff--it takes a little while to soak in and replace the bad stuff, but it has helped me.

You are WAY worth the effort!

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CHAOSTHEORY635 2/6/2011 3:41AM

    The funny thing is, if you talk to a group of guys (and you can get them to be open and honest about it...not easy!)...they're all attracted to different types of women! No matter what your body type is--no matter how fat or thin--SOMEONE out there thinks it's hot! And whoever that someone is...they're not going to be attracted to insecurity.

So just go out into the world with confidence and be yourself! Focus on getting what YOU want, and the rest will fall into place :) (Easier said than done, I know. Too much pressure on us girls!)

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Wendy's made it in

Friday, February 04, 2011

So... as you guys know I was being strict on myself when it came to fast food. Technically I still am but I found a way to incorporate it in and I am happy that this feeling of deprivation is gone. I was always wondering why I had to do such a sacrifice when eating right and better when it came to dieting. Its because I was eating wrong 3X a day and as a college student that was hard not to do when fast food is all in your face. However giving yourself a little wiggle room makes for less of a backslide. Personally I find when I eat something a little out of my range like some Wendy's or whatever that the rest of day I want to eat healthy, thus giving me more balance. Not advocating you should eat Wendy's every day because that would be horrible. However I found Deprivation is not the key. You will flip out about Bananas and Oranges less when you give yourself some treats :)

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SEXYMAMA201 2/4/2011 9:02PM

    Yeah and even though spark people does not have the nutrition info for everything the wendy's site gives it and basically if you eat something like that you want to work in a wholesome meal for the rest of the day emoticon

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JILLTBNAGART 2/4/2011 12:20PM

    I find Wendy's to be my go to place when I need fast food. They are close to my work which is my #1 reason. Glad you found them to be acceptable for your diet too!

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Febuary Here I Come

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

So this month got off to a rocky start with my eating.... I tried to give myself some wiggle room and go to a dunkin donuts and I even though I didn't go over my carbs some of my choices today were poor. FEAR NOT I am not discouraged actually I am happy... I had been so strict on myself that eating something a little bad didn't make me feel bad at all. I just need to watch what I eat, and be careful can't do dunkin donuts that much any more or better yet I need to plan it and be sure that all my other meals even out. I am just happy I am coming to terms with my eating because I was beginning to get frustrated with not being able to eat certain foods but now that I know certain things about my diet and how it should go... I feel better like a weight is lifted. When started this on january 3rd I was not sure if I could do it now I know I can

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SEXYMAMA201 2/4/2011 10:56AM

    Yeah... My next blog is going about my Wendy's stay tuned

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MORRIS1989 2/2/2011 8:09PM

    Please Dunkin Donuts that's a no no only if you have a bagel and tea. You are on the right track but, I love Dunkin Donuts too I do it once a week see you don't have to give up your favorite foods just watch your portion size. emoticon

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Its an awesome day....

Monday, January 31, 2011

In a few days I will have been using spark people consistently for a month now and I am happy to say I see the changes in not only my body, but my overall happiness and health. I am way more energized and happier most of the time. Most of my foods I don't even crave anymore and I have adapted a whole new way of eating. I am truly convinced that I am losing weight without the scale telling me so. I am wearing old clothes again and they fit my body right. Its just so amazing and heartfelt. I quit the first time because I didn't want to give up my foods but now that I am committed to this I am not going to lie to myself and I am going to give it all I have to be the person I want to be in the next couple of months. Hopefully by my birthday I will be able to get a sexy dress I love and feel like I am on top of the world

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SEXYMAMA201 2/4/2011 10:53AM

    My Birthday Is March 28th and I will be 23 I am soooo excited for it

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MORRIS1989 2/2/2011 8:03PM

    Glad you sound better since the last time you blog. You sound more determined and your attitude sounds better good for you. This is not an easy journey but, it can be done with time, planning and patience. When is your birthday?


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Its a new dawn Its a new day okayyyyy Jennifer we get it

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Hey spark people family.... I wanted to write a more lighthearted blog today and let everybody know I am seeing the changes in my body. It feels so good. I do get on the scale, but with everything women in general go through I look for the results. I am seeing them in my legs especially and arms and the double chin is finally starting to go away (yayyyyyyy). I need to work on strength training so I can get this stomach flat and be ready for the summer, maybe I will have the courage to wear a bathing suit lol ... not quite sure though. I am just so happy to be living my life... and honestly spark family I only have GOD TO THANK... some people may not be religious and thats fine but I thank him for granting me so much peace contentment and joy and patience to get through this lifestyle change :) HAPPY SATURDAY

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SEXYMAMA201 1/29/2011 2:47PM

    Thanks :)

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