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On an evening where most spend it going out or being with crowds of friends... I find myself alone at home with my girls. But you know what?! That's ok... I have my angels with me and that is a gift in itself! 
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PERSISTENT_GIRL
1/5/2010 5:19PM
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and i wish i had stayed home, all nice and cozy and quiet with family... although we think the grass is greener sometimes its not.. too much drama with goign out ;) Keep postitive! xo
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SCHATZI4MO
1/3/2010 3:23AM
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happy new year helene ... i spent a quiet evening at home too with just the DH & DD, it was wonderful. hugs ~ april
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SI1V3RBACK
1/2/2010 10:56AM
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We have spent may a quite evening at home with the kids and loved every minute of it. Of course now the kids are out partying so Mom and Dad have to go find something to do  Have a wonderful start to the new year!! It is going to be a great one for you!! Report Inappropriate Comment |
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MEADSBAY
12/31/2009 11:19PM
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I'm happily at home tonight!  
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3BEACHLOVERS
12/31/2009 10:40PM
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Loved your Spark Page...I LOVE the beach! Happy New Year! We all have ALOT to be thankful for! 
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THEQUEENBEE333
12/31/2009 10:26PM
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Great job on focusing on the positive. I need to do that more. HAPPY NEW YEAR! Have a prosperous and healthy 2010!
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NHGRL68
12/31/2009 5:34PM
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I'm home too:-) Just having a quiet day and night. Let's all make it a GREAT year:-)  ~Melissa~ Report Inappropriate Comment |
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DOOBRIE
12/31/2009 5:27PM
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I'm staying home with you too! A very happy New Year to you Helene. I'm sure we'll make 2010 great for both of us! Doobs x Report Inappropriate Comment |
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SHRIMPCHIC
12/31/2009 4:51PM
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I'm staying home tonight to.:o) Happy New Years!!!!
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Well here we are only 2 days left of 2009. It's truly been an amazing year and I've made great strides and although I am ending the year in 170Ville, I move forward from here.
I got a little 'poke' from my cousin about my saying how proud of I was of achieving the motivator status for positive attitude and she commented "Yeah, now all you have to do is lose weight LOL" ... these kind of comments still bother me, but I don't hold on. Even though it ended with a LOL, it still feels like a stab like saying ya so big deal you got voted most positive on a weight loss site but you haven't lost any weight.
But what have I lost? A lot of the old attitude I used to have. The old negative self-talk and to me that is worth it's weight in GOLD! This cousin of mine is slim, attractive, beautiful, so her comment does bother me, but I'm not going to let it deter me from my path of action. If anything it makes me want to prove her wrong. I replied to her comment to say that now that other matters in my life were taken care of I can and will lose the weight.
From the inside out refers to dealing with the things that bother us inside, the hurt, the pain, and letting go of those things in order to be able to focus on letting go of the habits that led us to gaining weight. For me, food was used as a comfort and I eat when I'm stressed. No wonder all of my weight is carried mostly in the belly area.
I feel that I am now in a great place now, seeing the light at the end of the tunnel with my financial difficulties and a more settled life in my new home town. I've gotten rid of some old 'bad' habits and have to work on the new GOOD ones. I know that I need to instill a new path of action, such as going out to do some form of activity for two reasons: 1. because my home gym time is not enough and 2. it will allow me to expand my circle of friends to meeting people who have the same goals in mind - being healthy. I could not consider this before now because of financial constraints but come January 20th that changes!
For the first part of January, I am committing to getting back to my morning workout routine of minimal 20mins of activity and hopefully incorporate some evening activity as well.
I have not been working out the past couple of weeks because of my cold and because the cats are in my workout space and I don't want to terrorize them lol. They will be going back home on Jan 4th so things will be back to normal and I'll get back to the regular routine.
The holidays will be over and a new month ahead of us! I have no regrets for 2009 as far as my journey on SP even though I am not ending in the 160's as I had been for many months throughout the year. I will get there again.
I have learned a lot this year and next year promises a new focus that will bring me further along to achieve the weight loss goals that I'm aiming for. As I said, I have worked on the inside (fixed my spirit and mind) and now it's time to get the BODY in shape!
I know I can do this because of all the supportive friends here on SP who outweigh those little pokes we get from the people in our lives around us who just don't understand.
Letting go and keeping a positive attitude is what I choose above all! So the poke from my cousin is taken in with a grin and my journalling allows me to speak to it and then forget it and move on!
Thanks SP Friends! Now on to my day!!
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DAISEYDUCK
12/31/2009 4:02PM
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Jealousy rears it's ugly head! Time and again I see this type negative attitude directed towards those of us pursuing a healthier lifestyle. It is this cowardly person's own shortcomings that causes such comments. Cutting you down lifted her up. Sad but true. Good for you for having an answer that was not a dig right back. You are the better person :) I do love your positive attitude! Have a terrific 2010! Report Inappropriate Comment |
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PERSISTENT_GIRL
12/30/2009 9:30PM
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they say misery likes company so although she is "judging" you, there are many struggles she has so she also "judges herself"... Know that you do work hard, you have lost the weight and will do so again... life is a journey and its never to late to make a U-turn which you are doing now. so forget that comment like you said and know you are also beautiful and have richness to your life that she may never had. Have a great lil night and always remember people who have never struggled with their weight truly don't understand what its all about and how its a life long process with some ups and some downs. we know all we need to know now we just need to put it in practice - and we will, we are! ;-)
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SI1V3RBACK
12/30/2009 4:55PM
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Rituals are important. Scheduling workouts, preparing for them, writing down what you will do, recording what you do, etc. It helps you keep on track but each little activity is a form of motivation. Keep that positive focus and build on those little activities that ultimately lead to workouts and your goal of leaving 170ville! Report Inappropriate Comment |
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NHGRL68
12/30/2009 4:34PM
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First off,  on becoming a SP Motivator. You touch a lot of people and truly deserve it:-) You're also a great leader. You've already accomplished a lot in your life, so I have no doubt that you can & will take off the weight. Wishing you the best in 2010. Let's dig deep and reach for what we want:-) ~Melissa~ Report Inappropriate Comment |
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ALEXSGIRL1
12/30/2009 10:44AM
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MEADSBAY
12/30/2009 10:43AM
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You cuz was way out of line. She should be sharing your joy-not pulling you down. Jealousy of some kind is often involved in such behavior. You attitude and goals coming in to the new year- new decade! - are just grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrea t, Helene. It will be your very best year ever! xoxox elizabeth
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WOODSYGIRL
12/30/2009 10:20AM
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You have EARNED your motivator status and DESERVE to feel proud. Your cousin's comment really reflects her lack of understanding what it means to be motivating. The gift of being a motivator is that you can do it NOW; there's no need to reach your goal weight first, then try to motivate people. The whole point is people take inspiration from your daily living, positive attitude, and genuine interest in their lives. Your cousin misses the point completely and that's truly a reflection of her issues, not yours. You are doing it in fabulous fashion...you are working on the internal "weights" and that's what's going to make the external weight come off. How many of us have done the complete opposite where we convince ourselves that "if we just lose weight, the rest of my life will be perfect?" Hah! What happens? The weight comes right back on because the deeper issues never got resolved. Oh no sister, not any more! You have is figured out and that's why you ARE a success now. I live by a motto that has been incredibly helpful to me in the past few years: Forgiveness means letting go of the hope that the past could have been different. It frees me from the tapes that play over and over in my mind. The next time your cousin says something like that just look her in the eye and kindly say "aw, thanks for your support". Say it with a smile and walk away. She'll know that you understood what she was 'really' trying to say. When she sees she can't hurt you on that level anymore, she'll stop. We all have weirdos in our families that just can't be geniunely happy for us. But they are so small compared to the hundreds of people who DO care and DO root us on. You are doing GREAT and 2010 WILL be a fantastic year for you!! Report Inappropriate Comment |
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NOMI_822
12/30/2009 9:55AM
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Way to go girlfriend on the attitude. It always isn't just about the weight. I too spent quite a bit of time changing my habits and my mindset. I then was able to lose the weight, you have to basically get your head in the right place. This is a lifestyle change not a diet. Diets only worry about the loss not about why's and how come we do certain things at certain times. Even on The Biggest Loser they get in the player's heads and the root of their weight gain. You keep on rockin on girl, you have the attitude that will get you to your goals, We are all here for you. And by the way, Shame on your cousin.
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KATERYN
12/30/2009 9:46AM
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Good post. I spent four months getting my mind and emotions to a good place so that I could concentrate on losing weight. I had to see a dietician to find out what I was doing wrong - and that helped a lot. I've lost almost 20 pounds in the past 2 months. I've actually been on this journey 6 months. But, I do have to report - it does get easier. The exercise - should never get easier. The diet - you get used to weighing and measuring everything. And learning what a true portion size is - and its nothing like the restuarant's give you, nor the prepackaged stuff. Keep up the good work! Sooner than you think it will all click with you! 
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HICALGAL
12/30/2009 9:29AM
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great attitude. all the best on achieving your goals and a happy and healthy new you and year!!! 
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KISHEGER
12/30/2009 8:56AM
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WTG, let it pass and don't give it much thought. You are a wonderful person and that is all that matters. You should not concern yourself with what others think or say unless it is something that you feel is helpful. I am not even sure your cousin realizes that her comment was negative; some people might just make comments without thinking of how it comes across. Sad but true! Have a great time enjoying your motivator status and know that you certainly deserve it and earned it. Be proud. , Erika
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